Sebastian Michaelis Apologist

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[zimowahistoria-kuro]

i think this is one of those moments — similar to when they travel to germany — where ciel is trying to understand sebastian. he doesn’t give him a hostile look for calling him a child; instead, it’s a contemplative one, focused on the way he phrased the sentence. it can also be translated as “children need sleep to grow up healthy.”

ciel doesn’t know whether sebastian is mocking him, or genuinely caring in a way that forgets there is no future in which ciel gets to grow up. the contract, which for sebastian was meant to last only a fleeting moment, stretches on longer and longer — but ciel is fully aware that its end is closer than its beginning.

sebastian, meanwhile, seems to think more and more often — perhaps unconsciously — about a future for the two of them, a future that simply does not exist in ciel’s mind.

it’s one of those examples that suggests sebastian may be slowly drifting away from the idea of devouring ciel, even if he himself hasn’t realized it yet.

[tokkimins]

the gardener and his boss

[zimowahistoria-kuro]

sebastian is never beating the "finny is his son" allegations

he looks so proud of him???

[sp00ky9]

It would be really funny if the demon at the end of the chap isn’t seb at all

[ena333333]

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[ninicoru]

Have you ever thought of the female version of Sebastian...? I am curious what she would look like in your style 🥺

She’s pretty sassy woman 👀✨

[lunammeum-art]

Sebastian doodles

[so-bitya]

yana throwing 20 different twinks at us every chapter to ship with sebastian and finally upgrading to a dilf like that would ever fill the hole agni left when she killed him of... girl pack it up

[zimowahistoria]

what is incredibly interesting, and yet feels overlooked in the discourse, is how sebastian’s worldview is currently being disrupted. as a demon who has lived for hundreds, perhaps even thousands of years, he has developed a certain fixed understanding of how the world and humans function. of course, he continues to evolve as a character, but he still operates within a horizon of knowledge he considers unquestionable. he is always the one expected to adapt, to find solutions, to guide others like a shepherd. “sebastian, the plants aren’t blooming,” “sebastian, take care of my nephew,” “sebastian, come up with a way to win the curry contest,” “sebastian, do something so we can investigate your own murder,” “sebastian, don’t leave the young master,” “sebastian, you need to find a way into the school,” “sebastian, what do we do to bring the young master back to himself?” “sebastian, that guy is lying, right?” “sebastian, what are you planning to do now that ciel has lost everything?” “sebastian, who are we?” sebastian, sebastian, sebastian. everyone relies on him—finny, mei-rin, bard, snake, tanaka, agni, soma, lizzy, francis, and above all, ciel. he cannot afford to fail, so even if he himself is shaken, he has to pull himself together and respond appropriately. in moments of crisis, someone has to take control, and that role has always fallen to him. this is not the face of someone dominating the board; it is the face of someone whose king has been checked, and who has one move left to prevent checkmate.

but that doesn’t mean that once the dust settles, he won’t have a moment to analyze everything. this is not a matter of reading one or two books, as he usually does. the appearance of a single person disrupts everything he has believed so far. it’s not “what does it matter if your brother is alive, as long as you believe it?” it’s “i had my suspicions since i saw the writing on the wall, but i don’t understand how this is possible—your soul isn’t there, and yet you speak to me as if it still were.” these are not mindless moving dolls. this is a body that looks like his master, speaks like his master, and above all carries memories from a time when he himself was not yet able to function. it is as if sebastian spent centuries believing that the sun revolves around the earth, only for someone to take him into orbit and show him that the earth revolves around the sun. this is not a hypothesis that can simply be disproven; it is a direct contradiction of reality presented before his eyes. sebastian cannot lie to ciel—but what is a lie, when he himself feels deceived? the presence of r!ciel undermines the very foundation of sebastian as a demon, who has always taken for granted that “humans cannot be brought back to life.”

only three weeks passed between fleeing the estate and arriving at the hotel. still without a full understanding of the situation, sebastian is once again confronted with something outside his norm. a man appears who supposedly recognizes him, yet sebastian does not remember him at all. it is hard to dismiss this as coincidence, especially since the man knows sebastian is a demon. before, saying “it’s impossible that he was my former contractor” would have been as obvious as daylight—but now, how can he be certain? how can he know this is not yet another case of deception, and that modri is truly his former contractor? how can he be sure he is not being misled again, that the existence of two contractors is not somehow possible? regardless of whether he consumed his soul or not—if r!ciel can exist without one, then nothing prevents the possibility that someone he once made a contract with could exist in the same way. how can he trust himself, when he might at any moment be proven wrong?

