for the first time in forever...
there are words on a page!
Yup, I just managed to use a Frozen song to talk about my writing. I couldn’t resist because I’m that big of a nerd.
So unfortunately for anyone who has read any of my past work, it’s not tied to any of my previously published stories. Adventure of a Lifetime and my LA Harry Styles series are still on hold. I want to finish them, I swear. But trying to climb my way back into that is just a LOT, especially considering everything I’ve written for them in the last nearly 2 years, has been a struggle.
I’ve hated everything I’ve written since early 2020. Until this. And last night/early this morning I passed 10,000 words. That’s not something I’ve been capable of doing in a very, very long time. I feel so overjoyed that I haven’t completely deleted everything I’ve written in this. I actually like what I’m writing. In fact, the only edits I’ve made are to go back and add more to parts. I’m also going MUCH easier on myself. This isn’t a 10,000 word per chapter novel like so many of my other stories have been. 10,000 words in this is the start of Chapter 4 and also includes character descriptions and a timeline for a story.
I’ve set realistic expectations for myself of how much I can write, how much time I can devote to it while not completely giving up on everything else in my life. I honestly haven’t even decided if I will publish it. I know people love what I’ve written and that means SO much to me, but I am fearful of reactions if I post something new while I have two unfinished published pieces out there already. But truthfully, so far, it’s one of my favorite things based on what I’ve written and what my ideas are. It’s AU/FanFic, ya know, my realm of writing. My main character is a writer struggling with life and her work (face claim is Sophia Bush for those curious) and my main male character is an AU Sebastian Stan. I feel like I’m writing a Hallmark movie that includes a lot of snark, many many swear words and obviously the one thing all Hallmark films are missing, sex.
It is clearly still very early stages. I have two friends acting as beta readers and my Mom lets me read what I write to her. So far she also loves it. If you’re interested in beta reading, feel free to reach out. It might take a while before I feel okay sharing it. I at least need to get farther along so that I can have a NICE bubble so I’m not publishing all my finished work and then make everyone wait, especially if this wave of creativity is short lived and my writer’s block returns.
If you read all of this, thank you. If you’ve read anything I’ve ever written, thank you. I’m sorry to disappoint readers by being unable to write the way I’d like to, but I have to allow myself grace to care for myself and focus on my business. Life has been anything but easy for me the last couple of years so finding my way back to my writing feels like I’m home.
Oh and since it’s a Sebastian Stan AU let’s make the world a better place...