Riri's Wprld

riri's world of bs and whimsy

[bobbydake]

i love the idea of will telling his college friends or coworkers about his bf mike who is so sweet and gentle and loving and all his friends have this image in their heads of the nicest boy ever until they meet Mike Bitch Wheeler and are floored that he pulled will

[riri3i3i]

I love music interpretation because I have about fourteen ships, all in different scenarios and universes, being envisioned to every single song ever.

Oh heartbreaking song about losing a loved one? One of u bitches is dead

Love song about finding the romance you desperately craved? HA yes give me about seven more and play it four times on loop

A song that has nothing to do with romance? I'll make it work don't try me

The people in my head that I have decided are soulmates throughout every galaxy and every star will, in one way or another, be heavily romanticized or be associated by whatever song has came upon my clutches.

[lesikm]

I’ve finally decided to write down my thoughts on Will’s relationship with his father. Mainly because it annoys me when people make it seem like Lonnie was close to killing Will. Leave the kid in peace, he’s already suffered enough.

I’ll start by saying that, in my opinion, the fandom often projects Lonnie’s relationship with Jonathan onto Will, largely because canon never shows us any interaction between Will and his father. But that absence is the point. Lonnie is nonexistent in Will’s life. In s1 his character is there mostly to explore Jonathan and Joyce rather than Will’s character. I also doubt that Lonnie was physically abusive toward Will, despite this being a common fan interpretation. Well, maybe that sort of thing happened rarely, or Will had completely suppressed those memories. But canon doesn't really hints at it. The closest thing we get is from Jonathan’s pov, but he could be projecting his own experience with Lonnie onto Will. Siblings often can experience different forms of abuse growing up in the same house. And I think that’s exactly the case here. Another reason I think so is because Joyce was too calm about Lonnie’s return. Besides, she insisted that he spend time with Will, and if he had been abusive toward Will in the past, she would not have allowed Lonnie near him.

Jonathan was Lonnie’s firstborn son, the child he tried to shape into a “real man”, and he wasn’t above using force in that effort. Lonnie still seems to have some hope left for Jonathan, and perhaps even a little affection. Things are different with Will. In Lonnie’s eyes, the kid was a hopeless case from the very beginning. Instead of trying to change him, Lonnie simply gave up and doesn’t give a damn about him. That’s why the emotional trauma Lonnie left Will with is entirely different from Jonathan’s and more complex than “my father abused me because he thought I was gay, so now I have internalized homophobia”. The conflict stems not from Will’s sexuality, but from his love to his father. He wanted his attention and approval, and part of him may still want it. Even after Lonnie left, Will kept reminders of him both in his room and in the Castle Byers, his safe place. He desperately craved even the slightest bit of attention from Lonnie. Sadly, he got none. The guy didn’t just miss his son’s birthday, he had the nerve to send a card saying “sorry I forgot your birthday”. He’s just the worst. He didn’t care about this kid at all, like he didn’t even try “to fix” him like he did with Jonathan. People often latch onto that scene where Lonnie and Will were supposed to go to a baseball game, a sport Will doesn’t even like, and read it as Lonnie trying to push “manly” interests onto him. And sure, that’s part of it. But I think people overlook what’s arguably the most important detail: Lonnie didn’t even show up. There are different ways to interpret that scene, and none of them are necessarily wrong since canon never really explores it further. Personally, I’ve never seen it as just a story about evil Lonnie forcing Will to do something he hates. To me, it’s about Will once again being willing to put aside his own interests for the chance to spend time with his father, only to be let down again.

This is Will’s biggest flaw and his tragedy. He genuinely believes there’s something wrong with him and that he has to change, adapt, and put other people’s needs before his own if he wants them to stay. He never wants to be a burden, especially to his family, who are already struggling enough. And I’m pretty sure part of him already believes Lonnie left because of him. That’s why, even when a literal cosmic horror is targeting him, his first instinct is to keep it to himself. He doesn’t want to cause problems or make other people’s lives harder. The one person he opens up to is Mike. They’ve always been equals, and for most of their friendship Mike never made Will feel like there was something wrong with him. At least not until s3.

