introducing myself i guess
june 2022 i stepped on the scale for the first time in years and saw a 3-digit number (in kg that is A LOT) which was a huge shock for me
after losing over 10kg by restricting and starving myself i wanted to try to do this in a healthier way but i could not. the guilt from eating and not exercising, the obsession with becoming skinny, the self-hatred.
i have always been fat and a control freak so i knew i would probably develop an eating disorder eventually, but it never happened until recently and i can't stop anymore. but if this is the quickest way of losing weight i don't care, i just want to be thin.
so now i'm in this hellhole with you guys.
hello, my name is valentina (but i usually go by valya or tina)
about me:
19/05
diagnosed restrictive ana, addicted to fasting
istj
from europe
goth, nerd, weeb, bangya... you get the picture
asd, bipolar, was clean from sh for over a year but relapsed
my life is hanging by a thread and that thread is one (1) anime character i've been obsessed with for the past 5 years lmao im pathetic ik +a band i discovered at the worst possible time autumn 2023
i have no idea why i made this post since this blog was intended to be just for me. i have been lurking here for some weeks before making this acc, mostly looking at thinspo so yeah.
i am not "promoting" eds or encouraging anyone to do what i am doing, please recover if you can.
