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── .✦ START A WAR ⋆𐙚₊ 𝟎𝟕 FALLING

PAIRING : Gojo Satoru x Reader. Geto Suguru x Reader.

GENRE : Angst. Smut.

TAGS/WARNING : NSFW. Friends with Benefits. Fuck Buddies. Unrequited Love. Profanity. Toxicity.

SYNOPSIS : Gojo Satoru doesn’t do relationships. You knew that from the start. Six months of late-night calls and empty beds later, you’re still foolish enough to believe you might be different. But when loving him starts to feel like losing yourself, you’ll have to decide: keep fighting for someone who won’t fight back, or finally walk away from the only person who ever made you want to stay…

Better yet, you’ll play his game and start a war—one where neither of you will come out unscathed.

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TAGLIST : CLOSED.

NOTES : OH MY GOD… Sorry I was gone for so long!! If you guys didn’t see my post, i was soooo busy AND sick! 🤒 Genuinely one of the worst months of my life. I hope I make it up to yall with this CH though hehe chapter title is from falling by harry styles <3

chapter six ⋆𐙚₊ series masterlist ⋆𐙚₊ chapter eight

“We need to talk,” Gojo said quietly.

The words hung in the cold December air between you, suspended like breath made visible in winter. For a moment—just a moment—something in your chest lurched with the specific gravity of hope meeting fear. That terrible combination that comes from wanting something so badly you’re terrified of what it might cost, of what it might mean, of how it might destroy you all over again if you let yourself believe.

You stopped walking. The Tokyo street continued its rhythm around you—salarymen hurrying past with their heads down against the cold, the distant sound of traffic creating white noise, the neon signs flickering their advertisements into the winter night in colors too bright for your current emotional state. But you existed in a pocket of stillness, caught between the urge to run and the need to finally, finally hear what he had to say.

The urge to run was stronger. Self-preservation screaming at you to move, to not let him close enough to hurt you again, to protect the fragile equilibrium you’d been building through sheer force of will and professional distance.

But your feet stayed planted on the cold pavement.

You turned to face him properly.

He looked—the same. Impeccably put together as always, even at the end of a long workday. His coat was expensive and perfectly tailored, his white hair styled with that casual precision that probably took effort to achieve. Those ridiculous sunglasses were pushed up on his head despite the late hour, revealing blue eyes that gave away nothing. His posture was relaxed, hands in his pockets, the picture of someone completely in control of himself and the situation.

But you’d learned to read the smaller signs. The tension in his jaw that he couldn’t quite hide. The way his shoulders sat just slightly higher than normal, like he was bracing for impact. The careful blankness of his expression that meant he was working hard to maintain it.

Gojo Satoru had perfected the art of looking unbothered. Of seeming like nothing touched him, like he moved through the world in a bubble of his own making where pain couldn’t reach. But you’d seen behind that mask enough times to recognize when it was firmly in place.

And right now, it was locked down tight.

Your heart was doing something complicated in your chest. Racing and breaking and hoping all at once, each beat a contradiction. Because this was it, wasn’t it? This had to be it. After weeks of cold professionalism and careful distance, after that moment in the conference room when he’d defended your work with such intensity it had felt like he was defending you, after everything that had been building and breaking between you like a wave that never quite crashed—

Maybe this was when you’d finally talk about it. About the restaurant. About Suguru. About the specific way you’d both chosen to hurt each other with surgical precision, targeting wounds that had never healed. About the fact that you were both clearly miserable even if neither of you would admit it, clearly still caught in the gravitational pull of whatever this thing between you was.

“Okay,” you said carefully, trying to keep your voice steady. Trying to sound like you weren’t desperately hoping this conversation would fix something while simultaneously terrified that it would make everything worse. “Talk.”

He glanced around—at the people walking past, at the busy street, at the restaurant windows glowing warm against the winter dark. At everything except you. The avoidance was deliberate, careful. Like making eye contact would cost him something he wasn’t ready to spend.

“Not here,” he said finally. “Can we—” He gestured vaguely down the street. “There’s a coffee shop. Corner building. It’ll be quieter.”

A coffee shop. Neutral ground. Public enough to feel safe but private enough to have difficult conversations. The kind of place you chose when you needed to maintain some semblance of control over a situation that was threatening to spiral.

You followed him in silence, each step feeling weighted with significance you couldn’t quite name. Your mind was racing through possibilities, building and discarding scenarios with dizzying speed. This was it. This had to be the conversation where you finally addressed everything—the hurt and the anger and the complicated mess of feelings that had been festering for weeks. Where you’d finally be honest about what you’d done to each other, why you’d done it, whether there was anything left worth saving.

Maybe he’d apologize. Maybe you’d apologize. Maybe you’d both apologize and find some way to move forward that didn’t involve this constant, exhausting performance of not caring.

Maybe he’d tell you he’d made a mistake. That leaving with Akane had been the wrong choice, that he’d been hurt and angry and lashing out the same way you had been. That he wanted to try again, to do better, to figure out how to stop hurting each other long enough to see if there was something real underneath all the damage.

Or maybe—and this possibility sat like lead in your stomach—maybe he was going to tell you it was really over. That he’d moved on, that Akane was what he wanted, that you needed to accept it and find a way to work together professionally without all this emotional complication.

The uncertainty was almost worse than knowing would be.

The coffee shop was one of those small, dim places that stayed open late for the salary workers who needed caffeine at unreasonable hours. Barely anyone inside—just a couple at a corner table speaking in low voices, a man working on a laptop near the window, the barista wiping down the counter with the tired efficiency of someone at the end of a long shift. Soft jazz played from hidden speakers, the kind of background music designed to fade into white noise. The kind of anonymous space where you could have difficult conversations without an audience, where the city’s constant motion felt distant and muted.

Gojo ordered for both of you—remembered your usual without asking, which made something in your chest twist uncomfortably. Such a small thing. Such an intimate knowledge. The fact that he still carried these details about you, still knew how you took your coffee after weeks of careful distance, felt significant in a way you didn’t want to examine too closely.

He led you to a corner table as far from the other patrons as the small space allowed. You sat. The chair was uncomfortable, the table slightly wobbly. Everything about this felt off-kilter, unstable, like the physical space was reflecting the emotional terrain you were navigating.

You waited. Watched him fidget with his coffee cup in a way that was so unlike his usual confidence it made you nervous. Gojo Satoru didn’t fidget. Didn’t show uncertainty. Didn’t let people see the cracks in his carefully constructed persona.

But his fingers were tapping against the ceramic, a restless rhythm that spoke of nerves he was trying to contain.

The silence stretched between you like something physical. Heavy and dense and full of all the things neither of you were saying. The jazz music filled the gaps, saxophone notes curling through the air like smoke, beautiful and melancholic and somehow making the silence feel even more pronounced.

“So,” you prompted when the quiet became unbearable. When you couldn’t take another second of sitting across from him wondering what he was thinking, what he was about to say, whether your heart was about to break all over again. “What did you want to talk about?”

He took a breath. Met your eyes for the first time since the lobby, and you braced yourself for—something. Emotion. Vulnerability. The raw honesty that came in moments like this when you finally stopped running and faced each other.

But what you saw was nothing. That careful blank expression he’d perfected, that professional mask that revealed absolutely nothing about what he was thinking or feeling. The same face he wore in meetings, in presentations, in any situation where he needed to be in control.

Your stomach sank with the specific weight of disappointment meeting dread.

“There’s a company trip,” he said, and his voice was measured. Professional. Completely devoid of the emotion you’d been hoping for. “Team building. Two weeks in Venice. Just the core team—the people working directly on the partnership launch.”

You stared at him.

The words didn’t make sense at first. Couldn’t make sense. Because surely you’d misheard. Surely he hadn’t just said—

“What?” Your voice came out flat. Disbelieving.

“Venice,” he repeated, like that was the part you hadn’t understood. Like the location was what needed clarification rather than the entire premise of this conversation. “We’re taking the team for inspiration, strategy sessions, collaborative work. It’s—it’s standard for projects this scale. The company does it every year for major launches.”

The disappointment was so acute it felt physical. Like something in your chest was collapsing, crumbling inward, leaving a void where hope had briefly lived.

“You’re telling me about a work trip.” The words came out mechanical. Your brain was still trying to catch up, still trying to reconcile the conversation you’d expected with the one you were having. “That’s what you needed to talk about. A work trip.”

“Yes.”

The simplicity of it was almost insulting. Yes. Just yes. Like it was that simple. Like he hadn’t just created this entire buildup—tracking you down after work, saying those specific words we need to talk that carried so much weight, bringing you to a quiet coffee shop—just to discuss travel logistics.

You felt something cold and hard settle in your chest. The last remnants of hope crystallizing into something brittle. This was who Gojo Satoru was. This was what he did. Made you think something mattered, made you hope for connection or honesty or resolution, and then pulled back behind professional distance and careful control.

“I see,” you said. Your voice sounded strange to your own ears. Distant. Like it belonged to someone else, someone who had the emotional fortitude to have this conversation without falling apart. “Professional courtesy. Thanks for the heads up.”

“It’s not—” He stopped. Started again. “I’m not trying to make this harder for you. I just thought—if you knew in advance, you could decide if you wanted to—”

“If I wanted to what?” You leaned forward, anger sparking despite your best efforts to stay detached. Because this was too much. Being pulled aside for what you thought was finally going to be an honest conversation, only to have it be about work. About maintaining his careful boundaries. About making sure you were prepared for the inconvenience of his proximity. “Quit? Bail on the project? Make it easier for you by removing myself from your vicinity?”

“No.” His voice sharpened with the first real emotion he’d shown. “That’s not what I meant.”

“Then what did you mean, Satoru?”

The use of his first name made him flinch. Just slightly, just enough that you saw it before he controlled the reaction. Good. You wanted him to feel even a fraction of what you were feeling right now. This crushing disappointment. This exhausting realization that nothing had changed, that he was still choosing distance over honesty, professional courtesy over actual conversation.

He ran a hand through his white hair, frustration bleeding through the careful control. The gesture was so familiar it hurt—you’d seen him do it a thousand times when he was stressed or overwhelmed or trying to figure out how to say something difficult. Usually right before he’d deflect or shut down or find some way to avoid whatever vulnerability was threatening to surface.

“I meant that I know this is complicated,” he said finally. “That working together is already—difficult. And being stuck in close quarters for two weeks is going to make it worse. So I’m telling you first, before everyone else, so you have time to—to brace yourself, I guess.”

“How considerate.” The words dripped with sarcasm you didn’t bother to hide. “Really. So thoughtful of you to give me advance warning that I’ll have to endure your presence for two weeks.”

