026 06MOON 17
I think I was so lost in my grief of losing yet another friend that I forgot to look around me, at the friends I have at camp, at Trench herself. I forgot how beautiful this place is.
"Find little pockets of Trench wherever you find yourself, and hold it close."
A phrase I told Clancy once in the backstage dressing room before his segment of Good Day Dema, while pressing a few yellow petals into his palm. He carried them in his pocket during the show.
Let me bring myself back to the present.
I left Dema a few days ago and started the trek back to camp, where I'm sure my friends there will harp on me about going back when I said I wouldn't, and where I know Torchbearer will welcome me back with relief that I didn't stay within those city walls. Leaving felt easier this time, not just because no one stopped me and no Bishops chased after me, but because I think I've finally come to terms with the fact that Nova isn't Clancy anymore and that Clancy is still out there waiting for his moment to start again. Either way, despite the usually negative associations with going back to Dema, it might have been exactly what was needed for me to get to this point.
I've found myself writing again, small things in my journal, things that may find their way in here with these pages, someday. I think I forgot how much I love writing.
For now, I should rest. I still have a trek ahead of me, but from where I'm writing, in the mouth of The Vulture Cave, I can see the smoke from camp just over the way. Home isn't too far now.
-Echo












