Just some latenight thoughts
I was just doing some schoolwork and suddenly had the urge to just post some things about Taeyong lol. I was never really a Kpop fan before I discovered NCT, and it’s such a unique thing to be involved in a fandom. It‘s such a strange feeling to actually love someone wholeheartedly that you don’t even know and just admire them from afar--just being a fangirl, I guess. Like, I honestly want to start crying when I think about how much I love Taeyong. And I always feel so silly-- like I don’t even know this guy and I honestly fucking love him?
This is corny as fuck, but Taeyong is my savior. I was in a really bad place before I discovered NCT. Just in a state of complete apathy. Not knowing what I’m gonna do with my life. Having no real goals or aspirations. Just mindlessly going through my days without feeling anything but this emptiness.
One day, I was just clicking through random videos on Youtube, trying to find something to make me laugh and just try to not feel so shit and I stumbled upon “Limitless” and I’m like, “Holy fuck, I really like this song.” I started looking at all the members’ pages and stumbled across Taeyong’s gorgeous face. I hate to be so shallow, but honestly, he was just so fucking beautiful. Then, on top of that, I learned that he’s super sweet and extremely talented. And I just got sucked in.
After not really caring for anything at all in the world, I found something that I love. This sweet, beautiful guy. And it makes me so happy to see him succeed--all of NCT-- succeed and gain recognition and being happy and having fun. It’s like I’m winning and laughing and crying with them. And I think that’s what being part of a fandom is about. Just loving collectively as a group.
So, I guess I just wanted to get some thoughts down. I’ve been busy with school, and I just needed to have it written down somewhere that I am so grateful for Taeyong and NCT. And they might not know it or maybe one day they won’t be the most popular Kpop group anymore or they might get married and have kids and get old, but I will always, ALWAYS be so grateful for them, from the bottom of my heart for what they did for me. For letting me feel and love something.