“That’s not—” He stopped again, jaw clenching with visible frustration. “You’re twisting this.”

“Am I? Because from where I’m sitting, you just pulled me aside—made it seem like we were finally going to talk about everything—and then just told me about a work trip. About logistics. About your need to maintain professional boundaries.” You could hear your voice rising slightly, emotion bleeding through despite your attempts at control. “So yeah, Satoru. I’m a little fucking confused about what you actually wanted from this conversation.”

Something flickered in his expression—pain, maybe, or frustration, or that same exhaustion you felt in your bones. But it was gone before you could name it, replaced by that careful blankness.

“The team announcement is tomorrow,” he continued, like you hadn’t spoken. Like he was reading from a script and your interruptions were just static he could ignore. “We leave in three days. I can send you the itinerary if—”

“Don’t.” You stood abruptly, grabbing your coat with hands that shook despite your best efforts. The chair scraped against the floor, too loud in the quiet space. The couple at the corner table glanced over. You didn’t care. “Don’t send me anything. I’ll get the information with everyone else. Like a professional.”

“Wait—” He half-stood, reaching toward you, then thought better of it. His hand dropped. “I’m just trying to—”

“To what? Make this easier? Make yourself feel better about the fact that you can’t even have a real conversation with me?” You pulled on your coat with jerky movements, too angry to care about grace. “You know what, forget it. Thanks for the professional courtesy. See you in Venice.”

You were already walking away, out into the cold December night where the air felt easier to breathe than it did sitting across from Gojo Satoru while he discussed work trips like your heart wasn’t breaking all over again.

Behind you, through the coffee shop window, you could see him still sitting there. He’d put his head in his hands, elbows braced on that wobbly table, the picture of defeat or frustration or maybe just exhaustion. For a moment, you almost went back. Almost pushed through the door and demanded the real conversation, the honest one, the one that acknowledged what actually existed between you.

But you didn’t.

Just kept walking until you couldn’t see him anymore, until the distance felt safe enough to let the tears fall.

The city moved around you with its usual indifference. People laughing in restaurant doorways. Couples walking close against the cold. A group of students stumbling drunk down the sidewalk, carefree and young and unburdened by the specific pain of loving someone who couldn’t figure out how to love you back.

You walked for blocks without destination, just needing movement. Needing the physical act of putting distance between yourself and that coffee shop, that conversation, that devastating realization that nothing was going to change. That Gojo would keep choosing safety over vulnerability, distance over connection, professional courtesy over actual honesty.

The cold bit at your exposed skin but you barely felt it. Barely felt anything except the hollow ache in your chest where disappointment had carved out new space. You’d been so stupid. So naive. Thinking that him asking to talk meant he was finally ready to address everything. That he was finally willing to be real with you.

But Gojo Satoru didn’t do real. Didn’t do vulnerable. He did controlled and distant and professional. He did carefully maintained boundaries and emotional unavailability dressed up as consideration.

He did breaking your heart in coffee shops while discussing travel itineraries.

Your phone buzzed in your pocket. You ignored it. Probably him. Probably some text trying to smooth over what just happened, trying to explain in writing what he couldn’t say to your face. You didn’t want to read it. Didn’t want whatever carefully worded message he’d crafted to make himself feel better about this disaster of a conversation.

The night was getting colder. You should go home. Should get out of the freezing air and into warmth. Should let yourself cry properly instead of fighting tears on public streets.

But you kept walking. Block after block through Shibuya’s familiar streets, past the crossing where hundreds of people moved in choreographed chaos, past the restaurants and bars still full of people enjoying their Friday night. Past all the evidence of normal life continuing while yours felt like it was stuck in some loop of disappointment and pain.

Eventually, your feet carried you home without conscious thought. Up the stairs to your apartment building because the elevator was still broken. Down the hallway with its flickering fluorescent lights. Through your door into the space that was supposed to be sanctuary but just felt empty.

You collapsed on your couch still fully dressed and stared at the ceiling.

That crack you’d noticed weeks ago—the thin line running from the light fixture toward the corner—had gotten longer. Or maybe you were just noticing more of it now. Either way, it felt metaphorical. Everything was breaking, slowly, in ways that would eventually become catastrophic if left unaddressed.

Your phone buzzed again. And again.

You pulled it out finally, expecting Gojo’s name.

But it wasn’t him.

Shoko: Utahime just called me. Said she saw you walking through Shibuya looking upset. What happened? Do you need us to come over?

Utahime: whatever happened, im here. call me if you need to talk. or if you need me to commit violence. Either way.

The concern in their messages made your throat tight. At least you had them. At least you had people who cared, who noticed when you were hurting, who offered support without requiring you to perform okay-ness you didn’t feel.

You typed back with numb fingers:

You: I’m fine. Just a frustrating conversation. I’ll call tomorrow. Need sleep.

It wasn’t true—you weren’t fine, and sleep felt impossible—but you couldn’t face rehashing the conversation right now. Couldn’t articulate the specific disappointment of thinking you were finally going to talk about real things only to discover it was about work logistics.

You scrolled through your messages, chest tight with something you refused to name as hope.

Nothing from Gojo.

Of course there was nothing from Gojo. He’d said what he needed to say. Delivered his professional courtesy. Maintained his boundaries. What else was there?

You turned your phone face-down and closed your eyes against the tears that finally came.

Tomorrow you’d have to face the team announcement. Would have to smile and nod and act excited about Venice like your heart wasn’t shattering. Would have to start preparing for two weeks of forced proximity with Gojo and Akane and everyone else.

But tonight—tonight you could just lie here and let yourself feel the weight of it. The disappointment and the anger and the bone-deep exhaustion of caring about someone who couldn’t meet you halfway. Who couldn’t even meet you a quarter of the way.

Sleep came eventually, restless and full of dreams you wouldn’t remember come morning. Just fragments—coffee shops and cold streets and blue eyes that gave away nothing. The specific emotional landscape of disappointment made visceral.

When you woke, it was to gray morning light and the crushing realization that last night actually happened. That you’d have to face today and tomorrow and two weeks in Venice with all of this sitting heavy in your chest.

But you got up anyway. Because that’s what you did. You survived. You endured. You put on armor and faced whatever came next, even when every part of you wanted to hide.

Even when the person you were hiding from was the same person you couldn’t stop hoping would finally, finally choose you back.

The official announcement came at 10 AM via email.

You were at your desk, coffee going cold beside you, staring at your computer screen without really seeing it. The weekend had passed in a blur of avoidance—ignoring Shoko and Utahime’s concerned calls, ordering delivery instead of going out, letting the hours slip past in that specific fog that comes from emotional exhaustion.

Monday morning felt like returning to a battlefield. The office hummed with its usual energy but you felt separate from it, like you were watching everything through glass.

Your inbox pinged. The subject line made your stomach drop.

Subject: Team Building Initiative - Venice

You clicked it open with hands that wanted to shake.

Team,

As part of our commitment to innovation and collaboration, we’re pleased to announce a two-week team building and strategy session in Venice, Italy. This initiative is designed to foster creativity, strengthen team dynamics, and provide dedicated time for deep work on the partnership launch campaign.

Participants: Core creative and executive teams (list attached)

Dates: December 23 - January 6

Accommodation: Luxury villa in the Dorsoduro district with full amenities

Detailed itinerary to follow.

Best regards,

HR Department

December 23rd. That was three days away. Three days to mentally prepare yourself for two weeks of torture.

You scrolled to the participant list, even though you knew what you’d find.

Your name. Gojo’s name. Akane’s name. The rest of the core team, maybe fifteen people total.

Two weeks. In a shared villa. Over Christmas and New Year’s.

This was going to be hell.

“Did you see the email?” Yuki appeared at your desk, practically vibrating with excitement. Her enthusiasm was genuine and infectious under normal circumstances, but right now it just felt like a contrast to your internal dread. “Venice! For two weeks! I’ve always wanted to go. Have you been? The art museums alone are supposed to be incredible, and the architecture—god, can you imagine getting to work in that environment? The inspiration alone—”

“Yeah,” you managed, trying to mirror even a fraction of her enthusiasm. Trying to be professional about this instead of letting your personal feelings show. “It’s—it’ll be great.”

“Are you okay?” She tilted her head, concern replacing excitement. “You look kind of pale. Are you feeling sick?”

“Just didn’t sleep well.” Not technically a lie. You hadn’t slept well. Hadn’t slept more than a few hours at a time, kept waking from dreams of coffee shops and cold rejection. “Still processing the jetlag from last week.”

“Well, you’ve got three days to recover before we leave. Make sure you rest up—two weeks in Venice, we’re going to be busy. But like, the best kind of busy. Working in one of the most beautiful cities in the world? That’s not even work, that’s a gift.”

She wandered off still chattering enthusiastically, leaving you alone with the email and your spiraling thoughts.

Your phone buzzed. A textback from Shoko a few minutes after you delivered the message you were,in fat, going to Venice.

Shoko: VENICE???? How come yoy didn’t tell me sooner that you were going to Venice! This is either going to be amazing or a complete disaster.

You: Leaning heavily toward disaster.

Shoko: Utahime and I booked flights the second we found out. We’re calling it a “girls’ trip” but really we’re coming as emotional support slash damage control.

You: Wait, seriously? You’re coming?

Shoko: Obviously. You think we’re letting you deal with that man in one of the most romantic cities in the world without backup? We already found an Airbnb like three minutes from your villa.

The relief was immediate and visceral. Having your friends there meant you wouldn’t be completely alone in whatever fresh hell awaited. Meant there would be people who knew the full context, who understood what you were dealing with, who could offer support when the performance of being okay got too exhausting.

You: Thank god. I’m going to need so much alcohol.

Shoko: Way ahead of you. Already researching Italian wines. And Utahime is making a list of escape routes in case things get too intense. We’ve got you.

You wanted to cry at the simple kindness of it. At having people who cared enough to already be planning how to support you through this.

You: I love you both. Seriously.

Shoko: We know. Now go pretend to work while internally panicking. We’ll get through this.

The next three days passed in a strange, suspended state. You went through the motions—worked on campaign materials, attended meetings, participated in normal office life. But everything felt muted, like you were experiencing it from underwater. Like there was a buffer between you and reality that made everything slightly unreal.

You saw Gojo around the office, of course. Couldn’t avoid it. But the interactions were brief, professional, carefully distant. He didn’t try to talk to you again. Didn’t seek you out. Just existed in the same space with that same controlled politeness that made you want to scream.

You caught him watching you once. Just a glimpse from across the office, his eyes on you before he noticed you’d noticed and looked away. The expression on his face in that unguarded moment was—complicated. Something that might have been longing or regret or just exhaustion. But it was gone too quickly to be sure, replaced by that professional mask.

