đĽ - dean was busying himself with the closing chores of the salty salmon. a name heâd finally grew fond of. sure he wasnât labeled as âthe ownerâ but he was as close to being one as he possibly could be. humming to the tune on the radio, occasionally singing along, he stopped mid-way when the tune changed to elvis.
one of elvisâs biggest love songs, to boot.
turning slowly to look over his shoulder, dean raised a brow as cas spoke his name. suddenly a nervousness settled in within him and he couldnât remember what to do with his hands or anything really. forcing himself into a smile, he looked up and met the angelâs gaze and gave a nod. a silent âsure, iâm your open book, spill itâ.
âcas,â he responded, though his voice sounded quieter than heâd expected it to. clearing his throat, he finally moved his hand again and gestured to him. âyeah, go ahead. uh, iâm just finishing up but you got my attention, whatâs up?â suddenly, elvisâ voice got increasingly louder in his ears - which competed with the pounding of his heart.
ok. he could do this. funny - heâd faced down the nothing and demons and leviathans and this was the thing giving him funny nervous feelings. it wasnât physically possible for his stomach to be doing the flops that he felt it was doing, but he thought he finally understood what humans meant by butterflies in his stomach. even after all this time, being in a vessel was ... weird.
he wasnât even afraid that dean didnât share the same feelings, or some kind of feelings. he knew - sure, it had taken way too many years - but he knew that dean loved him in his own way. but he wasnât sure how heâd react to confronting it, to turning it from something unspoken into something real.Â
humans -- no, not just humans -- people -- were known to run from much less.
âdean,â he said, his voice suddenly feeling a little hoarse, as he thought back to the last time heâd tried to tell dean this. yeah, that hadnât gone well, considering the timing.
       like a river flows, gently to the sea--
âlike i said before, back when, you know...â ah shit, he was stalling, wasnât he? âi just wanted to say--â
what was the quote? fools rush in where angels fear to tread? no, that was frank sinatra.Â
      darling so it goes; some things... are meant to be
âi love you. and i was wrong before; i thought i could be happy just saying it, just being, but... i canât be at peace without you. whatever time we have - i want to spend it with you.âÂ