Group project with a vampire
Godric X reader
Part 01 of 05
Rating: M
Themes: Typical vampires themes, blood drinking, IWTV references.
Summary
Manon Bell has always been drawn to vampires in theory: the forbidden desire, the beautiful danger, the monster close enough to hurt you and human enough to make you want it anyway.
Then she meets Godric in her Abnormal Psychology night class.
He is quiet, beautiful, and far too composed for a college student. When theyâre paired for a project on why humans are attracted to figures of fear, Manon thinks sheâs found the perfect excuse to talk about gothic novels, folklore and everything people are not supposed to want.
But Godric is not interested in vampires as a metaphor.
Part 01 : Fear as desire
Word count: 5,504 words
Godric only took night classes.
It was the first thing I noticed about him.
Not because I was watching him. Not at first. Plenty of students took night classes at the University of Dallas: people with day jobs, single parents, insomniacs, the kind of exhausted overachevers who lived on vending-machine coffee and spite.
But Godric never looked like he was sleepy in class.
He arrived after sunset with no coffee, no backpack, and no visible resentment toward the hour. He sat in the back row with his hands folded on the desk and listened quietly.
Most students in this class were avid note takers, yet Godric never wrote anything down. Sometimes I wondered if he had an eidetic memory.
I took my usual seat at the back of the class, tucked into the farthest corner where the fluorescent glare felt a little less agressive. Iâd always had the unfortunate habit of nodding off during lecturesâmy brain choosing sleep the moment a voice settled into that steady, explanatory rhythmâand if I sat up front, it felt like I was dozing *at* the teacher, not just drifting. Back here, I could sag into my hoodie, blink myself awake when I caught it happening, and do it without guilt.
Iâd picked this class mostly because it was the only one that fit my schedule, but the title had helped sell me: âAbnormal Psychology.â It sounded edgy and a little dangerous, like weâd be dissecting serial killers and freaky stuff instead of memorizing terminology. Even at night, it seemed like the kind of subject that might keep me alertâor at least give my half-asleep brain something interesting to hold onto.
Professor Hale slipped in a few minutes late. The door clicked softly behind her, but the fluorescent lights still seemed to brighten when she arrivedâhair neatly pinned back, leather bag hugged to her side, a faint flush on her cheeks like sheâd speed-walked across campus.
âIâm sorry,â she said, not breathless exactly, just a little tight around the edges. She kept her smile anywayâtoo perky for the hour, too determined to sound awakeâand swept her gaze over the room like she was taking attendance with her eyes.
She set her things on the desk with careful quiet, straightened a stack of papers that didnât need straightening, then clapped her hands once, lightly. âAlright,â she chirped, brighter than the students deserved at night, âletâs get started.â
âFear and attraction are closer cousins than most people like to admit,â Professor Hale said, writing âarousalâ across the board with a piece of chalk.
A few students snickered.
âNot that kind of arousal,â she said without turning around. âPhysiological arousal. Elevated heart rate, shallow breathing, heightened attention. The body is not always precise in naming what it wants you to survive.â
I risked a glance in Godricâs direction. He wasnât laughing or snickering. He was focused on the lecture, serious, like we were discussing the reproductive lives of tapeworms or something.
Professor Hale wrote another word beneath arousal.
PREDATORS.
The chalk squeaked on the last letter.
That got a little more attention. A few heads lifted. Someone near the front stopped doodling in the margin of their notebook.
âNow,â Professor Hale said, dusting her fingers together, âthis is where things become interesting. In the animal kingdom, fear is usually practical. Efficient. An animal encounters a predator, and the body does exactly what it was designed to do. It runs, hides, freezes, fights, or dies trying.â
She turned back to us, her smile sharpening like sheâd finally reached the part of the lecture sheâd been waiting for.
âHumans, however, are inconvenient.â
A few people laughed.
âWe seek fear out. We pay money for horror movies. We ride roller coasters. We go to haunted houses even though we know someone is going to jump out at us with a chainsaw. We read true crime before bed and then wonder why we canât sleep. We become fascinated by serial killers, ghosts, demons, vampiresââ
My pen stilled on the page.