Akane seemed thrilled about the trip. You overheard her talking to other team members about the villa, about Venice’s architecture, about how this was exactly the kind of immersive experience that would elevate the work. Her voice carried that particular brightness that felt performative, like she was making sure everyone—especially you—heard how excited she was.

She was always near Gojo during these conversations. Always touching his arm or leaning close to whisper something. Always existing in his space with practiced ease that made your chest tight with something ugly and jealous and painful.

You tried not to watch. Tried not to care. Failed at both.

The night before the flight, you couldn’t sleep. Just lay in your bed staring at the ceiling while your mind raced through worst-case scenarios. Two weeks of watching Gojo and Akane work in close partnership. Two weeks of maintaining professional distance while your heart was slowly shredding itself. Two weeks of pretending everything was fine when nothing was fine.

Eventually, somehow, sleep found you. Not peaceful sleep. Not restful sleep. Just the fitful, dream-heavy unconsciousness of emotional exhaustion finally winning over an overactive mind.

When morning came, it was with gray winter light and the crushing realization that today was the day. Today you’d fly to Venice. Today you’d begin two weeks of forced proximity with everyone you were trying to avoid.

Today everything would get infinitely more complicated.

You packed mechanically. Clothes for two weeks. Toiletries. Your laptop and work materials. All the physical things you’d need to survive this trip. But you couldn’t pack armor for your heart. Couldn’t bring protection against the specific pain of being close to Gojo while remaining fundamentally distant.

The flight to Venice was long and uncomfortable in ways that had nothing to do with the actual travel. You’d managed to get a seat far from Gojo—a small mercy—but you could still feel his presence on the plane. Could still track his location through some awful sixth sense you’d developed. Three rows up and across the aisle. Close enough to see if you looked, which you absolutely did not let yourself do.

Shoko and Utahime flanked you—apparently Gojo found out about their little girl’s trip plan and offered to just include them in accommodations which they graciously accepted—providing buffer and distraction. They kept conversation flowing, pointing out things in the in-flight magazine, making plans for what to see in Venice during free time. Acting like everything was normal while all three of you knew it wasn’t.

You were grateful for them. For the simple fact of not being alone with your thoughts at 30,000 feet.

Akane was sitting next to Gojo. You could hear her voice occasionally, that musical laugh carrying through the cabin. Could hear their conversation—or at least the tone of it, comfortable and easy in a way that made your stomach hurt.

You stared out the window at clouds and tried not to imagine what they were talking about.

Venice revealed itself through afternoon winter light—golden and diffused through the characteristic fog that hung over the lagoon. The plane descended through clouds and suddenly there it was: a city floating on water, impossible and beautiful, all terracotta roofs and bell towers rising from the Adriatic like something from a fever dream.

The beauty of it was almost offensive. You weren’t in the right emotional state to appreciate beauty. Wanted gray skies and cold rain to match your internal weather. But Venice gave you golden light and stunning architecture and that particular magic that comes from cities that shouldn’t exist but do anyway.

The water taxi from the airport was surreal. Speeding through canals past buildings that rose directly from the water, past gondolas and vaporettos and the constant movement of a city built on liquid foundations. Past churches and palazzos and bridges that had stood for centuries. Past all the evidence of human persistence and beauty and the ability to create something lasting even in inhospitable circumstances.

The villa was in Dorsoduro, the boat driver explained in accented English. Good neighborhood. Quiet. Walking distance to museums and restaurants. Very nice.

It was more than nice. It was excessive.

The boat pulled up to a private dock behind a three-story building that spoke of old money and careful restoration. Venetian Gothic architecture—pointed arches, ornate stonework, windows that probably dated back centuries. The kind of place that had survived flood and war and time itself.

Inside was somehow even more impressive. The ground floor opened into a massive communal space with original frescoed ceilings and terrazzo floors that gleamed even in the dim afternoon light. Modern amenities had been integrated seamlessly into the historical structure—a huge kitchen with professional-grade appliances hiding behind period-appropriate cabinetry, a dining room with a table that could seat twenty beneath a Murano glass chandelier, a living area with comfortable furniture arranged around a fireplace that looked both ancient and functional.

Everything spoke of money and taste and the kind of luxury that didn’t need to announce itself.

“This is insane,” Utahime whispered beside you as you all stood in the entrance, taking it in. “Like—this can’t be real. This is someone’s actual house and we’re just staying here?”

“Company rented it for two weeks,” one of the HR representatives explained, clearly used to impressing people with company resources. “It’s yours to use as you see fit. Work spaces are set up throughout. Bedrooms are upstairs—second and third floors. There’s a list with room assignments in the kitchen.”

People scattered to explore, exclamations of delight and surprise echoing through the space. You hung back, overwhelmed by the sheer scale of it. This wasn’t team building. This was something else. Some corporate fantasy of what creative work should look like.

You found the room assignment list in the kitchen. Your name next to “Second floor, Room 7.”

Gojo’s name next to “Third floor, Room 3.”

At least you weren’t on the same floor. Small mercy.

You climbed the stairs with your luggage, Shoko and Utahime comparing their room assignments nearby. The second floor hallway was wide and bright, with windows overlooking the canal. You counted doors until you reached number 7.

The room inside was beautiful. Smaller than the communal spaces but still generous—a proper bedroom with a queen bed, antique furniture, a window with heavy curtains that overlooked a side canal. Your own bathroom with modern fixtures installed in period-appropriate style.

Private enough. But the walls were old, and you could hear everything. Footsteps from above. Voices carrying through the halls. Doors opening and closing. The villa might be beautiful but it wasn’t soundproof. Which meant there would be no real privacy for the next two weeks.

You unpacked mechanically, hanging clothes in the antique wardrobe, setting up your laptop on the small desk by the window. Trying not to think about the fact that Gojo was somewhere above you right now, probably doing the same thing, probably just as aware as you were that you’d be living in close quarters for fourteen days.

A knock on your door made you turn.

“Want to explore?” Shoko appeared with Utahime, already looking comfortable in travel clothes and easy smiles. “Quick walk before dinner to get our bearings?”

“Yes,” you said immediately. Getting out of the villa sounded perfect. Putting distance between yourself and whatever awkwardness awaited sounded even better.

Venice in December was cold but not unbearable. The three of you wandered through narrow streets barely wider than your arm span, over arched bridges with iron railings worn smooth by centuries of hands, past shops selling everything from Murano glass to cheap carnival masks for tourists. The city was quieter than it would be in summer—fewer crowds, more space to breathe, easier to appreciate the architecture without fighting through masses of people.

It was beautiful in that way old cities are. Layer upon layer of history visible in the stones, in the faded frescoes on building exteriors, in the way everything leaned slightly from centuries of settling into soft earth. Like the whole city was gently sinking back into the lagoon that birthed it, but doing so with grace and beauty.

You walked without destination, just absorbing the reality of being here. In Venice. For two weeks. With Gojo somewhere behind you in that beautiful villa, with Akane probably unpacking in her own room, with two weeks of forced proximity and professional pretense stretching ahead like a prison sentence dressed up as a vacation.

“So,” Utahime said as you stopped on a bridge to look at the canal below. The water was dark green, almost black in the fading light, reflecting the buildings that crowded its edges. “On a scale of one to ten, how bad is this going to be?”

“Fifteen,” you said without hesitation.

“That bad?”

“We’re living together. All of us. For two weeks. Me, Gojo, Akane, everyone. In a villa with walls thin enough to hear everything.” You leaned against the bridge railing, cold iron biting through your coat sleeves. “Do you know how many opportunities there are for disaster in that scenario? How many ways this can go wrong?”

“Okay, but counterpoint,” Shoko offered, ever the pragmatist. “You’ll also be forced into proximity. Which means you can’t keep avoiding each other. Which means maybe—maybe you’ll actually talk about things. Real things. Not just work logistics.”

“We tried that already. He told me about Venice three days ago. Very professional conversation about giving me advance warning so I could ‘prepare myself’ for the difficulty of his presence.” The bitterness in your voice was hard to miss. “That’s all we’ve got. Professional courtesy and careful distance.”

“That doesn’t count as talking,” Utahime insisted. “That’s him being a coward. Actual talking means addressing what happened. Why you both did what you did. Whether there’s anything left worth saving.”

“I don’t think he wants to save anything.” The words hurt to say out loud. Made it more real somehow. “I think he’s moved on. I think Akane is what he wants now and I’m just—leftover complications he has to manage professionally.”

“You don’t know that.”

“Don’t I?” You turned to face them both, and suddenly all the fear and hurt and exhaustion you’d been carrying came pouring out. “He can’t even look at me, you guys. Not really. He maintains this perfect professional distance like I’m just another contractor. Like we weren’t—like we didn’t—” Your voice cracked. “Like I never meant anything.”

“Or,” Shoko said gently, “like you meant so much that he doesn’t know how to handle being around you. Like he’s protecting himself the only way he knows how.”

You wanted to believe that. Wanted to believe that his distance came from pain rather than indifference. But it was getting harder and harder to maintain that hope when every interaction reinforced the same message: you were past tense. You were something he’d moved on from.

“Either way,” Utahime said, slipping her arm through yours, “we’re going to get you so much wine. And we’re going to make sure you survive this with your dignity intact. And if Akane tries any shit, I’m going to—”

“Going to what?” Shoko asked, amused.

“I don’t know. Something violent. Or at least very passive aggressive. I’ll figure it out.”

Despite everything, you laughed. It felt good. A release of tension that had been building for days. Having them here made it bearable. Made the next two weeks feel like something you could actually survive instead of something that would destroy you.

You walked back to the villa as the sun set, turning the sky orange and pink and purple. The temperature dropped with the light, winter cold settling in with the darkness. By the time you reached the villa, your fingers were numb and your nose was running from the cold.

Inside was warm and bright. The team had gathered in the dining room for the welcome dinner—some catered Italian feast that filled the air with garlic and wine and fresh bread. Everyone was in good spirits, excited about Venice, chatting and laughing with the easy energy of people on an adventure together.

You’d deliberately arrived late enough that most seats were taken. Managed to position yourself between Shoko and Utahime at one end of the table, as far from Gojo as the geometry would allow.

He was at the other end with Akane beside him, both of them flanked by senior team members. They looked good together, you thought with a sharp twist of something painful in your chest. Both beautiful and polished and confident. Both clearly comfortable in their positions of authority. Both occupying space with the ease of people who belonged there.

Both clearly comfortable with each other.

