She's so gone

What are you yellin' for you're {SCREAMING} out your lungs all D A Y and – night, you can't buy HER just her {clothes}, can't D E F I N E her, can't design {her}, in the 9 0 2 1 0 !

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Krystal: Hey this party sucks, wanna get out of here?

Amber: It’s my birthday party ?

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She turned to face him while continuing to warm up. “You heard me,” Abigail hissed in a whisper. With deadly conviction. “Remember what I told you about Kat last year? Same goes for Tara. So don’t be an asshole Reed!” 

Christian stood there confused. It wasn’t unusual for Abigail to be upfront and blunt, but it came out of no where. “I still don’t get it, but okay.” He mumbled slightly before turning back around, casting glances at Abigail here and there suspiciously.

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She hadn’t told him about how the audition went. She thought maybe because it was because she didn’t want him to pity her, but no. She just didn’t want him to see her life crash and burn…again. “I’m sorry,” she said, wrapping her around his waist. 

Christian kissed the top of her head, “Is anything bothering you? It sounds like you’ve got something on your mind.” He spoke softly to her. She had been quiet lately, there is a lot he wants to know, but he doesn’t want to push if she doesn’t want to tell.

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1.01 || 1.19 || 3.21

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clowndread:

MINI PSA, GUYS.

please, please don’t make a   jim jones,   charles manson,   or   david koresh   during / after this   season.   evan peters is said to be playing   all   of these,   &   while this might step on people’s   toes,   these were   real people.   jim jones killed people.   children.   charles manson   tried   to start a   race war,   &   people also   died.   david koresh had a mass   51 day   stand - off that left 4 innocent people   dead.   these were   real monsters.   real families were   split apart,   so to   roleplay   people like   this   might be   ..   disrespectful.   not to   them,   but to the   families   that were   affected.   

it made me crazy   uncomfortable   when   hotel   came out,   &   people actually started making   jeffery dahmer,   richard ramirez,   &   aileen wuornos   blogs.   &   while i   encourage   creative flexibility,   people don’t seem to   grasp   that these were   real   mass murderers. roleplaying someone like   james march,   or   kai anderson,   are different.   THEY’RE FICTIONAL.   so is   tate langdon.   people also seem to   think   it’s okay to roleplay the   columbine shooters,   which i seriously   don’t   understand, they’re   also   mass murderers, guys. this got   ..   off - topic,   but you get the idea. just .. be   respectful,   maybe.   think   before you make a   blog   like that. this post might   bother   people, or it might not even   matter,   &   people will make the blogs   anyway.   but those were my   thoughts   on it.

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      Christian threw his phone. Could she really be pregnant? He still couldn’t wrap his mind around her leaving if she knew. He could convince himself it was possible one of her friends’ tests, maybe even Abigail’s. Yet, he knew deep down.

      What was he to do now? He couldn’t sleep that night. The test still sitting on his counter. Before he knew it, the sun had risen again and the dark circles under his eyes tell him that he’s gonna have a long day.

      He got dressed to head down to the studio and meet up with his students for their new routine. He stood back and watched them dance from the back of the room as he pulled his phone out and sighed when he didn’t have any returned phone calls.

            Christian:    I think you know why I’m calling. How could you hide this from me?                                                                                                  Sent at 12:22 pm

 He put his phone back in his pocket and looking up when he heard the song end. “Alright, again! From the top.”

Throughout the whole bus ride, Tara’s thoughts kept drifting to Christian. She spent the majority of it crying over him. She needed to stop because she didn’t want Ms. Rhaine and her husband to see her like this. 

Finally, some good luck! Ms. Rhanie said she could audition for the Austin ballet! She warmed up with Ben babbling in the background. Then Ms. Rhanie walked in and suddenly Tara was back at the academy. When Ms. Rhanie told her to do her Persephone solo from third year, the brunette felt as if she had just drunk milk that curdled ten times over. But she did it. 

Ben ran back to the house frantic to get Tara water. Seeing his phone where left it, he grabbed it and thumbed a quick text to Christian, before he ran back with the water. He was her boyfriend after all. He should know what’s going on with her.

