gone.

I remade but im leaving this blog here bcus years of posts and memories are here

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remade my tumblr y0

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two people yesterday told me that I make them want to kill themselves. two people i cared about more than anything. if that doesn't make you feel like shit then idk what does.

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since i last saw you i've been too anxious to eat or drink. my stomach feels like its flipping around everywhere and i feel like im going to be sick the whole time. I could only face things with my best friend by my side and now you're gone i feel so alone. I tried so hard to be the best friend I could be, I tried to always be there for you, and I'm still trying, but I don't feel like you want me to. I could be crying my eyes out but if you needed me i'd be there for you in a flash, but you don't even reply to a message. Im doing my best to be better but you just crush me down at every step. I'm sorry I couldn't be the person I needed to be.

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i think you're going to be the end of me.

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I want someone to hold my hand when we walk together while telling stupid stories

I want someone who calls me up out of nowhere to ask how my day was, and genuinely cares about the answer

I want someone who loves me and cares about me as much as I love and care about them

but most of all I want to be good enough for someone like that

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Got bored, became art 👌

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laughs bcus she told me that i'd end up getting hurt and she was fucking right ahahahahhaha

idk if you reaaise that i dont do it for the d i do it bcus its you

ghkjghkjfhgkjdfhgkjfg

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i cant help think everything would be different if I was pretty and thinner

i would be happier

people would like me more

i'd have more confidence

fuck this

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you can never “just be friends” with someone you fell in love with.

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I have no words..... @capnricardo

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Pixie 🎀

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Bold whats true about you

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You just learned a bit about me:

I am a cuddler.

I am a morning person. 

I am an only child.

I am currently in my pajamas.

I am currently pregnant.

I am left handed.

l am right handed.

I am ambidextrous.

I am a little shy around another gender.

I bite my nails.

I can be paranoid at times. 

I enjoy country music.

I enjoy smoothies. 

I enjoy talking on the phone.

I have a car.

I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.

I have a hidden talent. 

I have a pet.

I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” person.

I have all my grandparents. 

I have been to another country.

I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.

I have caller I.D. on my phone.

I have bathed someone.

I have changed a nappy.

I have changed a lot over the past year.

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.

I have had major/minor surgery.

I have killed another person.

I have had my hair cut within the last week.

I have mood swings.

I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

I have rejected someone before.

I like the taste of blood. 

I love Michael Jackson.

I love sleeping.

I love to shop.

I own 100 CDs or more.

I own and use a library card.

I read books for pleasure in my spare time. 

I sleep a lot during the day. 

I watch soap operas on a regular basis.

I work at a job that I enjoy.

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 

I am wearing socks.

I am tired.

I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.

I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month. 

I have/had:

Finished college.

Smoked cigarettes. 

Ridden every ride at an amusement park.

Collected something really stupid.

Gone to a concert.

Helped someone.

Spun turn tables.

Watched four movies in one night.

Been broken up with. 

Taken a college level course. 

Been in a car accident.

Been in a tornado.

Watched someone die.

Been to a funeral.

Burned yourself. 

Ran a marathon.

Your parents got divorced.

Cried yourself to sleep. 

Spent over $200 in one day. 

Cheated on someone.

Been cheated on.

Written a 10 page letter.

Had a best friend.

Lost someone you loved.

Skipped school.

Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.

Stolen books from the library. 

Been in a mental hospital.

Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.

Fired a gun.

Been in a school play.

Been fired from a job.

Taken a lie detector test.

Swam with dolphins.

Written poetry.

Read more than 20 books a year.

Gone to Europe.

Loved someone you couldn’t have.

Used a colouring book over age 12.

Had stitches.

Taken a taxi.

Had more than 5 online conversations going at once. 

Had a hamster.

Dyed your hair.

Had something pierced. 

Gotten straight A’s.

Been handcuffed.

My hair is naturally the color:

Light brown

Medium brown ((basically ginger))

Dark brown 

Blonde

Black

Dirty blonde 

Strawberry blonde

Multicoloured

Red

My eyes are:

Brown

Dark Brown

Blue

Green

Hazel

Light brown

A combination of things

Ice Blue

Grey

  People sometimes label me as:

Slut

Girly

Ugly 

Nerd

Other

Some of my biggest fears are:

Spiders/other insects

Slimy things

Dying

Doctor/Dentist appointments 

Hospitals 

Needles

Disease

Being alone in the dark

Heights

Small spaces

Oceans/large bodies of water

Holes

Large animals

Small animals

Open spaces

Lightning

Tornadoes

I have:

A friend with benefits

A laptop in my room

A television in my room

Good grades

My own car 

Married parents

a great big bushy beard

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party tomorrow aka how many free cigs can i score??

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Merry Christmas 🎄🎅 #me #christmas #selfie <333