The dinner itself was objectively amazing—homemade pasta and risotto and fish prepared in ways you couldn’t even identify. Wine flowed freely, good Italian reds that made everything feel slightly softer, slightly easier. Conversation moved through the group in waves, people sharing excited plans for Venice or discussing the work ahead or just enjoying the moment.

Normal team building energy. Everyone was relaxed and happy and looking forward to the next two weeks.

Everyone except you.

And—you suspected, though he hid it better—Gojo.

You’d learned to read him too well over the months you’d been together. Could see the signs even from across the table, even through the performance of easy leadership he was giving. The way his shoulders sat just slightly too high. The way his laugh was a fraction of a second too late, like he was remembering to perform enjoyment rather than feeling it naturally. The way his eyes occasionally went distant, unfocused, like he was somewhere else entirely.

The way he never, not once, looked in your direction.

Which meant he was very aware of exactly where you were sitting. Exactly what you were doing. Exactly how much effort it was taking to maintain this facade of normalcy while occupying the same space.

Akane kept leaning close to whisper things to him during dinner. Kept touching his arm when she laughed at something he said. Kept existing in his space with an ease that felt deliberate, performative. Like she was making sure everyone saw, making sure you saw, that she had claim to his attention.

You focused on your food—risotto that was probably incredible but tasted like nothing through the numbness. Participated in the conversation happening around you when required. Laughed at Yuki’s enthusiastic descriptions of all the art museums she wanted to visit. Nodded along when another designer discussed the best gelato places. Let the noise and warmth and social energy wash over you while feeling fundamentally separate from it all.

Like you were watching through glass. Present but not really part of it.

After dinner, people scattered naturally. Some headed to their rooms, claiming jetlag. Others gathered in the living area for more wine and conversation. A few went out to explore Venice’s nightlife.

You slipped away as quickly as you could without being obvious about it. Claimed exhaustion—not entirely a lie. Needed escape from the forced socializing and the weight of Gojo’s careful not-looking and Akane’s territorial displays.

Your room felt like sanctuary when you finally closed the door behind you. You changed into comfortable clothes, opened your window despite the cold because you needed the sound of water, the reminder that Venice existed outside this villa and all its complications.

You sat on your bed trying to figure out how you were going to survive two weeks of this.

A knock on your door made you tense.

“It’s me,” Utahime’s voice came through. “And Shoko. We brought wine.”

You let them in. They’d clearly raided the villa’s extensive wine collection—or maybe brought their own—carrying two bottles and three glasses.

“Emergency friend meeting,” Shoko announced, settling onto your bed while Utahime poured generous glasses of something red and Italian. “To discuss survival strategies.”

“I don’t think there are strategies for this,” you said, accepting the wine gratefully. “I just have to endure it. Keep my head down, focus on work, avoid situations where I’m alone with him.”

“Enduring is not a strategy, it’s surrender.” Utahime sat beside you, glass in hand. Her voice was firm, the tone she used when she was about to give advice whether you wanted it or not. “You need a plan. Actual ways to maintain your sanity. Ways to interact with Gojo without falling apart. Ways to handle Akane when she’s being—” She waved her hand vaguely. “—whatever the fuck that was at dinner.”

“Territorial,” Shoko supplied. “That’s what that was. Marking her space. Making sure everyone knows she has access to him.”

“I vote for the ‘avoid everyone and work alone in my room’ strategy,” you offered weakly.

“That’s not going to work in a villa this size with this many people.” Shoko was practical as always, already thinking three steps ahead. “You’re going to run into him constantly. Kitchen, work spaces, hallways. Common areas. You can’t hide for two weeks. You need to be prepared for proximity.”

“Prepared how?”

“By deciding ahead of time how you want to handle it.” Utahime leaned forward, wine glass balanced carefully. “Do you want to try talking to him? Actually addressing what happened? Or do you want to maintain distance and just get through this professionally?”

You took a long drink of wine, letting the warmth spread through your chest. Both options sounded terrible for different reasons. Talking meant vulnerability, meant risking more rejection, meant possibly getting hurt all over again. But avoiding meant two weeks of careful distance, of pretending not to care, of slowly dying inside every time you saw him with Akane.

“I don’t know,” you admitted. “Both options sound like torture.”

“Okay, then let’s break it down.” Utahime, ever the problem solver, set down her glass and turned to face you fully. “What’s the worst case scenario?”

“We’re stuck in close quarters, I have to watch him with Akane constantly, everything I’m trying to avoid or forget gets shoved in my face repeatedly, and I have a complete breakdown in front of everyone.” The words came out in a rush, anxiety making them run together. “Or—or he actually does try to talk to me and it’s just to tell me definitively that we’re over, that he’s with Akane now, that I need to accept it and move on.”

“Right. And best case?”

You thought about it. Let yourself imagine it for just a moment—the version of the next two weeks that didn’t end in disaster.

“We…figure out how to coexist. Maybe even talk about things without it turning into a fight or ending in rejection. Maybe find some kind of closure or understanding or—I don’t know. Something that makes this hurt less.” You paused, then added quietly: “Or maybe—maybe he realizes he misses what we had. That pushing me away isn’t actually making anything better for either of us.”

“See?” Shoko raised her glass like you’d just proven her point. “There’s a best case. So aim for somewhere between those two extremes. Don’t torture yourself by avoiding him completely, but don’t push for conversations he’s not ready for either. Just—exist. Be present. Be yourself. See what happens naturally instead of trying to control every interaction.”

“See what happens,” you repeated dubiously. “That’s the strategy? Just wing it?”

“Sometimes that’s all you can do,” Utahime said. “You can’t control what he does or how he acts or whether Akane is going to be insufferable. You can only control how you respond. How you take care of yourself. How you maintain your own sense of dignity and worth regardless of what happens around you.”

“And remember,” Shoko added, “you’re not alone. We’re here. We’ll run interference when you need it. We’ll get you drunk when necessary. We’ll remind you that you’re amazing and talented and deserving of better than whatever emotional unavailability Gojo is serving.”

You felt your throat get tight with gratitude. “I love you both. So much. I don’t know what I’d do without you here.”

“Lucky you don’t have to find out,” Utahime said, squeezing your hand. “We’ve got you. For whatever comes.”

They stayed for another hour, conversation drifting away from Gojo and Venice and all the heavy things. Just talking about nothing important—gossip from the office, plans for what to see in Venice during free time, Shoko’s terrible dating app experiences that somehow always ended in disaster. Normal friend things that made you feel human again, made you remember that you existed outside of this painful situation with Gojo.

By the time they left, you felt marginally better. Not fixed, not healed, but less like you were going to completely fall apart at the first difficult moment. You had a plan, sort of. Or at least a philosophy: exist, be present, see what happens. Let go of trying to control everything and just survive moment to moment.

You could do that. Probably.

You fell asleep to the sound of water lapping against stone outside your window, the distant echo of voices from downstairs where some people were still socializing, and the knowledge that somewhere in this villa—one floor above you—Gojo Satoru was probably lying awake too, trying to figure out his own survival strategy for the next two weeks.

The first few days fell into a rhythm that was awkward but manageable.

Mornings were for work. Everyone gathered in the communal spaces around 9 AM—some people at the large dining table with laptops and coffee, others spread throughout the living area, a few claiming the smaller work nooks that had been set up throughout the villa. The energy was productive, focused. People fell into their tasks naturally, the kind of collaborative flow that happened when you got talented people together in an inspiring environment.

You worked on refining campaign visuals, pulling inspiration from Venice itself. The colors, the light, the way history and modernity coexisted in this city. It actually helped—having something concrete to focus on, channeling your emotional chaos into something creative and productive.

Gojo was present during these work sessions but maintained careful distance. He’d move through the space checking in with different team members, offering feedback on work, making decisions with that same professional efficiency. When he got to you, the interactions were brief and painfully polite.

“How’s the visual progression coming?” Standing behind your chair, close enough that you could smell his cologne—still the same one, the scent hitting you with visceral memory—but not close enough to touch.

“Good. I’m pulling from the architectural elements we discussed. The color palette is coming together.”

“Can I see?”

You turned your laptop so he could see the screen. Watched his eyes scan your work with that intense focus he brought to everything. Looking for flaws, for ways to improve, for the gap between good and excellent that he always seemed to find.

“This is strong,” he said after a moment. His voice was measured, professional. The voice he’d use with any team member. “The composition on this one is really working. And the way you’ve integrated the Venetian elements without making it feel touristy—that’s exactly what we need.”

A compliment. Professional acknowledgment of good work. Nothing personal. Nothing that indicated you’d once meant something beyond your design skills.

“Thanks,” you managed.

“Keep going in this direction. Show me the next iteration this afternoon.”

Then he moved on to the next person, and you were left with the ghost of his cologne and the hollow feeling that came from being treated like a stranger.

It was like this every time. Brief, professional, careful. He never lingered. Never let conversations drift beyond work. Never showed any sign that you’d once spent hours talking about everything and nothing, that he’d once looked at you like you were the only thing in the world worth seeing.

Akane was always nearby during these work sessions. Not hovering exactly, but present. Offering her own input, discussing strategy with Gojo, existing in his space with practiced ease. Sometimes you’d catch them in quiet conversation in a corner, heads bent together over a tablet or document. Sometimes she’d laugh at something he said, her hand on his arm in that casual way that spoke of comfort and familiarity.

It hurt to watch. Every time. But you couldn’t seem to stop yourself from looking, from torturing yourself with the visual evidence of their partnership.

Afternoons were more flexible. The team scattered naturally—some continuing to work, others exploring Venice, a few taking long breaks at cafes or churches or just wandering the maze-like streets. You tried to stay busy during these hours. Took your laptop to different rooms when the main spaces felt too crowded with Gojo and Akane’s presence. Volunteered for any task that meant you could maintain forward motion instead of sitting still with your thoughts.

Sometimes you’d escape the villa entirely. Walk along the canals or through quiet campos, letting Venice distract you from the constant low-grade anxiety of proximity. The city was beautiful in December—cold but not bitter, fewer tourists making it easier to appreciate the architecture without crowds. You’d find small churches with incredible art hidden inside. Or bridges where the light hit the water just right. Or tiny workshops where old men still made things by hand the way they had for centuries.

Venice felt like a city that understood impermanence. Built on water, slowly sinking, constantly being restored and reinforced against the inevitable. There was something comforting in that. In the idea that beautiful things could exist even while falling apart. That you could be in the process of crumbling and still be worth looking at.

Evenings were the hardest part. Dinners together at that long table, everyone relaxed after a day of work, wine flowing freely, conversation getting louder and more animated as the night progressed. You participated when required—laughed at jokes, contributed to discussions about Venice or the project or nothing in particular. But you felt separate from it all, like you were performing the role of “team member enjoying team building” while actually feeling like you were slowly drowning in plain sight.

