Sometimes I’m scared of the sunlight
worried about the potential heartbreak on the horizon
even as its warm hands caress my body
See I’m used to the cold
it’s familiar kiss frost bitten
chapped lips and lifeless fingers
so frozen I forget what it is to feel heat
when I’m wrapped in bright rays
its hard not to feel the lingering eyes
of those dark days hungering for me
licking their chomps and waiting
until I crawl back to chaos like a
toxic ex I just cant seem to shake loose
I’m still learning to take it day by day
breath by breath
still discovering what it means
to feel joy without lingering loneliness
to be okay in the sunshine
to let calm take the wheel for once
I’m trying to learn that just because
there is a cloud in the sky it doesn’t mean
I have to run to the shadows of a tree
just to beat it before it gets there
that it doesn’t mean
I have to fear happiness
just because
I know the darkness so well
-K.M. Rose












