claire brainrot city

24 they/them. chronic reblogger. I DO NOT TAG SPOILERS i'm sorry. HEADER: OGF(2013) still by graceseavers MY ART BLOG: rcmakoart. i actually post there

[rcmako]

hellooooo this is my main (kind of a spam actually) where i literally only reblog stuff but i do have an art blog @rcmakoart where i actually do poast semi frequently. i'm also on ao3 and artfight as rcmako and twitter as rcmako3. check me out! :)

[noxexistant]

sorry i truly cannot stop thinking about julian only god forgives. regularly paying a sex worker not to touch her, asking her in innocent words like she’s his girlfriend to come and meet his mother and buying her a luxury dress in a gift box for the occasion. telling her she can keep it — all of the abuse he takes silently in that scene but snaps for the first and only time when his gift is refused, screaming at mai because he cannot scream at his mother and he needs to scream at someone, needs to wrench back some tiny bit of control after being relentlessly abused and belittled by the only woman he knows how to love.

his complete unwillingness to kill anyone he feels doesn’t deserve it, killing his own ally to protect the little girl — turning away from his own brother, practically a deity in their family, upon learning he raped and killed a girl — but regardless remaining hopelessly loyal to his mother because she’s his mother, because her abuse is all he’s ever known, because he is nothing if he’s not hers. the themes of incestuous abuse between them, whether covert or physical. the way crystal talks about julian, calling him different and paranoid and delusional, but also a sexual object, inhuman, dangerous, inferior — and always, always a boy, never a man. he’s a dangerous boy. the absolute contrast to how she talks about billy, who she talks about like her real lover, holding him over julian’s head even after his death. when she is begging for julian’s protection, she swears the payment of i can be your mother again. we’re told julian killed his father for her, and it wasn’t enough to earn her affection, to even earn her motherhood.

and, at the end of it all, he finds chang to silently accept his punishment like a scolded child, in a routine that is clearly familiar for him. he was bad, so he deserves this. he holds his wrists out to be cut.

insane. insane.

[eridianhearts]

Lars Lindstrom in LARS AND THE REAL GIRL (2007) dir. Craig Gillespie. For Lars's Bowling Ball or @ken-dom ₊˚⊹

[silverhawk]

ugh this picture of a snake peeking around a doorway is my fave this snake just looks so nice 

[graceseavers]

LETTERBOX TOP 4 - Gosling Character Edition (K through W) (Aka what would the character watch?) [Part 1] -> Names B though J A lot of these are kinda specific, asks are open if anyone is curious on explanations!

[graceseavers]

LETTERBOX TOP 4 - Gosling Character Edition (B through J) (Aka what would the character watch?) [Part 2]-> Names K through W A lot of these are kinda specific, asks are open if anyone is curious on explanations!

[trumpetsbyjasonderulo]

it’s been ten years and i can confirm that everything still happens so much. happy anniversary king

[graceseavers]

I am normal about them

[flowerinaflame]

[hallogallo]

Smug face of a free man

[tildexart]

gosling sketches

[izu]

this rygos shit easy as fuckkkkkkkkkk

[nimadelolll]

don’t stay in your delusion

[tildexart]

on a mission to genderbend most rygos characters

[rygos-screencaps]

Ryan Gosling as Driver in DRIVE (2011) Dir. Nicolas Winding Refn

[chronicyurning]

I’ve been trying to make more art after making basically none for like 7 months lol. Here’s some Bradley practice

[pidgydraws]

🔪 cut ties 🔪

i was jelly of everyone having fun with their Ryan Gosling dolls, so now y'all get to witness my "happy ending" hcs for my beloved Julian Thompson from "Only God Forgives".

there's a part 2 >here< now for anyone who wants more <3

(tw for anyone who follows me for fluff content: do not look into this film just for fun unless you're also into fucked up shit and artsy movies)

i ADORE Julian. he should stand in stark contrast to my deep, abiding love for good, good boys, but since what i truly love MOST is a good boy who suffers i find him absolutely heart-rending. Julian Thompson fucking SUFFERS for the tiny shred of goodness inside of him that his abhorrent upbringing and fucked up circumstances want so desperately to crush out of him.

