The Recruiter x Seo Moon - Jo. The Recruiter has unique name Kang Do Yoon, he didnât open his name and no one knows his real name. I imagined name for him because I wanted to underline his unique charisma, his power, his strength, his sadistic behavior and imagined name Kang Do Yoon for him.
Warnings: Dead Dove Do Not Eat, Language, Implied Violence, Age gap, God Complex, Brainwashing, Psychopathy, Murder, Blood, Gore, Codependency, Yandere!Salesman, Stalking, Smut (+18) mdni, Voyeurism, Blood Kink, Sadomasocism, Dom!Salesman, Sub!Reader, Choking, Rough Sex, Oral Sex, Blood Play, fingering, Massive Degradation Kink, Praise Kink, Sadism, Punishments, Dom/Sub Dynamics, Squirting, Overstimulation
A/n: I'm not responsible for the media you consume.
This can be read as a continuation of this fic but not strictly
âShouldn't I be blindfolded?"
If it weren't for the silence simmering between you both, in this monotonous taxi drive, he mightâve not heard you at all and perhaps you should have been more careful with your choice of wording but you were feeling a tiny bit reckless this Wednesday afternoon. He hadn't ever offered to personally fetch you from campus, and you felt incredibly juvenile when you spotted him standing there like a dad, in his grown-up suit while his briefcase hung in his hands in front of him. You'd almost convinced yourself that you were imagining things. That somehow your obsession with the man who kidnaps you every Wednesday to fulfill all his messed up fantasies was truly taking a toll on your mental health.
Fortunately, or perhaps unfortunately, he was real. And he had come to pick you up and you were feeling awfully giddy as he ushered you both into a taxi while a few of your peers stood and stared.
By now he would've blindfolded you. Keeping you completely clueless to the location he brings you to every Wednesday. See, your Salesman had myriad deep rooted issues. Mania. Sociopathy. Sadism. But the issue that irked you the very most was his inability to trust. Before you know it, you're pouting up a storm as you ask him. "Why aren't we using the blindfold today?"
He slowly removes his gaze from the window, where he had been pondering like the old man he is. He quirks up an eyebrow, letting the intensity of his attention wash completely over you.
"Would you like to be blindfolded?" He asks playfully. His eyes are sparkling with amusement and his lips are quirked up like it usually is when he's being sardonic. Still, you remain cautious as you lean forward. You send one quick glance to the taxi driver, wondering if you were being led in some kind of hearse on the road to your death.
"A-Are you going to kill me?" For the first time, cold, white fear ices the warm blood rushing through your veins. Come to think of it, he did seem far chirpier than usual. Perhaps that should have been your first warning. The flags were blood red but you were wearing rose-tinted glasses.
He only snickers before placing a heavy hand on your head, patting it down.
He doesn't answer you for the duration of the taxi drive, causing you to slip more and more into your thoughts of morbidity and despair. Why else wouldn't he blindfold you if not to end your life once you got there? It seemed dreadfully logical and so on-brand for him. He'd get bored of you sooner or later and then he'd dispose of you. There'd be no need to blindfold you any longer while he took you to his place because you'd soon become a corpse and-
"Doll." The voice cuts through the chatter filling your brain. All at once, the car has stopped, and warm air rushes into the interior as he holds the door open for you. "Get out of the nice man's car." He jests politely, quickly prompting you to unbuckle your seatbelt and scramble out of the taxi.
The second you're out he walks ahead of you. The building that comes into focus before you have your brows crinkling.
You quickly catch up to him, gazing up at his monotonous face. "Why are we here? You never come to my house."
He doesn't respond as you both walk into the foyer. He walks briskly and powerfully, like a man on the move while you send a small wave to the security manning the front desk. You both enter an empty elevator and he presses a button without you ever having to tell him which floor.
"You're going to kill me, aren't you?"
He lowers his gaze to you, one eyebrow quirked up.
"You only die when you disappoint me and as of late," he stares directly ahead, "You haven't disappointed me."
The elevator dings and he steps out. You follow him like a puppy without a leash. "In fact I'd say your work ethic as of late has been-" he blows out a long sigh as he makes it your apartment door- recalling all the weeks you two have spent together in vivid kaleidoscopic images. All the pain you let him inflict on you and pleasure he'd offer as a reward.
"-nothing short of stellar. I'm proud of you." He punches in the code to your apartment and you both enter. The curtains are drawn shut because your roommate hates sunlight. You preferred it but there was no communicating with something like her.
He kicks off his shoes at the door.
"What are we doing here?" You ask nervously, "My roommate will be back soon and she isn't very nice."
"We won't be playing at my place today." He says finally meeting your wild and nervous eyes. He seems so lax and so in control. "We'll be playing here."
"B-But my roommate."
"Is that why you were crying?" His gaze keeps you rooted to the floors, unable to move even if you wanted to, "Because of your roommate?"
"Crying? I wasn't crying-"
"Back at the university," he says, casually removing a microscopic piece of lint from his grey blazer, "Your head was beant and you looked up at me with bloodshot eyes." His eyes shine with amusement as he says, "Usually with our sessions, the crying only comes later on." Then he quirks his head and asks, "What happened?" There's a bang somewhere in the apartment and your head snaps forward. Your eyes scan over the adjoining living room and kitchen but he seems unfazed.
"It's stupid-" you shake your head, "Like who even still gets bullied in uni?"
You laugh pitifully, leaning against the nearest wall. He stands tall before you. A brick wall.
"Your roommate's threatening to kick you out of this apartment to move her boyfriend in?" He asks before adding, "Again."
Your head snaps up to him, "H-How-"
In that moment, he turns rather robotically, making his way deeper into your home. It's clean. Thank God.
"You don't realize how chatty you get when you're about to orgasm." He says before stopping right outside your closed bedroom door.
"My roommate- she... decided last night that- well- she would really like her boyfriend to live here instead-"
"Without consulting you first?" He clarifies, staring blankly ahead at the door, listening very attentively.
"Y-Yes without consulting me." You bring your hand to the doorknob, on your way to open it but he stops you with an iron grip around your wrist. You wince.
âContinue talking.â He says and you do.
"This morning they both kinda sprung on me that they'd like to be living here now. She went behind my back and already placed the deposit down our landlord, well," you clear your throat. "I might be homeless soon." You laugh but then swallow very thickly as the gravity of the situation falls onto your shoulders.
"And still you decided to have our sessions today?"
"If you'll have me," you nod.
"Remarkable." He replies. "Well I've never been very fond of my things or my toys getting dirty." He begins mysteriously as he places his hand directly over yours on the doorknob.
"Pardon?"
"I can't have my favorite toy living out on the street. Who knows what kind of animals would try to rape you or drug you or fucking stick their slimey dicks inside you-" he turns the doorknob, clicking your room open.
You're not even sure when this started happening. These 'private sessions' with your Salesman that quickly bled into something much more concerning. Before you knew it, he was seeping into your brain, polluting you with obsession. There had never ever been anyone else involved.
"What the hell did you do?" You ask, slowly entering your room to find two chairs placed directly in front of your bed. As soon as you enter, you hear the blood curdling, muffled screams being ripped from the throat of the two people strapped to those chairs.
"I'm protecting my investment," Says your Salesman as he pushes the door closed behind you.
Your feet feel like lead as you watch them and their panic-stricken eyes. There in front of you, they sit opposite one another, both with a haggard countenance and tears streaming down their cheeks.
At the sight of you, your roommate screams something horrid but it's muffled by the gag placed in her mouth, a gag the shape of a dog bone.
He's there too. The boyfriend. He's not as loud or as frantic as she is but he's significantly startled. His eyes are wild and vacant. The same gag.
"Oh my god-" you begin but he cuts in front of you, making his way to the couple seated across from each other.
"We're all gonna play a game- a quick one," He says, "Can't play for too long because I've been dying to get inside you since I saw those pretty little bloodshot eyes."
"Sir- I"
If you knew his name you might've screamed it in this moment. 'Sir' is your only point of reference to address the manic man in front of you.
This isn't right.
Right?
You're so confused, you barely register than you've thought out loud. It hits you as he slowly shrugs his blazer off.
"What isn't right is them thinking they can rape this apartment from underneath you." He says, folding it and placing it meticulously over your desk.
"I- have neighbors!?" You begin but he has a plan for that too.
"I had your room soundproofed since our first session." You're pushed into even more confusion.
"WHAT!? When did you even-"
"While you were at school-" he says before uncovering a handgun from his briefcase. A handgun and a silencer.
"Point is, Doll, I'm going to need you to play a game for me, ok?"
"DOLL!?" Comes your roommates' mortified and muffled cries.
"I need you to make one tiny decision for me." He says, screwing on the silencer onto the barrel of the revolver. It strikes you then that even when the mask is off, and the worst workings of his personality are on display for all to gaze upon, you still find him breathtakingly attractive.
"If-" tears burn the back of your throat, "If this room is soundproof why-why do you need a silencer?"
"I'm nothing if not a cautious man, you know this." Then his expression turns very grave and very dark as he says. "Don't you?"
âYes, Sir,â you reply almost automatically. Like your need to respond to him- to please him, greatly overpowered your moral compass. âYou're extremely cautious.â
Your roommate releases a shrill noise from the very back of her throat, her eyes pleading with the humanity she desperately tries to find in yours.
âOut of these two, he's my least favourite,â Your Salesman says, standing beside you. Eyes wild as he points his gun to the boyfriend's head.
âBut this isn't about me,â he turns to face you, slowly dragging you gaze away from the victims that had once been your tormentors. You look up at him with a broken sob slipping through your lips. âI need you to choose.â
There it is.
His words seem to detonate what little fate you had in his humanity. There is nothing in his eyes except hedonism and violence.
"I'm going to have you to choose very quickly, baby-â
You're already shaking your head as frazzled braids tickle your shoulders. Your eyes find theirs and you immediately say, âI'm not going to do it.â
When you look at him again, you're almost horrified to find the smile that had once been on his face, completely wiped away. His face is a shadow and it strikes you way more than anything ever has. Something in you scolds you. It gnaws at you to make things right.
âDon't do that.â He says darkly. âDon't disappoint me.â
His hands -one still holding a gun- moves to cup both your cheeks. He cranes your neck further back, gazing deeply. âI can't have you living on the street.â
âYou don't have to kill anyone-â
His jaw ticks, âPick.â
âSirâŠâ
âYou're disappointing me.â
All it takes is those three words to have your world crashing to the floor. Tears blur your vision as you raise a trembling finger.
