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30+ into macabre, uncomfortable, and fear-drenched things.

I’m an adult who engages in fandom with other adults (on this blog), and I’m gonna keep it that way.

trees are very 🥺 because sometimes i’ll stand under the shade of a tree and look up at it and it’ll sway its branches about in the wind and i’m like oh my God i’m alive and YOU’RE alive. we are alive together and made up of the same starry stuff and standing right next to each other in this moment on this earth. do u feel it when i reach out and press my hand to your trunk? can you hear me? i think you’re so neat. and then the sunlight filters through its leaves just so and that lovely green color leaves me dazzled. it’s just very nice to be an alive thing next to a different sort of alive thing

h4nds4ndwich

“It’s just very nice to be an alive thing next to a different sort of alive thing” I’m in love

dynamaxed

hi! carey means needs help still - he's the voice actor for frylock in aqua teen hunger force! adult swim screwed him badly and pays no residuals and barely paid him during the show's run. he has heart failure and survives on con earnings, plushie sales, and donations while waiting for disability to get back to him. posts used to make the rounds for him, but haven't in a while, so i wanted to make a new post!

if you'd rather buy a plushie - here's the shop he and his wife run!

firecrystals

update: CAREY MEANS AND HIS WIFE ARE HOMELESS AS OF A FEW DAYS AGO

his wife also been in an accident and has been down and out due to illness and injury

ppal + gfm + site shop

I've been around 300/305 as my base weight for about 10 plus years or so and as soon as I started going manic and depressed again for the first time in a while, I suddenly dropped 35 lbs.

A friend I told this to (who has trouble gaining and maintaining his weight) was like: "woah! thats a lot. Congrats." and no hate to him for that, cause everyone is still pushed and reassured through society and diet culture that losing weight is to be celebrated, etc.

I just asserted that It wasn't a good thing, and I wasn't trying to lose or gain weight so this is actually really bad and a symptom of something else- which made him rethink his automatic response. After we went back and forth for awhile I basically settled on the manic episode as the cause. My Bipolar II made a secret blood pact behind my back with my PCOS and mimicked a classic Bipolar I manic manuver and kept me so high that I just didn't eat or drink consistently... for 4 weeks straight.

Instead I slept loads for 5 hr integrals.

And cause I am bigger, I didnt immediately drop dead from not eating or drinking LOL, I just started losing loads of weight. And not fat, no, like tons of muscle mass. Anyways, my appetite came back and I'm still exhausted all the time, but my PCOS chilled out in my body and stopped exacerbating my bipolar so much...so yippee!

Now im back to being sad and man... I just miss the high. Idk how mom did it. It felt crazy good but you really do have to have an amazing diligent discipline to avoid doing destructive shit.

Anyways, seeing those posts about depression meds and healing causes weight gain reminded me that I am definitely backsliding like mad right now. 🥲

#talk #mental health

druidshollow

HAVE THAT CHARACTER GAIN WEIGHT AS A SIGN OF HEALING: NOW

teaboot

Can I be honest with yall I don't want to hear SHIT against cishets at pride this year

teaboot

"But it's not FOR them!!!" The biggest military power in the world belongs to a christofascist nation overseen by a felon found guilty of 34 federal crimes and has greenlit a gestapo with more direct funding than the entire military of Canada for the purpose of ethnic cleansing. Let Hetero Jessica throw some biodegradable glitter at a municipal parade

teaboot

At this point if anyone is trying to exclude anyone benignly pro-queer from a pro-queer space I'm just going to assume you're a fed or something idk like something something destabilize the movement from within or whatever

gorgynei

ive really started to despise the idea that porn/erotica is like, a lesser form of art just because it summons horniness rather than a more sophisticated emotion, like sadness or joy.

is making someone hard that different from making them cry? can you do both at once? much to think about.

#every sex scene i be writing now comes with tears and shit #its like beong vulnerable and exeriencing erotic joy can also elicit other feelings #like you can just be horny too #desire and passion and chemistry is worth exploring #theres value in it #talk

jvlianbashir

my friend's discord server has a "proof of touch grass" channel where they post pics of them doing regular activities outdoors/in public. i think many online spaces could benefit from such a thing

weaselle

when i was super depressed - like struggling to eat anything barely able to get out of bed to pee depressed - my good friend asked me every day to send her a picture of me holding a leaf and a picture of a meal i was eating and it helped me significantly

(also, she was never judgey - if my meal was a single potato chip she would simply say good job eating a potato chip today <3 )

which is to say, i agree proof of touch grass is a good idea for online spaces