ââall the things that, if encountered in real life, should send us running in the opposite direction.â
I tried very hard not to look at Godric that time.
I failed.
He sat perfectly still, hands folded, gaze fixed on Professor Hale with the same grave attention as before.
Which was disappointing.
Not that I wanted him to react. Obviously. That would have been weird.
But still.
âFiction gives us a controlled environment for fear,â Professor Hale continued. âThatâs important. Control changes the experience. A horror movie cannot actually kill you. A haunted house employee cannot actually dismember you. A roller coaster is frightening but youâre not actually falling. Your mind knows you are strapped in. Your body disagrees.â
She tapped the chalk lightly against the board.
âSo the question becomes: why do we enjoy it?â
The room went quiet in that particular classroom wayânot real silence, just the sound of twenty exhausted people trying to decide whether the question was rhetorical.
Professor Hale waited.
No one answered.
I lowered my eyes to my notebook and pretended to be deeply occupied with the word *arousal*, which I had underlined twice for reasons that were already embarrassing.
âSomeone,â Professor Hale prompted.
Still nothing.
My eyelids chose that exact moment to get heavy.
It wasnât my fault. Not entirely. The room was too warm, the lights were too bright, and Professor Haleâs voice had settled into that smooth, explanatory rhythm that turned my brain into wet cement. I would close my eyes for a minute.
âMissâŚ?â
I heard it distantly, the way you hear something from another room in a dream.
âMiss Bell?â
Something tapped my shoulder.
I jerked awake so hard my pen skittered off my notebook and rolled under the desk in front of me.
The guy sitting one row ahead pulled his hand back like Iâd shocked him.
âSorry,â he whispered. âShe called on you.â
For one awful second, I had no idea where I was.
Then the classroom came rushing back all at once: fluorescent lights, chalk dust, twenty faces turned in my direction, Professor Hale standing at the front of the room with one eyebrow raised.
And Godric.
Godric, two rows over, watching me with quiet, unreadable attention.
My face went hot enough to cook an egg.
Professor Hale smiled in a way that was not cruel, which somehow made it worse.
âSorry to interrupt your nap,â she said. âBut since youâve rejoined us, maybe you can help answer the question.â
A few people laughed.
Not loudly. Just enough to make me want to dissolve into the tile.
I straightened so fast my knee hit the underside of the desk.
âSorry,â I said again, because apparently that was the only word my brain had left.
Professor Haleâs smile softened by half a degree. âWhy do humans seek out fear in fiction? Horror movies, haunted houses, monsters. Whatâs the appeal?â
My mouth opened.
Nothing came out.
Fantastic.
I could feel every set of eyes in the room turn toward me.
âIâŚâ I started.
Brilliant.
A future scholar.
Professor Hale waited.
My brain, which had been asleep five seconds ago, suddenly threw every thought it had ever had about vampires, horror movies, and questionable personal interests at the wall at once.
âMaybe because it lets people get close to things theyâre not supposed to want,â I said.
The classroom went quieter.
I blinked.
Apparently that had come from me.
Professor Haleâs eyebrows lifted. âInteresting. Go on.â
Oh, God.
There was no going on. That had been the whole miracle.
But everyone was still looking, and somehow my mouth kept moving without permission.
âI mean⌠monsters in fiction arenât always just scary. Sometimes theyâre attractive because theyâre scary.â My fingers tightened around my pen. âLike vampires. In *Dracula*, the vampire is mostly this outside threat. Disease, corruption, seduction, all of that. Heâs dangerous, but heâs still something the story wants destroyed.â
I swallowed, immediately regretting how many words were leaving my mouth.
âBut then you get someone like Lestat in Anne Riceâs books, and it changes. Heâs still dangerous, obviously. Heâs vain and violent and not exactly a role model. But thatâs kind of the point. People arenât attracted to him because heâs safe. Theyâre attracted to him because he isnât. He wants too much, feels too much, takes too much. Heâs beautiful and forbidden and completely outside the rules people are supposed to live by.â
Professor Haleâs eyebrows lifted. âSo the attraction comes from the transgression?â
âMaybe,â I said, my face burning. âOr from wanting something you know youâre not supposed to want. The fact that itâs wrong is part of why it feels⌠charged.â
The classroom went quieter.
