[reapwhatyoustitch]

For clarification: I'm not diagnosed with ASPD or any other disorders. I can only make assessments, not self-diagnoses. I believe that they do more harm than good. I can strongly relate to anti-social behaviors. I will only talk about my personal experience.

In general, I'm not seeking a diagnosis. I have career plans, and getting one would affect them-- which is stupid. Plus, I don't see how a title would personally benefit me. A lot of people search for one for different reasons, but I don't see the fad about it. Especially when they're overcompensating or looking for something to make themselves special. It's not.

Though this doesn't mean I align with the majority. I know I experience low empathy, a lack of remorse, emotional detachment, among other traits. Interacting with me doesn't mean you're entitled to my intimacy (platonic or other).

Still, I will support or interact with those who do have and experience these disorders. I would also recommend some other blogs that can provide specific information.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

Medical Examiners have my heart.

[ivy-is-dreaming]

I don't like how ASPD boredom is called "boredom".

I think it’s easily confused with normal boredom when it’s actually more like chronic under-stimulation.

​It’s not "I’m bored. Oh, same bro."

It’s a painful, awfully restless boredom. To me, the search for stimulation is so deep; I’m always seeking, testing, trying, because if I don’t, everything its way too dull. It feels like dying.

​Doing nothing is the equivalent of asking a hyperactive and restless person to sit still for hours. But the problem is also that, somehow, nothing is ever enough ?

Whatever I do, even if I find thrilling stuff, the feeling disappears as fast as it came. I’ll be excited for a few minutes, maybe, but it lasts only as long as the activity itself, or it dies right in the middle of it. The worst part is when you get used to something and it doesn’t do shit for you anymore.

​Do it once, it’s cool.

Twice, it’s okay.

The third time is already pointless.

​It can stay nice, sure, but it isn't thrilling anymore. No matter how intense the stuff I do is, at some point, it stops stimulating me, and it pisses me off.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

I forget this page exists sometimes.

[infsomniac]

two social norms i believe should be abolished :

someone from your past seeing you in public and saying hi all while pretending to care about what youre up to nowadays.

when people make you meet their children. what am i meant to say? "aww" for the fiftieth time? sigh.

[gouged-doll]

[reapwhatyoustitch]

Working with these.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

The Phlebotomist teaching the course let me stick them. Worth it to build rapport. Now, I can get extra sticks after class.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

Stickin' needles tmr.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

My research paper is being nominated. I'm actually ecstatic.

[autopsyfreak]

me and my dismembered roadkill jewellery are inseparable.

(dagger bone necklace next me thinks).

[autopsyfreak]

UPDATE: the bone dagger necklace is gorgeous.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

Reveal when?

[reapwhatyoustitch]

I hate hearing about my parent's health whenever they complain. I know they're not going to the doctor so why tell me that 'this hurts' or 'I feel sick'. I don't feel a single pang of anxiety or sympathy. Especially when I give a simple solution or advice to fix/mitigate the problem. After that then I'm not coddling a late 40s to 50 year old. You had a whole lifetime to understand the consequences of your actions. The specific addictions or routines you made is what got you here.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

If it's not one thing, it's another.

[turboautistdog]

the state of aspd research is insane. imagine if basically every study ever on autism was EXCLUSIVELY conducted on prisoners and it was just Assumed that this applies to every single autistic person

[this-is-cluster-b-saneism]

I've been gradually coming to the realization that a lot of what I've been told about cluster B disorders, and especially "narcissistic abuse" is just bullshit. For example, one thing I've seen a lot is the idea that, even if not all narcissists are abusers, abuse from a narcissist is somehow fundamentally different than abuse from someone without a PD. And after actually educating myself on abuse... I don't buy it. At all. Like, what even is "narcissistic abuse" anyway?

The answers I've found so far:

"Narcissistic abuse is worse than other kinds of abuse." In what way? If that's what this comes down to, then why not rename it my-trauma-is-worse-than-yours abuse? Since when is it okay to treat being abused like a competition?

"Narcissistic abuse is more calculated than regular abuse." but the people claiming this are also claiming that narcissists can't control their emotions and everything they do is just a reaction to having their egos hurt. So... which is it?

"Narcissistic abuse is just the tactics more common in abusers who have NPD." But when you ask what those tactics are, they will say things like "triangulation" or "flying monkeys," which when you look into it just means an abuser turning other people against the victim. Am I supposed to believe that neurotypical abusers have all just never considered that was a possibility? Or is this some kind of unlockable skill granted by NPD, as if abusing people works like a video game?

The more I think about, the more it baffles me that anyone is buying it. Even if you ignore the ableism, what is even the utility in making this distinction? Who benefits?

This is cluster b saneism

[alice-aspd1]

I've even seen someone claim to have suffered "narcissistic abuse" at the hands of someone who didn't have npd...like what are we even doing?

[reapwhatyoustitch]

People just use too much "therapy-talk" and forgot that the word self-centered existed.

Personally, I believe people use narcissist as a label because they just can't comprehend that a person can act/behave in contrary to how they do. So, it must be that they're incapable of feeling or whatever they're on about. They just take the most "brutal" title and slap it on an ex who just was a generic asshole.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

"You know why serial killers start off with cats instead of dogs?" SHUT THE HELL UPPP

[ivy-is-dreaming]

It’s always fascinating how quickly "empathetic" people drop the mask the moment they realize you have ASPD (or even NPD).

​They treat your lack of empathy as a green light to be assholes, as if their moral compass only functions when it’s being mirrored back to them

​They change their behavior instantly like : "Okay since you don't feel that, there’s no problem if I do this."

This is just hypocrisy.

If your morality is contingent on the neurotypicality of the person standing across from you, it isn't morality at all

I've been decent with you and haven't done anything. Why do you feel the need to treat me like shit just because you've acknowledged that I lack empathy ? That’s wild.

​Then people will claim you are the problem, while they’re the ones who need a person "like them" to justify being a nice person.

[reapwhatyoustitch]

I need ammo. Not for myself.