reclusive romantic.

Life is just a series of things you get used to.

[reclusiveromantic]

You can be sad and lonely while still trying to improve yourself. You get used to missing someone but I don't think you ever not be sad.

[reclusiveromantic]

I had an epiphany when I was spazzing over Tony Labrusca last night. My joy isnt complete until I can share it with you.

No, my life is not sad or miserable without you. I make myself happy and do find joy with those around me. But, its lacking oomph. Without you no one makes fun of my weird fascination with Thirdy. You're not there to snide but secretly find me cute while spazzing. I have no one to make fun of people with. No one to look at knowingly while trying really hard to surpress laughter.

I have no enabler making more indecisive than normal. I still enjoy window shopping but I still constantly look for things to buy for you. Im willing to spend money on you if thats not love, i dont know what is lol.

But seriously, I miss you. I genuinely do.

[reclusiveromantic]

I miss you. I miss you very much. You know I can never wrap around my head over you banishing me. I know 😔 I should have fate. That in your own time and His. But its hard being rational all the time, and try to reason everything out.

Maybe I romanticize our love too much cos were broken up. But I do feel you are my person, there is a certain ease in how we are. In who are. Maybe a little much, thats why we have stopped pushing ourselves to be better. How long till we realize what we need to realize? I have realized things and I will internalize them. So can we get back together now? 😕 Fiiine. I'll wait. Pft.

[help-n-quotes]

I want to be with you, it is as simple, and as complicated as that.

Charles Bukowski (via help-n-quotes)

[reclusiveromantic]

I feel stupid wanting to make stupid conversations just to talk to you 😳

[reclusiveromantic]

I catch myself getting weak and wanting to talk you. I miss you intensely.

[resistandfight]

I am always moving toward you. On my bad days, I say to myself: “then you.” Sure, this now. But then you.

from “Laugh Lines” in The Dogs I Have Kissed by Trista Mateer (via resistandfight)

[withinliminalspaces-blog]

Despite everything, I still believe we could have worked out. If we had tried a little harder, fought a little stronger, sacrificed just a bit more, we could have been something amazing. But neither of us were ready then, not really. And now that I am ready, too many years have passed. I lost you to the passage of time; I lost you to my own self-doubt that took a little too long to die out.

(via withinliminalspaces)

[deleosdella]

Shot in Dominican Republic

[quotejunkiie]

- Unknown

[withinliminalspaces-blog]

The reason this hurts so much, the reason that I wake up and fall asleep with an aching heart and tear-stained cheeks more often than not, is not simply because you are gone. Yes, that is the main source of my misery; but I’ve been stuck in this place with you in one form or another for the last five years. And while your absence breaks me a little more each day, it is an old pain; I’ve grown accustomed to it’s company. No, what destroys me now, with the sudden and absolute end you’ve forced upon me, is the death of the future I longed for. Gone are the daydreams of quiet nights spent in your arms, curled up together watching movies. Gone are the daydreams of meeting your friends, the hours spent together playing games or going to concerts. Gone are the daydreams of just us, but together. The house, the kids, my entire life with you, gone.

And how does one mourn a future now lost? I can’t even begin to imagine my future now. (via withinliminalspaces)

[ranata-suzuki]

I’m worried about you… I want so much to call you… to hear your voice and know that you’re okay. I hope you know that you’re never as alone as you may feel… you’re always in my thoughts.

Ranata Suzuki (via ranata-suzuki)

[ninasdrafts]

On some days I just feel your absence more than on others. I don’t know if it’s because missing you gets worse or because I need you or because I want to hear your voice and know I can’t. Then there are days when I nearly forget about it: when I get to be blissfully ignorant for a couple of hours and don’t think about how you’re no longer with me. But then I remember that you’re gone and it’s like a punch to the throat, a kick to the chest that knocks the air from my lungs. On some days I want to feel the pain. I want to embrace it. I want to forget that it does get better and that time does ease the pain. Yet it hurts. It hurts like it did on the first day. It hurts after a month and it hurts after a year. And in ten years it’ll hurt all the same.

miss missing you / n.j. (via ninasdrafts)

[leohearts]

[reclusiveromantic]

Am i allowed to say I miss you? I guess not, it would only put undue pressure on you.

You can't be responsible for someone missing you.

[reclusiveromantic]

Reduced to smelling the shirt you gave me 😒 :(

[reclusiveromantic]

It's been 5 days. Feels like forever.