âHim. I pick him.â
It's the first time you realized that you were brimming with codependency
Or stupidity.
Or maybe both
âThat's a good girl.â He coos, pressing a kiss to your forehead. The father you never had.
He lets his eyes meet that of the boyfriend who is shaking and writhing in seat.
âWhat a good fucking girl I have, wouldn't you agree?â He asks the boyfriend yet he only cries and cries and cries. Meanwhile, you're bathing in the warm, milky words of praise.
"I suppose you wouldn't be able to agree to much in a second-"
He raises the gun.
Wait-" but the trigger is already pulled, and the bullet slices through the air and the deed is done.
It's remarkable how fast it travels. The speed of the bullet. Like it's competing with light itself. One moment his head is there and his brain is inside it, functioning like usual and the next moment, it's splattered all across my bedroom wall, coating your stuffed animals and drenching your pink bedding.
âYou killed someoneâŠâ
âWe killed someone, and you did such a good job. Now we're real rich people-â
You shake your head.
âOh my fucking god we killed someone-â
It's stupid, but the first thought that comes to mind is-
âHow- How am I gonna get the stain out!?â
âI'll get you new sheets, Doll, I promiseâŠâ
Meanwhile the roommate is crying and screaming her throat hoarse. You watch gravely as vomit soaks her gag.
âThat's fucking disgusting.â He says before turning back to you. A spray of blood scatters across the side of his handsome face. He'd just committed murder and yet you still describe him as handsome.
âYou're not disgusting at all.â He says, âYou're so clean and beautiful.â His large hands rub over your face. âAnd now this apartment's yours. Ours. Maybe.â
Ours.
That word somehow affects you more than the murder you'd just lay witness to. It has you staring up at him with grateful, love-filled eyes. You're still scared but, you were his. And that was a powerful feeling. You'd never belonged to anyone before. Certainly not any man as handsome or smart as this. This isn't rose-tinted glasses anymore, it's rose-tinted vision.
âWe killed someone.â You say. Solidifying the fact that you were a couple.
Your heart rages in its cage when his eyes nearly roll to the back of his head.
âFuck yes we did,â he moans before smashing his lips down onto yours. Confusion and discomfort wage a terrific and bloody war inside you as he kisses you absolutely dizzy. Your insides are swirling and your stomach is turning at the sight of the blood drenching your walls.
he tips your head up, forcing his tongue in and he moans when you let him. Your tongues touch and coax and he pulls you in close.
âYou know how good you looked when I picked you up earlier, Doll? I loved seeing those bloodshot eyes of yours.â He mumbles, âI just hated not being the one to make you cry.â
You sob something awful. The sound escapes you while your lips are still plastered to his.
âBut this is all me,â he says proudly, gazing down at your watery eyes as he pins you up against the wall. âThis is all me.â
Your roommate sits in a daze. Over his wide shoulder, her eyes stare blankly into yours and you almost find yourself mouthing the words 'I'm sorry'.
Almost. But you never do.
Your brain is too clouded by feelings of fear, regret, pleasure and⊠satisfaction. In your defense her boyfriend really fucking sucked.
"Take this off." He groans, lowering his large build to the floor to shove your shorts and underwear down. Undressing you almost formally as he lifts your one leg out followed by the other.
Your eyes are still on her.
Every vile word she's said to you. Every occasion she'd bring her equally cruel friends over and they'd gossip about you loud enough for their words to carry through the walls.
You realize very gravely that your care is waning.
That humanity that was still left inside you is thinning.
And he's pressing wet kisses against your legs, worshipping the soft cellulite at your thighs.
A man in a suit at his knees for you and she's forced to watch.
It makes you feel so-
"Fucking beautiful, fuck." He groans.
The more riled up he is, the less care he gives to how crass his language becomes. As if trapped in a daze, with your eyes still on your tormentor -your bully- you hook your fingers into his hair. Parting your legs you lead his mouth to your exposed cunt and he slurps you up for all your worth.
Your eyes roll to the back of your head as he eats you out with vigor. He flattens his tongue and suctions his mouth against your clit, causing a deep and guttural moan to spill from your lips.
He pulls back, breathing raggedly, "Fuck my face," he commands, before placing both hands on your ass, enough to have your cunt riding his open mouth. It feels so fucking good your eyes are stinging with tears. You let them fall because you'd know he'd appreciate it. He appreciates every tear in your confidence. Every waver in your air-tight judgement. It undoes him completely to see you so fucking pathetic.
He looks up at you while you're riding him. Those morally black eyes are urging you to hump his face and you do.
At the sight of your tears falling his nails dig into your ass and you moan more. All the sounds you're able to make are in intelligible sounds of pleasure. But you force yourself to come to your senses. Just long enough to whisper
"Th-Thank you, Sir,"
He stills. Completely stunned.
You come. It crashes down on you all while your roommate tries to squeeze her crying eyes shut, shaking her head as if trying to delude herself into believing none of this is real.
"You are fucking fire, you know that?" He croaks, slowly rising. You're breathing oh so quickly and it only speeds up at the sight of your arousal casting his jaw.
âI wanna fucking hurt you so bad. I wanna eat you. I wanna fuck you. I wanna do so many unspeakable things to you- you're so perfect.â
He throws one more gaze over his shoulder. His almond eyes scan over the body, then the girl and he groans, furiously undoing his belt.
"How the fuck did I get so lucky?â he says, almost to himself.
"Answer me." He presses his body firmly against yours, until your spine is straight against the wall. "Fucking answer me when I talk to you."
He growls before bringing a hand up to your chin. It's painful the way he grabs you, but you're so used to pain. It lives here now. Between you both.
"I-I- don't know-" you really don't know and he melts at that.
"I'll tell you how, Princess. " he wraps your leg around his waist, "People like me- people we call crazy and evil-â His eyes are so wide, his smile too. -we get nice things. And people like that-" he quirks his head backwards, âThe weak? Those people on the streets, they die.â He says, grinding his cock agaisnt your cunt, âAnd we don't die, yeah?"
"Oh fuck." You're seeing stars when his cock sinks into your cunt. It's hard and raging and he's already doing multiple shallow thrusts to force it deeper. "S-So big-" you can't talk, you hardly ever can when he's like this. Fucking you into an absolute frenzy.
"You gonna squirt for me, Doll?â he grits his teeth, hips stuttering as he ravages you against the wall. "F-Fuck." Some
âShe's a really good squirter-â he turns his head to watch your roommate over his shoulder. Her head is slumped forward, she's fainted perhaps.
After weeks of trying to impress him, to show him that you were not the weak little thing he had first kidnapped- you realize it's paid off. He caveman grunts as he fucks you deeper and harder and a cry rips itself from your throat.
âY-You want me?â You ask with trembling lips.
âBaby,â he breathes directly into your mouth. âI need you.â
"F-Fuck-" your orgasm sneaks up on you and he watches with immense gratification as you come undone on his cock.
âYou're making a mess on my cock-â clear liquid streams out of hou, threatinging tk lush his cock out but he fucks you through it.
âGonna fucking cum inside you, baby. You're gonna take it, aren't you? My good girl's gonna fucking take it,â he throws his head back as his eyes flutter closed and soon he's fucking spurts of warm cum into you.
It fills you completely until the mess is coating your thighs. Through your wave of endless euphoria you see stars, the planets and him in the very centre of it all, guiding you and coaxing you through the bountiful high.
Even when he's done, his cock is still nestled deep inside you, pushing you over the brink of stimulation.
"You're very promising.â He admits, âAlways have been.â
Pairing: the salesman (gong yoo) x winner!fem!reader
Summary: a year after winning your games, an unexpected guest shows up at your door, offering to play one more game of ddakji with you, just for the fun of it, and because you're his favorite winner.
Warnings: mentions of trauma, mentions of blood and gore, violence (basically just you smacking him a lot lol), masochism (<- on him, if you squint really hard?), English isnât my first language, mistakes should be present, sorry!
Word count: ~ 1k
You almost didnât answer the door.
It was lateâthe kind of late where the silence pressed in too close and left you too alone for your thoughts. The rain tapped against the windows felt louder than it should. You hadnât been expecting anyone. Not anymore, anyways.
Your thoughts drifted to that moment. When you stood on that playground that reflected a childish innocence, yet your hands were trembling, blood drying beneath your nails and painted across your teal uniform, the sound of the final breath and the plea that the other player let out before you swung down the knife with a cold precision that pierced him right through the head. It was over. You won. But it never felt like you were the winner.
The knock had been deliberate, sharp. Three steady raps, not the kind delivered by accident or from someone who might go away if ignored, it broke you out of your haze.
You told yourself you werenât afraid as you approached, but your heartbeat felt too loud in your ears. Your fingers curled around the lock, hesitating for just a second. Then, you opened it.
And there he was.
The salesman.
You hadnât seen him since the same rainy day where he found you in the subway station, drenched and cold, in debtâout of money, when he offered to play a simple game of ddakji with you. Not since he handed you a card with a number on the back and disappeared without a trace.
Yet here he stood, wearing the same tailored suit, sharp as ever. His face was unchangedâcalm, composed, as if this was just another evening, another game. But it wasnât.
You could tell by the way his eyes softened the moment they met yours.
He didnât speak right away. His gaze swept over your face, tracing every detail, as if cataloging how youâd changed. Or maybe searching for the cracks left behind.
Then, his hand lifted.
The red and blue ddakji were already there, pinched between his fingers as though theyâd never left. Worn slightly at the edges, but still bold in color. Waiting.
âCare for another game?â His voice was smooth, calm. Too calm.
Your stomach twisted.
The paper. The slap. The start of everything that seemed to haunt you.
It all came back too easilyâhow the game had started with that simple challenge, the humiliating sting of his palm every time you lost. Until you hadnât. Until youâd proven you could be a winner, until he handed you that card as a congratulations.
âNo.â Your voice came out flat. You started to close the door.
His foot shifted forward, not blocking but close enough that the message was clear: not yet.
âYou donât seem so sure.â His gaze lingered, voice quieter now. More dangerous in its softness. âYouâve played before.â
You swallowed, hating how he made it sound like a compliment. Like something to be proud of.
âI donât play anymore,â you said, sharper this time.
His lips parted like he might argue, but thenâhe smiled. It wasnât smug. Not mocking. Something else entirely. You hated how it made your skin prickle.