I blinked.
Apparently that had come from me.
The second the words stopped, I wanted to crawl under the desk and live there permanently.
That was the problem with being shy. People assumed silence meant I had nothing to say, when really it meant I had too much.
I stared down at my notebook and prayed no one had noticed the word vomit for what it was.
Professor Hale, unfortunately, looked delighted.
âVery good,â she said. âFear as transgression. Fear as sympathy. And, very often, fear as intimacy.â
My face went hotter.
She turned to the board and wrote:
FEAR AS DESIRE
DANGER AS INTIMACY
I risked another glance at Godric.
This time, he was looking at me.
Not staring. Nothing that obvious. His head had turned only slightly, his expression as calm and unreadable as ever.
But his eyes were on me.
I looked away immediately.
My pulse did something stupid
âThe vampire is a useful example because the violence is rarely only violence,â Professor Hale continued. âThe bite has long functioned as a symbol of intimacy, especially in eras when writing directly about sex was taboo or socially dangerous. It is penetration, exchange, surrender, contamination, pleasure, and fear collapsed into one image.â
The room had gone still in that awful way classrooms did when everyone was suddenly interested but trying not to look interested.
âWhich is what makes it dark,â she said. âThe fantasy depends on the same thing that makes it frightening: the predator is close enough to hurt you, and close enough for the harm to resemble tenderness.â
The classroom had gone still.
Even the guy who had snorted was quiet now.
Professor Hale tapped the board with the chalk.
âWhich brings us to empathy,â she said. âOr rather, the appearance of it. Many fictional predators are compelling because they seem capable of understanding human feeling. They may be dangerous, but they are not mindless. They can speak. They can negotiate. They can desire. They can, theoretically, choose restraint.â
Her gaze swept the room again.
âSo here is the question.â
She underlined PREDATORS once.
âIf a predator understands fear, understands pain, understands the vulnerability of its prey, does that make the predator less monstrous?â
No one answered right away.
I definitely wasnât going to. I had already used up my one accidental act of intelligence for the semester.
Then a quiet voice came from the back row.
âNo.â
Everyone turned.
Godric had spoken.
He hadnât raised his hand. He didnât look embarrassed about that. He simply sat there, calm and still, as though the answer had been obvious and we were all wasting time pretending it wasnât.
Professor Hale tilted her head, interested. âNo?â
Godricâs gaze stayed on her.
âUnderstanding pain does not prevent cruelty,â he said. âSometimes it makes cruelty more precise.â
The room went very still.
I felt the words move over my skin before I understood why.
Professor Haleâs smile faded into something more thoughtful. âThatâs a bleak interpretation.â
âIt is an old one,â Godric said.
A few students exchanged glances.
Professor Hale studied him for a second longer, then leaned back against her desk.
âSo in your view, empathy does not redeem the predator?â
Godric was quiet.
Not unsure. Just careful.
âEmpathy is not redemption,â he said at last. âIt is knowledge. What matters is what one chooses to do with it.â
Professor Hale nodded slowly, then turned back to the board.
âChoice,â she said, writing the word beneath the others. âGood. That may be the most important piece.â
The chalk tapped once against the board.
âFear, attraction, power, empathy, restraint. Remember those words. Theyâll matter for your group project.â
A low groan moved through the room.
There it was.
The academic jump scare.
Professor Hale smiled brightly again, back to being perky and merciless.
âYes, yes, I know. Tragic. Youâll survive. Iâm assigning partners tonight.â
I looked up as Professor Hale wrote the project question across the board.
**Choose a cultural figure associated with fear and analyze why people are simultaneously repulsed by and attracted to it.**
I copied it into my notebook slowly, partly because it sounded important and partly because my hand still hadnât recovered from the humiliation of being conscious in public.














