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life gets in the way

life is weird.. humans made everything so complicated for themselves

also this social media life has become such a way of life for most people everyone is so wrapped up in it 

their life and happiness comes from likes, i can say that i fall into this category sadly.. but i feel that it is because it is how our life just works now a days...

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alone

Not just for a moment (because that happens to all of us) and also not as the result of depression (look into that to make sure), but rather a pervasive feeling of not actually connecting.

This is different than feelings “fading,” as mentioned above. You can still care deeply for someone but feel lonely every time you’re together. If you don’t actually connect, it will never be the making of a rich relationship

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hell-o

happy new year t-minus its already the 23rd into january lol random late night post its been a while...---

-- why are my dashes all weirdddddd thats so annoying

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thinking

--well it has already been a few days since I have written in this blog and i am feeling so damn lazy --i am behind on literally everything 

--i am a bum not working --i haven’t applied to any schools and oh i am not going to be able to this year because deadline is literally in 2 weeks so i have really screwed myself over and its making me feel like shit 

--i do not want to be this lazy person that i have become--i just have no motivation at all --like its so bad 

--does everyone get like this at somepoint in their life? does everyone feel like shit about themselves and just not do anything 

--i mean i have an amazing life that is not my issue but it’s really apparent to me now that it is an issue i have with myself i feel so down about it but i feel like i can’t do anything to fix it 

--fuck me man 

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amazing

--today was such a freakin blast with my bestfriend-- got to get our boba which was flammesss except stephan’s thai tea was absolutely terrible this place does not do a good job with their thai tea --all my boba lovers you would agree that thai tea should NEVER be watery like yikes --we had so much fun conversing with each other like fak why are we so cute

--flip a coin heads we go get food tails we don’t get food-- “okay call it!” --“heads!!” yupp there it was, fate had decided that we were to go to the food carts next door & get food --cheese bites soooo bomb --the owner is super nice we had a great time conversing and joking with him

--best buy was our next adventure for getting white elephant gifts for our very late christmas party with our best friends --best buy had a few different ideas so hopefully there aren’t any repeats around the group --I picked out a 10 foot charging cord & stephan picked out an echo dot --techies am I right?

--then we got back to my home and watched cock blockers --let me fu*kin tell you this movie is so damn funny everyone should watch it --like this movie is one of the better comedies we have watched in a very very long time --I watched it two nights in a row it is so good

--so homework: watch cock blockers as soon as you can, it’s free on demand!

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boba

--omg time for my favorite drink of all time literally all time bubble tea

--correct term is techincally boba but it depends on what area you are in 

--I’ll get back to this later --boba time!!

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best|friend

--new fact about me --I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world {everyone says that but mine really is} 

--the word love just doesn’t explain how much I love him --I love our relationship we are best friends & I think that that is the best part we can do anything together &  {ooo my tea is done} we have more than a great time 

--I actually started writing a journal when we first started dating & it is so much fun to go back through and read all of our adventures together  --he gives me butterflies {sounds corny but it’s true}

--I never stop thinking about him, how he is doing when he is at work or at home --I think that I am so lucky to have a love like this & to be able to be with a person that is so kind and unconditionally love me, who is a feminist, sexy, smart oh so damn smart, to have someone that supports you with everything, makes sure that you are on track, is always ready to listen to you about anything and everything

--fu*ck how did I get so lucky 

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netflix

-so I started watching that 70s show on netflix --I have seen bits and pieces of it here and there but decided today that I might as well just watch it from start to finish. 

--I should really read a book instead of watching netflix but I don’t have any interest in the books at my house and I always get so sleepy when I read--can’t nap in the middle of the day that would just mess up my sleep schedule again 

--so I am making caffeinated tea to help wake me up {because I am already sleepy} continue to watch netflix and be a bum all day --probably not healthy I could go for a run or do yoga in my room maybe I’ll stretch while I watch netflix that is a great idea -wow this entry is really dumb --but my brain is tired and I wanted something to do 

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always always moisturize

--back to my morning routine it is time for a my moisturizer

-it took me forever to find one that I absolutely loved & that actually worked--always moisturize-even if you have oily skin- to keep it looking young and fresh moisturize moisturize & moisturize

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what inspires me?

Looking at some other bloggers, I have found that it seems my blog and how I am using it is unique --well or uneducated-- the other blogs everyone seems to have a lot of knowledge and quotes and inspiration from other writers on there..

