Oh don't start crying now. This is what happens when you meet up with strangers at their house and accept drinks from them. You wanted this to happen just as much as I did. This is your fault
Specifically a boyfriend, one old enough to be my dad
not just after sexual stuff but treats me like his actual daughter. Says good morning and good night, asks how my day was, let’s me ramble abt anything
the kind of guy who would see me shivering outside in the rain like i was today and offer to buy me a pack of cigarettes to keep warm, i say no but he insists and gets me those cute Marlboros with the pink packaging!!
need a boyfriend who’s not just trying to fuck and have sex but one who actually likes pending time with me
Men use “I’m just a man” to cheat on their wives. Odysseus uses “I’m just a man” to kill, slay and torture people to get back to HIS wife. They are not the same.
But well it has always been like this, right? Always. So why worry now? I like it like this, I do, I swear I do… I think I do. I have memories. I remember my past… I think I do.
I am alive
I think I am
So why do I need to prove it to myself? I could be a c0rpse. Well. What if there wasn’t any bl00d inside me? I like to check. I do it quick, it doesn’t hurt much.
I don’t need to have to think about her. But it makes my day to day more fun. Right? I’ve forgotten her. I’ve forgave myself
I feel guilty of course over what I did. Right? Of course I feel guilty. I should; I hurt someone. I have to feel guilty. It’s not that i don’t care… I do. I just don’t care enough to say sorry.
I can control it. I’ll stop. The number will be low enough someday. I’ll now when it’s too low. I’ll now when I’m th1nn enough. I’ll know it. I’m sure, I think I am
Yeah it’s fine. I can afford to loose a point or two. I don’t have to be the best of my school just the best of my class… right. It doesn’t matter… right, I don’t have to have 100 on everything. I mean I do. And I’ll cry if I don’t but it’s not a big deal, I won’t care… I think I won’t
It’s only the end of the world, not you living dead
It’s only the end of the world, not you being guilty
It’s only the end of the world, not your we1ght going up
It’s only the end of the world, not you failing a test
you gross old perv! looking at a teenager like that. let me guess, you're fantasising about using my virgin teen hole and making me call you daddy? come on. be more creative than that.
play with my mind. get into my head. corrupt my naive mind into thinking that im safe with you. sit me down on your lap and touch me all over, whisper to me about how there's so many gross men out there, and im so lucky to have found you.
make me melt into the delusion of safety before you lay me down and violate me. turn into one of the gross men you warned me about. take advantage of me like the gross old man you are. anyone can call you daddy...let me call you dad.
If there’s a couch you best believe I’m gonna stretch out, arch my back and yawn like a kitten before curling up with my head in the nearest persons lap
im in my bed? Im stretched out like a cat before curling up with my plushie
on a chair? I’ll sit with my knees up to my chest, or even knelt on the chair as if i need to be careful of my tail
fuck it - even if I’m not on a chair or whatever I’m gonna act like a damn cat because it’s cute and who am i if I’m not tryna be a cute kitten?
holding your hand? I’m gonna nuzzle into your arm
walking? I’m gonna hop and skip like an over excited kitten chasing a butterfly
be more like kittens, it’s fun and who’s gonna stop you??
below: tips, d1et (+ recipes), & w0rk0ut
reupload from my old blog
❤︎₊ ⊹ study1ng is soo important and sometimes dis0rdered e4ting gets in the way, so we have to do everything we can to avoid brain f0g while maintaining h1gh grades!
tips:
make sure you’re getting enough electrolytes! you can do that by drinking lots of sparkling water (or still if you don't like the taste)
eat nutritious foods! some good l0w cal options are fruits and veggies, eggs, berries, and more
sleep is soo important to keep your brain running!! try to get at least 9 hours or more every night + sleeping helps with avoiding f00d cravings!
even if you don’t eat the rest of the day, you need to have a protein rich breakfast! that way, you’ll have plenty of energy and your blood sugar will remain low, so you’ll feel satisfied for longer
exercise is a must! every time you feel brain f0g coming, go on a walk!! you have to move your body, whether it's for 10 minutes or an hour (more on that below)
caffeine is your best friend! drink your coffee without sugar, but feel free to add a pinch of cinnamon instead!! if you don't like your coffee black, pour in some milk (either almond, coconut, or oat)
dress warm and comfortable!! being sk1nny means being cold all the time and you don't want to get sick!
don't beat yourself up for e4ting. we all make mistakes and sometimes we have to listen to our bodies and prioritise our wellbeing. just do better next time.
— ❤︎₊ ⊹
d1et:
❤︎₊ ⊹ breakfast
coffee with almond milk and a pinch of cinnamon (20c4ls) + two poached/boiled eggs with vegetables (160c4ls) or 250g greek nonf4t yogurt with berries (160c4ls)
❤︎₊ ⊹lunch
have two rice cakes, with a tablespoon of greek yoghurt each and use fruit/vegetables as toppings (100c4ls) + green tea with lemon to help with digestion (0c4ls)
❤︎₊ ⊹ dinner
100g canned tuna (strained of water), cucumbers, tomatoes and bell peppers (170c4ls) + lemon or cucumber water (0c4ls)
❤︎₊ ⊹ snacks
choose any three (all are 50c4ls)
40g green olives
thinly sliced cucumber with 25g sour cream
loads of veggies
one sliced apple with cinnamon
rice cake with strawberries/raspberries
cucumber with eggwhites
bunch of berries and a piece of dark chocolate
70g frozen grapes
cucumber with 60g greek yoghurt, season with red pepper flakes
total: 650-700 c4ls
— ❤︎₊ ⊹
w0rkout:
try to walk at least 5k steps every day, focus on low impact, f4t burning workouts like pilates and yoga, and remember to drink plenty of water
my workout routine
❤︎₊ ⊹ abs
— 25 leg lifts
— 25 stretch crunches (regular crunch, but arch your back when you lay down)
— 30 russian twists
— 2 minute plank
❤︎₊ ⊹ legs + butt
— 100 side leg lifts (on each leg)
— 50 lunges (25 on each leg)
— 50 fire hydrants (each side)
— 50 butt kicks
— 30 squats
— 25 hip thrusts
❤︎₊ ⊹ arms
— 50 arm circles
— 20 arm pushes (forward)
— 20 arm pushes (upwards)
fav youtube workout channels:
— move with nicole
— lilly sabri
— madeleine abeid
— growwithjo
— daisy keech
— gloria song
alright, that's it for now. taking requests, so please lmk what you'd like to see next <33
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