And always, always aware of Gojo at the other end of the table. Of the way he’d sometimes catch your eye by accident—just for a half-second before one of you looked away. Of the careful distance he maintained even in group settings. Of how he never seemed fully relaxed, never fully engaged, like he was going through the motions of leadership while being somewhere else mentally.

On the fourth night, you found yourself alone in the kitchen around midnight.

Everyone else had gone to bed after a particularly long dinner—one of those meals that stretched for hours, wine and conversation flowing until people finally drifted away in ones and twos. You’d claimed you needed water but really you just needed space. A moment where you weren’t performing normalcy for an audience. Where you could let your face show what you actually felt instead of maintaining careful okay-ness.

The kitchen was beautiful at night. Moonlight streamed through the tall windows, reflecting off the old tile and modern appliances. The villa was quiet except for the distant sound of water and the occasional creak of old wood settling. It felt peaceful in a way the daytime never did—no performance required, no careful navigation of who was where and who might walk in.

You were making tea—had found chamomile in the cupboards, figured it might help with the insomnia that had become your constant companion—when footsteps on the stairs made you tense.

You knew who it was before you saw him. Had developed that awful sixth sense that tracked his presence even when you couldn’t see him.

Gojo appeared in the kitchen doorway.

He stopped when he saw you. For a moment, neither of you moved. Just stood there in the dim moonlit space—you by the kettle with your hands wrapped around a mug for warmth, him frozen in the doorway like he’d stumbled into something he wasn’t prepared for.

The silence stretched. Heavy with everything unsaid. With weeks of careful distance and professional pretense. With the ghost of what you’d been to each other before everything shattered.

“Sorry,” he said finally, and his voice was quiet. Softer than the professional tone he used during work. More real. “Didn’t know anyone was still up.”

“It’s fine.” You turned back to your tea, willing your hands to stay steady. Willing your voice to stay neutral and calm instead of cracking with all the emotion pressed against your ribs. “Kitchen’s big enough for both of us.”

He moved into the space slowly, carefully. Like you were something that might spook if approached too quickly. Went to the fridge and pulled out a bottle of water. The movement was familiar—you’d seen him do it a hundred times in his penthouse, in your apartment, in hotels and homes and all the places you’d existed together.

The familiarity hurt worse than strangeness would have.

The silence settled again, but different now. Not comfortable exactly, but less sharp. The kind of quiet that could either break into something real or calcify into more distance depending on what happened next.

“Can’t sleep?” he asked eventually, and his voice was careful. Neutral. Polite inquiry, nothing more.

“Jetlag,” you lied. The same lie you’d been telling everyone. Easier than admitting that you couldn’t sleep because your mind wouldn’t stop racing, because being this close to him while remaining fundamentally distant was slowly destroying you from the inside out.

“Yeah. Same.”

He didn’t leave though. Just leaned against the counter a few feet away, drinking his water, existing in the same space as you for the first time without the buffer of other people or professional obligations or anywhere to hide.

The moonlight caught his profile—sharp and beautiful and giving nothing away. He was looking at his water bottle like it held answers, careful not to look at you directly. Maintaining that distance even now, even in this quiet moment where you were alone and could actually talk if either of you was brave enough.

You poured hot water over your tea bag, watching it steep. The chamomile scent filled the space between you, familiar and soothing. You tried to think of something to say that wouldn’t shatter the fragile peace of this moment. Something that acknowledged his presence without demanding more than he was willing to give.

“How’s the work going?” he asked before you could find words. “The campaign visuals. Are you happy with the direction?”

Work. Of course. Safe topic. Neutral ground where you could interact without risk.

“Yeah. They’re coming together well. Venice is actually helping—the inspiration, the environment. The team’s been giving good feedback.” You kept your voice professional, matching his tone. Playing the game of pretending this was just a normal work conversation between colleagues.

“They’re more than good.” He was still looking at the water bottle, not at you. But something in his voice had softened, become more genuine. “They’re some of the best work I’ve seen. Really captures what we’re trying to do with this launch. The way you’ve interpreted the brief while still making it feel original—” He stopped, seemed to reconsider how much he wanted to say. “You’re really talented. I hope you know that.”

The compliment landed strange. Professional but somehow personal. Like he was trying to tell you something beyond just feedback on work. Like your value as a designer was something he needed you to understand, even if he couldn’t acknowledge anything else about what you’d been to each other.

“Thank you,” you managed. Your throat felt tight.

Silence stretched again. You picked up your tea, ready to escape back to your room before this got more complicated. Before the quiet and the moonlight and the absence of audience made one of you say something that couldn’t be taken back.

“I’m glad you came,” Gojo said quietly, and the words stopped you mid-movement. “To Venice. I wasn’t sure if you would. After—everything.”

You turned to look at him properly.

He was still focused on that water bottle, but something in his posture had shifted. Less careful. Less controlled. The mask hadn’t dropped exactly, but you could see cracks in it. See the exhaustion underneath. The way he was holding himself together through sheer force of will.

“It’s my job,” you said, trying to keep your voice steady. “I wasn’t going to bail on a professional obligation just because it’s uncomfortable.”

“I know. But still.” He paused, searching for words. “It means something. That you’re here. That you’re trying.”

“Are you trying?” The question came out before you could stop it, before you could remember that you were supposed to be maintaining distance too. “Because from where I’m standing, it looks like you’re just avoiding me.”

Something flickered in his expression—pain or frustration or maybe just acknowledgment that you weren’t wrong.

“I’m maintaining professional boundaries,” he said, but there was no heat in it. Just exhaustion. “There’s a difference.”

“Is there?” You set down your tea, suddenly too tired to keep pretending. Too tired to keep playing these careful games where you both pretended not to be bleeding. “Because it feels the same from my end. It feels like you’re treating me like a stranger. Like nothing we had mattered enough to warrant even basic acknowledgment.”

“That’s not—” He stopped himself, jaw clenching with visible frustration. Finally—finally—he looked at you directly, and the expression in his eyes made your breath catch. Raw and tired and full of something that looked like it hurt. “That’s not what this is.”

“Then what is it, Satoru?” You could hear your voice rising slightly, emotion bleeding through despite your best efforts. “What is this careful distance? This professional courtesy? This performance where we pretend we’re just colleagues who never meant anything to each other?”

“It’s survival,” he said. “It’s me trying to exist in the same space as you without—” He stopped, shook his head like he was trying to dislodge thoughts he didn’t want to voice. “Without making this worse. Without fucking up even more than I already have.”

The honesty of it hit you like a physical blow.

“It’s already worse,” you told him, and your voice was quieter now. Less angry, more defeated. “The professional distance isn’t helping, Satoru. It’s just making everything feel more hopeless. Like we destroyed something real for nothing. Like all that pain and hurt and—and everything we did to each other—was for absolutely nothing because now we’re just strangers who share office space.”

“Then what do you want me to do?” And there was frustration bleeding into his voice now, emotion finally breaking through the careful control. “Tell me what you want and I’ll do it. You want me to leave you alone? I’ll leave you alone. You want me to—to what? Acknowledge that I’m completely fucked up about this? That watching you leave with Suguru nearly destroyed me? That seeing you every day and not being able to—”

He stopped abruptly. Pressed his lips together hard like he was physically preventing more words from escaping. But you’d heard enough. Heard the crack in his armor, the admission that you weren’t the only one bleeding from this.

“Not being able to what?” you pressed, heart pounding. “Finish the thought.”

He was quiet for a long moment. When he spoke again, his voice was barely above a whisper.

The words hung in the air between you.

“Why are you doing this?” Your voice cracked. “Why are you maintaining this distance if it’s hurting both of us? Why can’t we just—just talk about what happened? About why we hurt each other? About whether there’s anything left worth saving?”

“Because I don’t know if I can survive another round of this.” The words came out raw, unfiltered. “I don’t know if I can let myself hope that we might fix this only to watch it fall apart again.” He stopped, laughed bitterly. “Fuck. I don’t know anything anymore except that being around you sucks and not being around you sucks and there’s no good option that doesn’t end with me wanting to just end it all.”

Your heart was pounding so hard you could feel it in your throat. “You’re not the only one bleeding from this.”

“I know.” His eyes met yours, and the raw honesty in them made you ache. “I know you’re hurting too. I can see it even when you’re trying to hide it. And that makes it worse somehow. Knowing we’re both suffering and I can’t—I don’t know how to fix it. Don’t know if it can be fixed.”

The space between you felt charged. Dangerous. Like one step forward would either save you both or destroy you completely. You couldn’t tell which. Couldn’t predict what would happen if you closed that distance, if you reached for him the way every part of you wanted to.

Before you could decide, footsteps on the stairs made you both freeze.

Akane appeared in the kitchen doorway.

She was wearing silk pajamas that probably cost more than your rent, her dark hair falling perfectly even though she’d presumably just woken up. She stopped when she saw you both, and something flickered across her face—surprise, then calculation, then concern that looked practiced rather than genuine.

“Oh,” she said, and her voice was soft. Gentle. The tone you’d use when interrupting something private. “I didn’t realize anyone was up. I was just getting some water.”

The moment shattered. Whatever had been building between you and Gojo dissipated like smoke, reality crashing back in with Akane’s presence.

“We were just—” Gojo started, but what could he say? What explanation was there that wouldn’t reveal too much?

“Tea,” you supplied, grabbing your mug. Your hands were shaking but you kept your voice steady. “Couldn’t sleep. I was just heading back to my room.”

You walked past Akane without looking at either of them, heart pounding, every part of you screaming to stay, to finish that conversation, to demand the honesty you’d glimpsed before she interrupted.

But you didn’t. Just kept walking until you reached your room, closed the door, and leaned against it trying to remember how to breathe.

Behind you—one floor below, in that moonlit kitchen—you could hear Akane’s voice, soft and concerned: “Are you okay? You look upset.”

You pressed your hands over your ears. Didn’t want to hear his response. Didn’t want to know if he’d confide in her, if he’d seek comfort from her after that conversation with you, if she’d use this moment to get closer while you were upstairs trying not to fall apart.

You sank onto your bed, tea forgotten, and tried to process what had just happened.

That conversation had been the most honest you’d been with each other since the restaurant. The most real. The first time either of you had admitted that this wasn’t just professional awkwardness but actual, visceral pain. That you were both suffering. That the distance wasn’t helping anyone.

And Akane had interrupted it.

The timing felt too perfect to be coincidence. Like she’d sensed something was happening and had come down specifically to break it up. To remind you both that she was there, that she had access to Gojo in ways you didn’t, that she could interrupt these rare moments of vulnerability whenever she wanted.