His head tilted slightly, fingers flexing around the ddakji. âYou won, though. You survived. Out of all of them⊠you were quite ruthless.â
You shouldnât have let him say that. But it was too late. Something inside you cracked.
Your hand shot out before you fully registered the movement. A sharp, stinging crack as your palm met his cheek, the impact louder than you expected in the quiet.
He barely moved.
He just stood there, lips parted slightly in surprise. And thenâhe smiled again, slower this time, his head tipping back, exposing the faint pink blooming across his cheekbone in the dim lights.
It felt less satisfying that he just let the pain settle there.
âThereâs that fire,â he said, his voice taunting. âThe same fire that got you through the games, that made you kill all those people, hm? I always knew you had it.â
Another slap, harder this time. His head jerked slightly with the force of it, his cheek flushing a deeper red. He exhaled softly, just a breath, but it sounded too much like a gasp, like something heâd been holding back.
And when his eyes met yours againâ no smile. Not this time. Just a flicker of something you couldn't understand.
His hand shifted between you, lifting the ddakji slightly as if to remind you why he was here.
âYouâll have to win first,â he said, voice hoarse but playful. âBefore you keep doing that.â
The tension was so thick you could cut it with a knife, the air too still.
You snatched the red ddakji from his hand, the paper crinkling slightly as your fingers curled around it.
The game began like it had before. The slap of paper against the floor. The silence between rounds, broken only by breath and the occasional hiss when a piece landed just wrong.
But it wasnât like before, not really.
Because you felt his presence too closely nowâthe way he watched you, not just your hands but your face, your mouth, your eyes. As if he was searching for cracks in your mask.
So you played harder. Sharper.
And then you won.
The blue ddakji flipped with a sharp slap, the smooth side landing face up, and you felt the victory surge in your chestânot just from the game, but because of him.
Your eyes met his, he didnât speak, didnât flinch when your palm connected with his face a third time, but this timeâhis breath hitched. A subtle, almost imperceptible sound, but it was there.
And his gaze? It was the same as before. The same as that first night when he watched you fight for your life with nothing but paper and desperation.
He took a step back, finally breaking the moment. Rain whispered against the window, the only sound in the room now.
He bent down and picked up the red and blue ddakji, stuffing them into his pockets as his smile returned, and you could've sworn you saw a hint of pride in his eyes.
Summary: What's a broke girl to do when her university bills keep piling up and a sadistic Salesman offers to take all her problems away? All at one tiny little price.
Warning: Dead Dove Do Not Eat, Kidnapping, SociallyAnxious!Reader, Blindfolds, Stalking, Knives, Blood, Stockholm Syndrome, Mentions of Suicide, Restraints, Anxiety, Smut (+18) mdni, Degradation Kink, Praise Kink, Rough Sex, Erotophonophilia, Dom!Salesman, Sub!Reader, Dacryphillia, Sadomasochism, Oral Sex (m!rec), Deepthroating, Blood Kink
A/N: I'm not responsible for the media you consume
You hadn't initially intended on slitting your own wrist. That idea was birthed almost vicariously in the moment. If he hadn't stopped you, your corpse would have been found laying on a park bench, covered in its own wet blood that would have been dripping from its open wrist like a faucet. Surely his proposition would be better than that.
With your vision obstructed by a heavy blindfold, your hearing is ten times more prominent. You hear the sound of your own breathing, as if your body was taunting you with all the life it still begrudgingly held inside it. You also heard heavy yet elegant footsteps cross a marble floor. Then you hear the scratch of a vinyl as the very sounds of an orchestra bleeds into the atmosphere.
"Hello," said the Man in the gray suit who had accosted you in the park. You remember the way in which he had sat beside you.
No one had ever sat beside you. Not even any of your peers that roamed the university. Everything about your countenance was so worried and severe. You wore your money problems on your sleeves and that evidently warded off any chance of a social life you had hoped to have.
The moon was shining particularly bright and the stars were twinkling little spectators to your silent meltdown on the park bench. Your eyes had been reading and re-reading the email sent to you by the university. An urgent email amongst a sea of urgent emails begging you to 'please just pay them'.
"Don't slit your wrist," he had said, "Not before you've given yourself a chance to win at life first."
You had looked up at him with bloodshot eyes from all that crying over potentially getting kicked out of university. He hadn't melted at your expression, in fact he only smiled softly. "We ought to play a game-"
"I wasn't going to slit my wrist."
"You were just holding that boxcutter for fun, then?" He curled up an eyebrow, leading both of your gazes down to the pocket box cutter that sat in your lap, the blade extended.
"I'm not in the mood to play a game."
"Not even at the cost of your university fees?" Your eyes snapped up to him then. He sat a healthy distance away from you. The space between you both was filled with possibilities so endless it was becoming uncomfortable to breathe. "How much do you owe them now?"
"That's none of your business," you were on the verge of gathering your things. Your boxcutter and your pride.
Perhaps you could kill yourself somewhere else, preferably without a man accosting you about the embarrassing state of your funds.
"I could pay for your university fees, you know," His words morphed into an anchor, keeping your butt firmly planted to the park bench. A midnight runner passed by you two. An evening breeze blew through your scalp and the goosebumps descended.
"Of course, you'd have to win first."
Anyone could see the conflict warring within your irses.
"This is how people get sex trafficked," you'd said, "Absolutely no thank you," How utterly in control you had been! A girl with a firm head on her shoulders.
He only laughed then. He laughed and laughed, so much so he had to politely clear his throat.
"You were about to kill yourself. Don't pretend to have any self preservation now," his words had struck a cord deep within the inner workings of your soul. Your face heated as you hid yourself, tucking your chin against your chest. You did suddenly feel remarkably silly and so incredibly juvenile.
"Don't worry," he had said with an almost lopsided grin, "It's your lack of self preservation that I find so incredibly intriguing, hence I'm asking for one game."
It was only one game.
One game and if you were lucky enough to win, you might coast through the rest of university stress-free. Like a normal 20 year old with normal 20 year old problems. Boyfriends. Clubbing. Whatever else all those girls did when they huddled together in their magnificent little groups. You could be a part of them. For once you had to give yourself the opportunity of feeling like a member of society.
"Are these restraints a necessary element of our game?"
As you sit in this room- a room he had brought you too- blindfolded- you tell yourself that you are giving yourself a chance to be a normal 20 year old. That's why you were currently restrained to a leather chair. The restraints held your wrists to the armrests and your and your ankles to the feet of the chair. This led to the slight and uncomfortable spreading of your legs- a dangerously vulnerable position to be in when you were wearing nothing but a university jumper and a pleated skirt.
You quickly find out that you didn't like to be restrained.
Your chest rises and falls a little higher with every sharp intake of your breath as you will yourself into calmness. Freaking out now seemed completely silly.
Almost as silly as letting a stranger bring you to his hidden location.
Had you no sense of self preservation at all?
Were you a walking piece of meat, waiting for the first predator to sink its teeth into you?
Has that predator finally arrived?
"The restraints are unfortunately a necessary element.â He says, softly, âThe human body tends to get jittery when it's met with unforeseen stimuli, and I don't want you running out on me."
That lets the panic solidify itself even more in your bones. This man walked as if he was a perfectly stand up guy and that helped in your decision of letting him bring you here.
Nothing seemed particularly wrong with him at first glance.
His face has all the workings of a perfectly normal man. He looked like he was in possession of a cushy, stable job with pensions and benefits. A salesman.
He looked like he attended his kids soccer matches on the weekends.
He looked married to a beautiful woman who looks good in mom jeans and baked brownies for her Wednesday night book club.
He looked so painfully normal.
But the panic is rising, the more that âdanse macabreâ fills the room.
"C-Could you at least play something else," You are fidgeting now and it causes him to raise a brow. "Danse macabre is just," you attempt to swallow but your tongue is completely dry, "-incredibly unnerving, right now."
You try to massage your wrists in the restraints and you breathe through your nostrils as a phantom pain shoots through your legs. The need to move was eating you alive.
"You know your classical music," The man regarded you with slight intrigue as he folded the piece of material he had once used to obstruct your vision. He places it on a tiny coffee table before you. "Interesting for a kid your age. Do you know the story behind it?"
"Of course, I do, why do you think I'm nervous?" You had his full attention now. You were almost drowning in it as he lowered himself to a leather chair directly opposite you.
You had never had anyone listen to you as intently as he does. No one bothered to hear what you had to say. The voices in your head were your only audienceâŠ
Now you have someone seated before you, so lax as he urges you to, âGo on, explain why it makes you so nervous.â It was completely addicting.
âW-Well,â you swallowed the air again. âDanse macabre quite literally means dance of death,â he sits back in his chair, his fingers tapping against his mouth.
âWhy?â he asks in deeply monotony, as if you had captured him as much as he, evidently captured hou. Like you weren't the only one in restraints.
Your brows furrowed âIs this quiz apart of the game-â
âNo. I just want to hear you talk.â He says as he reaches over the side of his chair uncovering a sleek black briefcase veneered in expensive leather. He assures you with a single nod of his head that he's listening as he clocks open the briefcase.
âWell,â your eyes are on the whiteboard he pulls out, âCamille wrote this symphony all dark and depressing because it's supposed to sound like it's being played by death himself,â
The suited man smiles down at his busy hands as he lays your boxcutter on the coffee table beside the whiteboard. âI-It tells us that death is the great equalizer. It doesn't matter if you have money or you're about to be kicked out of university for insufficient funds-â he cracks a small smile at that, pulling out a whiteboard marker in the process, âthe dance of death is inevitable for us all. Money can't buy you out of it.â You shake your head, âIt's real medieval shit.â
You watch him smile again. It's devastatingly attractive which immediately raises the alarms in your own head. This man has restrained you in a chair, in an undisclosed location. For all you knew, death was very well the thing waiting for you at the end of all this.
But he wouldn't stop you from killing yourself, only to kill you himself, would he?
You'd heard about serial killers being raging narcissists. You would virtually be a lousy victim, having already wanted to die.
That thought calms you somewhat.
âWe're going to play âHangmanâ,â he turns the board to reveal a simple drawing of a gallow and a man hanging from it.
âAre you familiar with it?â
âOf course,â you nod your head, your nerves level somewhat at the sight of the little stick figure.
Just guess a letter to a mystery before the Hangman is drawn. These were children's games.