Ben: After her surgery, did T-Web ever have a full out panic attack? Bc she just auditioned for Ms. Rhanie and had one.                                                                                                   Sent at 4:38 pm

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Christian had been asleep when he heard his phone buzzing. He hadn't gotten a text from Ben in a while. Probably since the academy. He opened the message and jumped up. Had Tara ever had a panic attack since her surgery? He couldn't recall one as bad as he is describing.

He hit the call button next to Ben's contact name. "What's going on? He asked as the call had been answered.

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Tara wiped her eyes and stood up. Okay, she could do this. She could. So what if two of the most important people in her life basically broke up with her on the same night. 

So what? She could handle it. The first thing she needed to do was get out of these clothes. Tara turned and started back towards Kat’s apartment. While on her way though, her phone started to ring again. Looking at it with glossy eyes, she saw it was Christian again. She shook her head, before ignoring the call then turning off her phone altogether. 

He already ripped out her heart once. She wasn’t going to answer his call just so he could do it again. 

Heaving a deep breath, she changed out of Kat’s clothes, before pulling a random shirt out of her suitcase. Another tear rolled down her cheek when she realized that it was Christian’s shit that she took without him knowing. She brought it to her nose and sniffed. She dropped a hand to her still flat stomach. She had only taken the test a few weeks ago.

“I’m sorry baby,” Tara whispered, before shoving the shirt back into the suitcase. Then she pulled out another shirt out and put it on, along with a pair of pants. 

Next thing she did was buy a bus ticket to Austin and call Mrs. Rhaine after that was done, she grabbed her suitcase and made her way to the bus station.

      Christian threw his phone. Could she really be pregnant? He still couldn’t wrap his mind around her leaving if she knew. He could convince himself it was possible one of her friends’ tests, maybe even Abigail’s. Yet, he knew deep down.

      What was he to do now? He couldn’t sleep that night. The test still sitting on his counter. Before he knew it, the sun had risen again and the dark circles under his eyes tell him that he’s gonna have a long day.

      He got dressed to head down to the studio and meet up with his students for their new routine. He stood back and watched them dance from the back of the room as he pulled his phone out and sighed when he didn’t have any returned phone calls.

            Christian:    I think you know why I’m calling. How could you hide this from me?                                                                                                  Sent at 12:22 pm

 He put his phone back in his pocket and looking up when he heard the song end. “Alright, again! From the top.”

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[[ I had to ]]

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Tara sunk to the concrete bench below her. Tears were starting to fill her eyes, which only filled her emotion as heart plummeted lower into her stomach. Kat didn’t understand. She had found another calling in acting, but all Tara had was dance. Ballet was the only thing she knew. Sure she liked writing. But it wasn’t ballet; it wasn’t her calling. 

Then there was Christian, who acted as if she weren’t coming back. But she had to go back. Without thinking about it, her hand drifted to her stomach. It was still flat. But in another few months, she would be showing. 

The brunette sucked in another breath. She had to tell him, and she knew she had to tell him. She was trying to find a way to tell him when she left. But there was never a right time. And now with him breaking up with her, she knew she had to tell him, but this break up just made everything more complicated. 

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Christian stared at the phone, he knew that he didn't want to. He felt so left behind and he had a knack for making decisions based off of his feelings. It's not like he'd been thinking about it, but when the cab drove away, he felt as if it were over.

He sighed and walked over to the sink of his bathroom. All he could focus on was the rushing water that came from the faucet, he leaned down and splashed some water on his face before grabbing the towel to dry.

He landed down towards the cabinet and looked over at the trash, he hated taking it out. It was something he always abandoned.

He reacher over to grab the edges when something caught hisbeye. A box hidden poorly by crumbled up tissue. He reached for it and it was plain to see. He didn't want to believe it, he tore it open after taking it from the bin. The little stick fell into his hands.

His brain count put it together. A positive pregnancy test. It couldn't be? Tara couldn't be pregnant. Why would she leave with out telling him? With the test held tightly in his hand, he kicked the bin before stomping over to his cell to redial her number. This couldn't be true.

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If you hate tara, the main character around dance academy, why even watch? The whole show is centered around her. There was so much more to the plot than a ship that never sailed. It dealt with financial problems, parent abandonment, lgbt issues, and much more. Can yall nit see that cuz if a ship or???

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Christian sighed with frustration and put his head in his hands. She was right, and he knew it. He could still have everything he came here for. When it came down to it, he never though seriously about being in the company.

