I'm Space Trash

I wish I could just be ok. {ic vent/blog for photoreminisce's Craig}

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⋆★ i was so collected before summer now like...its a mess, i mean, i’m settling down again, but i’ve just...i dont feel like myself anymore, that’s fucking weird to think about honestly ★⋆

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⋆★ i'm starting to become more and more like Twitchy, next thing you know i’ll start drinking coffee or something, fuck ★⋆

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⋆★ i'm acting fine on my other account but im sort of lying on my bed just thinking about all these what ifs and just life in general and now i’m thinking about people and i just

i don’t want to think about him

stop it ★⋆

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⋆★ its the weekend, time to just lie about and maybe take pictures. ★⋆

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⋆★ crow prince is here and he’s wearing a suit and shit he looks pretty decent. f u c k. ★⋆

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⋆★ i can only remember bits from last night with crow prince and all of them are making me die out of embarrassment ★⋆

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⋆★ ...crow prince slept over last night...it was...

...

in any case, i had baseball practice and i got my letterman jacket, i’m wearing it right now and holy shit its the best thing ever.

...it reminds me of the jock’s one. talking about the jock, i haven’t even seen him around all that much...

...hm ★⋆

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⋆★ i’m just lying on my bed staring at the ceiling and my eyes hurt and i’m really annoyed, i’m not even under the covers i just

ugh

im going to try and just close my eyes again ★⋆

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⋆★ why is it whenever i DO wanna try and go to sleep, i cant bring myself to do so? like what the fuck is this yo. ★⋆

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⋆★ you know, the jock told me that he got me the letterman jacket ages ago but i never received it and now i got into the baseball team and just like, give it to me already, please.

...

in other news, i’m alone and bored. ★⋆

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⋆★ update, i made the team, i’m third base man, also crow prince made himself heard finally- holy shit.

...i haven’t heard much from the jock though...hm.

anyway, i now managed to end up in canada with my french dad who’s sick, so that’s that. wooo. ★⋆

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⋆★ okay amai’s back on the bleachers and i got to get my game on, we’re starting soon ★⋆

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⋆★ the reaction to me wiping my sweat on amai’s cheek was so worth the scrubbing of the face with the towel, so worth it ★⋆

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⋆★ fucking bless amai, she brought me a towel ★⋆

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⋆★ dirt dad came over from the sidelines and handed me water and i’m just chugging it down

...you know, it’s sort of sad crow prince isn’t here...texted him too...hm.★⋆

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⋆★ OH GOD OKAY, WE’RE TAKING LIKE A 5 MINUTE BREAK AND THEN WE’RE SWITCHING AND I GET TO DO BATTING, OH MAN. YES. ★⋆

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⋆★ my hands are on fucking fire, jesus fuck, baseball is so much more hardcore than what it was when i was little, but i’ve been pretty good at third base, i’ve been able to catch almost all of them and throw them pretty quick.

i think we’re going to bat soon, time to show everyone what i’m made of aw ye. ★⋆