âFor every word you get right, a semester of your studies is paid in full.â He smiles, warmly, watching the awe blossom across your face. âYou'll get your degree and become the psychologist you've always wanted to be.â
Your brows furrow, âH-How did you know I-â
âOf course there's a penalty to the game,â you watch him erase the little stick figure, as he draws the little lines corresponding with the amount of letters in the mystery word. âIf you don't guess the correct words in time,â Time stands still. âWell⊠The word get carved into your skin.â
You had never been a cautious individual. When your mother would fret and nag about your safety, you would roll your eyes. Everyone else always had self preservation for you. Why would you need it? Bad things rarely happen to boring people. The news coverage worthy stuff? You?
But here you were, fucking drowning in the Bad stuff.
"I'm not playing,â You begin to try and twist your wrist out of the restraints as your panicked eyes zero in on the blade seated on the desk. âI'm not fucking playing-â
âI'm afraid that isn't an option. What's your first letter?â
Despite the soundproof padding stylishly plastered against the sleek black walls you still scream "HELP-Oh my god- HELPâ
He walks over towards you in large strides, clamping his hands in your skull and pulling your head back. He's much closer now. Closer than he had been at the park. His eyes are sparkling with intensity and a manic sort of quality that escaped you on your first meeting. Where were these eyes when you were still on that park bench, still able to choose to run far, far away to the nearest police station.
Where were these wild eyes then?
âLook at how scared you've gotten...â He laughs, in your face, âA scared, terrified little Doll-â
âPlease let me go-â
âI'm not the one keeping you restrained here.â He lifts his hands as if he were completely crime-free, âYou decided to play this game out of your own volition. You're restraining yourself, Dollâ
âJesus, that doesn't even make sense-â you cry, âHELP-â
He pulls a tighter grip around your hair, silencing your cries as a wince bleeds out of your instead..
âYou don't wanna do that,â he says, staring deep into your glassy irses, âI have a thing for little girls with pretty tears-â
âPlease don't hurt me-â you didn't wanna be a newspaper girl. You didn't want to be a nobody-turned-somebody because her death was so grisly it graced the front pages of a newspaper. That isn't the way your story was supposed to go and so you plead with the humanity inside him. You search for it under all that black ink filling his almond eyes.
Nothing.
They're absolutely black.
âGuess a letter, Doll."
You steal your nerves. Your shoulders slump.
âE-Every word has a vowel in it right?â his eyes flutter shut as he presses his lips against the side of your face. He seems like he's transforming into a completely different person right before your very eyes and it set you alight with fear.
Fear and something else.
âThat's it, now we're getting somewhere,â
âI'll go with âAâ,â a tense, mortifying silence stretches between you too. He begrudgingly removes his hand from your hair, patting down your head like the child he regressed you to as he strolled to the white board.
âCorrect.â
He writes the letter âaâ twice on the little lines. The first one of the second line and the second one on the fourth line and almost with your brain slotting into place you raise your head. you wipe a stray tear on your shoulder before saying, âI-I- know what the word is.â
He raises his eyebrow. âAlready?â Intuition was a scary thing. It was like a last resort, leaving you clamouring for hope.
âCare to share,â
âIs there an ârââ you look up at him. âI need to be sure.â Your legs are fidgeting in anxiety. Your fingernails dig into the leather under the armrest.
He is quiet as he draws an ârâ over the second last line.
âMacabre. The word is âmacabre.ââ
A slow almost predatory grin stretches across his face.
The number that haunted your every waking hour, bleed from your lips like a prayer.
You watch as he lowers the white board marker to uncover a phone in his back pocket. He taps a few buttons and in a matter of moments- he turns his screen towards you.
What a remarkable day this had turned out to be.
âHow do you know my banking details?,â you ask, squinting your eye at the screen, âWho are yo-â
âThat round was too easy.â He moves to sit back down, âHere's your next word,â your heart falls when he only draws three lines underneath the gallow.
Three letter words could be the easiest or the most difficult when it comes to a game like this.
âA?ââ you ask through wet lashes. Your only option was to hammer through the list of vowels.
âOoh-â he pouts, before drawing a Hangman's head. âTry again.â
âE?â
He's silent as he draws a stick for The Hangman's body. The panic kickstarts once more.
âShit-â
âThat's not a letter?â He jests, âOne more non-word and you're Disqualified, Doll.â His knee is bouncing up and down. As if everything in him was anticipating the end of the game. Your nerves are drowing in anxiety.
âI-â
âYou can't just name every vowel under the sun, Doll. You don't have very many options remaining.â He draws the stick figures first arm.
4 chances left.
âO?â Your breath catches in your lungs. You watch as he throws his head back to lift his hips slightly, as if adjusting his pants. It almost immediately lowers your gaze to the prominent bulge there. Fuck. Not only was he anticipating your loss, he was getting off to the thought of it.
âWell done.â He writes âoâ in the second line. Right between the middle and end lines.
âUh- âcââ
He adds another appendage to the stick figure. â3 more chances remaining.â He says, standing up. His arm jitters as he picks up the boxcutter in.
âG-â you ask through tears. He kneels in front of you, his eyes are almost as desperate as yours.
âYou are the most fun I've had in years,â he admits, before turning to draw another appendage.
âGuess again, Doll,â the boxcutter extends and you cry.
âYou don't have to do this,â You plead and he only sighs as he places his forehead against yours.
âYou are such a brave little girl, you know that-â
âOh my god-â
â2 more guesses.â
ââT?â You squeak out so quietly, as your eyes squeeze shut.
He presses his lips to your right cheek and you melt. The fear all disappears and it's just you and him. Even on his knees, he's so large, so towering. It sets you alight with incomparable need.
âWell done, Doll- I'm so proud of you, " he sighs, âOne more word, baby.â
âP- wait, No!" the sound barely makes it out of your mouth and looks down at you, chest rising and falling.
You hold your breath, eyes wide and wet and it makes him so fucking hard.
âY- my answer is âYâ.â He exhibited all the signs of a sadist. Of course his word for you word be-
âThat's my answer. âToyâ
A tense silence bleeds as he brings the boxcutter into your field of vision, and you're once again writhing in your seat. âPlease- please no-â
âFuck I'm gonna need to cum-â He admits gravely. Even more grave, even more harrowing, you're squirming in your seat. Lust balling deep within your cut. You're terrified but so utterly turned on.
Is masochism a symptom of loneliness?
âPlease-â
He presses the blade to your leg and you both watch as he sinks the tip down onto your skin. For all those moments, you revel in the pain. The blade breaks skin and you cry out as droplets of blood grows pregnant along your thigh. Danse macabre crescendos and tears fall. As he swipes his finger along the drop of crimson.
âD-Did I not get it right?"
ââYou got it right,â he admits, undoing the buttons of his blazer as he stands to his heavy feet once more. The menacing shadow of a God. He's humongous and you crane your neck back to look at him.
âmy little winner-â he mumbles, planting a heavy hand on your head as his other hand rubs over his erection.
âI-If I got it right,â you mumble through your sniffles, âTh-Then why did you cut me?â
He looks down at you. The hand planted on your head moves down to the side of your face as he unzips his pants. Your heart is banging out of its cage as he lowers his pants just enough to have his hand slipping into his boxers.
He watches the blood smudged across your thigh.
âI just-â he curses as he uncovers his fully erect cock, leaking precum,âI just wanted to see your blood.â he admits gravely before bringing his cupped hand to your lips.
'Spit.â He commands.
You're unable to look away. The precum beading the head of his cock slides down the thick veins along the length of it- all the way to the base. You want him in your mouth. Inside you. The need and the pain is an avalanche of contradictions.
He makes you feel so scared, so wanted.
âDon't make me ask again.â He says darkly, tilting your head up to look deep into his eyes.
His fingers prod at your lips and your mouth falls open as his hand delves inside. âTongue out.â He whispers hoarsely, cursing once again when you roll your tongue out. Somehow incredibly obedient.
âYou're gonna be a good girl for me, Doll?â He asks, bringing the tip of his cock to your lips. You nod cautiously, feeling yourself descend into a state of mind you'd never been at before. You feel so pliant with his hand still on your cheek as he guides his cock into your mouth. You feel completely reckless. Someone like you who spends her time studying and worrying. Right now you were made to feel completely empty.
âThat's it-â he coos, looking so utterly pained as his cock slides against your tongue, âThat's my Doll,â he thrusts in and out of your mouth and you just sit there. Quite literally a doll. You let him use you, feeling more useful now than you've ever felt in all your years of living. There is beauty in submission that has a wet spot forming along your panties. You writhe as he begins to fuck your throat, drawing out a moan from him in the process.
âShit- you're such a good girl-â there's fire in his eyes as he thrusts in and out. His hands move to the back of your head, forcing you down deeper on his cock. The sounds of your struggle -the gagging- it has his cocm twitching in your mouth
âFuck-â he grunts, breathing so heavily as you begin to writhe in your seat, needing air.
âI knew you were special, Doll- I knew you were so far beyond self preservation- it borders patheticâ the saltiness of his precum trickle down your throat and you attempt to stomp your feet as your cries vibrate around his cock.
âLook at your hips moving baby,â he says, âYou like this as much as I do. You're on my side. Even if you think you aren't.â Your hips are circling as if you're searching for friction along the chair as he groans. âTell me you're on my side.â
He pulls your mouth off his cock and you breathe in deeply. You're coughing as droplets of spit run down your mouth. Spit and tears. Your face shows it all.
Your voice is hoarse. âI'm on your-â
âF-Fuck- I'm gonna cum-" He brings his cock back to your lips, âAll over that pretty fucking face- fuck,â your tears fall as he strokes cock, emptying cock over you face. You keep your eyes shut, letting the sound of his pleasure-filled groans shoot straight to your puffy clit.
âI'm not letting you go,â his thumb moves over the cum coating your face. He moves his thumb past your lips, letting the cum seep into your mouth. Saltiness and need.
He needed you.
âYou're not?â You ask petulantly, sucking on his thumb like you've regressed right before him.
âI'm not.â He confirms, âMy little winner.â
Summary: âYou could pay all your debts with this,â he said, his voice soft, almost enticing. His gaze shifted to you, sharp and calculating. âBut itâs not free.â
You swallowed hard, your throat dry. âWhat do you mean?â
A/N: This is probably wayyy out of his character, but I havenât watched season 2 yet (I donât have Netflix đ) and just saw an edit with him on tiktok and suddenly my obsession with him came back from 2021. So there are no spoilers!!!
