in aliis verbis

girl took out her own bone marrow and made it beautiful

[reinacm]

been a while since i’ve been on here, but i don’t think i’ll ever really be on this specific blog anymore.

i’ve put a lot of myself into the works here, so i won’t be deleting anything, but i won’t be adding anything either. i want to say, truly and deeply, thank you for everyone who followed and liked and sent messages, and if any of these poems meant something to you in any way, i’m so honored by that.

so many of these poems are written from the pov of someone who was not in a good place, and i’m really proud that i’m doing better now— to people who identify with those poems now, please know that these bad moments you’re feeling? they won’t last forever.

theoretically i’ll be posting some lines or things on @ahightide so if you really want then you can keep up with me there, and i’m working on refollowing mutuals and other favorites.

much love and appreciation,

reina❤️

[understands]

[reinacm]

it’s kind of funny because i say the word “we” as if there is still a “we” and not, instead, a “you” and an “i,” and as if there is not this impossible distance between us. not the distance between letters, maybe not even the distance between words, but the distance between stars. 

it’s kind of funny because i say the word “distance” as if i don’t feel impossibly close you still, still don’t know your favorite color and song and memory. maybe it’s not the same close because i don’t remember how your hand fits in mine, but i say the word “distance” as if i still don’t love. 

it’s kind of funny because i love and i ache and i want and i miss and i am so terribly lonely that i’m sitting by a window at 1am and wondering just how much it will hurt to open and breathe and know that we’re seeing different skies. 

it’s kind of funny because i love and i ache and i want and i miss and i am so terribly lonely and you do not feel the same way at all. kind of funny. 

[destroymylife]

[reinacm]

maybe this is it maybe this is the end of the world maybe tomorrow is ash and yesterday is heartbreak and maybe today is gone too maybe it’s fading away with every word (fading away / fading away) 

(maybe i am a break down and maybe you were a break up) however sweet your smile tasted maybe every word was poison i just didn’t know how to digest it until this moment when i choke (spit and cough) 

maybe you’re bone and maybe i’m graveyard (maybe i’m finally decaying and death is over until i wake) maybe tomorrow is just a memory maybe yesterday is just a dream 

(and i’m talking in present tense like you’re still listening) maybe we are dust floating through the wind maybe we are wind whistling through space maybe we are space reaching through time maybe we are time, ending

[recaption]

by Joshua Foster

[reinacm]

see the thing i keep thinking about is time / and how i can wait for the rest of it / until you’re ready to talk again

but lately i’ve been thinking that the sun is so close to burning up / and we’re just a heart attack / and a car crash away from never speaking again

and i just want to talk before we can’t anymore / before we’re ghosts of different people / i keep thinking you’ll come when you’re ready / but the world might end before then / and i’ll die thinking you hate me

i keep telling myself that we’ll have more time to forgive and forget / more time to hold hands and run / more time to pretend we’ll never die

but i cut my hair / and you moved back to california

so maybe we’ve run out of time already

[black-hearted-bat-deactivated20]

[reinacm]

maybe god will never see us / maybe we won’t be heroes or legends / maybe our story will die when we do /

it’ll have a sad middle and a tragic end / but it will start where we are now / with me seeing you and you seeing me / and whatever love you’ll give me here /

will make whatever heartbreak comes / worth all of tomorrow’s trouble /

[recaption]

[reinacm]

the impossibility of silence reaches over and touches your hand, you smile as you break his wrist.

[theclassyissue]

[reinacm]

AMAZIIIIIIING

💕💕

[reinacm]

i can give you all of my love / from the places behind my rib cage / and underneath my lungs / i can give you all of my promises / from places others broke before

i can give you something honest / it’s not the universe you deserve / it’s not the stars and sun and sky / but its all that i can afford to lose

i’ll give you someone to love / just give me something true

[shatteredribs]

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[reinacm]

i could write a hymn / for a new age prayer / you could sing it& / love me to sleep / i’ll be your favorite dream / and when you wake / i’ll be your best reality /

[joelle1002]