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my friends sh because of me

it's not like i told them to. i know it's not particularly my fault.

but i know they started because i indirectly gave them the idea with my scars.

i feel horrible

please erase me

when i was 18 i noticed noone was supporting my addictions.

i couldn't just say i want to get drunk alone in my room on a thursday at 3pm because people would get mad and judge me

weirdly, nobody took me seriously when i was 13 and did the exact same thing.

i will kll myself before i turn 21 so nothing matters anyway

now instead of shh i drink

is it better to speak or to die

and in the end i end up drunk relapsing anyways lmao

2026 is just 2022 but im older now

my boyfriend is feeling really bad aswell and i literally cannot do anything about it.

i've never been in a state so bad that i can't help others. genuinely what is happening.

i haven't eaten more than 500 cals in a while now and my vision feels like i'm drunk, it's nice

i cant wait to get drunk on the weekend

i promise i thought i was getting better

i know im too weak to do it but it has been on my mind everyday for a week now

do you hate me or did you just leave me on read because you're busy?

last time i let my friends find out i sh i noticed they started too so i can't open my mouth this time

im scared to tell anyone that im getting bad again

i don't understand why my parents never cared. wdym i come home and you don't want to hear about my day? and when i start talking you don't listen.

i have to stop spiralling in the "what if what i'm doing annoys then?" thoughts.

if it annoys them, they'd tell me. and if they don't tell me, that's their problem.

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