Warnings: blowjob (m receiving), cum swallowing
If youâre not 18 DNI BECAUSE I WILL HAUNT YOUR DREAMSđââïžđââïžđââïž
The metro station was cold, the flickering overhead lights casting dim shadows on the walls. Your steps echoed faintly as you trudged forward, your head bowed to avoid the stares of passersby. You could feel their judgment, their pity, their disgust. You didnât blame themâyou looked like hell. Blood crusted your upper lip, the remnants of a nosebleed from earlier when some thug decided to teach you a lesson about unpaid debts. Your cheek stung, swelling just beginning to bloom.
You winced as you adjusted the strap of your worn-out bag. Your ribs ached, a dull, persistent throb that reminded you how low youâd sunk. Debt was a beast that refused to loosen its grip. It clung to you, suffocated you, and drove you into situations youâd never imagined.
As you shuffled down the platform, you barely registered the man who bumped into you until you staggered back, your body colliding with the wall. âSorryâI didnât watch where I was going,â he said, his tone oddly pleasant.
You blinked up at him, taking in his immaculate gray suit and perfectly combed hair. His smile was disarming, polite but sharp, like the edge of a blade.
âItâs quite alright,â you muttered, instinctively brushing yourself off despite already looking like a wreck. The man didnât move on, though. Instead, he studied you, his gaze lingering on the dried blood and the faint bruise forming beneath your eye.
âRough day?â he asked, a trace of amusement in his voice.
You gave a humorless laugh. âSomething like that.â
He reached into his jacket pocket and pulled out a neatly folded handkerchief, offering it to you. You hesitated before taking it, dabbing at your nose. The fabric was smooth, expensive, and it felt wrong to smear your blood on something so pristine.
âI have a game,â the man said suddenly, his voice lowering as if he were sharing a secret. âWould you like to play?â
The fuck?
You frowned. âA game?â
He nodded, his smile widening. âItâs simple. You could win moneyâenough to change your life.â
Your skepticism must have been obvious because he chuckled, a soft, almost paternal sound. âItâs harmless, I assure you. You look like someone who could use a bit of good fortune.â
You thought of your debts, the people breathing down your neck, the empty fridge in your apartment. Against your better judgment, you found yourself asking, âWhatâs the game?â
He gestured to a nearby bench, and you followed him, still wary. From his briefcase, he pulled out a folded board and a stack of rectangular tiles, explaining the rules of ddakji. It sounded simple enough: flip the opponentâs tile using your own. He placed a stack of cash on the bench beside him, its presence tantalizing.
You played your first round and lost. The second and third rounds went the same way. You were terrible at this game.
When you finally admitted you had no money to bet, his expression didnât change. âUsually, I slap people when they lose,â he said casually, as if it were the most natural thing in the world. âButâŠâ He gestured to your bruised face. âIt seems someoneâs already beaten me to it.â
The absurdity of the statement caught you off guard, and you let out a startled laugh. âThatâs generous of you.â
He smirked. âI do have a heart.â
With no stakes involved, you continued playing. You lost repeatedly, the manâs skill far outstripping your own. He never seemed frustrated, though. If anything, he looked amused by your determination. Eventually, your bruises began to throb, and exhaustion seeped into your bones. You tossed the tile onto the bench, letting out a defeated sigh.
âI give up,â you said, slumping back. âIâm not winning this.â
He tilted his head, considering you. âPity. You were just starting to improve.â
âSure,â you muttered, wiping your hands on your jeans. âSo, what now?â
He placed the briefcase on the bench between you, opening it to reveal neat stacks of bills. Your breath caught in your throat. It was more money than youâd ever seen in your life, more than enough to pay off your debts and start over.
âYou could pay all your debts with this,â he said, his voice soft, almost enticing. His gaze shifted to you, sharp and calculating. âBut itâs not free.â
You swallowed hard, your throat dry. âWhat do you mean?â
He closed the briefcase with a decisive snap, leaning in slightly. âIâll give this to you if you⊠do something for me.â
Your stomach churned at the way his eyes lingered on you, his meaning crystal clear. Heat flooded your face, a mixture of embarrassment and anger. âWhat kind of something?â you asked, though you already knew.
His smile didnât waver. âLetâs not pretend weâre strangers to desperation. Youâve been beaten down by the world, havenât you? Cast aside, forgotten. This,â he gestured to the briefcase, âcould be your ticket out.â
Your fists clenched, your nails digging into your palms. âYou think Iâm going to sell myself for money?â
He shrugged, unbothered by your indignation. âYouâve already sold your time, your dignity, your safetyâhavenât you? Whatâs the difference?â
The words stung because they werenât entirely untrue. Still, you shook your head, your pride warring with your desperation. âIâm not doing that.â
He leaned back, crossing his legs with an air of nonchalance. âYour choice, of course. But think about it. How long before your debtors come back? Before the beatings get worse? How long can you keep scraping by?â
The silence stretched between you, heavy and suffocating. You stared at the briefcase, the money practically taunting you. Your mind raced, weighing the humiliation against the potential freedom.
âI⊠I canât,â you said finally, your voice barely above a whisper.
He studied you for a long moment, his smile fading slightly. Then, to your surprise, he stood, gathering the game pieces and tucking them back into his briefcase. âWell,â he said, straightening his tie, âit was worth a shot.â
You blinked, caught off guard by how easily he let it go. âThatâs it?â
He chuckled, the sound low and almost fond. âIâm not a monster. I made an offer; you declined. Simple as that.â
As he turned to leave, something in you stirredâa mix of relief and regret. âWait,â you called out, your voice trembling.
He paused, glancing over his shoulder. âYes?â
You hesitated, the weight of your situation crushing down on you. âWhy me?â you asked, desperate to understand why this stranger had singled you out.
His smile returned, enigmatic and unsettling. âBecause youâre interesting. And because I see potential in you.â He reached into his pocket, pulling out a small card and placing it on the bench. âIf you ever change your mind, give me a call.â
Before you could respond, he disappeared into the crowd, leaving you alone with your thoughts and the card. You stared at it, the black lettering stark against the white background.
For a long time, you sat there, the sound of the metro fading into the background. The manâs words echoed in your mind, intertwining with your fear, your pride, and your unrelenting desperation.
And the card remained in your pocket.
â
You stared at the card for what felt like hours that night. The weight of its potential pressed heavily on your chest. In a world where every door seemed to slam in your face, this was the first one to openâalbeit under circumstances you couldnât fully comprehend.
The next day, after another call from a creditor threatening you with more violence, you finally gave in. Your pride was already battered, and your options had all but evaporated. With shaking hands, you picked up your phone and dialed the number on the card.
A smooth, professional voice answered. âHello?â
You swallowed hard, the lump in your throat making it difficult to speak. âI⊠I got this card from someone at the metro. Iâd like to⊠take them up on their offer.â
There was a pause, then the faint sound of fingers tapping on a keyboard. âAh, yes. Weâve been expecting your call. An address will be sent to your phone shortly. Be there within the hour.â
The line went dead before you could say anything else. Moments later, a text arrived, and you stared at the address. It wasnât anywhere familiar to you, but the name of the street was in one of the wealthiest areas of the city. Hesitation gripped you again, but the bruises on your face and the weight of your debts pushed you forward.
The cab dropped you off at the gates of a sprawling villa. The sheer size of it was intimidatingâtall wrought iron gates, a long driveway lined with meticulously trimmed hedges, and a house that looked more like a palace than a home. You adjusted your jacket, suddenly hyper-aware of how out of place you looked.
Before you could press the buzzer, the gates swung open as if you were expected. You walked up the driveway, each step feeling heavier than the last. When you reached the front door, it opened before you could knock.
A tall man stood there, dressed in a sleek black suit. His expression was blank, professional but cold. âWelcome,â he said, stepping aside to let you in. The foyer was just as luxurious as the exteriorâmarble floors, chandeliers, and artwork that probably cost more than your entire lifeâs earnings.
âNext time, a car will pick you up,â the man said, his tone brisk.
âNext time?â you echoed, your voice tinged with disbelief.
Before he could respond, the familiar voice of the salesman cut through the air. âSorry, heâsâdoesnât matter. Just come on in.â He appeared at the top of a sweeping staircase, his ever-present smile intact. He looked even more polished than before, his posture relaxed.
You hesitated but eventually followed the man into what appeared to be a sitting room. The furniture was sleek and modern, the walls lined with bookshelves and abstract paintings. He gestured for you to sit, but you remained standing, your nerves making it impossible to relax.
âDrink?â he offered, motioning to a decanter of amber liquid on a nearby table.
âNo, thank you,â you said quickly, your voice tight.
He tilted his head, his smile softening. âSuit yourself. I see your bruise is healing nicely.â
You instinctively touched your cheek, still tender from the beating. âCan we just⊠get to the point? What do you want me to do?â
The salesmanâs smile widened slightly, and he leaned back in his chair, crossing one leg over the other. âStraight to business. I like that.â
He studied you for a moment, his gaze uncomfortably intense. âWhat I want is very simple. And, let me assure you, the reward will far outweigh the discomfort.â
You shifted uneasily, his words setting off alarm bells in your mind.
His smile took on a sharper edge. âI want you to use that mouth of yours for something other than talking.â
The room seemed to tilt, your stomach dropping like a stone. You stared at him, your mind racing to comprehend what heâd just said. âYouâre kidding,â you said, your voice trembling.
âI never kid about business,â he replied smoothly. âYouâve seen the briefcase. You know whatâs at stake.â
Your hands balled into fists at your sides. âYou want me toââ
âTo prove how much you want to change your life,â he interrupted, his tone calm but firm. âTo show me that youâre willing to do whatever it takes.â
You took a step back, your legs bumping into the edge of a chair. âThis⊠this is humiliating.â
âIs it?â he asked, his gaze never leaving yours. âYouâve already been beaten and left with nothing. Whatâs one more compromise?â
His words were like needles, each one poking at the fragile walls of your pride. He stood, closing the distance between you. âIâm offering you freedom,â he said, his voice dropping to a near whisper. âAll you have to do is take it.â
You swallowed hard, your throat dry as sandpaper. Every fiber of your being screamed at you to leave, to walk out of this villa and never look back. But the image of that briefcase, the promise of a life free from fear and debt, rooted you in place.
âIâŠâ Your voice cracked, the weight of the moment crushing you.
