dreaming.parkranger

sometimes I this world I feel like I'm dreaming they/them [TSV Au Blog TSE]

[ratchet-parkranger]

speaking to the void.

my name is Ratchet. not that names matter much in this world that our heavens have forsaken us to. it's been two years since nighbreak, and a horrible two years it's been. I've recently traveled close enough to Regina to pick up some decent wifi signal, so I figured I'd do something with my time.

I'm on my own. I've accepted that, and it's failed to bother me. there's nobody to care for, and nobody to care about.

I'm here to keep myself sane. mildly sane. atleast a little bit. maybe find someone else in my situation. I don't know if there even is people to find.

may the odds be in your favour.

mod here. hi.

hi chat. call me Mach.

yes, I am officially part of the stars emerge au. kei dragged me into this. I'm pretty happy here though.

look at @face1esstrave1er for info.

ask me stuff, interact with Ratchet, I love seeing it.

we are not associated with the creators of TSV in any way

send asks for me or Ratchet I or them will answer

thank yuoooo

- mach

tags

#ratchetdreams : any post by Ratchet

#ratchetresponse : Ratchet responds to an ask

#ratchetwriting : Ratchet does a loredrop

#ratchetspeaks : Ratchet interacts with others

#machmodpost : mod posts by me

#machmodasks : asks responded to by me

[ratchet-parkranger]

Ratchet, still feeling okay? -F.T.

yeah. doesent hurt as bad anymore.

think I'm fine

but you should worry about me anyways, we just gotta keep moving

[ratchet-parkranger]

those thing really hurt

I don't even know what they are

sliced me up though. surprised I didn't lose more blood than I did.

[ratchet-parkranger]

hey guys sorry I'm like tottaly slacking off I've been kinda busy and I hope that's okay

gonna try to force myself back into the tsv/tse hyperfixation rq

- mach

[face1esstrave1er]

Back in my element. I personally feel amazing, think mouse is slightly disturbed though. Couldnt handle my badassery. @ratchet-parkranger You feelin okay? Been a bit quiet since the last strobe encounter.

-F.T.

[ratchet-parkranger]

just thinking about some stuff, is all.

don't worry about it.

[drumsolo77]

anyone fw the sun vanished arg👀👀👀please

[ratchet-parkranger]

maaaaaybe

[face1esstrave1er]

Getting back into my routine feels amazing. I have my phone back, im back to walking in the city and shooting aliens in the face, I feel better than ever. Leg is still fucked up, and I have a random mouse that follows me around now, but I feel so much calmer. My mind is so much clearer again. -F.T.

[ratchet-parkranger]

I'm not some "random". I saved your life.

but I'm glad you're happy again

[ratchet-parkranger]

Right. Sorry, yeah. That was... an omnious message. So sorry. Just very surprised! Hello! Most people call me Static, but my real name's Charlie. Either is fine, I really dont mind, I kinda dont understand our group's "leave your names behind in the old world" thing. I like my name, I think- Anyway, sorry. Introducing myself. Im a friend of Travelers, I used to know them before... a lot of stuff that happened, actually. Uhm, maybe they've mentioned me?

a friend of trav's, huh? well it's nice to see someone they know is alive.

I don't think I've heard them mention you.

I'll ask them though.

[ratchet-parkranger]

their reaction was... weird.

they did say good things about you, though.

traveler is happy to see you're alive.

[therealcharliehorse]

Jeez, you dont know how happy that makes me! We are all so happy hes okay too. We have been looking for them, we always check for their markings and trails they used to leave in every town we visit, but we haven't found anything. I guess they stopped after they left, maybe... Vulture thought he was dead. I always held out hope, and A- Er, Warden, always does too. How are you both doing? How is Trav, are you both safe and okay?

[ratchet-parkranger]

well, I've been moving them around the city scraping up any supplies we can.

not helped by the fact they broke their leg fighting strobes, but what do ya know.

atleast were not dead, right?

[ratchet-parkranger]

Right. Sorry, yeah. That was... an omnious message. So sorry. Just very surprised! Hello! Most people call me Static, but my real name's Charlie. Either is fine, I really dont mind, I kinda dont understand our group's "leave your names behind in the old world" thing. I like my name, I think- Anyway, sorry. Introducing myself. Im a friend of Travelers, I used to know them before... a lot of stuff that happened, actually. Uhm, maybe they've mentioned me?

a friend of trav's, huh? well it's nice to see someone they know is alive.

