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[razielim]

Stalking Prey

Originally, this idea was only Raziel stalking easy prey. But as the canvas expanded and the city acquired more figures, it became a little more like an idea I had when I first-first started dipping my toes into painting environments, of Kain setting him a hunting challenge. It's been a long journey since that time.

[razielim]

okay but like. who did Leonide THINK was going to fucking show up? like. realistically. girl, i know you're smart. i know YOU know how effective this particular secunit is. who else could you have POSSIBLY expected to arrive that would have had any hope of getting your family past the world of hurt between their safehouse and a clean jettison to safety? a small army of humans wouldn't have been able to pull off what secunit pulled off, so WHO WERE YOU PROJECTING WOULD BE THE LIKELY OPERATIVE MENSAH WOULD HAVE SENT??

WHY was she surprised i do NOT understand lmfao; and! also! i am DEAD curious about who/what B-E was expecting to arrive, and how, and what their intel was, and how they'd gotten it bc i doubt janity would've known all THAT. would she?

and also i'm shocked secunit didn't ever again think about the interface it'd taken off Leonide's body, not even when Janity needed one

[razielim]

pulled this out of tags and took the liberty of making minor edits for readability: 1. replaced all #s with ;s 2. removed any resulting ;s that ~spliced a clause 3. broke up into paragraphs 4. caught small typo. forgive me 🙏🏼

@graylibrary — with Leonide you have to remember she didn't actually know Murderbot was associated with Preservation; when she first meets it it's with Arada but ART has her pretending to be part of it's crew to the point that it says she's faculty at it's university and then when they meet in System Collapse the only one from Preservation with Murderbot is Ratthi; Iris and Tarik are from the university and doing a university mission;

so Leonide doesn't KNOW that Murderbot was originally associated with Preservation - now if she followed the GrayCris situation she could have suspected that it was the unit Mensah bought etc but given her situation after System Collapse it's hard to say how much time she had to research anything like that; so for her Murderbot is a university of Mahira and New Tideland asset and while the university teamed up with Preservation for that bit;

it doesn't actually follow that the university would a) send any help at all and b) that particular help; it comes down to that she apparently didn't do her research;

now BE as a whole is more complicated because they SHOULD have done their research which means they WOULD know that Mensah had bought a company SecUnit; though exactly how much after that they'd know is hard to say; but even with Leonide's reports that the university had a weird SecUnit around; it wasn't identified as a ROGUE then and of course we all know they think rogue means killing spree; so the weird university unit wouldn't have to be Mensah's rogue unit at ALL

and Preservation is almost certainly considered weak by the CR - that they go after Mensah at all is a bit weird; and suggests that they don't dare go after Mahira and New Tideland since the university is ACTUALLY who screwed them over by saving those people - Mensah was a mediator; but they kidnap her family to try to extort her because she's who they think they can get at;

so to me Leonide was expecting a Preservation security person or a hired/contracted retrieval agent (human); she had no idea Murderbot and Mensah are connected personally at alllll; (Eletra technically knew Murderbot was under contract in Preservation and associated with Amena's family but NOT who Amena was AND I doubt anyone asked her about that/believed anything she said given her confusion after the whole TargetControl using her brain as a taxi thing like she's not going to be considered a reliable witness to anything; and they would have asked her about basically everything except 'hey who owned the weird SecUnit');

and BE would have presumably assumed that if anyone sent a SecUnit they'd catch it on scan; because they don't understand what ART did OR what Murderbot can actually do; Arada got the blame for it hacking the BE ship to get them out without negotiating their release because Leonide notes that it's against CR standards to tell a SecUnit to hack proprietary systems and Arada basically tells her to fuck off

why was this in tags ;_;

this belonged in the body of the post ;_;

kissing your beautiful head and begging you to speak louder

(begging all'a y'all to speak louder ;_; you're writing good stuff guys, say it with your chest)

SCREAMMMM!!!! you're SO RIGHT in making the connection that Leonide is under the impression MB is a PSUMNT secunit; i completely lost track of that detail!!

also....... your caps lock use reminds me so much of what i like to emphasize while writing meta that it felt uncanny, like i was reading something i'd written and forgot about. unprecedented experience!

wait, did B-E as a corporation have Farai & co. detained after all? that doesn't sound right

i got the impression that that's what Mensah/MB had thought when organizing this extraction; but that this theory went right out the window as soon as two events collided: 1. MB saw Leonide and interacted with her, and 2. B-E had Leonide killed. she'd organized the kidnapping on the dl from the corp specifically bc her family was already in danger. i'm going off of:

"Instead, I said, 'You’re the one who got them into that camp in the first place.' She tried not to react but threat assessment caught it, just a faint tightening around the eyes. But more importantly, she didn’t deny it. Now I knew I was right."

