jmorrow !
Post-Katrina
Location: Jasper’s House
@rayxricci
Destruction seemed to come in waves, and tonight Jasper felt as though he was drowning in its wake. Martin had been a friend– a brother– and the shock of his death was still battering into him hours later. Rage often felt so much like clarity, but now that the initial spark of it had dwindled down into a low glowing ember, it left room for the hurt nestled inside his chest, and Jasper didn’t know what to do or where to begin in making any of it right. He was at a loss– numb. He just knew he couldn’t break– especially not in front of her. There was a common misconception about who he was supposed to be, about how he was supposed to act when a Devil’s kutte was hugged tight around his shoulders. And it wasn’t anything like the broken man he was right now. He’d been conditioned early on to believe that vulnerability was a liability in the life he’d chosen, that men like him weren’t supposed to fall apart– they were supposed to pull themselves up by their bootstraps and march on with their fists clenched and ready for a fight. But for the first time in his life, Jasper didn’t feel like fighting back. Not tonight.
Glancing up from his glass of whiskey when he heard the shower cut off, Jasper knocked back the rest of his drink and forced himself off the couch and into the kitchen for a refill. Ignoring the clock on the wall, he pulled an extra glass down from the cabinet for her and filled it. It was late, but he doubted he could sleep even if he tried– not when he saw Martin’s lifeless face every time he closed his eyes. Shaking the image from his mind, Jasper twisted around and suddenly felt that firm resolve he’d held onto for years break apart when he saw her.
Unleashing a shaky breath, Jasper cracked a small smile for the first time since Martin had been discovered. For how beautiful she’d been at the ball, nothing compared to seeing her like this. Jasper lifted a brow; was that his t-shirt? With whiskey on his breath and glassy eyes, the biker swallowed up the space between them and hugged his arms around her, gently tugging her close against his chest. “Are you okay?” He asked in a low whisper, running his fingers through her hair. For a moment, all he wanted to do was hold her and remind himself that despite everything that had happened, they were still here. Blowing out a long sigh, he tipped his head against hers, “I’m sorry you had to see that.”
Easing back, he dropped his hands down to her waist and frowned, “I know you’re still upset with me.” He didn’t expect her to toss their little spat aside because someone was dead. She wanted answers– answers Jasper didn’t know how to give her. He’d grown so used to shouldering the weight of all the things he’d done that the thought of sharing it with anyone else scared the shit out of him. But Martin’s death had helped to put it into perspective for him and he wanted to try. He didn’t have a choice– he needed her. Friends with benefits, fuck buddies– whatever they wanted to call it, he’d gotten too used to her grounding presence, and he wasn’t willing to let his secrets push her away. “I wanna make that right.” Reaching for the whiskey he’d poured her, he handed it over and leaned back against the kitchen counter with a blustery sigh, “I’ll tell you anything you wanna know.”
nobody could’ve been prepared for what happened at the ball, despite the suspicions many of them felt about the security of the event. the masks & a crowded room had them on edge, but not a single person was ready for the devastation that ensued. naturally, rayanne had no idea how she was supposed to react. should she scream ? cry ? put on a brave face & act like she was totally fine ? that seemed like the best option. as much as she’d wanted to stay mad at jasper, she knew she had to put that behind her & focus on the matter at hand, doing whatever she could to help.
it had been a long night & she didn’t think she’d ever appreciated a hot shower as much as she did right now. she didn’t particularly feel like getting back into her dress & since she hadn’t come prepared with a change of clothes, she opted for one of jasper’s t-shirts, figuring he probably wouldn’t mind. with a quiet sigh, she made her way into the kitchen , not saying a word as he wrapped his arms around her — simply letting herself relax against his body as she hugged her own arms around his torso. she nodded gently in response to his question, a faint smile curving onto her lips as he ran his fingers through her hair. “ yeah, i’m okay. ” she breathed out, though she wasn’t entirely sure how convincing that sounded. “ no, i’m sorry that you lost a friend today. don’t worry about me. ”
she shook her head as she looked up at him, suddenly feeling a little guilty for even picking a fight with him in the first place. “ i’m not upset with you, jasper. it’s just — i’ve done the whole being secretive thing before & it didn’t exactly end well. ” she explained, tone gentle as she spoke. taking the glass from him, she eagerly took a sip — using the moment to think carefully about what she was going to say next. “ look, i didn’t mean to blow up at you the way i did. it was unnecessary & really i have no right to be acting like that. it’s just hard not to think the worst, y’know ? ” that much was obvious. she’d never made much of an effort to hide how often she worried about those she cared about, no matter how many times they told her not to. “ i’m not saying you have to tell me every damn thing — just keep me in the loop so i don’t go insane. ”
