I don't think I've heard them mention you.

I'll ask them though.

[ratchet-parkranger]

their reaction was... weird.

they did say good things about you, though.

traveler is happy to see you're alive.

[ratchet-parkranger]

Right. Sorry, yeah. That was... an omnious message. So sorry. Just very surprised! Hello! Most people call me Static, but my real name's Charlie. Either is fine, I really dont mind, I kinda dont understand our group's "leave your names behind in the old world" thing. I like my name, I think- Anyway, sorry. Introducing myself. Im a friend of Travelers, I used to know them before... a lot of stuff that happened, actually. Uhm, maybe they've mentioned me?

a friend of trav's, huh? well it's nice to see someone they know is alive.

I don't think I've heard them mention you.

I'll ask them though.

[ratchet-parkranger]

Oh my god. They're alive.

who's alive?

are you alright?

[ratchet-parkranger]

Checking in, how are you and your friend?

were alright. moving between places in the city.

I feel like shit though. I got water of my own to drink so I think I'm okay. keeping the clean bottled stuff for trav.

speaking of trav, their leg is looking better from what they let me see. still can't move it though. glad the splint they made is more effective than mine.

[ratchet-parkranger]

traveler shattered their phone. don't know how, but it's completely unusable.

were on the move through the city now.

[ratchet-parkranger]

hey, mod of the blog here

this is the in universe explanation for @face1esstrave1er silence. the mod of that account, keiko, has been locked out of it and will not be able to talk for about a week

I will be subbing in to drive rat and travs story as they continue for the next 6 days

anyways that's all love u guys

-mach

[ratchet-parkranger]

traveler shattered their phone. don't know how, but it's completely unusable.

were on the move through the city now.

[ratchet-parkranger]

note: do not give traveler rat poison. no matter what they say

[ratchet-parkranger]

do you feel guilty for what you did?

do you feel remorse?

do you deserve forgiveness?

why do you still care about them?

why do you torment me

such the embodiment of my own thoughts you are

so yes. I do feel guilty for what I did. I could've handled it better. I could've said something different. I didn't have to be so condescending, so... manipulative. I didn't want to be so hurtful. maybe then I could make someone stay.

remorse is the only thing I feel. I hear traveler crying a room away and I can't pull myself off of the floor to help them. I can't tell them it's okay and I can't tell them I'm not leaving and that I'm sorry. I'm too absorbed in my own pity that I can't help the only friend I have in this hell hole.

I don't like this question. does anyone truly deserve forgiveness? if you have wronged someone, if you let someone down, if you left someone to die, is forgiveness something you can really achieve? is it a real feeling? is it something to give someone, or a state of conscience? is it all just to cope with your mistakes?

I still care about them because they're the only thing I have left. I don't like to think about what would happen if they left, or I left. trav would be.... fine. they can handle themselves. I don't think I could stop myself from walking into city limits and looking directly into one of the ugly faces of the strobelights and waiting for it to turn me into a mindless minion of their purpose.

so thank you, THANK YOU, for making me bring my feelings to light.

I hate you.

[ahuihousun]

Hey, me and Ratchet are around where you are. Stay safe. Maybe we can meet up soon. -📷 F.T.

Yo yo! I’d love to stop by and maybe share some stuff I’ve been able to gather.

You guys keep safe as well, I heard you’ve been through some tough stuff recently so hopefully you guys are hunkered and comfortable for the most part.

Shaka!🤙

[face1esstrave1er]

Nah, it wasnt as bad as Ratchet makes it seem. Shit like this happens all the time in the apocalypse. We should meet up before I split off from Ratchet again. Talk a bit and share some advice before we all go our own ways. After I rest a bit more, that is. -📷 F.T.

[ratchet-parkranger]

wait- what do you mean "split off"?

you're leaving?? we never talked about this.

[face1esstrave1er]

I figured that was obvious. You know I travel on my own, Ratchet. I dont stay with groups anymore. When did we talk about me staying with you? -📷 F.T.

[ratchet-parkranger]

we never talked about staying, but I thought we would just... stay. it's safer together.

where did you get yourself traveling alone, traveler?

a broken leg, a broken nose, on the brink of death boarded inside a house that strobelights were circling like sharks.

you're lucky that you're even alive.