even in a made up "happy ending" i don't think he'd be likely to ever find (or deserve) true peace. still, i can dream of a life for him after the film...

the Lieutenant relieves Julian of his lower right arm and deeply wounds his left. but - like he's done for others he expects attornment from - he does not leave Julian to die.

when he wakes up in the hospital, alone, Julian feels no relief at being alive and immediately considers ending his own life.

the sight of the gruesome scar on his left arm causes him to recognizes the punishment inherent to having to carrying on as he is now.

when he's eventually released from hospital he does not return home or to the Muay Tai gym. he wants nothing to do with either place and - for the first time in his life - he is not gripped by the fear of his family or their expectations.

he finds out through the news that the police have dismantled his and his brothers former empire and seized all of their assets; yet he feels no sense of loss whatsoever.

with the (still considerable) amount of cash he has stashed in various places, Julian overpays his few remaining contacts for the paperwork necessary to leave Thailand with a new identity.

before he departs, he pays a kid to deliver Mai an envelope with an empty letter and the majority of his remaining funds.

tired of standing out, Julian chose a Canadian passport and travels to Vancouver, hoping to dissolve into the busy city without anyone taking note of him.

it isn't hard to find work, but it is hard to find a place to live. for weeks it's just him and his backpack, outside or at 24-hour dinners, until he finally settles into a tiny basement suit in the home of an elderly Chinese woman with three black-and-tan Pomeranians and a thriving back-patio garden.

his landlady's grown son doesn't like Julian, but her dogs do, and that's good enough for her.

at first, he changes jobs constantly; unwilling to let anyone get to know him or to allow himself to feel too content in any one place.

if people try to form friendly connections with him, Julian remains cold and quiet until they move on. to him, it's for their own good. he doesn't trust himself and he doesn't want anyone else to trust him either.

he never practices Muay Thai again nor works out strenuously. he never allows himself to consider adaptive devices for his missing right arm, nor physical therapy for the damage to his left. he never wants to feel like he's capable of using his body to do grievous harm ever again.

he does everything in his power to deny himself things. outside of a cellphone for work, his only possessions are his clothes and the bedding on his mattress on the floor.

he never allows himself to accrue much wealth. he never has more than a few months worth of rent and food money in his bank account at any one time. if he starts to feel like he has an excess of funds he donates it to community outreach programs and animal rescues.

while working at a market one summer Julian starts feeding a stray dog who frequently sneaks into the event grounds. the dog eventually starts to follow him home, sleeping under an azalea bush outside the front gate until he leaves each morning.

he comes home one day to find his landlady scrubbing the stray dog down with the backyard hose. she gives him a slip-lead and some cash and insists that he takes his "new friend" to the veterinarian.

the stray gets to sleep in his bed every night from then on.

he never officially gives "Good Girl" a name; always insisting that he's going to find her a better home (but he never does and she would never let him).

GG is eventually joined by two more dogs and a chunky orange cat (all of whom have more furniture, accessories, and clothes than Julian himself).

initially, he just assumes that GG is especially smart, but over time it becomes obvious that Julian has the right combination of patience and temperament to be extremely good at dog training.

over time, GG and her siblings become extensions of both Julian's missing arm and his missing family. they're the first loving connections that he truly allows himself to form.

it doesn't take long for Julian and his talented dogs to get pulled into the local TV and movie scene; Vancouver being a hub for shooting all sorts of films, shows, and commercials.

the trust he has in his dogs and that his dogs have in him help Julian to rebuild his sense of self. feeling useful helps him to feel less haunted by the horrors of his past and finding positive ways to interact with other people starts to slowly help him to feel human again (or, perhaps, for the first time).

working in TV and movies, of course, eventually leads to Julian crossing paths with Colt Seavers and the rest of the RGCU <3

[pidgydraws]

🔪 cut ties 🔪

i was jelly of everyone having fun with their Ryan Gosling dolls, so now y'all get to witness my "happy ending" hcs for my beloved Julian Thompson from "Only God Forgives".