they are in a place that is likely connected to undertaker, who so far has been responsible for destabilizing the very foundations on which sebastian stands as a demon. it would be no surprise if he approached everything with a degree of distrust, even if he does not show it. he cannot show it—he is not the one meant to speculate. ciel wants answers, and answers he will get, at least ones sebastian believes to be true, even if they may later prove otherwise. this is what sebastian has done from the very beginning—he controls the narrative.

on top of that, sebastian is forced to confront the fact that he was wrong. an identity he believed he had thoroughly verified now stands right before him (and it does not seem that they suspect him of impersonation). if there is anything sebastian could take pride in, it would be his investigative abilities—compiling a list of jack the ripper suspects within minutes, uncovering information about the secret society aurora, extracting the truth from cole’s victims. he has never made mistakes when it comes to gathering information. and yet, here is another situation that shakes that principle. one such incident might be dismissed, pushed aside by the excuse that there are more pressing matters—but when destabilizing elements keep appearing, suggesting that sebastian cannot be so certain of his own knowledge and skills?

i believe this arc, and especially modri’s story, will be crucial for sebastian and his behavior, because everything he has believed until now will collapse like a house of cards. his stance will shift even further, becoming more human, as the truths he held as a demon are revealed to be fragile constructs—illusions that can be broken, if someone tries hard enough.

[yumchxa]

(wip) Finally colored Sebastian and thought he deserved his own post. ☕️

(March 12, 2026)

[zimowahistoria]

i often wonder to what extent being wounded by reapers affects sebastian’s sense of self — perhaps even his humanity. their scythes are the only weapons capable of truly harming him, and he had never experienced that kind of injury before.

for humans, it is natural that wounds take time to heal. pain comes with consequences — weakness, limited movement, breath drawn too shallow. but demons do not share those limitations. they feel pain, yet not the aftermath of it. they do not stagger under exhaustion, nor falter long after being impaled or dismembered; they regenerate, as though the body were merely an inconvenience.

and yet, when facing reapers, it is different.

i suspect grell was his first encounter with one in general. sebastian himself said he had never met them on earth before, and their realms are separate. perhaps he knew, in theory, that caution was required — but knowledge is not the same as experience. grell’s scythe left him with a damaged arm. for the first time, he felt the constraint of injury, the humiliation of limitation.

during his fight with undertaker, he did not die from a blow that would have killed a human — but he was wounded deeply enough that it hindered him. it affected his movement, his breathing, and most of all his ability to shield his master.

humans learn through pain. and for sebastian, being wounded may be precisely that — a lesson in humility. a reminder that he is not as invincible as he once believed.

and perhaps this, too, is part of the quiet softening we witness. through injury, he brushes against experiences once reserved for mortals alone — vulnerability, fragility, the awareness of consequence. feelings foreign to demonkind, yet now etched into him by the cut of a reaper’s blade.

[kvoeric]

Haven't posted in a while.

Here, doodle

[realdemonslovecats]

It would be very funny if undertaker actually knew of Sebastian & his previous contractors (modri) & set up the phantomhives as bait. Like Sebastian’s his target or one of them for entirely different reasons & undertaker saw the phantomhives go to shit & threw the twins under the bus to hit two birds with one stone & tie up the phantomhives and Sebastian both?

I don’t think it’s true but it would be funny & there must be some reason he was able to recover modris body in as good condition as it’s in

[funeralroseparade]

Tanaka on the death of a butler, grief of the master

When talking to Soma about the disappearance of his servant Mina, Ciel's response is very cold. He tells Soma that any despair he would feel "wouldn't amount to much", and that he regards the loss of a servant as "trivial".

This is one of those self-protective things Ciel does to give the appearance of invulnerability, to harden himself and keep others at a distance. But Ciel may also be emulating what he has been told to do as a member of house Phantomhive.

Following Sebastian's "death" in the Murder arc, Tanaka says something consistent with how Ciel behaved with Soma, regarding an expectation for a master to refrain from showing emotion in response to the death of a mere servant. "A trifle".

It's interesting to think about this when considered alongside something Sebastian says later, which is that a butler is not permitted to die before his master. Something that Tanaka apparently taught Sebastian.

So according to Tanaka's words, repeated through Ciel and Sebastian: a butler is not permitted to die before their master, and if the butler does die, it is to be considered a trivial occurrence, and the master is not permitted to show any grief over it.

[milkwavess2]

scandalous glove window

[luchigeon]

headcanon that Bard have the average dad's interest about fixing things

[lady-ghost-draws]

Sebastian Michaelis by Lady Ghost