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[remotelyicyphilosopher]

I genuinely just want to not be in love with her...

[paper-wounds]

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

The other day I was really thinking about her again, how it is impossible she would like me back, thinking of how much I want to not heaving these feelings towards her. Wishing to forget, to be just friends. Then I read one sentence while scrolling on IG: "Don't give up on what you think about everyday". Really touched me, I keep on suffering with these feelings but I have this tiny hope that if I tell her how I feel I'll have reciprocity.

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

I'm getting there...

I hate to be in love.

All this feeling inside me,

trying to get out,

trying to reach its true owner.

And me,

having to fight against them,

having to control them.

I'm not even someone who I think that should be with someone yet.

So calm down, wait a little more.

Even if it's already too late when I let you all free,

you WILL be free,

and you WILL reach that special someone.

So calm down ...

I'm getting there.

— ERD

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

It's interesting like the words come out of you so easily when your heart is full of feelings.

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

Unhopefully platonic

We keep seeing each other so much,

talking so much,

sharing so much,

even our dreams.

Even though I'm sensing there's something more that's not just on my side,

I caught myself between saying everything that I should say

and the nightmare of being wrong

And the realization of the bad side makes me freeze

The fear of loosing the privilege of being with you,

even as only a friend,

makes me want to stay this way.

To make myself a little less sad and pathetic,

I keep repeating:

"Love is something you give, not something you seek".

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

I'm having the chance to be so much with the girl I love. Unfortunately, I know she does not like me back. Is good to be with her but it hurts my love is so platonic

[surqrised]

“Please be patient with me. Sometimes when I’m quiet it’s because I need to figure myself out. It’s not because I don’t want to talk. Sometimes there are no words for my thoughts.”

— Kamla Bolanos

[caruccio]

I wasn’t made for hook-up culture.

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

Little down

I'm not a native english speaker so sorry if I say something strange, corrections are welcome. Maybe I'll start writing more about my days and my feelings. Normally I have someone who I can tell everything and that's enough for me, but today, tomorrow and probably for a couple of more days I'll have no one, so this is my way to vent. The reason I'm a little down is actually something kinda dumb I guess. Soon I'll start a course in college that I consider very important and will be given by a professor that is awful, that means that I'll have to make a little more effort to gain this knowledge. That depresses me a little.

[thehopefulquotes]

“Sometimes all you can do is lie in bed and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart.”

— William C. Hannan

[perfectfeelings]

“I’ll always remember you. I’ll always miss you. And you’re always a part of me. I’m always a part of you.”

— Unknown

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

I'm learning the hard way that the worst thing about a job you hate is how time seems to stand still.

[thoughtkick]

“From the very beginning you are being told to compare yourself with others. This is the greatest disease; it is like a cancer that goes on destroying your very soul because each individual is unique, and comparison is not possible.”

— Osho

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

Sleepy Sleepless

That feeling of wanting to stay awake so you don’t have to face tomorrow… Sadly, tomorrow comes anyway.

[remotelyicyphilosopher]

I've been playing out a lot of hypotheticals in my mind.

#lakestreetdive

[vexheart]