a space to let it all out

a collection of my own poems, thoughts, and reflections. I hope that you find solace in it, and if so please engage. I love interacting.

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Join Creating a Business in the arts • Community on Tumblr

A community for first-time to long-time business owners in the arts/entertainment industry!

Heey everyone!! Sooo, I started a new community(:

This is for first-time to long-time business owners, or those who are thinking about starting a business in the arts/entertainment industry.

Starting/running a business is no easy feat. About 2 months ago, I registered an LLC for my own Film Production Company, and I am so excited, but have been really desiring a community to encourage/help me along this journey-- and I hope that this can be it!

So, if you fit into any of the categories above, I hope that you would join the community to make this a space that brings us all closer to achieving our dreams<3

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Happy MF New Year!

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ADHD dump Part 5

So todaaaay, I have a birthday dinner to go to!! Which means I can FINALLY do all the things that has been so hard for me to do this past week before I go (: lol.... adhd is such a time.

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ADHD dump Part 4

This week everything's felt hard. I couch rotted. and i feel bad about it. I've had to force myself to do EVERYTHING. Shower, eat, work, clean, stand-up. Nothing has been easy this week. Right now, I am about to just get up and clean. Just do it. Just start. I know once i start im going to feel so much better---sucks that thats the HARDEST PART.

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I'm not the girl to ask if you should wear something based on if it's cute. I'm always going to lead with, "but is it comfortable?"

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im tired.

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Adhd dump part 3

I had so much in mind to do today, when I got out of bed this afternoon. Except all I did was eat, sit, watch tv, scroll, and lay on the couch. lol. what a bummer. But honestly. Most of the time Im Go'ing. All gas, no breaks. So Im extending lots of grace to myself. Im allowed to lay down and do nothing after working my butt off for the last few months. And im going right back into a very full work week starting Monday. So I owe it to myself to REST.

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Adhd dump post #2

I miss family. Celebrating Thanksgiving this year was hard. Holidays have been hard generally for the last about 6 or so years. I think thats all I want to say about that. Don't want to harbor too much, because it makes me sad.

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Adhd dump post #1

*Puts my hand to my head, bc I forgot all 100 things that were floating in my head 5 seconds ago. brb while I gather myself*

*1 minute later*

We're back. So, I worked on a movie this past weekend. BRO. Most awful experience I have ever had. I can always tell the difference when Im on set between director/producers who are just doing it for the money versus the art/love of filmmaking. This one was clearly just for the coin, and it felt ICKY.

I was asked to work more days, but two was more than enough. I love movies and I want to work on more, but not at the expense of my own values and worth. Mind you, the pay was terrible too. Anywho, I was so happy to leave from that set. And that says ALOT bc I LOVE being on set.

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Im going to have a reaaaal adhd moment real quick and make several posts, about the 100 things on my mind, because sometimes you just gotta get it out. (:

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Brown eyes, deep dive

brown eyes, deep dive there, I'm lost for the night you look over at my face, with no words to say yet I know and I feel what was unspoken from the day

our chemistry is scary what if we get too close? my hand brushes yours and I pretend I didn't know

but what does it matter when we can see past pretend, past silence and glances and the yearning to be near

I know that you know. but what do I do? We will never confess But we don't really have to.

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Peter McVries - The Long Walk Character

Peter's character warmed my heart. He is the hope, light, encouragement, warmth, just, and love that you desperately want and imagine during times of difficulty and hardship. (Might be spoilers below)

He is steady. Unwavering in his support, values, and beliefs. He is strong. He walked and stepped as if he prepared for this his whole life--which in some sense he has. He is the friend that becomes a brother. Someone you trust with your whole life. Someone you confide you darkest secrets to, and you know that he will handle them with care. He is absolutely beautiful. When we find out about the hardship he has been through, it only makes him even more wonderful. More beautiful. That he chooses to be light even though he came from so much darkness. He is hope materialized, in human form. Steady. Unwavering. An embrace you would never want to leave or let go of.

Peter McVries has easily become my favorite movie character.

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Friend, I call you because, friend you are To remind me of reality's lore Our laughter sings and our walk in sync Makes me wonder if you once knew me

We joke, we laugh We poke, we jab I start to think you're from the past I hold your gaze a little while longer Hoping not to break the day's wonder Friend, I call you because, friend you are. Please don't become a friend from afar

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I wish there were two Septembers. My favorite month is almost over.

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The 4th quarter of the year is approaching. This is the part when nostalgia grows deeper, emotions get bigger, and longing grows inward.

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I was only a child when I had to create peace in my mind to escape the chaos of my world. So yes, I am very protective of it, of me.

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Stories are infinite, so to write one and call it "Done" feels wrong and scary.