You wanted to scream. Or cry. Or go back downstairs and demand to finish that conversation, to get the full honesty instead of these glimpses that only made everything more confusing.

Instead, you just lay back on your bed and stared at the ceiling.

The villa settled around you—creaks and distant sounds of water and the knowledge that somewhere below, Gojo and Akane were probably still in the kitchen. Maybe talking. Maybe her hand on his arm offering comfort. Maybe him accepting that comfort because it was easier than the painful honesty you’d been demanding.

You didn’t sleep for hours. Just lay there replaying that conversation, trying to decode every word, every pause, every crack in his careful control.

The admissions felt significant. Felt like maybe—maybe he wasn’t as moved on as you’d thought. Maybe he was just as fucked up about this as you were, just hiding it better behind professional distance.

But then why not just say that? Why not just admit it directly instead of these coded admissions that could mean everything or nothing depending on how you interpreted them?

Why was Gojo Satoru so goddamn terrified of being vulnerable?

Eventually, exhaustion won over the racing thoughts. You fell asleep still fully clothed, still wearing the emotional weight of that conversation like armor you couldn’t remove.

When you woke the next morning, it was to gray winter light and the crushing realization that you’d have to face him again. Would have to navigate the awkwardness of that interrupted conversation. Would have to figure out if anything had actually changed or if you’d just exposed more of your wounds for no reason.

The day moved with surreal normalcy. Work sessions where Gojo maintained the same professional distance as always. Lunch where he sat with Akane at the far end of the table. Afternoon where you escaped to a quiet church to stare at centuries-old art and try to find some peace in beauty that had outlasted countless human dramas.

He didn’t seek you out. Didn’t reference the kitchen conversation. Didn’t give any sign that last night had meant anything beyond a moment of weakness quickly regretted.

And you—you went back to surviving. To performing okay-ness. To trying not to drown in plain sight while everyone around you carried on like nothing was wrong.

The next few days followed the same pattern. Work, avoidance, brief moments of accidental proximity that hurt more than helped. You threw yourself into the campaign work, producing some of your best designs out of sheer desperation for distraction. Venice continued to be beautiful and you continued to barely notice, too caught up in the internal landscape of your own pain.

By the sixth day, you needed to get out.

The villa felt suffocating despite its size. Too many people, too much forced cheerfulness, too many opportunities to see Gojo and Akane together. You needed space. Air. Distance from all of it.

You told Shoko you were taking a break—going for a walk to clear your head. She offered to come but you declined, needing to be alone with your thoughts instead of performing okay-ness even for your friends.

“Be careful,” she said, concern in her voice. “Venice can be tricky to navigate.”

“I’ll be fine,” you assured her. “I just need some air.”

You left the villa without a plan, just letting your feet carry you wherever. Through narrow calle barely wide enough for one person. Over bridges with worn stone steps. Past churches and small squares and buildings that had stood for so long they’d absorbed centuries of human joy and suffering into their foundations.

It felt good to move without destination. To let your mind empty of everything except the present moment—the sound of water lapping against stone, the echo of your footsteps, the particular quality of winter light that made Venice feel suspended in time.

You should have been paying more attention.

Should have noticed when the streets got quieter. When the tourists disappeared. When the buildings became more residential, less maintained. When the feeling shifted from charming to isolated.

Should have noticed the man who’d been following you for the last ten minutes.

You only realized when he spoke—accented English, too close behind you.

“Lost?”

You turned sharply. He was maybe in his fifties, ordinary looking in the way that made him forgettable. Average height, average build, wearing a jacket that had seen better days. At first glance, nothing immediately threatening. Just another person on the street.

But something about the way he smiled made your skin crawl. Something in his eyes that didn’t match the pleasant expression on his face. Something predatory lurking underneath the mundane exterior.

“No,” you said firmly, taking a step back. Creating distance. “I’m fine. Thank you.”

“You look lost.” He moved closer, matching your retreat. “Beautiful girl, all alone. This area—” He gestured around at the quiet residential street. “Not safe. Not for tourists. Let me help you. I know Venice. All the streets. I take you back.”

“I don’t need help.” You kept your voice steady despite the anxiety starting to coil in your stomach. Tried to project confidence you didn’t feel. “I know where I’m going.”

“You sure?” Another step closer. “Because you look—how do you say—confused. This is not tourist area. Easy to get lost. Easy to—” He paused, that smile widening. “Easy to have problems.”

The implied threat was clear. Your heart started pounding harder.

“I’m fine,” you repeated, firmer this time. “Please leave me alone.”

You turned and started walking quickly, not quite running but close. Trying to maintain composure while putting distance between yourself and him. The street ahead curved around a corner—if you could just get around it, maybe you’d find people, witnesses, safety.

But he followed. You could hear his footsteps matching your pace. Could feel his presence behind you like a physical weight.

“Why you run?” His voice was closer than it should be. “I just help. Why foreign girls always so rude? I try to be nice, you run away. Not polite.”

You turned the corner and your stomach dropped.

Dead end.

The narrow calle terminated at a building with a locked door and high walls on either side. No way through. No way out except back the way you’d come, where he was now blocking your exit.

Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck.

You spun to face him, back against the wall, trying to assess options. He was between you and the only way out. The buildings around were residential but shuttered—no shops, no cafes, no witnesses. Just empty facades and the sound of water from a canal somewhere nearby.

“See?” He spread his hands like he was being reasonable. “Dead end. You are lost. Good thing I find you. Could be dangerous, girl alone in place like this. Bad people around.” That smile again, sharp and wrong. “Lucky I am nice guy. I help you.”

“I said leave me alone.” You tried to keep your voice firm but it shook slightly. Fear bleeding through despite your best efforts.

“Why you scared?” He took another step closer, closing the distance. “I just talk. Just want to help beautiful tourist. Show you real Venice. Not the tourist shit. I have place nearby—very nice, very authentic. You come, I show you. Make you special dinner. You like?”

“No.” You pressed harder against the wall, like you could somehow pass through it. “I need to get back to my friends. They’re expecting me.”

“Friends can wait.” Another step. He was only a few feet away now. Close enough that you could smell cigarettes and something stale. “We talk first. You and me. Get to know each other. Then I take you back. Maybe.”

That last word—maybe—made terror spike through your chest.

This was bad. This was really bad. You were in a dead-end alley with no witnesses and a man who clearly had no intention of letting you leave easily. Every instinct was screaming danger.

“I’m leaving.” You tried to move past him, to get around his body to the alley entrance.

His hand shot out and grabbed your arm. Hard. Fingers digging in with bruising force.

“Where you go? We not finished talking.” His voice changed—less friendly, more threatening. The mask dropping to show what had been underneath all along. “You Americans, always think you so special. Too good to talk to local people. I try to be nice, you insult me. Not polite.”

“Let go of me.” You tried to pull away but his grip tightened, painful now. Your other hand came up instinctively, trying to pry his fingers off.

“You come with me. I show you my place. We have drink, we talk. You be nice to me, maybe I be nice to you. Maybe.” He started pulling you toward the far end of the alley where a dark doorway stood.

Panic was clawing up your throat now, making it hard to breathe, hard to think clearly. Your mind raced through options—self-defense classes from years ago, half-remembered techniques. Aim for vulnerable spots. Eyes, nose, throat, groin.

You opened your mouth to scream and his other hand clamped over it, cutting off the sound.

“No noise,” he hissed in your ear, breath hot and wrong against your skin. “You want help? I help. But quiet. Nobody here cares if you scream anyway. Stupid tourist girls always getting lost, always getting in trouble. Nobody cares.”

You couldn’t breathe properly. His hand over your mouth was suffocating, his grip on your arm was agony, and he was dragging you toward that dark doorway and you couldn’t—

You bit down hard on his hand.

He cursed in Italian, releasing you for just a second. You didn’t waste it—aimed a kick at his knee, connecting hard enough to make him stumble. Then ran.

Made it maybe three steps before he grabbed you again, this time slamming you against the alley wall hard enough to knock the air from your lungs. Your head cracked against stone and everything spun, vision going white at the edges.

“Bitch.” He was angry now, really angry. “Think you so smart? Think you can fight me?”

You couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t think through the ringing in your ears and the pain radiating from the back of your skull. Your vision was swimming, everything tilting wrong. His hands were on you and you couldn’t—

And then—cutting through the panic and the pain and the ringing in your ears—a single thought crystallized with perfect clarity.

Gojo.

It wasn’t rational. Wasn’t logical. Just pure instinct born from months of having someone who—despite everything—had always shown up when it mattered. Who had made you feel safe even in the middle of your complicated mess.

He’ll come, you thought with desperate, irrational certainty. Even as your rational mind tried to argue that there was no way he could know where you were, no way he could find you in Venice’s maze of streets, no way he was coming to save you because that wasn’t how reality worked.

But some part of you—some stupid, hopeful, desperate part—clung to it anyway.

Satoru will come.

He has to.

He won’t leave me here.

The man’s hands were at your coat now, trying to pull you toward that doorway. You were fighting but weakly, head still spinning from the impact, body not responding the way it should. Everything felt distant and immediate at once—the terror sharp and present, but your ability to act on it muted by shock and pain.

“Stop fighting,” he was saying. “Make this easier. You be nice, I be nice. You fight, I hurt you. Simple.”

You wanted to scream but no sound would come. Wanted to fight but your body wasn’t cooperating. Wanted Gojo so badly it hurt worse than the physical pain—wanted him with a desperation that felt like drowning, like the last gasp before going under.

Please, you thought. Not a prayer exactly. Just desperate hope projected into the universe. Please don’t leave me here. Please come. Please—

Meanwhile, back at the villa, Gojo Satoru was losing his fucking mind.

The author finds it difficult to paint the image of distress on Gojo Satoru.

Not because the distress isn’t there—it’s visceral, clawing, threatening to tear through the careful composure he’s maintained his entire life. But because Gojo Satoru has spent years perfecting the art of looking unbothered. Of seeming untouchable. Of moving through the world like nothing can reach him.

So what does it look like when that breaks? When the mask cracks?

It looks like this:

The realization came gradually, then all at once.

He’d been aware on some level that you’d left around 2 PM—noticed your absence the way he always noticed your presence or lack thereof, that constant tracking his nervous system did without conscious thought. But he hadn’t worried at first. You’d said you were taking a walk. Venice was safe during the day. People wandered off all the time to explore.

But by 4 PM, when the winter sun was already starting to set and the temperature was dropping, you still weren’t back.

It looks like perfectly steady hands that betray nothing while his chest constricts with each passing minute.

By 5 PM, when everyone was gathering for dinner and your chair sat empty, worry had crystallized into something sharper.