there's a part 2 >here< now for anyone who wants more <3

(tw for anyone who follows me for fluff content: do not look into this film just for fun unless you're also into fucked up shit and artsy movies)

i ADORE Julian. he should stand in stark contrast to my deep, abiding love for good, good boys, but since what i truly love MOST is a good boy who suffers i find him absolutely heart-rending. Julian Thompson fucking SUFFERS for the tiny shred of goodness inside of him that his abhorrent upbringing and fucked up circumstances want so desperately to crush out of him.

even in a made up "happy ending" i don't think he'd be likely to ever find (or deserve) true peace. still, i can dream of a life for him after the film...

the Lieutenant relieves Julian of his lower right arm and deeply wounds his left. but - like he's done for others he expects attornment from - he does not leave Julian to die.

when he wakes up in the hospital, alone, Julian feels no relief at being alive and immediately considers ending his own life.

the sight of the gruesome scar on his left arm causes him to recognizes the punishment inherent to having to carrying on as he is now.

when he's eventually released from hospital he does not return home or to the Muay Tai gym. he wants nothing to do with either place and - for the first time in his life - he is not gripped by the fear of his family or their expectations.

he finds out through the news that the police have dismantled his and his brothers former empire and seized all of their assets; yet he feels no sense of loss whatsoever.

with the (still considerable) amount of cash he has stashed in various places, Julian overpays his few remaining contacts for the paperwork necessary to leave Thailand with a new identity.

before he departs, he pays a kid to deliver Mai an envelope with an empty letter and the majority of his remaining funds.

tired of standing out, Julian chose a Canadian passport and travels to Vancouver, hoping to dissolve into the busy city without anyone taking note of him.

it isn't hard to find work, but it is hard to find a place to live. for weeks it's just him and his backpack, outside or at 24-hour dinners, until he finally settles into a tiny basement suit in the home of an elderly Chinese woman with three black-and-tan Pomeranians and a thriving back-patio garden.

his landlady's grown son doesn't like Julian, but her dogs do, and that's good enough for her.

at first, he changes jobs constantly; unwilling to let anyone get to know him or to allow himself to feel too content in any one place.

if people try to form friendly connections with him, Julian remains cold and quiet until they move on. to him, it's for their own good. he doesn't trust himself and he doesn't want anyone else to trust him either.

he never practices Muay Thai again nor works out strenuously. he never allows himself to consider adaptive devices for his missing right arm, nor physical therapy for the damage to his left. he never wants to feel like he's capable of using his body to do grievous harm ever again.

he does everything in his power to deny himself things. outside of a cellphone for work, his only possessions are his clothes and the bedding on his mattress on the floor.

he never allows himself to accrue much wealth. he never has more than a few months worth of rent and food money in his bank account at any one time. if he starts to feel like he has an excess of funds he donates it to community outreach programs and animal rescues.

while working at a market one summer Julian starts feeding a stray dog who frequently sneaks into the event grounds. the dog eventually starts to follow him home, sleeping under an azalea bush outside the front gate until he leaves each morning.

he comes home one day to find his landlady scrubbing the stray dog down with the backyard hose. she gives him a slip-lead and some cash and insists that he takes his "new friend" to the veterinarian.

the stray gets to sleep in his bed every night from then on.

he never officially gives "Good Girl" a name; always insisting that he's going to find her a better home (but he never does and she would never let him).

GG is eventually joined by two more dogs and a chunky orange cat (all of whom have more furniture, accessories, and clothes than Julian himself).

initially, he just assumes that GG is especially smart, but over time it becomes obvious that Julian has the right combination of patience and temperament to be extremely good at dog training.

over time, GG and her siblings become extensions of both Julian's missing arm and his missing family. they're the first loving connections that he truly allows himself to form.

it doesn't take long for Julian and his talented dogs to get pulled into the local TV and movie scene; Vancouver being a hub for shooting all sorts of films, shows, and commercials.

the trust he has in his dogs and that his dogs have in him help Julian to rebuild his sense of self. feeling useful helps him to feel less haunted by the horrors of his past and finding positive ways to interact with other people starts to slowly help him to feel human again (or, perhaps, for the first time).

working in TV and movies, of course, eventually leads to Julian crossing paths with Colt Seavers and the rest of the RGCU <3