The salesman tilted his head, his smile softening ever so slightly. âThink of it this way,â he said. âThis is the last time youâll ever have to beg, to endure, to scrape by. After this, the world opens up to you.â
He stepped back, giving you space but keeping his piercing gaze locked on you. âBut itâs your choice,â he added. âIt always has been.â
âIâokay,â you murmured, barely audible.
His smile widened, not in mockery but in something resembling satisfaction. âAtta girl.â
The words hung in the air, and you immediately dropped to your knees, ready to get this over with. But his hand shot out, stopping you mid-motion. His touch was firm but not forceful, his fingers curling gently around your forearm.
âNot so fast,â he said, his tone light, almost teasing. âLetâs get you a bit comfortable first.â
You looked up at him, confusion etched across your face. âComfortable?â you echoed.
He patted his lap, a small gesture that carried so much weight. âDonât you want to loosen up a bit?â
âIââ The protest was on the tip of your tongue, but you stopped yourself. He tilted his head, his sharp gaze pinning you in place.
âCome on,â he coaxed, his voice soft but insistent.
After a long moment of hesitation, you stood and awkwardly settled onto his lap. The action felt unnatural, foreign. You perched on his thighs stiffly, your hands clenched in your lap, your body tense like a coiled spring.
He didnât seem bothered by your discomfort. Instead, he rested his hands lightly on your waist, his touch careful and deliberate. His thumbs began to trace small, lazy patterns into the fabric of your shirt, the motion strangely soothing despite the situation.
âIâm not going to hurt you,â he said quietly, his voice low and steady. The words were meant to reassure, but they only made your pulse race faster.
You nodded, unable to bring yourself to speak. The air between you was thick with tension, the kind that made your skin prickle. You tried to focus on the patterns he was drawing, on the steady rhythm of his breathing, anything to distract yourself from the heat radiating off his bodyâor the unmistakable hardness pressing against you.
You froze, your entire body going rigid. He noticed, of course, but he didnât comment. Instead, his hands stayed where they were, his thumbs continuing their soothing motions.
âYouâre thinking too much,â he said, his voice almost a whisper. His breath ghosted over your temple, warm and inviting. âJust breathe.â
Easier said than done. You took a shaky breath, trying to steady yourself. He shifted slightly, and your hands instinctively reached out, grasping his shoulders for balance. The movement brought you closer to him, your faces mere inches apart.
His eyes searched yours, his expression unreadable. Slowly, he leaned in, giving you every opportunity to pull away. When you didnât, his lips brushed against yours, tentative and soft.
You froze, your breath catching in your throat. The kiss was gentle, almost hesitant, as if he were testing the waters. His hands stayed on your waist, their grip light, giving you space to move away if you wanted to.
But you didnât.
Instead, you sat there, motionless, letting him lead. When he realized you werenât responding, he pulled back just enough to meet your gaze. âRelax,â he murmured, his tone patient.
Tentatively, you leaned forward, your lips meeting his. The kiss was awkward at first, your movements hesitant and unsure. But he didnât rush you. He let you take the lead, his hands remaining steady on your waist.
As you grew more comfortable, the kiss deepened, your initial hesitation fading away. Your fingers curled into the fabric of his suit jacket, grounding yourself as you tilted your head, pressing closer.
Thatâs when he took over.
His hands slid up your back, pulling you flush against him as he angled his head, deepening the kiss. The shift was subtle but deliberate, his lips moving against yours with a confidence that left you breathless. His tongue brushed against your bottom lip, a gentle request rather than a demand, and you parted your lips without thinking.
The kiss turned hungry, his movements more assertive but never forceful. His hands roamed cautiously, never straying too far, their warmth seeping through your clothes. Your senses were overwhelmedâthe taste of him, the scent of his cologne, the steady strength of his hands.
You didnât know when it happened, but your tension melted away, replaced by a strange sense of surrender. It wasnât defeatâit was something else, something you couldnât quite name. Your hands slid up his chest, your fingers brushing against the collar of his shirt as you leaned into him.
When he finally broke the kiss, you were breathless, your chest rising and falling rapidly. His forehead rested against yours, his hands still on your waist, anchoring you in place.
âSee?â he murmured, his voice low and rough. âNot so bad.â
You didnât trust yourself to speak, so you simply nodded. The reality of what just happened began to sink in, but before panic could take hold, he shifted again, his hands steadying you as he leaned back slightly.
âTake your time,â he said, his tone soft. âWeâre not in a rush.â
You werenât sure if it was the weight of his gaze, the steady way he held you, or the way his fingers brushed against you as if he knew exactly where your boundaries were but was waiting for you to decide whether they mattered.
He reached up slowly, his movements deliberate, and his hand brushed against your face before moving to your hair. His touch was gentle, almost reverent, as he pulled the tie from your hair. Your hair tumbled loose over your shoulders, and he twirled the hair tie around his fingers, his smile never faltering.
âYouâve sucked dick before, right?â he asked, his voice smooth, casual.
Your heart stopped, then resumed at a faster pace. You blinked, your cheeks flushing hot. âIâof course I did!â you replied defensively, the words tumbling out before you could think them through.
He chuckled softly, the sound low and warm. âOf course you did,â he murmured, his voice dropping as his gaze lingered on your face. âHow could someone resist a pretty face like yours?â
The compliment sent an unexpected jolt through you, but you werenât given time to process it. He gently took your hands in his, his touch light but firm, and began guiding them behind your back. You stiffened instinctively, your pulse pounding in your ears.
âRelax,â he said, his tone calm and soothing, as though he were coaxing you out of a tense state. âIâm not going to hurt you.â
You hesitated but allowed him to move your arms behind you, his grip steady and unthreatening. The hair tie you hadnât noticed still in his hand came into view as he looped it around your wrists. The act was careful, the tie snug enough to hold your hands together but not tight enough to hurt.
âThere,â he said softly, his fingers brushing against your skin as he adjusted the knot. âDonât worry, Iâll hold your hair for you.â
You swallowed hard, your breath catching in your throat. He reached up, threading his fingers through your hair with the same slow, deliberate care heâd shown with your hands. His touch sent a shiver down your spine, and you hated how your body seemed to respond to him against your will.
âSee?â he said, his voice low and steady. âNo reason to be nervous.â
Nervous was an understatement. Your mind raced, trying to keep up with the situation. Everything about him was a contradictionâhis words soft but commanding, his actions careful yet deliberate. It left you off balance, unsure of where you stood or what would happen next.
He leaned in, his lips brushing against your ear as he whispered, âDown on your knees.â
You blinked, hesitating for a moment as the weight of his words sank in. Your body froze, torn between instinct and the promise of what you came here for. You must have looked as dumbfounded as you felt because his lips curved into that same infuriatingly knowing smile.
But then you remembered the briefcaseâyou couldnât afford to hesitate, not now. Steeling yourself, you swallowed hard and did as he said, sinking onto the plush carpet beneath you.
He watched you with a calm, calculating expression, his fingers still lightly twirling the tie binding your wrists. When your knees touched the floor, he adjusted his posture, leaning forward slightly.
âGood girl,â he murmured, the words slipping from his lips in a tone that felt both patronizing and oddly reassuring. His hand left you entirely, moving to undo his belt. The sound of the buckle snapping open echoed faintly in the room, and you bit the inside of your cheek, forcing yourself to remain still.
He slid the belt free and dropped it to the side, his gaze never leaving yours. His movements were slow as he unbuttoned his pants and let them pool around his ankles. Then came the boxers, and as he stepped out of them, his confidence radiated like a tangible force.
He looked down at you, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âThink you can handle it?â he asked, his voice dripping with challenge.
You scoffed, narrowing your eyes despite the heat rising in your cheeks. âIâve had bigger,â you shot back.
That earned a low chuckle from him, the sound rich and amused. He crouched slightly, bringing his face closer to yours as his hand reached out, cupping your jaw firmly but gently. His thumb brushed along your chin as he tilted your face upward. âOpen up,â he said, his tone soft but leaving no room for argument.
You hesitated for a fraction of a second, your thoughts warring with one another. But then your resolve hardened.
You obeyed, parting your lips just enough to feel vulnerable.
The corners of his mouth quirked upward again, and his hand slid to the back of your head, his fingers threading through your hair with practiced ease. âIâll let you take the lead,â he murmured, his voice low and steady, âat least for now.â
His other hand rested lightly on your shoulder as he guided you closer, his movements careful.
With a deep breath, you adjusted, leaning in more and licking the tip. He groaned softly, the sound low and guttural. His other hand trailed from your shoulder to your neck, his thumb brushing against your pulse point in a way that sent a shiver through you. His cock was heavy on your tongue, and your mind blurred as he thrust himself further and further into your mouthâand you appreciated the slowness with which he did itâuntil he was fully inside. The rhythm was slow at first. Small bobbing of your head that was just enough to pull soft groans of from his lips.
You pulled back slightly and swirled your tongue around the tip, pleasantly surprising him enough to earn yourself a sharp tug at your hair and a guttural moan that sent a shiver down your spine and a sudden awareness of the need between your legs.
âMy⊠itâs like you were made for thisâŠâ he tugged gently on your hair again, signaling for you to pause, you pulled back slightly, your chest rising and falling as you tried to catch your breath. His thumb brushed against your cheek, his touch light but grounding.
âGood girl,â he said again, his voice softer now, almost approving. He leaned down slightly, his hand cupping your face as he tilted your chin upward. âMessy, thoughâŠâ he muttered, wiping a bit of drool escaping your open mouth. His hand moved from your chin to your hair again, smoothing the strands back as he studied your face with that same intense gaze.
âLetâs see how far you can go,â he murmured, his tone calm but laced with challenge.
And he fucking shoved you down on his cock.
You froze for a second, overwhelmed by the situation, but his voice cut through the haze.
âDonât stop now,â he said, his tone still calm but laced with something sharper, something that made your heart race. âYou want the money, donât you?â
Your jaw tightened involuntarily, and he noticed. His smirk deepened as he adjusted his grip in your hair, guiding you with more force than before. It wasnât painful, but it was clear he wasnât asking for permission anymore. He was almost guiding your head at this point, fucking into your warm mouth with soft grunts as the hand with a grip on your hair directed you towards him in perfect timing. Your jaw was starting to ache and you could barely notice it with your thoughts suddenly one-track-minded. You were alternating torturously between sucking and lapping at his dick. He pulled out, and then fucked back in roughly, and oh, he knew this would be goodâbut not this good.
