Felix waited until he was sure Harri was asleep, and allowed himself to drift into a light sleep. He wasn't too sure how long he had managed to sleep for, it didn't seem like very long. But it was a happy sleep. Calm and relaxing, probably one of the best sleeps he'd had in a while. But Felix was stirred by a gentle beeping in the room, pulling him from his slumber. Guessing it was an alarm, he blinked and looked around for Harri's alarm clock or phone. Maybe he'd forgotten to switch them off? It was a school night. But it was still quite dark outside. The sun hadn't risen. Not even four in the morning. He'd slept a lot longer than he thought. Groaning slightly, Felix looked back at Harri before glancing at the other side of the bed. The phone was still, the alarm clock wasn't going off. Then he saw the oxygen tank. "Does it always make that noise?" Felix chuckled softly, hoping Harri heard him. No way could he have slept through that thing right beside him. But nothing. Felix smiled, he didn't want to disturb Harri. He looked peaceful sleeping. So calm, so happy. It warmed Felix's heart.
Reaching out a hand, Felix rubbed the backs of his fingers down the side of Harri's face. but their skin had barely made contact before Felix pulled them back. Cold. But Harri was surrounded in blankets. The window was closed, the room was at a moderate temperature. Felix's stomach churned. He couldn't, not yet. Felix swallowed and continued to trail his fingers down, pressing them gently to Harri's neck. Please. Please have a pulse. Please have some life left. Felix silently begged the universe, his fingers beginning to shake. There was nothing.No movement. Just ice cold skin. Felix felt sick. But he could never find a pulse on his neck. Maybe he was just panicking, and the shaking in his fingers wasn't helping. Felix dipped his hand into the covers and gently pulled out Harri's arm, holding his wrist gently. Again, cold. Felix held back the tears, his breath completely escaping him. He held in what he did have left as he pressed two fingers to the inside of Harri's wrist. He couldn't find anything. There was nothing left. No pulse. No heartbeat. No warmth.
He felt like he was about to throw up. He choked back copious amount of sobs. He couldn't breathe, he couldn't even see due to the tears building up in his eyes, blurring his vision. Realising he was clinging too tightly on to Harri's wrist, Felix dropped it gently, whispering a small apology before regretting it. Harri wouldn't hear it. He'd never hear him again. He'd never see him again. He'd never see or hear Harri, either. Felix fell back down beside Harri, unable to find strength to hold himself up. He tugged Harri's lifeless body into his arms and clung to him, silent sobs coming from him. His whole body was in spasms, and he suddenly couldn't stay quiet anymore. Felix began crying loudly, his sobs reckless and ugly, but he didn't care. He cried out for Harri to come back, his hole body aching for him. "Please!" Felix cried out to anyone, but there was no one there to hear him. "It's not time! I'm not ready!" Felix rocked Harri gently, his eyes squeezed shut tightly as he writhed about in emotional, and somewhat physical pain. "Please come back! Don't leave me! Don't leave me! Not yet!"
Felix didn't even realise how loud he was being until the bedroom door was barged open, the light from the hallway illuminating the room. He looked up, his eyes painfully red, and expression of pain and longing on his face. And Kyler just knew. the younger Han brother slowly approached the bed, shaking his head, praying for Felix to be playing a practical joke on him. His knees hit the bed and Kyler stopped, staring down at Harri. His mouth was hanging open and he let out a sharp breath,, his hands shaking nervously. Glancing up at Felix, Kyler shook his head again, pressing his lips tightly together. "No.. No, stop it Felix. This isn't funny. Harri, stop it! Just stop it!" Kyler began shaking all over, his breathing rapid and shallow. This was breaking Felix's heart, Kyler didn't deserve this. Kyler collapsed down beside them, clinging to any part of Harri that Felix couldn't manage. The pair sobbed for what felt like forever, both sharing the pain of losing the person they cared for and loved the most. It wasn't fair. It was painful and cruel, and neither one could handle it.
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