let it go

let's see if this works this time

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if it didn't work out with you do I even have another chance

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I loved you. I hope one day you realize how lucky you were to have been loved by me.

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Update: you did

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Thank you for showing me it was okay to miss home

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they always say that certain people in life have a way of coming back to you

I hope that what they say is right

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you don’t get it

i’m not like you 

feelings aren’t a switch you can turn on and off

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I convinced myself it was real this time

but you turned out to be just like the rest of them. 

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and you too will one day not hurt me

I always get over it

don’t think you’re anything special. 

I’ve had some time to practice

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if you stabbed in the heart

it would probably hurt less than this

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it feels desperately unfair to have been hurt this many times.

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maybe this is why I never find anyone 

because when I do my brain starts running off with the possibilities 

the possibilities that involve happiness and starting over with someone new

but in actuality, these are the possibilities that will never come true

and sitting here, crying, and wishing I’d never met you

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sorry love, you’re a little too late

you did tell me not to wait

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and maybe we’ll meet in 10 years again

and we’ll finally be

what each other needs

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reminder: one day you will feel safe in someone else’s arms. 

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I can taste the dishonestly

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It's shitty how the one person you shouldn't talk to is the only one you always want to

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when you accept someone for their shortcomings and let yourself accept who they really are rather than who you wish they would be

it is the most freeing thing in the world

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it ended not with love or hate

but with acceptance and peace