How could he even try to work on a dancing career in ballet while knowing he had children out there? Ballet wasn’t even his forte, and last he checked, they didn’t do much hip hop in the company.

” Why would I wanna put my child through that?“ He asked looking at her. Christian stood up and looked at here, reliving those memories. “I had a single mother raise me, she barely made it for me and my brother. All those times I was wondering where the hell my father was.” He exhaled and looked around, “that feeling of amandonment… I wouldn’t put on any child. I’ll be damned if I have my kid feel that way.”

“Why would I want to go into a company I never really have much desire to be in? How are you going to explain to them why their father isn’t around or they barely see him? How are you gonna deal with them growing up feeling like no one wanted them? It weighs on you, tara. That’s something you would never understand.” He said, probably coming off harsh, “I’m not gonna be like my father. I’m not gonna miss out on years of birthdays, holidays, and open houses. I’m not gonna wait until they grow up and go through hard time to get to know them. Even if we struggle, at least out child will know they have two parents who didn’t think twice about leaving them. Two.”

More tears sprung out of her eyes. Was she always this emotional? Or was it too soon to start blaming pregnancy hormones? “You don’t think I’d understand? The day I told my parents…my mother told me she didn’t want me to ruin my life like she ruined hers and told me I should get rid of it! My mother basically called me a mistake and said I should get rid of my baby! But I-I can’t do that! I’m not that kind of person.Since then she hasn’t even said one word to me. My dad is the only one that talks to me now. But that’s only when he has to.”

She stood up and faced him. Makeup running down her face and everything. It was like everything she had been holding in since she found out was finally coming out. “I would never paint you out to be like your father to our baby. But I was trying to think about you and let you know whatever descion you made, I’d be okay with, because I’ve been making these descions by myself for the past two weeks! I’m sorry, I won’t make that mistake again!” 

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It broke Christians heart to see her like this, "Thank you, but don't try to make my decisions for me." He said.in his mind, he felt as if his life had been put to a stop, but he didn't know where it was going in the first place. Christian sighed and pulled Tara into a hug.

"We are gonna do this together. I'm not leaving." How could he? He couldn't go on with his life know he had children who he couldn't see or take care of. "I'm not gong to make the mistake my father did. "

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Christian rushed to her side. All confusion and anxiety had washed away when he saw her break down. He pulled her into his chest and tried to calm her down.

“I’m not going anywhere,” he whispered, “I’m not.” He rocked her back and forth lightly. He didn’t want her to cry, he hated seeing her cry. He always made it his job to make sure that tears never fell down her cheeks.

“Why are you sorry?“he asked as he pulled away but still held her face in his hands. "Sorry for what? You can’t help what happened. It’s not all on you.”

“I’m sorry.” That’s all she could whisper. It wasn’t just Christian she was apologizing to either. It was everyone involved, him, her, and especially the bad. She wished she could be selfless enough to give her baby to a good home, to more experienced parents than her. But she couldn’t give up her baby after nine months of then growing in her. 

“You-you could still have a career here. With the company. You could still have that.” She whispered to him. She wanted him to stay, but she also wanted him to have everything they worked for, for the past two and half years. 

“I don’t know.” She looked at him with watery eyes. “I guess..I’m sorry my body decided it was time for me get pregnant. I’m sorry that of course, I’d be the other two percent in a 98% safe condom.”

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Christian sighed with frustration and put his head in his hands. She was right, and he knew it. He could still have everything he came here for. When it came down to it, he never though seriously about being in the company.

How could he even try to work on a dancing career in ballet while knowing he had children out there? Ballet wasn't even his forte, and last he checked, they didn't do much hip hop in the company.

" Why would I wanna put my child through that?" He asked looking at her. Christian stood up and looked at here, reliving those memories. "I had a single mother raise me, she barely made it for me and my brother. All those times I was wondering where the hell my father was." He exhaled and looked around, "that feeling of amandonment... I wouldn't put on any child. I'll be damned if I have my kid feel that way."