-I honestly do not always find inspiration from quotes or from what other people have written.. I read it but I am not sure it always impacts me in the ways it does others --I want to be able to read a book and think wow my life is different I need to change what I am doing and do better-- but I don’t see myself doing that.. maybe I am just not heavily influenced by others & I like to march to the beat of my own drum {not correct quote in context but it works} 

--I think that I can take what I read and really understand it and analyze it-- but at the end of the day I probably will shrug my shoulders “meh” I think I am doing alright-- I can try to be a more loving happy human--which I believe I am already naturally like that so to try extra at something like that maybe just seems unnecessary  {inside thought-- I do want to do yoga more in my morning routine} 

--with that said maybe I do need and like inspiration--I am just not reading anything that is really calling or portraying to me --yoga would be one of them chakras and all that stuff --maybe I just need to explore WHAT it is that truly makes me feel inspired --what I have read just doesn’t really call out to me 

--to new beginnings 

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to get ready - or to not

-to get ready for the day is just an long task for me --I do not wear make-up {i wish so badly that I could} so I am not sure what really takes me so long.. -maybe its because I have my hair dryer on when I am in my bathroom.. really it is a heater [try it out] 

-I think I do not like the whole {ep #} thing anymore, just seems weirdly repetitive and makes me feel like I am already blogging too much {no such thing right?} --- so goodbye ep you were fun for the 12 hours that you lasted

--I have plenty of time before I am going anywhere to be able to get ready, so I that is a main reason for it taking soo longgg --wonder what else I could be doing in that time --so far it’s blogging, cleaning, eating, getting fashion inspo of course now getting more ideas of things I can write about agh I really love this blogging thing --I feel it is a good use of my time {I think} 

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ep six prt 2

-I almost just dropped my breakfast all over my floor.. but had insane super human reflexes and caught my fork that was flying with eggs on it--tight

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ep six

-considering playing around with my theme today.. again--but I can’t help it, I’ve only just started and don’t think I am completely satisfied with the way my blog looks --time to get creative 

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good-morning

-alright day two & I actually went to bed before 4am and woke up at 8am-this is amazing 

-even better, I have a great nutritious breakfast 2 hard boiled eggs -made unhealthy into a very well proportioned egg salad -- & 8 grain oatmeal 

-I’d like to say that I am off to a great start for this fine thursday morning

--morning started off by washing my face with **cold water --a friend gave me this tip [hot water dries out your skin] totally makes sense -I only used hot water to wash my face and it was always dry  -maybe that was a given, anyone else wash their face with warm/hot water?? 

-then I did a little face mask -whats great about the products that I use is they are for sensitive skin, my skin hates me and basically is allergic to every single beauty product out their on the market.. --until I did my research extensively and bestowed upon... drum roll please---- REN skincare -based in the UK when the company first started, now all of the UK and US & thank god because this is the only brand I have ever used that hasn’t made my skin die. -I’m in love

-also it’s winter and the birds are chirping out my window & it is sunny out... this is weird-- dooms day ahead?? 

--peep that I did not label my entry as {ep #} today, I think that I will keep my first post of my day as good morning, afternoon\mid-day, evening\good night.. -for now anyway, until I decide what looks better or worse 

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ep five

-before I go to bed one last thought -I can’t tell if I am sick or not.  I feel like it could be allergies but I have never had them before. I woke up extremely congested and started sneezing randomly throughout the day -that isn’t normal for me at all. 

-but I don’t feel sick, that’s the weird part, maybe it is a head cold 

-goodnight, hoping for my nose to clear so I can breathe normally 

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ep four

-I have the worst sleep schedule right now -I have been going to bed so so late and it’s probably not very healthy [what is healthy?] eight hours of sleep a night apparently 

-I used to wake up at 8am naturally even if I went to bed around 12am -it got to the point where if i wasn’t up by 9am i felt that I wasted my whole day away

-now I really am -I am gonna have to fix that

-also I am not sure if I want to keep capitalizing my i’s like do I want to be that proper? is having to move my ring finger over 1/2 an inch really that difficult? or am I really that lazy? or do i like the way that my i’s look without being capitalized -i’m sure ill decide later after this entry 

-now i shall attempt at going to bed early for once this week -wish me luck 

p.s  --should I even take the time of re-reading through my entry before posting it? or just be raw and hit post as soon as I am done? ---tbd

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ep three

two things that you could know about me, in case some random human comes across this page and is curious 

-I am a woman, 23 years of age, I will not disclose where I live though, that’s plain unnecessary in my opinion [trust no one online] who knows someone could be hacked into my computer right now watching my every move - hehe that’s as much info as you are going to get -sorry-

-this blog really is my own thinking -real life-  no I am not hiding through a computer screen trying to be anyone else { I mean, technically I am hiding through a computer screen} but seriously this blog is 100% authentic me 

-any names that are in my entries, are not real names of my family or friends -out of being courteous & respectful  -in the case of anyone actually coming across my blog [the internet is forever]

-maybe I should write a small description in my title instead of episodes, could be more interesting. I’ll figure it out -also if anyone really is reading feel free to comment answers or opinions on my blog- no hate though that’s just not right

-random thought : after typing three entries my hands are utterly dry, I need lotion asap