when this exchange happened, MB and the reader don't know yet that Leonide is at odds with B-E, so it seems like the revelation is that, as a respected member of B-E, Leonide volunteered to run point on this operation bc of a personal grudge, but if the purpose of the plan was to coerce someone into saving her family, sounds like she kept this as hush-hush as possible, obscuring Farai's presence/identity from anyone in B-E who might put two and two together.

that's also why it's a big deal to them to not be identified as the people who tried to save Leonide and succeeded in rescuing her children. the armed security teams after them are hoping to find them by identifying Janity and Tula, not Farai, Naja, or Sofi. as far as B-E is concerned, Farai doesn't exist (on this torus or anywhere), and possibly, they're only remotely aware of Mensah's existence

[theemperorsnewfanblog]

S1 EP6 Girls Behaving Oddly gifset

[normalworldart]

"Milchick"

[king-of-kaoss]

Janity and Murderbot parallels [2/4]

-Named by another -Don't know what to do with them -Under suspicion -Just want media

[sanctuaryrin]

april kicked my ass

[ceruleanheaven]

brought nothing to the gun fight. whatever man

[sanctuaryrin]

happy pride

[razielim]

[rockytheeridian]

(insp.)

[razielim]

[teaboot]

There is a reality not so far from our own in which Ratitouille (2007) was filmed as an avant-garde conceptual horror akin to Eraserhead (1977)

[teaboot]

There is a young American man in France. His mother has passed away. He has few friends, and works the thankless job of a bus boy in a prestigious restaurant, but dreams of becoming a chef despite having very little skill.

He returns one night to his humble apartment, which is known to have vermin, and comes across a rat, which he could easily kill or set loose on the street.

But the rat- it is special. It seems to speak to him. Promises him every little thing he desires- talent, fame, and fortune. Recognition and esteem like he has only ever seen from afar; fine company like the wealthy men and women whose scraps he picks at over the sink.

Put me on your head, the rat says. Put me on your head and think of nothing.

It is strange at first, yes. Strange to feel another take control of his life and live it better than he ever could. To see miraculous things created with his own two hands, to feel his feet move in graceful and fantastic ways with a confidence he has never had.

But the rat delivers as he had promised: he receives promotions, notoriety, admiration. He is noticed. Envied. Every day is a waking dream, rubbing elbows with beautiful women and handsome men and influential personalities who lavish him with praise. It is addictive, this lifestyle- never mind that he is only ever truly conscious of it as a passenger of in own brain.

It is when he has reached heights few can ever conceive, with all that the rat had ever promised- a beautiful wife in a beautiful house with all the world in his palm, in possession of all the wealth and success a man could ever want, that the rat says that it is leaving.

Leaving? The rat cannot leave. Everything he is, the rat has provided.

"I have delivered on our bargain", the rat says. "I have brought to you all that you have ever dreamed. What more could you desire? I must live my own life, now."

The man is furious. He is terrified. He destroys the rat, in all of the ways that a rat can be destroyed, until nothing is left of it but a fine smear of marinara sauce.

He returns to the restaurant the next day moving like the shell of something hollowed-out and brittle. He cooks well- his fingers remember the movements, his eyes recognize the patterns, his mouth knows without his asking what orders to speak and what platitudes make patrons smile pleasantly with their straight white teeth.

He retains the talents of the rat. The charm of the rat. All the worldly pleasures the rat had provided him.

Still, it seems, he is little more than a vessel for the talents of the rat.

But the rat is gone.

What remains of the man?

[teaboot]

You see my vision

[spirulin4]

there is a pain inside me so stupid that i'm not going to communicate it to anyone

[razielim]

saw someone mention firebug and boy that was a blast from the past. haven't used it since my 2010 dev job. i had to ask myself

why don't i use firebug anymore?

why does firebug even exist if f12 is a thing?

...well, apparently it existed bc f12 wasn't a thing back then and f12 wouldn't be able to run now if firebug hadn't walked then. man, it is so easy to forget how things really were some time ago; humans acclimate to current circumstances and project them backwards into the infinite so smoothly

[arealtrashact]

'See, folks? Tepid as a teapot, tame as a house cat'

[razielim]

..........i have a meme i've been meaning to make for weeks but oh god why is it so complicated

[razielim]

i've seen several times fans not wanting to use "content," esp as AI fics become a non-negligible portion of some Ao3 spaces in the pursuit of "engagement," "reach," and other icky influencer-like words that don't match the spirit of community that's so integral to fun and meaningful fandom

it can be so hard to remember how we "used to" talk, but... the words still exist! and it's nice to be reminded of what they were.

[literary-sparks]

“Why don’t you use ai” idk man beyond the obvious environmental and “this machine causes psychosis and encourages people to kill themselves” thing I think asking the equivalent of a solid D student who is also a pathological liar if they can answer my question/do the work for me seems pretty fucking stupid