a nobody

A personal blog to share the horrors of my life. English is not my first language. I do not remember my first.

[reddfeathers]

Introduction

Hello... I have made this account some time ago, but it is my first time setting the blog up.

I set this up as a personal diary, to recount memories and my horrific story as best I can remember.

My name? I do not remember it. He called me Kolya. That is not my real name.

I encourage interactions but I am not a social man. It is hard for me to be close with people, after what he had done to me. I hope that one day, he rots in Hell as he deserves. The world has seen what he done, but not how much harm he truly cause.

The stories and events in this page will not be for the faint of heart. He was a horrible man with even worse actions. I just hope the little blue one is resting in a place far from him, if he is even alive still.

all posts and events on this blog are a work of fiction! this has been a rather complex story i've been working on for many many years and i wanted to put it into an interactive tumblr-style blog! feel free to send a couple asks if you'd like. i'll try not to break the immersion too much.

[elphabruhhhh]

I think I ordered the wrong Jellycat

[reddfeathers]

Hello?

I hope this post is going through.

I forgot my password to this account, spent days trying to remember.

I saw him at the end of my bed last night, that green eye stared into my soul.

[reddfeathers]

memory issues very stressful especially when i cannot remember simple things

I wish I could get help finding my name, but I know that is asking a lot for something that is probably lost forever

[reddfeathers]

Hello?

I hope this post is going through.

I forgot my password to this account, spent days trying to remember.

I saw him at the end of my bed last night, that green eye stared into my soul.

[reddfeathers]

that was short but it is late. I need to sleep

[reddfeathers]

Part 1

The day we first meet is a cold one, like always. The middle of winter, and I have the flu. I am vacationing, out of town, so I go to see the local doctor.

It is a quiet little place, with a run-down sign that has some letters missing. No more than two doctors could have worked here, but I soon learned that it is just the one guy. The one guy is creepy, to be honest. He is a man, above six foot as I am, with nothing but bone and muscle on his body. He look about fifty or sixty years old, but later I learn he is only in his 40s. So he is having it rough, safe to say, like me. I too look older than I really am.

I don't remember what he says to me, but he looks at me with two-colored eyes. one is brown, and the other is bright green and irritated. The skin around it, and the whole half of his face, is covered in thicker and shiny skin. It was a healed burn.

His whole face is off. Smile too unnatural, nostrils flare too much, eyes too wide.

He took me back to be seen for my flu, and I forget the next week and a half. Not normal.

[reddfeathers]

Part 1 is in progress. It take me a while because it is very hard to recall events, and without pain as well. PLease forgive me for delay, I am telling this story at my own time

[jimmyhoffathecat]

The yuckiest sandwich I’ve ever seen

[reddfeathers]

Good evening, I am sorry about last night. I do not remember what happened. I had some type of episode. Feeling better today, I woke up at 4pm to my cat screaming in my face.

[reddfeathers]

i see him

[reddfeathers]

It is a bit late but I thought I would give an update.

I am trying my best to sort out all the events inside my head, to write them down here in order which they happen. I will of course forget many things. I will mix things up. You have no reason to trust of anything I say, of course. But what I post here is my recollection of events. It is how I saw it.

And fuck, I just run out of booze.

[shykerofficial]

[awwi-blog]

моя любовь 💚

[jimmyhoffathecat]

Dirty

[reddfeathers]

Seems I have few people following this blog already. I do not know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. Hello, Internet users. 👋

[reddfeathers]

I am writing this from a very cold place. I am too broke to pay for heating in this hellhole. It is the summer yet this place is always freezing. I gather just enough money for rent each month, I have to practically scrape it from the sides of my teeth. I am not proud of how I get money these days.

Often I am scared, curling up on my bed. I have a little cat with no name. He is a stray, just like me. He is content with what I give him, even if it is not much. A very good cat.

Soon I will be posting the events of my life, if I can remember enough.