It looks like calm, measured questions asked in a voice that doesn’t shake even as his mind spirals through every worst-case scenario.

By 6 PM, when Shoko tried calling you and got nothing—phone off or dead or out of service—that sharp worry had evolved into fear that sat in his chest like a living thing.

It looks like someone who appears to be handling a minor inconvenience while internally he’s already three steps ahead, already calculating search patterns, already feeling the cold grip of genuine terror for the first time in years.

“Has anyone seen her?” he asked, trying to keep his voice casual. Trying not to let the anxiety bleeding through his ribs show on his face. Professional concern. Leader checking on his team. Nothing more.

Shoko looked up from her phone, and he could see his own worry reflected in her expression. “Not since she left this afternoon. Around two, I think. She said she needed a walk.”

“That was four hours ago.”

“I know.” Shoko tried calling again. The phone rang and rang and rang before going to voicemail. “Her phone’s off. Or dead.”

“Did she say where she was going?” Gojo was already pulling out his own phone, already thinking through scenarios. Already trying to calculate how to find someone in a city like Venice—a maze of streets with no clear grid, where American tourists got lost every day.

“No. She just—she wanted to be alone. Said she needed air.” Utahime had joined them now, concern sharp on her face. “She seemed upset. But not—I didn’t think she’d be gone this long.”

Four hours. Four hours was too long. Venice wasn’t that big. Even wandering aimlessly, getting completely lost, you should have found your way back by now. Should have at least called or texted if you were having trouble.

Unless you couldn’t call.

Unless something was wrong.

The fear in Gojo’s chest kicked up into something sharper. Something that tasted like panic even though he was fighting to keep it contained, to not let anyone see how completely terrified he was becoming.

“I’m going to look for her,” he said, already moving toward the door.

“Satoru, wait.” Akane appeared beside him, her hand on his arm stopping his momentum. “You don’t even know where she went. Venice is a maze. You’ll just get lost too.”

“I don’t care.” He pulled his arm away, the rejection sharper than he intended. But he couldn’t—didn’t have the capacity right now to manage her feelings when every part of him was screaming that something was wrong, that you needed him, that he had to go now.

“That’s not rational,” Akane continued, and there was frustration bleeding into her voice now. “If she’s actually missing, we should call the police. They know the city. They have resources. They can—”

“No.” The word came out harder than he meant it to. “I’m not waiting for police to take a report and launch an investigation that might take hours. I’m going now.”

“But you don’t know where to look!” Her voice was rising now, concern mixing with something that sounded like anger. “You’re not thinking clearly. If she’s actually in trouble, professional help is what she needs, not you wandering around Venice playing hero.”

“I said no.” He pulled his coat on with sharp movements, every second of delay feeling like agony. “I’m going. Anyone who wants to come can come. Anyone who wants to stay can call the police. But I’m not waiting.”

He could feel it—the careful control he’d been maintaining for weeks cracking apart. All the professional distance and careful boundaries and controlled emotion splintering under the weight of pure terror. Because somewhere in Venice you were missing. Missing when the sun was setting and the temperature was dropping and something in his gut was screaming that this was bad, this was really bad.

“At least tell us where you’re going to look,” Shoko said, already grabbing her coat. Making it clear she was coming regardless of what anyone else did. “We’ll split up. Cover more ground.”

“The residential areas. Away from the tourist zones.” Gojo was trying to think like you, trying to imagine where you’d go when you needed space. “Quiet streets. Places without crowds.”

“That’s half the city,” Utahime pointed out, but she was already moving too. “But okay. We’ll start there.”

They left in a group—Gojo, Shoko, Utahime, and a few other team members who’d heard the commotion and understood that something was wrong. Akane stayed behind with the others, and Gojo couldn’t bring himself to care about the look on her face as he left. Couldn’t spare any attention for her feelings when all of his were focused on you.

Venice after dark was a different city. The narrow streets were darker, more confusing. The canals reflected lights in disorienting patterns. Everything looked the same—more buildings that had stood for centuries, more bridges, more dead ends and sudden turns.

They split up to cover more ground, Gojo taking the most isolated route. Following some instinct he couldn’t name but trusted anyway. Moving through streets that grew quieter and darker, away from the well-lit tourist paths, into areas where Venice revealed its residential bones.

His phone was in his hand, checking for messages that weren’t coming. Calling your number every few minutes only to get voicemail. The fear in his chest was becoming harder to contain, bleeding out through the cracks in his control despite his best efforts.

This was his fault. He’d been so focused on maintaining distance, on protecting himself, on not getting hurt again that he’d failed to see—to really see—how much you were struggling. Had let you walk out alone in a foreign city when you were clearly not okay. Had chosen his own comfort over your safety.

If something happened to you because he’d been too much of a coward to just talk to you properly—

He couldn’t finish the thought. Couldn’t let himself imagine it.

People saw him moving through the streets with increasing urgency—a tall foreigner with white hair moving too fast, looking too worried. A few asked if he needed help. He showed them your photo from his phone—pulled from the team directory, professional headshot that didn’t capture what you actually looked like but was all he had—and asked in broken Italian mixed with English if they’d seen you.

Most shook their heads. One old woman pointed toward a residential area two streets over. Maybe she’d seen someone. Maybe not. Memory was uncertain.

He followed the direction anyway. Because any lead was better than nothing. Any possibility better than standing still.

The streets grew narrower. Darker. More isolated. This was the Venice tourists didn’t see—residential areas where actual people lived, where buildings had locked doors and shuttered windows. Where the city’s romantic facade gave way to the reality of an aging, sinking city with problems tourism couldn’t fix.

He turned a corner and froze.

There was sound ahead. Voices. One male, speaking Italian he couldn’t understand. One female—

Everything in him stopped. Stopped breathing, stopped thinking, stopped being anything except pure focus on that sound.

That was you.

He couldn’t see you yet—the street curved around a building—but he knew that voice even when it was distressed, even when it was muffled, even when every part of him wanted to be wrong about what he was hearing.

Gojo moved.

Not running—that would make noise, would alert whoever was ahead. But moving fast and quiet, using all his height and reach to cover ground quickly. Around the curve of the street until he could see—

You. Pressed against a wall in a dead-end alley. A man’s hands on you. Your face showing terror and pain and that specific look of someone fighting shock and losing.

Everything went red.

Gojo didn’t think. Didn’t plan. Didn’t do anything except move with all the speed his body could generate, crossing the distance between the alley entrance and that man in seconds that felt like hours.

He grabbed the man by the back of his jacket and yanked him away from you with enough force to send him stumbling. The man turned, surprised, mouth opening to say something—

Gojo’s fist connected with his face before any words could form.

The man went down hard. Gojo followed him down, all control gone, all careful restraint abandoned. Hit him again. And again. Felt bone give way under his knuckles and didn’t care. Felt blood and still didn’t stop.

Couldn’t stop. Because that man had touched you. Had hurt you. Had done something that put that look of terror on your face and Gojo was going to—

“Satoru.” Your voice. Small and shocked. “Satoru, stop.”

He stopped. Hands still raised, breathing hard, the man beneath him barely conscious and bleeding from his nose and mouth. Looking up at you where you’d slumped against the wall, looking at him with wide eyes.

“Are you okay?” His voice didn’t sound like his own. Sounded raw and desperate. “Did he—did he hurt you?”

“My head.” Your hand went to the back of your skull. “I hit it. Everything’s spinning.”

That cut through the red haze faster than anything else could have. You were hurt. You needed help, not him beating a man to death in an alley.

He stood, left the man groaning on the ground, and moved to you. Slow this time. Careful. Like you were something that might break if handled wrong.

“Can you walk?” His hands hovered near you, wanting to help but afraid to touch, afraid he’d hurt you more.

“I think so.” But you were shaking badly. Shock setting in. “I don’t—I can’t—”

“It’s okay.” He was taking off his coat, wrapping it around you even though you had your own. You were cold and shaking and in shock and his coat was warm and it was all he could think to do. “I’ve got you. I’m going to take you back. Can you walk if I help?”

You nodded. He slipped his arm around you, taking most of your weight, and started guiding you out of the alley. The man on the ground made some sound—maybe protest, maybe just pain. Gojo considered hitting him again. Decided against it only because you needed to get out of here more than he needed revenge.

But he called the emergency number as you walked. Reported the location in broken Italian mixed with English. Made sure they understood—attempted assault, man still in the alley. Made sure they were coming.

Then he focused on you. Getting you home. Getting you safe. Getting you away from that place.

You were leaning heavily against him, head against his shoulder, shaking so hard he could feel it through both your coats. He kept his arm tight around you, supporting your weight, murmuring things he wasn’t sure you could hear. Things like “I’ve got you” and “You’re safe” and “I’m so sorry” over and over like a prayer.

The walk back took forever. You couldn’t move quickly, couldn’t walk straight, kept stopping to lean against buildings when dizziness overwhelmed you. He waited every time. Held you steady. Tried not to think about what might have happened if he’d been five minutes later.

The villa came into view like salvation. Light pouring from windows. The team gathered outside, Shoko pacing anxiously. They saw you both approaching and the relief was visceral.

“Oh my god.” Shoko ran toward you, Utahime right behind her. “What happened? Are you okay?”

“Some guy—” Gojo started, but his voice was still wrong. Still raw. “She’s hurt. Hit her head. She needs to be checked.”

They swarmed you with concern, helping him get you inside, up the stairs, into your room. Someone called a doctor—apparently the villa had one on call, some concierge service for medical emergencies. Shoko sat beside you on the bed, holding your hand while Utahime hovered nearby.

Akane appeared in the doorway. Took in the scene—you pale and shaking on the bed, Gojo with bloodied knuckles standing guard like he couldn’t physically leave your side, the general atmosphere of crisis.

“What happened?” she asked, moving toward Gojo. “Are you hurt?”

“I’m fine.” He didn’t look at her. Couldn’t tear his eyes away from you to acknowledge anyone else. “She’s the one who got hurt.”

“You’re bleeding—”

“I said I’m fine.” Harsher than necessary. He saw her flinch but couldn’t bring himself to care. Not now. Not when you were sitting there looking so small and hurt and like you’d been through something traumatic.

The doctor arrived twenty minutes later—a professional woman in her fifties who examined you with practiced efficiency. Checked your pupils, asked about symptoms, tested your balance and coordination. Declared it a mild concussion, nothing that required hospital but warranting careful observation for the next 24 hours.

“No sleeping alone tonight,” she said in accented English, writing notes. “Someone needs to check on her every few hours. Watch for worsening symptoms—severe headache, vomiting, confusion. If any of those occur, go to hospital immediately.”

