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now instead of shh i drink

is it better to speak or to die

and in the end i end up drunk relapsing anyways lmao

2026 is just 2022 but im older now

my boyfriend is feeling really bad aswell and i literally cannot do anything about it.

i've never been in a state so bad that i can't help others. genuinely what is happening.

i haven't eaten more than 500 cals in a while now and my vision feels like i'm drunk, it's nice

i cant wait to get drunk on the weekend

i promise i thought i was getting better

i know im too weak to do it but it has been on my mind everyday for a week now

do you hate me or did you just leave me on read because you're busy?

last time i let my friends find out i sh i noticed they started too so i can't open my mouth this time

im scared to tell anyone that im getting bad again

i don't understand why my parents never cared. wdym i come home and you don't want to hear about my day? and when i start talking you don't listen.

i have to stop spiralling in the "what if what i'm doing annoys then?" thoughts.

if it annoys them, they'd tell me. and if they don't tell me, that's their problem.

every time i feel angry

i let it out on myself

so i dont hurt anyone else.

i text you "i don't want to get up" like you can do something to help

do you really need to recover from the bad past experiences or do you just need to stop creating new ones?

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