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The reality between all these pro ana posts

[positiveautistic-deactivated202]

Mine

[prettyinbarbiepink]

pros of not eating :

i feel light

i can feel my body eating away my fat

i feel dainty and fragile

i can fast for days with caffeine

i’m gonna be a skinny legend

cos of not eating:

I C A N N O T P O O P

C O N S T I P A T I O N

[seekingskinnny]

Some more cons of not eating:

- heart palpitations

- dizzy and nauseous all the time

- hair falling out

- brittle nails

- dry skin

- body hair everywhere

- brain fog

- family/ friends/ loved ones worrying

- shaking

- fainting and passing out

- constantly weak and tired

- not being able to sleep

- can’t even focus or think about anything too hard because you can’t concentrate

- having to lie all the time so people don’t worry (they still worry, though)

- intense anxiety from nearly anything because everything has the chance of having food

- isolating yourself from friends because they always want to eat

The “pros” of not eating (aka literally starving yourself) do NOT outweigh the cons. Do not make it seem like they do- youre just encouraging more people to engage in harmful and potentially deadly behaviors.

[realityofana]

the issue with "not pro just using tags"

Alright, this might be a long and possibly controversial one but someone did ask for me to make a post about it, and since it's definitely something I have Thoughts on, I have obliged.

Many people have used that tag and still continue to do so, because how else are you supposed to share your posts without expressing the fact that you're not pro ana? Except the issue is the fact that you're sharing your posts. You may not intend for others to develop an ED, and you certainly may not wish for it to happen, but the fact is that by purposely choosing to display harmful ED content, you are contributing to the problem.

I understand that some people need a place to let out their emotions and participate in a community to feel less alone, and that's okay. I used to have a public ED account a year or so back, and once I realized what I was doing, I quickly shut it down and made a private blog where I can reblog things that I want to keep for myself. It does not matter how many times you tag a post with "not pro", or "just for me", or make warning posts telling others this isn't a joke, you are still contributing to the problem.

When you reblog a thinspo imagine or a meanspo or anything of the sort, you are showing an already ill and misguided audience a post that will only serve to further trigger them. It does not matter if it's only for you, if it's public (and especially if you are tagging it with frequently searched tags), you are still exposing others to the content. This is dangerous, even if you don't mean it to be. Think about the thinspo, meanspo, etc. that you yourself see. Do you think the person you saw it from wants others to be sick? No, but you still saw that and it still worsened your mindset.

Many of these posts are full of blatant lies. We are sick, and when we post about our false illusions and share our toxic rules or guidelines or photos, we are only making each other more sick. I understand we need support. So please, reach out to others. Make accounts encouraging pure recovery, even if you're not in it yet. Don't drag other people down with you, reblog your posts on a private blog. Don't use popular tags. DM others who are in similar positions, I'm sure they need someone to talk to as well. Just please, don't tag dangerous or triggering posts with "not pro just using the tag", because just by using that tag, you are indeed, albeit inadvertedly, promoting your illness.

To the person who asked for this (or anyone, really) let me know if this wasn't what you intended or if you have other thoughts. I'm sorry if this makes any of you feel bad, know that you're not bad people, you're just suffering with a terrible illness. It's not too late to help others, be considerate and be careful.

[amanda-outside]

Things that matter more than the number on the scale

being able to run all of the miles

oatmeal breakfasts

handstands

healthy hair

body nourishment

handstands

impulsive ice cream eating

regular heart beats

clear & happy thoughts

dancing around in your underwear

making memories with loved ones

eating at restaurants with ease

not being cold all of the time

smiling

laughing

loving

literally everything

[wwickedlythin]

lose the weight

- so you can throw your hair up messily and still look angelic because of your perfectly chiseled jawline and glowing skin

- so you can pull on a sweater that’ll perfectly fit your delicate frame and show off your gleaming collarbones

- so you can sit on your partners lap comfortably and get comments on how small you are

- so when you come to school people stare at your gorgeous figure and wonder how you got so slim

- so when you wear skinny jeans, not only are your thighs miles apart, but your hipbones protrude ever so slightly.

- so you can finally be the it girl. the one people see passing in the halls and wonder how she looks so effortlessly lovely.

[realityofana]

- you can definitely put your hair up in a bun and look good, but you'll also notice that your hair is thinning. it's fraying and it's falling and you put it in a bun because you can't really wear it loose anymore without accidentally pulling strands out when you run your hands through it

- you can put on a sweater, but you'll probably need more than just that to keep warm. layers will cover your figure and yet you'll still be cold.

- you can sit comfortably on your partner's lap, but let me tell you, having bones digging into your skin hurts. they most likely won't be comfortable, especially if they see you so frail and weak. they love you, they want you to be okay, not to be skinny.

- if your weight loss is dramatic, people might stare. but just because they're staring doesn't mean they think you're gorgeous. there's going to be rumors, people are going to be watching you during lunch, seeing how you react when you stand up too quickly. now, this is only one way that things can go. sometimes nobody will notice, nobody will comment. healthy people don't obsess over others bodies.

