memoirs of a silly trans girl

the intrusive thoughts were yearning for freedom

[nemesismess]

My mom was in Sweden and took this Note: Slut means “the end” so this is saying there are no more left But I still feel this on a spiritual level

[sudorm-rfslash]

Reblog if you too are always a slut for Pokemon

[dafancyuhinspiration]

[girlfriendsinjeans]

[belmasworld]

healed enough to close the door, but human enough to still look at it sometimes

[retroagony]

i never had thoughts that control me

til something bad left me so lonely

and i want it back i want the old me

i’m trying to forget but things just remind me

[dreamstars]

[achillesinhighheels]

[retroagony]

day 50 of hrt!

TW: self harm

uhhhhh hi y’all ummmm ten days away from two months wooooo but i have been struggling ngl. this last week has been physically and emotionally overwhelming. i think my reality as a trans woman is finally settling in and what that means for my personal life, work life, love life, etc. which has all come crashing down to some degree in the last week so i feel so fucked up. it doesn’t help that i’m in the most volatile part of my transition so i feel like i’m going insane smh. i relapsed for the first time in almost a decade. i never thought i would ever crave that again but it felt so good. it was the release i needed and honestly i’m scared for myself and where this could go. also realized after all these years the underlying reason why i self harm: i’ve been punishing myself. for just existing. i honestly feel like everything is my fault. idk. i’m just trying my best. anyways things are starting to feel a little better i went thrifting and to an asian buffet with one of my besties and he even brought me some gifts to cheer me up <3 i have a show next week so i need to lock in. about to take my first dose rn please send love and luck i really need it

[achillesinhighheels]

[ruesdeluxe]

[nittaroze]

[ruesdeluxe]

[2utora]

[retroagony]

hey girlypop i just saw yr recent post and got concerned so wanted to check in with how yr doing now, no pressure to answer just know that ppl care about you and whatever bs youre going thru is NOT yr fault bc you're just trying yr best to live in this fking world

thank you so much for checking up on me baby i really appreciate it <3 i’m feeling a little better today still a little high strung but i’m managing

i’ve had a lot of things happen to me in the last week and shit has gotten very overwhelming i’m gonna make it work though hopefully

[retroagony]

i’m not doing very well right now. i think i’m about to do something that i’m going to regret

[dreamstars]

[sugarypyro]