Hiiii, I was born on May 4, 2004 at 1:53pm in San Juan, Puerto Rico and I have an intermediate knowledge of astrology...I love what you're doing here with your knowledge, it's very good for the growth of the community and I personally find it quite refreshing :)
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split between two worlds. curiouslyâŚnot only are you a Full Moon babyâeven curiouser, an eclipse baby.
not sure if youâve ever heard that saying that human beings are like wine, shaped by the season and the times that we are born; meaning, we carry certain fragrances and tastes and qualitiesâŚso being born during an eclipse is something special and promises that your life is a constant peak, crux, climactic moment.
the thematic elements of your life can be watered down into a few things: regeneration, moderation, extremes, wisdom and discernment. on regeneration, this is indicated by the axis between taurus/scorpio and the nodes being here. south node is your past conditioning, familiar energy and north node is newness, unfamiliar energy.
on one end, you have been conditioned on the theme of depth. itâs ironic that many people seek what they already are; with a 3H scorpio north node, you may seek externally the depth that you actually have within you. you are very much deeply intuitive, transformational, and hold so much emotional awareness. however, some of this conditioning also means that you have been groomed to expect chaos. as a result, you find comfort in trying to curb the chaos, trying to bring order and create a sense of control. this means being fixated on your emotional state, trying to set the emotional temperature in your relationships and life in general. on another end, you are seeing the light of stability, practicality, and staying on the surfaceâthat chaos is not necessarily the default, the going deep and dark does not always need to be manifested. you see the world via values, the ones we share that shape our desires, and the ones we hide deep within us that get us out of bed every morning. what makes you feel comfortable is analysing the practicality of your emotions, wanting to rationalize your feelings. both give you an illusion of control (illusion â not real, but just reinforces what you already believe more and more). additionally, you have a fixated point of view and manifest many little emergencies that force you to kick in survival instincts so that youâre never caught lacking. thereâs a lifelong battle between taking things on the surface level vs. deep-diving. learning the art of moderation, seeing the practicality of your beliefs is only a piece of the puzzle. with an introverted big 3, you always sense ulterior motives and have a intuition about what peopleâs intentions really are, and you can always see where peopleâs patterns will lead them to from a mile away; this makes you incredibly âpsychic.â
your intensity is only expanded by your critical eye. with how detail-oriented you are, you may seem like someone who worries too often or stresses themselves out to have all the right answers. or maybe all this criticism can be internalized until it reaches big catastrophic moments and meltdowns. another thing is that itâs important to watch what your mind is on because, as they say, where the mind goesâŚthe body follows. youâre known for how mercurial and intellectual you are; your curiosity is a strength but its necessary to exercise limits.
limits like discerning the people in your personal life. you can be deeply obsessive to figure out the inner workings of everything and everyone close/familiar to you, diving deep into psyches for answers that may not ever appear. you have been conditioned by your upbringing to see the more nuanced side of life, no matter how much you want to keep it comfortable and on the surface. even when things stable, something always draws you back to catalyze unstable moment; depending on how self-aware you, you may or may not be self-sabotaging yourself to relive certain lessons over and over again. you might even have a sense that youâve âdone this beforeâ even in other lifetimes, especially when it comes to relationshipsâyou have a way of getting overly enmeshed and involved in this aspect. you have a deep bond with your friends/familiar faces, anyone that may have been involved in your upbringing. something about you relationships are never as straightforward as they seem but a little on the dramatic, performative sideâthere are always things that are kept behind closed doors, alternative motives, dark desires in your nearby environment. it wouldnât be surprising to say that there was or were significant crisis/crises in your upbringing that only further reinforced your fixed and introverted emotional state. you have strong feelings due to this about how the world works and why people are the way that they are. you your strong feelings give you an innate passion and drive for getting yourself together, keeping yourself collected via desires to transform and gain some semblance of control. deep thinker would be an understatement. even if the things you think about arenât on the darker or more mysterious side, you have an obsessive way of diving into things. thereâs an insatiable curiosity, although it can be hard to express the emotional realm to the extent that you would like to because itâs all feeling and visionary.
the other thing about being insatiably curious and obsessive is the misconceptions that if you learned more, gathered more information, investigated the psyche a lil more that youâd be better equipped to deal with all these emergencies that seem to fall upon you when it comes to other people. the wisdom that jupiter on the ascendant is giving you is discernment, purifying your personal life and all that are involved in itâlike i said, repetitive experiences but to expand your sense of self without being entangled in others. youâre on the path of realizing your personal philosophy and beliefs. with fixed luminaries, it may be hard to actualise change. and in fact, even if you enjoy change, there might be a part of you that doesnât realize it doesnât have to be catastrophic.
