anger and fear and violence and terror and i am scared i am scared most of all beyond all else and my violence comes fromnthis from how imagining the things i could do to my abuser make me feel in control makes me feel like i do have control and this impending feeling of something terrible could go away i could be safe again the people i love could be safe we could all be safe frlm abuse frkm abusers from everything wrong but i am so scared i can feel it encroaching creeping clawing its way slowly in and i cannot stop it i am helpless i am scared i am unable to orotect or stop and i need to be safe i need ro be safe i need to be safe please protect me i am scared and i want to hurt the one who hurt me i want to taste blood like she did but so so much worse























