Stay soft, Get Eaten

horny stuff, chronic pain and venting

[ribcarved-man]

how 2 work when u feel like ur about to start vomiting black sludge as soon as you open your notes

[iskander-tm]

I have no idea what to say. it's purely self-indulgent

[ribcarved-man]

realtalk could friendgroup wide cult- i mean polycule based around me be the answer to all of life's questions?

[ultrvmonogamy]

[the-lecherous-light]

would be a really peak night for an older man the age my father probably is to come into my room drunkenly and whisper to me how much i remind him of his wife when she was younger when he isn't apologizing and praying for forgiveness and salivating onto me like a starving animal over a cut of meat, followed by the flick of a light switch after he finishes, and a lock clicking as he enters the bathroom, and then

BANG

goes

the gun

[ribcarved-man]

i think maybe i dont have feelings, i'm just summarising

[ribcarved-man]

If everything is fine, why are you in every single song I listen to? Stay in the love songs. Please stay in the love songs.

[ribcarved-man]

The hardest thing about gym isn't any of the exercises, it's working out for nothing around men who are leagues buffer, thinner, more attractive and more masculine than you, and feeling like the weird runt of some sort of animal species, then leaving and having to go to the women's changing room to be stared at like some kind of carnivorous pig, and if you complain to anyone they'll say "I'm sorry :(" and the clear subtext is "wow can't relate I'd rather die than think about men, i kinda wish you didn't exist so i wouldn't have to remember that's a thing"

[ribcarved-man]

kinda genuinely wish it was possible or acceptable to „fall in“ other kinds of love than romantic, and „get into“ other kinds of relationships, like societally acceptable to say „yeah, me and my friend talked recently and well… we‘ve decided we are going to consider each other brothers“ and people squeal and get excited for you and take this very seriously. Like, I know we use it casually especially on the internet, but in real life, if i am highly committed to someone romantically, I can marry them. If I am highly committed to someone in a familial way, or a parental way, or anything like that, there is nothing I can do to manifest that into social or material reality.

[ribcarved-man]

Like, okay, so what if I meet someone whose personality fits with mine in a way that a friendship or a romance are both damaging to our psyche, but a paternal relationship wouldn't be? Obviously I'm not gonna magically morph into their actual father, but it's not like people only date the epitome of their romantic fantasy, they date someone they like and wish to be with romantically. So if I wish someone was my brother, or daughter, or mother, even in a responsible adult way, my options are to do it as a sexual kink, call them a friend like everyone else, or date them even if that's not how. i see them? How's that normal?

[ribcarved-man]

kinda genuinely wish it was possible or acceptable to „fall in“ other kinds of love than romantic, and „get into“ other kinds of relationships, like societally acceptable to say „yeah, me and my friend talked recently and well… we‘ve decided we are going to consider each other brothers“ and people squeal and get excited for you and take this very seriously. Like, I know we use it casually especially on the internet, but in real life, if i am highly committed to someone romantically, I can marry them. If I am highly committed to someone in a familial way, or a parental way, or anything like that, there is nothing I can do to manifest that into social or material reality.

[ribcarved-man]

Type of guy who sees the monster of his past show up in the reflection of his loved ones eyes and knows he cannot say anything without making it all worse 😆😆😆😭😆😆😭😭😆😆🤣🤣🤣😭🤣🤣😭😭😭😭🤣🤣😭😭😭😭😭

[ribcarved-man]

Is it annoying to have to read my stories? Is it annoying yet to hear about my pain? Sounds like it, since the heaping of pity i keep getting against my will when I just talk about my day to day are slowly losing all resemblance with the concept of "listening". How badly does it annoy you that I always want to talk about something, never just enjoy the simple things? I'm so sorry, is it bothersome when you roll over in bed and I happen to be there, in the way? Is it annoying when I have to leave you in the morning, to make sure we can go on at all? How much do you hate that I talk about the future? Is it a betrayal when I have to leave you at night? My deepest apologies, is it bothersome when I have symptoms? So sorry, it's simply on me that I can't tell you everything that's going on with our mutual family members who you could also just talk to, that i can't take your calls in the middle of the work week. I'm so sorry I have no answers. I'm so sorry I don't know how to speak. I'm sorry I want us all to live. I'm sorry that's not what you all want I'm so sorry my days keep slipping past me, I'm so sorry my limbs keep breaking in a way you can't fix. I'm so sorry you i can't fix myself. Im so sorry I can't tell you what to do with me. So we will do nothing. So we will do nothing again. Because I can't tell you about the pit, and I can't get over and out of it alone. Instead, let's try this: I'm going to stand very still now, and you'll unfocus your eyes, and together we will perform a magic trick. Count to three. When you're done, I'll never bother you again.

[ribcarved-man]

Hate it when the condition has symptoms

[ribcarved-man]

When u think about it, its kinda crazy that society will let u fuck up your life, but not end it if it gets too bad (i.e. being extremely old with nobody to care for you, severe chronic illness maybe), like I can suffer with yall but I'm not allowed to leave?

[yellowlikelemons]

I just. Ugh. I need a woman who just. Genuinely wants to be my mom? Who feels motherly affection for me that's sweet and wholesome to her, but troubling and creepy to the rest of us? A pretty girl who just sees me as helpless and innocent? Help

[dollykittens]

perverted delusional boy mom who can't stand the idea of her son marrying another woman, allowing another woman into their family, so she grooms him into only having eyes for his sister. holding a vibrator between her drugged daughter's legs to make her nice and wet for her son's first time. using the vibrator on herself as she watches her daughter slowly wake up while her son gives her a grandbaby.

[cutie-bxby-bro]

shouldn't have to handle all these big dumb emotions should just have a mom pull me into her lap n shush me n touch me in ways that are a bit too intimate for a mom to touch her lil one but it just makes the big sad stormclouds clear up n my heart feel so warm I can't even realize anything's weird with where her hands linger bcus just feels so good to get Mom's love <3