In s3 Mike gets completely wrapped up in his relationship with El and starts neglecting Will. He doesn’t mean to, but from Will’s perspective it feels painfully familiar to his experience with Lonnie. Once again someone he loves is abandoning him. And the timing couldn’t be worse. After everything he’s been through, Will is finally starting to put himself back together and, for once, trying to be a little selfish. He wants his friends to do the things he enjoys, the things that used to bring them together. But instead of finding understanding, he ends up feeling embarrassed, rejected, and alone. So by s4 Will falls back into what he knows best: making himself convenient. Rather than focusing on his own feelings, he spends most of his time supporting Mike and helping him navigate his relationship with El. He basically takes over s3 Lucas’s role and becomes Mike’s relationship counselor because he believes that’s what Mike needs from him. And at the core of it all is the same fear Lonnie left him with. He’s terrified of losing Mike the way he lost his father. So he convinces himself that if he makes himself as convenient as possible and asks for nothing in return, he’ll be able to keep Mike in his life.

[riri3i3i]

i love les byler so much, but I feel like people tend to forget it's still byler. Michelle is still Michael, they're still dense and emotionally repressed teens who have a thing for their pretty hazel eyed best friend that they refuse to acknowledge.

On that note, imo, I feel like Willow is more confident than Will. Not like significantly, but probably more comfortable in her identity than Will is. Will was bullied and called slurs his entire life, by both his father and the people in Hawkins, because he was shy, quiet, and loved art. Basically, he wasn't considered "boyish" or man enough.

Willow, however, is still shy, quiet, and artistic, but that's more socially acceptable for a girl in a small conservative town in the 80's. She was still bullied, still called names, but I do believe that her bullying was less because of the town's image of a queer and more generally focused on her background and quietness.

Also, referring back to the very first point, les byler is still byler, neither of these girls are entirely "feminine" by society's definition. I don't see them wearing heels or what is considered "girly" clothes, wearing full faces of makeup, gossiping, or playing with dolls. I feel like they'd both be tomboys, sort of like Max. They'd still be incredibly nerdy, they'd love video games, comics, DnD, basically all of regular Byler's interests. That would be another reason they'd get bullied, for liking "boy" stuff.

With Michelle, her style as a kid (S1-S2, maybe S3) is similar to Nancy's, but with more purple and a darker blue. Something you would wear to church, honestly. It isn't till she's a teen (S4) where she gets more into her style. I'm a firm believer in emo lesbian Mike Wheeler, so I'm a firm believer of emo lesbian Michelle Wheeler. The Hellfire shirt, paired with either tight skinny black jeans (or jorts???) and beaten up sneakers.

As for Willow, her style is more baggy. Due to the influence and abuse of Lonnie, she would wear big, oversized jackets and try to cover up her body as much as possible to not spark any "provocation" (again, Lonnie). Instead of the bowl cut, she'd have a bob with the Byers bangs, but towards S5 her hair is slightly longer, so it just barely reaches past her shoulders.

While I do believe that their dynamic would be different, in the end they are still the same characters. Michelle isn't this flirty girl who's always hitting on her girlfriend because she's still Mike, so there's still some awkwardness and internalized homophobia inside her. Willow isn't this popular, skinny strap girly girl because she's still Will, there's still this deep fear of growing up and attracting attention inside her.

God I could go on and on about les byler I love them so much my baby girls (*˘︶˘*).｡*♡

[teethbagel]

AITA for wanting to kiss my bro after putting my fingers and penis in his ass?

I (M19) and my friend (M19) have been best friends since childhood. He’s gay, and he had a crush on me a few years ago before he came out.

It’s since worn off.

Recently we were having a sleepover and we heard this couple dirty talking over the walkie talkie, it kinda turned us both on and we honestly kept joking about it over the next few weeks and it turned into this weird sexually charged situationship we cant tell our friends about.

He has lied and said to them he has a secret boyfriend.

We mess around and do all sorts of stuff, and it’s not even a joke anymore, but recently i’ve been wanting to kiss him, and he keeps brushing me off.

we went to a party the other day, got drunk, danced together, went home and messed around. it was the most intimate we’ve ever been. i asked about kissing again after we were done and he got irritated at me.

i just wanna know why i cant kiss him after the tip of my dick has been in and around his asshole??

AITA?

[riri3i3i]

timebomb has left such a deep cut into my soul wdym everyone else has already moved on?????

[riri3i3i]

lesbyler but it's Mikayla "Michelle" Wheeler and Winona "Willow" Byers???? someone rec me some lesbyler fics pls I'm parched (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

[riri3i3i]

i miss omega will byers (╥﹏╥)