- not everyone will have a thigh gap, everyone has different bone structure and fat distribution, even when skinny. also, jeans suck. they will almost never fit perfectly.

- you are already the it girl/guy to those close to you. they admire you for your kindness, your humor, your smarts, everything that truly makes you who you are. weight does not define you. people in public won't care about you beyond what they see, which is most likely a sick and sad individual. you deserve more than a "oh wow, they're so skinny". you deserve a life with happiness and love. you will get there

[blackcoffeegoddess]

They have flagged me so ill just post screenshots cause this is important :/

Using pro tags to reach more people

[cherryliqor-deactivated20180108]

“skip dinner and become thinner” more like “skip dinner and you have an eating disorder please get help”

[cherryliqor-deactivated20180108]

“a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips” more like “a moment on the lips is okay to have, please take care of yourself in this lifetime”

[cherryliqor-deactivated20180108]

“every time you eat you delay becoming skinnier” more like “every time you eat you give your body the nutrients it needs in order to survive, please keep surviving”

[cherryliqor-deactivated20180108]

“you’ll be able to wear whatever you want when you get to your ugw” more like “you’ll be able to wear whatever you want now because fashion =/= weight”

[ossifiedocelot]

“Don’t reward yourself with food your not a dog” more like treat yourself because you’re amazing and deserve happiness

[pixelshearts]

This is actually really helpful thanks

[aninactivebloggfgfgf]

I love this post for how it politely demolishes destructive pro ana/mia mantras i love it

[marzipanandminutiae]

“if you can pinch an inch” congrats you have skin and flesh like all humans

[the-incedible-sulk]

I… I… thanks… for sharing this cause I needed a lot.. hopefully anyone who follows me and needs can benefit from it too…

[jynxlovesluck]

I really wish this was a thing I saw a few years ago, but I’m glad it’s circulation is moving strong. Just like you my wonderful followers <3<3<3 be brave darlings, I believe in you

[biscuitfoot-deactivated20190628]

Take care of yourself, guys. Eating is good for you, your body needs it or it will shut down. If you feel like you need to get healthier or lose weight, there’s tons of ways you can do that, that doesn’t put your body in danger. NEVER STARVE YOURSELF

[pokerecovery]

probably a reblog but this☝🏼☝🏼☝🏼☝🏼☝🏼

[paininmyashlyn]

I hope everyone recovers

[forbearancenights]

There’s something I want to talk about and I’m going to try to articulate it as well as possible.

Here’s the background of this post: I am not pro eating disorder. Mine formed when I was young, before I even knew it was an eating disorder. I didn’t know until I almost went inpatient.

It took me two years to consider myself fully recovered with some tiny relapses. This is my first huge relapse, where I’ve once again found myself underweight, in a very long time. I never wanted this.

So, being the type of blog I run, sometimes I see posts that are in the tune of “Imagine finally waking up, seeing your hip bones, feeling tiny, wearing cute clothes, and reaching your goal” and other’s that are like “The reality is you lose your hair, your motivation, your friends, everything. This isn’t glamorous.”

I want to offer my perspective. I genuinely believe eating disorders are a mix of both. I think all of those posts are so black and white. It’s either “You’ll finally be the fairy you want to be!” or “That’s false. You’ll be dying.”

You will be both. One day you’ll be who you wanted to be. One day you’ll lay in your bed and wonder if you even have the energy to get up.

Being that people with eating disorder’s usually think they look better thin, and I am also one of those people, I’ll say it. I’m capable of putting my outfits on and I can admit it’s much easier to get dressed. Sometimes, though, hours after thinking an outfit looks great, I’ll look in the mirror and think “Wait. I actually look fat. Oh my god. Oh my god. I’m so fat” but I can also sometimes acknowledge that yes. My clothes do look better. I do look better. I can make a tee and jeans fashionable in ways I couldn’t before. But I can also decide I can’t hours later.

I can wake up in the morning and feel the bruise on my knees from them hitting together. I’ve got knobby knees. I think “I’m tiny. This wouldn’t happen if I wasn’t.” I feel my laptop resting against my hip bones right now. It’s comforting. I stare at my wrist bones as I drive. I like it. I can wake up and feel good. I wake up and feel like a different person.

On the other hand, I can wake up and think “God, I feel so fat today. I must be retaining water, or maybe it’s when I overate 2 days ago, maybe it did make me gain weight. Oh my god, my stomach is so bloated. Oh my god, I look the same as I did 30 lbs ago. Oh my god.” and the entire day is bad. I’ll debate staying in.

Weighing in in the morning effects my entire day on both sides.

I’ve kept my friends. We go out often. When we take pictures and now, I think “Wow. I might be the skinny friend now.” but other angles I’ll think “I’m still fat.” Going out to eat is a nightmare. That social situation is ruined. But I still try to go and pick at something. It’s ruined certain situations for me but I’m not in my bed depressed 24/7

Boys do look at me differently. But it’s a mix of both. One boy didn’t notice me in class until I was skinny, at least as far as I know. Perhaps I’ve convinced myself of that. Another boy is overly concerned for me. I used to think he thought I was cute, but recent things make me think he feels sorry for me. It’s a mix of “I’m skinny and that’s why he likes me” and “I’m skinny and he thinks I’m weird.”

