@apoapsiis
What is there to dislike mr Orion?
It’s not fear.i just don’t uhhh.Enjoy. Those kinds of events. I have had some unpleasant parties.
Yes, and Dramatically!
Why do i— those two things have Nothing to do with eachother you know this I think Abby should choose who of her Family to expose to me And while i acknowledge as a dead thing i do not specifically have legal or any rights to anything i do think my father deserves even less
I see, your use of "I just don't uhhh. Enjoy.", conveys strongly your sense of unease and dissatisfaction and also strengthens my theory, about the challenges you have to articulate. Your initial denial of fear suggests the the reluctance is not driven by a simple emotional reaction. I thus understand that that you have hade several unpleasant party experiences in the past, most likely with your mother or a former partner. When you find yourself at such events does your negative emotions amplify visibly? Do you "self-harm" so to speak? Hmm your cognitive dissonance is far worse then what I initially determined. This mingled with your feeling of detachment from legal rights and your sense of powerlessness/insignificance can however be related to your sense of identity. My dear dear sir, you carry on your shoulders an immense internal conflict most likely dropped on your from previous social dynamics/and/or relationships. Oh dear, we have much to do.