His hand in your hair tightened, and the calm, collected demeanor he had shown earlier began to crack ever so slightly. His breaths were heavier, his eyes darker, and the faint quirk of his lips had transformed into something far less controlled.
His need was pressing against the edges of his control. Your breath hitched as you tried to keep up, the pace leaving you off balance.
You pulled back instinctively, your body reacting to the overwhelming sensation, but his grip on your hair tightened, keeping you in place. âNo,â he murmured, his voice low but firm. âNot yet. Breathe through your nose. Come onâwork for it.â
The command sent a shiver down your spine, equal parts thrilling and intimidating. You tried to steady your breathing, inhaling deeply through your nose as heâd instructed. Your jaw relaxed as best as it could, though every muscle in your body felt tense.
âThatâs it,â he said, his voice breaking slightly at the edges, the first real crack in his composure. His free hand braced against the back of the couch he was sitting on, his knuckles whitening as he gripped it tightly.
You glanced up at him through your lashes, trying to focus despite your racing pulse. His eyes met yours, and for a brief moment, the intensity in them made your breath catch. He was watching you so closely, as if every movement, every reaction, was feeding something deep within him.
âGod,â he muttered, his voice hoarse, his head tilting back slightly as his grip in your hair eased momentarily. âYou have no idea how good you look like this. Believe meâyou couldâve gotten out of your debts a long time ago.â The sounds are indescribable, dirty and wet and so fucking hot as he continues to thrust into your mouth.
âYour throat,â he chokes out. He splays one hand over your throat and starts to fuck up into you at a different angle. âI can fucking see myself in you, fuckââ There was a rawness to his movements now, a lack of the careful control that had defined him earlier. âJust a little moreâ he murmured, his voice roughened by something you couldnât quite place. You could hear his breathing quicken, could feel the faint tremor in his grip as he pulled you closer still. His dominance over the situation was undeniable, but there was a vulnerability in the way his body reacted, a need that felt almost desperate.
When you hesitated again, instinctively pulling back just a fraction to catch your breath, his hand tightened slightly in your hair, holding you in place. âNo,â he said sharply âstay fucking still.â
You wanted to punch his face. But you did your best to keep upâstill thinking about the moneyâyour breath hitching as he guided you, his need evident in the way he moved.
His groans grew louder, more frequent, and his grip in your hair tightened again as he edged closer to the brink. You could feel the tension in his body, the way his muscles tensed and his movements became more erratic. He was losing control, and the realization sent a strange thrill through you.
His orgasm washed over him and his body went still for a moment, his grip in your hair almost bruising as he held you in place. The sound he made was low and guttural, a noise that seemed to reverberate through the room. You froze as he held you there, his breath coming in ragged gasps.
Your throat burned, your body tensing as you fought the instinct to pull away as his fucking cum filled your mouth. He didnât let you, his hand in your hair keeping you firmly in place as he muttered something under his breathâwords you couldnât quite make out over the pounding in your ears.
When he finally released you, it was abrupt, his hand loosening in your hair as he leaned back, his chest heaving. You gasped for air, your breath coming in shallow, uneven bursts as you tried to steady yourself and then started to cough. Your body felt heavy, your limbs trembling as you sat back on your heels, looking up at him with wide eyes.
He met your gaze, his expression softening as he took in your disheveled appearance. âYou did well,â he said, his voice low and rough. His hand reached out, brushing a strand of hair from your face with surprising gentleness. âBetter than I expected.â And then he took the hair tie off your hands.
You didnât respond, still trying to catch your breath as you processed what had just happened. The room felt stifling, the weight of his gaze pressing down on you as you struggled to compose yourself. You just managed to smear his cum on your face.
His smirk returned, though it was softer now. âI knew you had it in you,â he said, his hand trailing down to cup your chin again. His thumb brushed against your jaw, and his smile widened slightly. âBut youâve got to learn to pace yourself.â
You glared at him faintly, though the effect was ruined by the flush in your cheeks and the way your body still trembled. âMaybe you should pace yourself,â you shot back, your voice hoarse.
He chuckled, the sound low and warm. âFair enough,â he said, his hand falling away from your face as he leaned back, his posture relaxing for the first time since youâd arrived. He looked down at you for a moment longer before reaching for his discarded boxers, slipping them back on with a casual grace.
âGo clean yourself up,â he said, gesturing toward a door off to the side. âThe bathroomâs through there.â
You hesitated for a moment, your body still tense, before nodding and pushing yourself to your feet. Your legs felt unsteady beneath you, and you had to grip the edge of a nearby chair to keep your balance. He watched you with an amused expression, his smirk widening as you stumbled toward the bathroom.
When you closed the door behind you, you leaned against it for a moment, letting out a shaky breath. Your reflection in the mirror caught your eye, and you winced at the sight of your flushed cheeks and disheveled hair. You looked like a mess, and you werenât sure how you felt about that.
As you splashed water on your face, trying to steady your nerves, you were almost on the verge of crying. Itâs disgustingâitâs disgusting that youâre wiping his cum off your face and out of your mouth.
When you finally stepped back into the room, he was sitting on the edge of the bed, his expression unreadable as he watched you. The briefcase was sitting on the nightstand beside him, and he gestured toward it with a lazy wave of his hand.
âYour reward,â he said simply, his smirk returning. âYouâve earned it.â
You hesitated, your gaze flickering between him and the briefcase. âThatâs it?â you asked, your voice still hoarse.
He raised an eyebrow, his smirk widening. âUnless youâre looking for another round,â he said, his tone teasing.
You rolled your eyes, stepping forward to grab the briefcase. The weight of it felt solid in your hands, a tangible reminder of why youâd agreed to this in the first place. âIâll pass,â you muttered, turning toward the door.
As you reached for the handle, his voice stopped you. âYou know where to find me if you change your mind.â
You glanced back at him, your heart pounding in your chest as you met his gaze. His smirk was still in place, his eyes gleaming with amusement and something darker. You didnât respond, pulling the door open and stepping out into the hallway.
The air outside felt cool against your skin, a stark contrast to the suffocating heat of the room youâd just left. You took a deep breath, the weight of the briefcase grounding you as you made your way down the hall and out of the villa.
ft. moon ki-yong (the salesman) x f! reader â squid game
â°ââ§ you donât need your husband to be perfect, you just want him to be honestâ3.3k words; part two (here)
contains: written before s2 came out!! probably ooc or inaccurate, angst with spots of fluff & a bittersweet ending? readerâs pov mostly, suspicions of cheating, lack of communication, mentioned age gap, random inaccurate lore for the salesman
†author's note: yeah, i saw the sudden uptick in notes on that gong yoo post i made and realized season 2 came out which i completely forgot about. i intend to watch it soon as possible and write fics for it as well as (probably) add new characters to my writing list, but for now, please be content with this!!
âËÊ đâËâ§ this fic was heavily inspired by âemotionally intoxicatedâ by aurasaurora!
moon ki-yong is the poster image for the ideal husband. heâs always been like that from the moment you met him, and you canât help but feel like youâre the luckiest woman in the world when he calls himself yours. heâs tall and handsome, someone who catches everyoneâs eye despite his only being focused on you. heâs wealthy and hard-working, able to call a luxurious mansion your home, and willing to buy you anything your heart desires as long as you ask for it. he spoils you rotten with that money, gifting you expensive things even if you didnât ask if it reminded him of you. heâs doting, always sure to smother you in affection with kisses and cuddles whenever together to make it known how much he adores you. the sex is great too, he makes you feel wanted and desirable without ever leaving you unsatisfied.Â
most importantly though, you love him, and he loves you. the last two years of marriage have been so blissful, and there isnât a single thing you would change.
at least thatâs what you believe most of the time.
you like to think you know a lot about him, and in a way, you do. you know his favorite color, how he likes his coffee, what he usually orders at restaurants, the type of wine he prefers over beer, the exaggerated shocked fasces he likes to make, how his favorite chore is folding the laundry, how his least favorite is doing the dishes because he doesnât like getting his hands dirty, the name of his childhood pet, what positions he likes to cuddle or fuck in, the names heâs thinking of giving to your child when they are finally bornâ there are so many little details you know about him, yet at times you feel like you don't know anything at all.
you donât really know much about his childhood aside from a few random stories, he claims thereâs nothing really notable and that it was as standard as can be. you donât know who his parents were or what they were like because he said they died when he was young, but surely thatâs an important loss which must have impacted him and made youth difficult in some way? you donât know about his past partners if he even had any, but you doubt you were his first as he was yours with a face like his. you donât know any of his secrets, like an embarrassing moment or something sinful he might have committed in the past.Â
he knew all of these things about you and the little details of your life, so why donât you know any of the most basic things regarding your own husband?
these periods of uncertainty are few and far, but once the icy tendrils of doubt creep in, itâs difficult to shake them off when you realize you only know these things through observations and not him actually telling you. itâs a miracle your stupidity allowed you to make it this far in falling head over heels for him, getting married, and carrying his child (not that you completely regret it, you still love him, but you wish you had given it more time).
they say there are no such things as stupid questions, yet the main question you have is exactly that as itâs something every wife should know even before the marriage. it would be impressive how long youâve been clueless about this matter if it werenât for how often and how skilled he is in managing to evade your curiosity and steer the conversation elsewhere. you didnât want to press on it since he seems to shut it down every time the topic is brought up and you donât want to fight over something you technically didnât need to know, but it weighs on you and presses into your chest with the knowledge you were being kept in the dark.Â
what did your husband do for a living, exactly?