Lastly, once people start commenting, it never feels good. When I started losing again I was offended nobody noticed. Then they did and I regretted ever thinking I was upset nobody seemed to notice because “I must look the same then.” Now it’s a constant flow of people telling me to eat, asking what I’ve eaten. People have seen me and asked when the last time they saw me was, then I watched them mentally count. They mention how quickly I’ve managed to look like a different person. People ask how you did it and you want to die. You shrug it off with stress. People’s comments have never made me happy. They make me feel ugly. They make me feel like I look weird. They make me feel like a spectacle. Nobody is going to watch you drop excessive weight in one month and think you did well. Nobody is going to watch you drop excessive weight in one month and think it’s admirable, or you’re so pretty and tiny now. They’ll just be concerned and cautious. 

This post is very long and I’m sorry if you’ve had to scroll past it and didn’t want to. But I wanted to in depth share my opinions on these posts. They’re all so black and white. The ones mentioning the good things get written off as promoting eating disorders. The ones mentioning the bad things are considered the only reality and what should be done. But eating disorders are a weird, sick, mix of both. I’m not even sad. My eating disorder is about control and an obsessive thing. I just wanted to share my opinion and my experience over the past what’s been years of my life now

And one last thing. It’s okay to have an eating disorder that’s not anorexia. Just because it’s the most acknowledged doesn’t mean it’s what you have.

[sirihowdoiheal]

You wanna know what happens when you're starving?

Your hair gets thin and limp. Noticeably. You don’t have enough nutrients to help it stay healthy.

You get so. Fucking. Cold. All the time. People don’t want to touch you, because you’re so cold. You’ll be shivering under a blanket, in a hot tub, by a fire, wherever you are.

You’ve heard that seeing food will be upsetting? You have no idea. Even if it’s nowhere near you, or on a screen, or in the hands of a stranger, you’ll resent it because you want it. Some nights you’ll start crying because you miss it so much.

Everything will become numbers. You aren’t just walking your dog anymore, you’re counting the minutes and calories you’re burning. You aren’t enjoying a warm day, you’re trying to figure out if the higher temperatures are making your heart rate go up so you burn faster.

Your social life will die. You’ll be skittish and avoid people when they have food in case they offer some. You’ll say no to parties and dates and meet-ups because you think there might be food. You’ll grow paranoid, terrified of people finding out. You’ll start to despise people who love you solely because they want to help.

You’ll hurt. That pang in your chest? It’s probably because you’re not eating. Your stomach? Say goodbye to its silence. Your butt? It’ll hurt whenever you sit down. You’ll get headaches, heart pains, even breathing will eventually become exhausting.

And eventually, you’ll die. Maybe you ate more than usual and couldn’t handle the thought of gaining, and exercised so much that your heart overexerted itself. Maybe you actually did gain, and that enough was enough to make you swallow a handful of pills. Maybe your blood pressure lowered to fatal levels, or maybe you passed out and hit your head on a table.

It all ends the same.

Don’t let the “pro ana’s” fool you, this isn’t a glamorous lifestyle. This is a deadly and painful illness.

I feel like a lot of people need to remember that before they skip a their meals.

Don’t do this to yourselves, you gorgeous humans. You deserve to live. You deserve friends. You deserve love.

You deserve to eat.

[starlight-ana]

perks of being underweight

- tiny wrists, delicate hands

- no periods! ever!

- feeling dainty next to your s/o; everyone says you’re the perfect couple

- slender legs that go on for days

- a jawline as sharp as a knife

- not hating what you see in the mirror

- being cold all the time, looking thin even under layers of sweaters and scarves

- drier, clearer skin, no more excess oil

- falling asleep so easily, being exhausted at the end of the day

- when people hug you, they often comment on how they can feel your bones

- knowing that all this is your reward for being so determined, so dedicated to weight loss

- finally being comfortable in your own skin!!!

[realityofana]

[realityofana]

I stumbled upon the pro ana community of tumblr about 2 years ago. I scrolled through several posts of sweetspo, meanspo, thinspo. At first I was mortified and felt so much sadness for everyone caught up in this disorder. And then I slowly began coming back because I wanted to see more thin people. I was already trying to lose weight- so why not cut down on my intake? The sweetspo said I could do it. The meanspo said I had to do it. Is tumblr what caused my ed? No, but it sure did fuel it. Are there warnings throughout the community now? Yes. But were there enough back then for me to really close this app and never come back? No. So that's what this blog is for. I'm here to reblog posts like the ones that damaged me, and I'm here to break the illusions. We are sick people, but I don't want to stand by and allow ourselves to get worse. I know not everyone in the ana community is like this. But this blog is for the ones that are.