“I’ll stay with her,” Gojo said before anyone else could offer.

Every head turned toward him. Shoko and Utahime exchanged looks. Akane’s expression went carefully blank.

“Satoru, maybe—” Akane started.

“I’ll stay,” he repeated, and this time his voice had that edge that meant arguing was pointless. “I’m staying.”

The doctor finished her instructions—rest, fluids, mild painkillers for the headache. Then she left, and gradually the others filtered out too. Shoko squeezed your hand before going, Utahime promised to check in later. Even Akane eventually left, though not before one last concerned look at Gojo that he didn’t acknowledge.

Then it was just you and him.

The room felt smaller suddenly. More intimate. The noise and crisis energy had drained away, leaving only quiet and the weight of everything unspoken between you.

You were still wearing his coat over your own. He noticed it now—how small you looked wrapped in fabric that was too big, how young and vulnerable and nothing like the person who’d been fighting him with words and walls for weeks.

“You should change,” he said quietly. “Get comfortable. I’ll—I’ll be right outside. Just call if you need anything.”

He started to leave, to give you privacy, but your voice stopped him.

“Gojo.”

He turned. You were looking at him with an expression he couldn’t quite read. Exhaustion and shock and something else underneath.

“You came,” you said, and your voice was small. Wondering. “I knew you would. Even when it didn’t make sense, even when I had no reason to think you could find me, I knew you’d come.”

Something in his chest cracked apart hearing that. The absolute certainty in your voice. The trust you’d had even when he’d given you every reason not to trust him.

“Of course I came,” he said, and his voice was rougher than he intended. “Did you really think I wouldn’t?”

You didn’t answer. Just kept looking at him with those eyes that had seen too much today, that were showing the strain of holding yourself together through shock and fear.

“Get changed,” he said again, gentler this time. “I’ll be right outside.”

This time you didn’t stop him.

He stood in the hallway trying to calm down. Trying to process what had happened. Trying not to think about what might have occurred if he’d been slower, if his instinct had been wrong, if he hadn’t found you in time.

His hands were shaking. He looked down at them—knuckles split and bloody, already starting to bruise. He should clean them. Should take care of the damage he’d done to himself while protecting you.

But he couldn’t seem to move. Could only stand there replaying those moments in the alley. The sight of you pressed against that wall. The terror on your face. The way everything in him had just—broken loose. All the control he prided himself on, all the careful restraint, gone in an instant because someone had hurt you.

He’d nearly killed that man. Would have, probably, if you hadn’t stopped him. The realization should have scared him—that he was capable of that level of violence, that loss of control. But it didn’t. He’d do it again in a heartbeat if it meant keeping you safe.

The door opened quietly. You’d changed into soft clothes—sleep pants and a sweatshirt that swallowed you. Hair damp from washing your face. Looking more like yourself but still fragile in ways that made his chest ache.

“You can come in,” you said. “Unless—unless you’d rather not. I can call Shoko if—”

“I’m staying.” He moved past you into the room before you could finish offering alternatives. “The doctor said someone needs to check on you. That’s what I’m doing.”

You closed the door behind him. The room suddenly felt very small with both of you in it. Very intimate in a way it hadn’t been when it was full of people.

“You should clean your hands,” you said, gesturing toward the bathroom. “They look bad.”

He looked down at his knuckles again. They did look bad—split skin, dried blood, bruises already forming. Evidence of violence he’d committed without hesitation.

“It’s fine.”

“It’s not fine. Come here.”

You went to the bathroom and he followed because he couldn’t seem to do anything except what you asked. You ran warm water, found a clean cloth, and gestured for him to sit on the closed toilet lid.

Then you started cleaning the blood from his hands with gentle touches that made something in his chest hurt worse than the physical pain.

The silence stretched between you, but it was different than the careful distance you’d been maintaining. More honest. More real. Like the crisis had stripped away some of the protective layers you’d both been wearing.

“I was so scared,” you said quietly, focus on his hands. “I thought—when he grabbed me, when I hit my head—I thought this was really bad. That I wasn’t going to be able to get away.”

Gojo’s hands tightened into fists under your gentle ministrations. The reminder of your fear, of what you’d been through, made rage flare fresh in his chest.

“I’m sorry,” he said roughly. “I should have—I shouldn’t have let you go out alone. Should have been paying more attention. Should have—”

“How could you have known?” You looked up at him, confusion in your eyes. “It’s not your fault. Some guy attacked me. That’s on him, not you.”

“I should have been there.” The words came out more intense than he intended. “Should have been paying attention instead of—instead of hiding from you. If something worse had happened because I was too much of a coward to just talk to you—”

“Satoru.” You set down the cloth, your hands still holding his. “You saved me. You found me somehow in an entire city. You—” Your voice cracked slightly. “You came when I needed you. That’s what matters.”

He looked at your hands on his. At the way you were touching him carefully, tenderly, like he was something worth caring for. The first real touch you’d had in weeks beyond accidental brushes in hallways.

It felt like breaking and healing at the same time.

“I heard you,” he admitted quietly. “When I was searching. I couldn’t explain it, but I knew—I knew which direction to go. Like I could feel where you were. Like some part of me was just—connected to you. Even after everything.”

You were quiet for a long moment, still holding his hands. When you spoke, your voice was barely above a whisper.

“I knew you’d come. Even when it didn’t make sense. Even when I told myself you wouldn’t. Some part of me just—knew. Trusted that you wouldn’t leave me there.”

The honesty of it made his throat tight. All the things you hadn’t been able to say to each other for weeks, suddenly becoming possible in the aftermath of crisis.

“I would never leave you,” he said, and it came out fiercer than intended. “No matter how fucked up things are between us. No matter how much we’ve hurt each other. If you need me, I’m there. Always.”

Your eyes met his, and something passed between you. Understanding or forgiveness or just acknowledgment that whatever else was broken between you, this remained true. This foundation of showing up, of protecting, of being there when it mattered most.

“We should talk,” you said after a moment. “Really talk. About everything. But—”

“Not tonight.” He agreed immediately. “Tonight you need to rest. Recover. Tomorrow or—whenever you’re ready. But not tonight.”

You nodded, relief evident. The exhaustion was catching up with you now that the adrenaline was fading. He could see it in the way you swayed slightly, in how your eyes kept trying to close.

“Come on.” He stood, helping you up. “You need to sleep.”

He helped you into bed, pulled the covers up, made sure you were comfortable. Then he grabbed the chair from the desk and positioned it beside the bed.

“What are you doing?” you asked sleepily.

“Staying. Someone needs to check on you every few hours, remember?”

“You don’t have to sit in a chair all night. That’s going to be miserable.”

“I’m fine.”

“Satoru.” You shifted over in the bed, making space. “Just—just lie down. It’s a big enough bed. You can sleep here and still check on me.”

He hesitated. Sharing a bed felt significant in ways he wasn’t sure either of you were ready to address. But you were already half-asleep, and the chair really did look miserable for an all-night vigil.

“Okay,” he said quietly. “But stay on your side. Doctor’s orders.”

He kicked off his shoes and lay down on top of the covers, maintaining careful distance. Close enough to reach you if needed but far enough to maintain some boundary.

The room was dark except for moonlight through the window. Quiet except for your breathing evening out as sleep claimed you. He lay there listening to you breathe, grateful beyond words that he’d found you in time, that you were safe, that he got the chance to protect you when it mattered.

“Satoru?” Your voice was barely awake, drowsy and soft.

“Yeah?”

“Thank you. For coming.”

Then your breathing deepened, evened out completely.

He lay there watching you sleep, counting your breaths, checking for any signs of distress. His body was exhausted but his mind wouldn’t quiet. Kept replaying the night. Kept thinking about how close he’d come to losing you—not to some conscious choice or relationship ending, but to random violence in a dark alley.

He must have dozed off eventually because when he woke, it was past midnight and his alarm was going off—reminder to check on you. He turned it off quickly, not wanting to wake you, and leaned over to look at your face.

You stirred slightly, making a small sound of complaint at being disturbed.

“Hey,” he said quietly. “Sorry. I need to check on you. How do you feel?”

“Tired,” you mumbled, eyes barely opening. “Headache.”

“That’s normal. Can you tell me where you are?”

“Venice. Villa. My room.” The words were sleepy but coherent. “You’re being annoying.”

He smiled despite himself. If you were annoyed, you were okay. “Go back to sleep.”

You did, almost immediately. He reset his alarm and lay back down.

This happened twice more through the night—him waking you gently, asking orientation questions, making sure your symptoms weren’t worsening. Each time you answered correctly if irritably, then went back to sleep. Each time he felt relief that you were okay, that there were no concerning changes.

I need you to understand something about this moment.

This tenderness—the gentle wake-ups, the careful monitoring, the way he watches you sleep like you’re something precious he nearly lost—exists simultaneously with the knowledge that nothing fundamental has changed between you. You’re still breaking apart. The hurt is still there. The distance you’ve both been maintaining is still necessary because neither of you knows how to bridge it without risking more damage.

In the morning, he’ll probably retreat again. You’ll probably rebuild your walls. The professional distance will slide back into place like armor you’ve both learned to wear.

But right now, in this dark room with moonlight streaming through Venetian windows, you’re both choosing to ignore that fact.

You’re choosing the fiction that his presence here means something’s fixed. That being saved means being chosen. That tenderness in crisis translates to tenderness in daylight.

He’s choosing the fiction that protecting you is enough. That keeping you safe substitutes for the honesty he can’t give. That monitoring your concussion symptoms is the same as addressing the wounds he’s inflicted on your heart.

It’s a mutual delusion, this moment of peace.

But here’s what I know: sometimes delusion is all we have. Sometimes pretending everything is okay is the only way to survive the night. Sometimes you need to believe in temporary safety even when you know—both of you know—that morning will bring back all the complicated hurt you’re currently ignoring.

So let them have this.

Let him lie there counting your breaths.

Let you sleep believing he came because he loves you, not just because he’s decent.

Let both of you pretend that crisis-born tenderness is the same as choosing each other in the mundane, difficult, everyday moments that actually matter.

Because despite everything—despite the hurt you’d inflicted on each other, despite Suguru’s ghost still lingering in every interaction, despite Akane’s presence a constant reminder of what you’d lost—some part of you couldn’t help but hope. Hope that maybe, in this beautiful city built on impossible foundations, you’d find a way to coexist. That maybe the proximity would force the honesty you’d both been avoiding. That maybe two weeks in Venice would either destroy you completely or give you the chance to build something new from the ruins.

You didn’t know which outcome scared you more.

A/N: ive made things too happy…. 🤔 enjoy it while it lasts 😂😂😂😂

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