oh yeah i should mention, I am not mentally capable of having multiple blogs- i would forget about them ngl so this is a nonsense blog with random things I reblog and art occasionally
what was the first media that you can consciously remember scaring the piss out of you and giving you nightmares (examples listed are specific to me I was a cowardly ass child)
horror movie you should not have been watching aged fucking eleven (the shining)
horror show your uncle let you watch (buffy, x files)
legitimate children's horror (goosebumps, etc)
adult horror comedy (Beetlejuice, little shop of horrors, etc)
kid show parody horror episode (hash slinging slasher)
"scary" scene from an adventure movie (Jumanji, princess bride, Indiana jones)
I could see why a kid would be scared of that (monsters from sesame Street)
weird commercial that made you scared
not remotely scary comedy (look who's talking, osmosis Jones, etc)
your best friend's older brother's vague description of a horror movie he watche
chose movie, it was monster house (and coralline but I remember hating monster house first)… I avoided both those movies like the plague until a few years ago I watched both and was like “this ain’t that bad 💀”
I wasn’t expecting to get a 177, but also there were sooo many questions that confused me because I was like “but but but but I need context!!! PLEASE I NEED CONTEXT!!!!”
like the question “You dislike being hugged or held” and I had to be like “I love being hugged or held, by people I know. If I don’t know or don’t have a good relationship with someone I don’t wanna.” So I had to just answer the question as best as I could because the way the answer choices were set up made me upset because they didn’t make sense to me.
I’m used to and like the 1-5 or the most definitly-Not at all scales and the answer choices made my brain scream wtf the whole time.
and then I relize I got a 177 and I think… I most likely do have the tism. Which makes sense for my repulsion to this specific test 💀💀
you can tell this website is autistic as hell because someone posts a video with a mildly catchy phrase in it and no one shuts up about it for an extended period of time. or image even. image with a mildly catchy phrase in it even. we love phrases here on tumblr dot com love to repeat them. due to the autism
I think I may be autistic but I have no idea what to do with this information and I'm also kind of worried im trying to make myself fit into it if that makes sense? I have been diagnosed with ADHD officially, but I'm not sure, maybe I have both?
"Am I Autistic or Not" isn't really a helpful question. It's so big, and so abstract. Try asking yourself questions that are smaller and more concrete. Things like:
Which sensations are really difficult for me to handle? Do I experience sensory overloads? What can I do to reduce or prevent future sensory overloads?
Which sensations are really pleasurable for me? How can I incorporate more of those sensations into my life?
What activities or topics do I find very stimulating, thought-provoking, or exciting? How can I make more time in my life for pursuing those activities? Where can I meet other people who also enjoy those things?
Which aspects of socializing do I find hard? What do I find draining, uncomfortable, or confusing? Is there anyone I can ask for help understanding the things I find confusing? Are there social performances I can try doing less often, or less intensely?
Which activities seem to drain me more than other people, and how can I get the rest I need? Do I need far more recharge time after socializing than most people I know? Do organizational or administrative tasks like cleaning my house or answering emails take a lot of out me? Is there anyone I can ask for support, or any responsibilities I can let go of (or half ass)?
Finally, where do I feel at home? Which spaces make me feel comfortable? Which communities seem to get me? Who do I enjoy being around? Who brings out a playful, lighter, opener side of me? Where do I hate being and who do I dread being around? What do I need out of my home environment in order to feel at peace? How can I bring more of the positive into my life and reduce my contact with the negative?
Are you Autistic, Anon? -- my answer is, who cares? It doesn't matter. You don't ever have to answer that if you don't want to. Use whatever term you want, whenever it feels right. In the meantime, find the spaces, experiences, and people that help you feel less broken. That might include Autistic spaces, as well as other neurodivergent or queer ones. That's fine. Explore widely. Each one of us is a complex enough person that we can't be contained entirely by a single community, identity label, or space.
Private questions of identity matter very little if we aren't actually living out that identity in community with other people. Find the spaces, people, and activities that are good for you -- and if many of them are also very good for Autistic people, well then congrats, you're our kin, whether your choose to adopt the label or not.
Further reading:
Neurodiversity exists on a spectrum — so where do we draw the line?
It’s called “environmental amnesia” and it’s an actual issue environmentalists discuss how to combat. The climate crisis makes it more widespread but it’s been something that’s happening for generations. The story of The Lorax describes it beautifully. The idea that what you remember is what you consider normal, but if the changes happen slowly over generations, you don’t see how large they are because you don’t personally remember them being very different, even if you were told stories about it.
romaincrisis
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