his schedule is always unpredictably changing with little rhyme or reason and it confuses you. sometimes youâll go an entire few days without seeing him, sensing him wake up in the morning before the sun is even up, feeling him kiss you on the cheek before getting ready, and not coming back until long after you fall asleep with no communication aside from a note on the table telling you heâll be gone for the day along with a wad of cash for you to treat yourself while heâs gone. other times heâll be chilling at home for an entire week, waking you up with aggressive cuddles (or morning sex), making you breakfast with the morning news on in the background, and taking you out to wherever you want to go on his card in his rare casual clothing and messy wavy hair rather than the typical fancy suits and hair styled with gel.Â
as far as youâre concerned, heâs a businessman of sorts, although you donât know what company he works for or what position he has in terms of hierarchy or how an occupation of that type allows such flexibility in hours or anything at all.Â
âwhat if heâs having an affair?â
you paused for a second before continuing the motion of slicing the cheesecake with a fork and savoring the taste in your mouth. âthatâs ridiculous,â you stated simply after swallowing. âhe loves me very much, and it doesnât explain his weird schedule either.â
today was spent with some friends you met back in high school, but honestly, you were only attending out of politeness and tradition since you honestly feel like youâve disconnected from these girls long before the current. still, you treasure the memories shared in your more formative years and wouldnât ever say no to them if they wanted to hang out like old times. ki-yong doesnât bother to hide his distaste for them, calling them a miserable lot who try to drag you down at every opportunity out of jealousy for your happiness. you laugh it off, but you know deep down heâs right and yet youâre still sitting here at the cafe with them with bright smiles like their words donât cut deep.Â
âmaybe heâs dating the bossâ a sexy office siren typeâ she gives him plenty of days off and he stays with her at her beach house at jeju island or something to keep her company, and then she gives him lots of money in exchange.â
âoh my god, could you imagine?â
âcan you be realistic? it sounds like youâre just writing a plot for a new drama,â you giggled, not allowing the feeling of a twisting blade in your abdomen to show on your face or the venom to drip from your words at the mere thought of the man you loved being stolen away a faceless woman who was everything you wished you were more of: more beautiful, more wealthy, more experienced, more intelligentâ
âyou donât know because heâs your first love or whateverâ and youâre so lucky to have been able to marry himâ but men are dogs, and i donât see why he would be the exception.â
âbut he treats me so wellââ
âmaybe he only treats you well because youâre pregnantâ he probably just feels guilty. i mean, when i was pregnant and had my first, my husband wasnât attracted to me anymore and demanded a divorce unless i lost the baby weight.â she shrugged like it was so simple, so common, like the notion of marriage wasnât something so deeply important and could be thrown away so easily.
âwe arenât suggesting you get a divorce, but weâre just saying you should keep an eye on himâ you know? a handsome guy like him was always bound to get a lot of attentionâŠâ her laugh was shrill and high-pitched, making goosebumps erupt on your skin.
âright⊠thanks guysâŠâ
that night, you couldnât stop twisting and turning on the large sectional couch with thoughts rushing through your head of your husband with some other woman. the jealousy from these fictional scenarios without evidence of existence plagued you. it made you want to vomit up the negative feelings and go back to the person you were a few hours ago without the images of him cheating planted in your mind, which didnât go unnoticed by him and caused him to ask what was bothering you as it wouldn't be good for the baby.
you hesitated for a moment, âcould you tell me about your exes?â
âwhy are you suddenly curious about that?â he chuckled, knowing damn well that it was because of those stupid snakes masquerading as people (it truly takes one to know one) running their mouths again, but still feigning obliviousness for your sake.Â
âjust wondering,â you muttered. âi mean, youâre the first person iâve fallen in love with, but youâre a bit older than me soâŠâ
âand i hope to be the only one too,â he smirked confidently, making you laugh as he plopped down on the ground and rested his head on the cushion next to yours.Â
it was such a casual setting in such a vast space, bringing you back to the days in your little apartment inviting him over for chicken and beer before you knew about your immense wealth and got embarrassed over your cheap dates when he was so used to expensive restaurants. he found it very endearing though, knowing you liked him for him and not his money.
âwell, if youâre so curiousâŠâ he trailed off, but you werenât quite sure if it was because of hesitation or because he simply didnât know where to start. you canât remember the last time a conversation like this was held to learn more about him since it was usually about you, maybe back when you first started dating and briefly discussed his late parents.
he started with his crush when he was in middle school since that was his earliest recollection of feeling love, who didnât really count as a girlfriend or love because nothing was established and because of their age, but she was his first kiss that he ran away from right after because of how nervous he was, and it was never addressed again. apparently it was his second girlfriend who taught him everything he knew before he met you, saying she basically âtrained him like a dogâ to create a gentleman out of an inexperienced boy who still wasnât quite sure how to treat a woman like a queen. she was a bit mean though, and he didnât realize he dodged a bullet until later after realizing she was unnecessarily cruel to him for no reason multiple times if he didnât do things exactly her way.
you suppose you always knew your husband wasnât always the suave charmer you know him to be, but the image of younger him being clueless on matters of romance made you burst out laughing because of how you could hardly picture it.
he reached over to pinch your cheek affectionately, âare you of all people really making fun of me when you were too scared to hold my hand for me to escort you out of my car?â
âoh my god, that was on our first date, i canât be blamed! i was shaking like crazy on that dayâ you had to tell me that you didnât bite.â
âi was actually thinking about calling off our date last minute because of an emergency at work,â he confessed, âbut iâm glad i didnât and met the love of my life instead.â
âaw, you flirt.â the memory made you smile and feel all giggly inside, all the fears you had about him possibly having an affair falling away, yet there were still some lingering at the back of your mind with the mention of his job. âwhat happened at work?â
ânothing that important,â he said instantly like clockwork. âjust some boring business things.â
you didnât push it, not wanting to ruin the mood, but once again, your curiosity was just itching to ask more questions about his work life even if it was truly as boring as he says. you wanted to know every mundane detail whether it was what his office looked like or what the annoying co-worker did on a daily basis, anything to satiate your need to know more about this mysterious man you had made life-long vows with.
it all came to a head one night while you were cooking dinner, you heard the doorbell ring a dozen times in quick succession and answered it to find an older man with fiery red hair that seemed to match his temper. when he addressed your husband by name and verified your relationship with him, he began spewing all kinds of insults about the blood he had on his hands by luring innocent people to their deaths and you felt your heart drop. you tried to reason with him that there must have been some sort of mistake, barely able to get your words out in a fit of confusion and surprise at the absurd accusation, but he wouldnât hear you out and pointed a finger in your face, asking if you had any idea what moon ki-yong was doing behind your back.Â
at that very moment, he was suddenly seized by two anonymous men in all black, causing him to yell out in panic as they dragged him away and stuffed him in the back of a car before quickly driving off into the night without a trace. it all happened so fast, you just stood there with your mouth open in shock, wondering if you should call the police on what looked like an abduction.Â
then your husband comes running up the steps with his locked briefcase in hand, shouting out your name, asking you if youâre okay, pulling you back inside the comfort of your shared home, and checking you all over to make sure you arenât harmed in any way. when you ask about who that man was and what he was talking about, he simply told you he was some crazy customer who was dissatisfied with the company, was looking for someone to blame, and promised to tell you the details later.Â
you didnât tell him that you didnât believe him, just pursed your lips and furrowed your brow for a second then let go of the topic like you always do, taking his coat off his shoulders with a peck on the lips asking how his day was. he reciprocated the kiss, said it was fine without anything special, and that he would shower before having dinner, something he didnât really need to say since you already knew but stated anyway as per evening routine.Â
as he headed up the stairs and disappeared from sight, you stared at the locked briefcase resting crookedly on the little entryway table and paused for a moment. if you did this, it would be a breach of privacy and a sign of growing distrust in your husband, but it could also answer all of the questions that never cease.Â
your hands wouldnât stop shaking involuntarily as you felt the cold black metal underneath your fingertips, marveling at the smooth material clean of any scratches or dents. fidgeting with the built-in combination lock, six number sequences started rushing through your mind as you started to hastily run through your options with a focus on dates. you were determined to only do this three times since you had no idea if an alarm would be set off or if it would close off permanently.
his birthday?
an electronic beep went off indicating you were incorrect, making you nervous.
your birthday?
wrong again, you only had one attempt left. you swallowed, shaking the accumulating sweat off your hands.
the date of your wedding?
you gasped as the locks suddenly flipped open and lightly knocked against the briefcase. it was undone, you could open it at any moment now and see it all.
and yet you still hesitated during this golden opportunity. was it the fact that the passcode to his most secret possession was the day you got married? was it guilt for going behind your husbandâs back for answers instead of directly asking him? was it because you were afraid of what you would find if you discovered the red-haired man was telling the truth?
whatever it was, you let out a breath you didnât know you were holding and locked it again, leaving it looking untouched and went back to playing dinner.
there was a heavy tension present at the dinner table that night, the only conversation present being him interrogating you about what the red-haired man talked about word-for-word. not really interrogating since his tone of voice was still calm and gentle as he asked questions, but you could see him fidgeting with his fork and not leaving much room for any other topic until he was sure you told him everything. he then sighed and claimed the man was insane, a gambling addict who was too deep in debt to afford treatment and was trying to drag him into his misery after meeting at the subway station.Â
âki-yong?â
he froze for a second, not used to hearing you use his real name rather than a pet name. âyes?â
âwhat do you do for a living, exactly?â
a pause, you watched him fidget with his chopsticks and shift the grains of rice around. âyou know, business stuffâ nothing you need to concern yourself aboutââ
âbut i donât know! thatâs the thing!â you felt tears starting to well up behind your eyes, letting two years of frustration trickle through. âi know it doesnât seem that important for me to know, but is it really so important that you leave me in the dark about it for the three years weâve been lovers? and now some guy comes to our doorstep and tells me about how your job is playing games with people at the subway station to make them participate in death games?!â you took a deep breath, calming yourself down, âplease, be honest with me, thatâs all i wantâŠâ
âi-iâŠâ that was the first time youâve ever heard him stutter, and if the situation wasnât so tense, you would be proud you finally got one-up on him. âi canât say⊠itâs for your own safety and mine.â
âso he was right?â
he remained silent, trying to think of some way to counter what seong gi-hun had told you, but if you didnât believe the elaborate lie he already told you and wanted to learn more, then he knew this was the end of the road.Â
âi-i need some time to thinkâŠâ you looked defeated and it broke his heart. âiâm going to my momâs house tonight, iâll be back tomorrowââ you got up, not bothering to pack anything aside from your phone and your wallet.
he had prepared for you to start screaming and crying (not that he would blame you, i mean, who would willingly stay with a man who was complicit in mass murder), demanding a divorce and packing your things to shut the door for him never to be seen again with your unborn child. the strangely calm reaction was both a relief and extremely unsettling to him.
âi wonât be mad if you decide not to come backâ he stated plainly, defeated in a state youâve never seen him in before. âwhatever choice you make, iâll support you, just know i love youâ more than anything else in this world.â
you stared at him blankly through the open doorway. perhaps your husband isnât the perfect man you believed him to be, but he was as honest as he possibly could have been with you regarding the matter, and thatâs enough.Â
âi love you too, iâll be back in the morning.â thatâs how you feel at the moment, but you donât know if youâll feel the same way tomorrow morning when it sinks in.
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