I have OCD, but OCD does not have me

Hello stranger, and welcome to my recovery blog! I am a 19 year old girl from Europe and I have been suffering from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder for nearly a year now (I have also been struggling with depression, anxiety and self harming), and I have finally decided to get my normal life back. I will post updates about my life as well as post/reblog stuff which other people with mental illnesses will hopefully find relatable. Welcome to follow my journey x | If you're suffering from OCD/Anxiety/Depression or any other mental disorder, feel free to message me! |

[bpdmoth]

Me: *is okay for 3 minutes*

Me: ohnmy god I was faking it the whole time i k new it

[ocd-selfcare]

[wellwatered-deactivated20200419]

friend: why are your hands all messed up?

me: oh i pick at my skin when i’m anxious

friend: well stop

me:

Wow, I’ve Never Thought of That Before

[aplpaca]

ocd is basically ur brain gaslighting itself

[oscarwildeboytoy-deactivated201]

Me: has ocd

My grandparents: ok, but have you tried not having ocd

[tourettish]

Waiting to “grow out of it” like your neurologist said you would all those years ago

[ocpdiddy]

Me: what if I told you… you could have a thought… without it meaning anything

OCD: sounds fake but okay

[obsessive-compulsive-survivor]

If my OCD could let up for just a moment that would be

Fucking superb

[wellwatered-deactivated20200419]

friend: why are your hands all messed up?

me: oh i pick at my skin when i’m anxious

friend: well stop

me:

Wow, I’ve Never Thought of That Before

[kurapicano-remaking-deactivated]

[violet-tears]

Mood swings are weird

me: is happy and doesn‘t care about anyone‘s opinion, starts singing to music and laughing at my dog while taking a walk

*5 minutes later*

me: depressed as if my dog just died,doesn‘t want to go home but also wants to be back in her bed to hide from the world, feels unloveable as fuck.

*30 minutes later *

me: laughing alone like a creep at memes

[helperhoopoe]

intrusive thoughts are created because they’re what you fear the most. they’re not what you’re going to do. they’re what you hate most of all. 

they’re not an indication of how evil you are. the only thing they indicate is what you’re most against. 

[faeneko-blog]

Trichotillomania: a disorder which involves the urge to pull out hair

Dermatillomania: a disorder which involves the urge to pick off skin

[slim--pickins]

[lifeinfractals]

OCD problem #001

Knowing that you did the thing but not trusting your brain to remember that you did the thing. So you do the thing again. And again. And again. And again. And again.

[ocd-problems]

When you forget to take your meds for a few days

[ocd-problems]

When you want to do something but your OCD won't let you