"Why would I want to go into a company I never really have much desire to be in? How are you going to explain to them why their father isn't around or they barely see him? How are you gonna deal with them growing up feeling like no one wanted them? It weighs on you, tara. That's something you would never understand." He said, probably coming off harsh, "I'm not gonna be like my father. I'm not gonna miss out on years of birthdays, holidays, and open houses. I'm not gonna wait until they grow up and go through hard time to get to know them. Even if we struggle, at least out child will know they have two parents who didn't think twice about leaving them. Two."

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      Sweat dripped down his forehead mostly from the humid day and the fact he just got out of class. He made his way into the dorms, his stomach dropping as he approached Kat’s room. For some reason his brain didn’t want to believe the news he had received. He made sure to be safe, but for some reason fate must have been screwing with him.

      He was hoping maybe, just maybe, that it was a fluke, but he really knew that it wasn’t. He’d do anything to ease his anxiety right now. He would be lying if he didn’t say he wasn’t slightly irritated with the fact that she couldn’t tell him to his face, but he couldn’t begin to imagine the fear she was feeling.

      He stopped when he nearly ran into Abigail who came to stand in front of him. Once again, he disregarded her comment and walked passed her to stand in the door way. And suddenly, everything he wanted to say disappeared. He was just as lost as she looked.

Tara sat up when he entered the room. She opened her mouth to say something, but nothing would come out. Her throat felt dry and as if it were about to close up. The baby that was really supposed to weigh the size of a peanut, felt like it weighed a boulder all of a sudden.  

She looked at him mutely, her head resting on her knees, What does she say to him. What can she say to him? By looking at him, she could tell he read her note. There was so much to say, but the only thing Tara’s mouth could form was, “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” 

But sorry for what? For getting pregnant with his baby? For putting this on him? For not telling him straight away? For not telling him to his face? Her bottom lip trembled,”I’m so sorry.”

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Christian rushed to her side. All confusion and anxiety had washed away when he saw her break down. He pulled her into his chest and tried to calm her down.

"I'm not going anywhere," he whispered, "I'm no." He rocked her back and forth lightly. He didn't want her to cry, he hated seeing her cry. He always made it his job to make sure that tears never fell down her cheeks.

"Why are you sorry?"he asked as he pulled away but still heald her face in his hands. "Sorry for what? You can't help what happened. It's not all on you."

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After class, Tara snuggled into Kat’s bed. As much as Grace had gotten better since the tour, Tara still didn’t trust her enough with the news. So afraid she’d let something slip in the month she had left at the academy, she retreated to her best friend’s and Abigail’s room.

“I think your boyfriend is looking for you,” Abigail told the brunette as she came in and set her bag down, “And with the way he’s looking for you, it’s like you’re going disappear at any time, so I’m guessing that means you told him?”

Tara nodded while chewing her mixture of Lucky Charms and Captain Crunch in a baggy. “I…uh…wrote him a note. I guess he read it. Does…he look like he wants nothing to do with me?”

“He actually looks pretty desperate to find you. At least now I know he won’t be an asshole about this.” Abigail said, but Tara shook her head. Her hand came to rest on her still flat stomach. “I don’t think he ever would’ve been one, to begin with. But he could decide he’s not ready to be a Dad. I get that; I don’t think I’m ready to be a mom. But those ‘options’ everyone talks about, I can’t do. So I have to deal.”

Abigail squeezed her hand, before grabbing her running shoes and putting them on. “If you have makeup sex in my room, I’m going to be pissed. But I’m going for a run so you two can talk.”

“She’s in there,” Abigail told him, passing him in the hallway, “For the record, she thinks you won’t be an asshole with all this. Don’t prove her wrong, Reed.”

      Sweat dripped down his forehead mostly from the humid day and the fact he just got out of class. He made his way into the dorms, his stomach dropping as he approached Kat’s room. For some reason his brain didn’t want to believe the news he had received. He made sure to be safe, but for some reason fate must have been screwing with him.

      He was hoping maybe, just maybe, that it was a fluke, but he really knew that it wasn’t. He’d do anything to ease his anxiety right now. He would be lying if he didn't say he wasn’t slightly irritated with the fact that she couldn’t tell him to his face, but he couldn’t begin to imagine the fear she was feeling.

      He stopped when he nearly ran into Abigail who came to stand in front of him. Once again, he disregarded her comment and walked passed her to stand in the door way. And suddenly, everything he wanted to say disappeared. He was just as lost as she looked.

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