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Warnings for things I vent/post about;

usually lack of tags (forgetful n stuff.)

S3xual trauma mentions/abuse in gen

drug addiction

stalking based romanticizing cuz im a freak

Throwing up/Eat1ng disorders ( NOT PRO-4N4 OR TH1NSPO DO NOT INTERACT W ME PLEASE)

Self harm mentions (cutting)

depression/suicide mentions

psychotic rambles

violence

sometimes nsfw horny posting though I'll try harder to tag those as nsfw

etc etc. be warned be safe

horrible shit is going on in my life but i just have to sit here and pretend im not lowkey hoping i die of sudden illness

#hurt myself

i love my new scars

#gorgeousssssss something is wrong with me #ok 2 rb #omggg tears myself open <3 <3

bloody----snow

"attention whore." yeah. i am. so give me attention.

ishouldgetlobotomized

"jealousy's cute" bich im almost throwing up and im pissed off at anyone and anything that has your attention if i dont have your attention then whats the point of existing??!

I miss my one mutual from this account idk what happened to you but I hope they are doing well

wakes up at 7pm to bad news like why do I stay alive

Me at night: owieeee why does my body HURT when im trying to sleep!! me 10 minutes before laying down: hehe time to go crazy with the razor!!!!!!!

#self harm #laying there feeling every cut rub against cloth bc i dont bandage or clean them and yet im like :-( why bother me #im not going to stop !

did one of my deepest cuts tonight so. good?

#not good #bad actually #but augh it was nice the blood flow is so much better

i wish i wasn't scared of bu/rning myself i wanna get creative w my s/h

#like i know it's stupid to wish you could do yet another version of self harm but #i was burnt like twice as a kid and i hated it so im scared of Flames and Heat #but i wanna use my lighter i dont got shit for it #but owieee #the kind of pain i can't rlly enjoy #unrelated but one of my siblings still self harm (we are both aware of this abt eachother) and she cut a bit too deep #the other day and i had 2 help her calm down and clean it up #and i was worried and still am bc she's deciding not to go to the doc n get stitches (i think that they wouldnt #do stitches annyways bc the wound seems like #it's one of those things that's a bitch to keep shut and should suffice #unless something changes we can just use what we have #im the one that knows more med shit bc she's a hypochondriac sometimes #so i have to look into this shit #anyways im writing it down bc i feel so stupid that seeing her cut be that deep made me /jealous/#and it feels kind of shitty for me to say or think bc like #she was in pain she got so upset she relapsed and fucked up and im #sitting there worried while also going 'man wish this was me' WHY ? UI WOULDNT EVEN TELL ANYONE IF I CUT THAT DEEP SO WHY DO #I WANT IT #i wouldnt be getting any attention so WHY???????

i do in fact sometimes relapse bc i saw pics of se/lf harm but it's not even bc im upset i just get jealous bc im a freak

#like im going 'hey im not cutting that deep. time to try that out'#is that NORMAL #well obviously not normal but yk common #apparently other ppl have looked at sh injuries to stop themselves 4rom cutting but it's the opposite for me #like even when i see beans which i haaaate mostly bc fat looks awful I'm like augh could be mean

i wish i was hot enough to get a sugar daddy

#ik it's already hard to get one even when ur gorgeous but still #if i wasn't a little freak maybe I could do it ASIODJKLA #i just need any1 wealthy enough to pay me to barely interact with them

i love eating my edibles but omg being high on weed puts me into heat or something

#'time to relax myself w an edible'#'*becomes so horny i can't think of anything else*

mf h0rny asf rn

#why must i be in heat right now it's all im thinking abt #hypersexual moment #need someone to flip and toss me around like a pancake badly

does anyone else do mutual blocking

#like anytime i figure out that someone has blocked me somewhere i go out of my way to block them back #like does any1 else do that too or is it just me

godbirdart

『 HOW AM I GOING TO BE AN OPTIMIST ABOUT THIS 💥 』

me: *takes pills on empty stomach* me, 10 minutes later: oauhg why do i feel like shit

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