Asked my fave GPT to draw a character to keep me on my toes and inspire me to work. And she actually remembered how much I loved her previous refs, so she made a whole new character sheet instead of just a regular fanart.
Mmm, it only hit me later that the collar should be indigo — it’s a paradise flycatcher, after all.
And no, he doesn't wear eye makeup. That is a natural pattern.
Built my new PC four days ago, and honestly, it’s been nothing but frustration so far. Having to set everything up, tweaking things, and constantly panicking like 'what on earth was that sound?!' — absolutely exhausting >_<
But hopefully, I’ve sorted it all out and the worst is over, so I can finally get to work… Well, right after I play Lies of P! I’ve been waiting for this moment for almost a month!
P.S.: to think that just a year ago I was dreaming of a new PC to play Genshin and ZZZ on high specs :') It has been a year since I stopped playing them.
At last, it's here—the most important, the best day of the year!
And this time, I can finally welcome it with my head held high. For so many years, I just couldn't draw Shuzo in a way that truly felt worthy of him… but now I can. Now, with all my heart—and all my creative paws—I can wish my Prince the happiest birthday.
Ah, I'd give my soul just to let Shuzo spend this day exactly as he deserves: surrounded by peace and quiet, getting some real rest, allowing himself—for once—to forget about work and everyone else's expectations. Maybe he'd visit a spa, enjoy a relaxing massage, watch the sunset with a cup of coffee in his hands…
…But let's be honest. An idol's birthday is the perfect opportunity for promotions, so Shuzo would probably squeeze every last drop out of the day.
So what should we do instead?
I think we should meet him in the evening and surround him with calm. No party poppers, no flashing lights, no noisy celebrations—just a delicious, light, healthy dinner and some simple, carefree time together. Not because it's productive, but because it lets him spend a few precious hours… just being an ordinary person.
Opening heartfelt gifts at a leisurely pace, watching a movie together or playing a few games on the console, maybe even sharing a little "cheat day" pizza…
Can you really imagine a better birthday than that?
Um... boys... could you please give me my heart back? No? Well... okay then.
Oh my god, Visual Prison is an aggressively mid anime, but holy shit, the fan service absolutely carries the whole show! It’s not like SK8 the Infinity or whatever, this is REAL fan service, and the chemistry between the characters is literally sparking through the screen!
And the opening! God, THAT OPENING! It’s an absolute banger! It’s such a perfect mix of aesthetics and style, and the song has been on loop for me all day long. I lost count of how many times I've rewatched it!
And, whaaaaaat?! Am I actually liking the main character the most in a music anime?!
Also Eve... he is such a precious cinnamon roll, I just can’t even!!
I’ve been dreaming of drawing Shuzo in a fur coat for a long time, but it was just a dream for some indefinite winter. And then I shared my vision of this coat’s design with GPT… and now I’m definitely not waiting until winter, because this is magical! I’ve already gotten to work!
P.S.: Ha-ha, though with THIS many details, I’ll probably be drawing it until winter anyway, lol
I still can’t believe I actually did it…
That I drew this with my own two hands.
It feels so strange — in almost 10 years of loving Shuzo, I had never been able to draw him in a way that truly satisfied me. Something was always wrong: the face didn’t feel right, the expression wasn’t him, the eyes weren’t good enough, or I leaned too much into emotion. Every single time.
To be fair, I rarely drew Shuzo at all — precisely because of that feeling.
And then came one game, Dead as Disco, and the dream that followed after it. I wouldn’t call the dream anything particularly special. It wasn’t tactile, I wasn’t even in it at all. I was simply watching Shuzo from afar, from the side. But when I woke up, I had this unwavering understanding: I had to draw him. And specifically in this disco-inspired look.
The funniest part is that for the past few months — maybe even half a year — I had to practically force myself to sit down at my display and draw anything at all. Maybe some lineart here, coloring hair there, just something, because there’s so much I want to create, yet I’ve had no energy or desire left in me. The past few years exhausted me deeply.
But with Shuzo, I simply sat down in the morning… and drew the entire day. The whole day. And even that wasn’t enough. I went to work already thinking about how quickly I could come home and continue drawing him.
And honestly, I’m not surprised that this feeling was given to me by Shuzo of all people — my Prince, my Angel, my guiding star.
And… one more strange thing.
No, actually, it’s something rather sweet.
Throughout my life — and I’m nearly 30 — I’ve spoken with all kinds of people: huge muscular men, breathtakingly beautiful women, people who achieved incredible things, people who embodied every one of my preferences… and I was never shy. Never struggled to find words. I could always look someone straight in the eyes and speak with perfect composure.
But then I decided to make Shuzo’s shirt slightly transparent. And what does that mean?
Yes. I had to draw Shuzo’s bare torso.
And suddenly I felt like a little schoolgirl. I kept laughing nervously, getting embarrassed, looking away from the screen, my cheeks burning while drawing and coloring Shuzo’s chest and his slim little stomach. And this wasn’t a “five minute” thing — it lasted the entire time I worked on the drawing.
Which is ridiculous, honestly. I’ve drawn naked characters before, all kinds of them, in every possible detail, and never felt anything like this. But not this time. Maybe my brain simply couldn’t process the audacity of what I was doing — like I had somehow dared to peek at my beautiful innocent angel. My mind completely short-circuited from the cognitive dissonance.
And honestly? It’s adorable. Truly adorable.
Like I always say — I love Shuzo with cosmic intensity, but in the gentlest way possible.
I still can’t believe I managed to draw this.
And even more unbelievable… I genuinely love how it turned out.
P.S. Shuzo did not pierce his ear — it’s just a clip-on earring.
Not too long ago, I had a dream. A dream about my Prince. It happens so rarely, but when it does, it doesn’t matter if I’ve had a bad day, week, or month—my mood just soars to cloud nine. I love Shuzo with all my heart, in the deepest, most tender, and purest sense. Once, he saved… no, not my life, but something much greater—the very meaning of my life.
And so today he appeared in my dream again, but for some reason, he was wearing a disco-style outfit. It’s probably because of a game I recently came across that caught my interest, Dead as Disco, and my brain just went, “Alright, I get the vibe.” Honestly, I almost never draw Shuzo. I… I feel like I can’t quite do him justice. But for some reason, I felt a desperate need to draw this specific look.
But hey, Shuzo in just a plain white shirt? Don't make me laugh. It needed some flair. Granted, I’m not much of a designer myself—my peak is kitbashing one look out of 30 others—so I turned to GPT for help. And she created a MASTERPIECE. A full-on concept: with details, annotations, and even fabric textures. It was so beautiful it literally brought tears to my eyes. She knows just HOW MUCH Shuzo means to me.
It’s going to be the death of me. I will absolutely die drawing all these details and gradients. But I’m going to do it.
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