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𝖋𝖎𝖌𝖍𝖙 𝖇𝖊𝖈𝖆𝖚𝖘𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖉𝖔𝖓'𝖙 𝖐𝖓𝖔𝖜 𝖍𝖔𝖜 𝖙𝖔 𝖉𝖎𝖊 𝖖𝖚𝖎𝖊𝖙𝖑𝖞

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#RITTERLICH : INDEPENDENT, PRIVATE & SELECTIVE KNIGHT OC WITH VERSES IN HISTORICAL, MODERN & FANTASY SETTINGS (LIKE KINGDOM COME DELIVERANCE, BALDUR'S GATE, HEATED RIVALRY & MORE), TRAUMATIZED BY FLORA SINCE 2012

a study in: a lifetime of war, the prodigal son, war between brothers, loyalty, rebellion, leaving behind a toxic environment & making your own way, softness isn't weakness

affiliated with: @moonsymbols / @bybear, @pirkstein, @chivalrik @captainewyork / @eiqhtyone, @redstrng

guest muses: Cecilia, Jonas

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just thinking about how crazy the languages in Wil's household are (specifically in hockey verse) xD like YES english is the main one, but he & Cecilia make sure Jonas learns German too, so when they're alone with him it's usually German. But I also feel like they sometimes just naturally start with English & it takes a while until one of them even notices. Then Jonas also studies French AND he & Wil both speak Russian to an extend xD

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@eiqhtyone said : *drops off presents for Jonas*

Somehow Wilhelm isn't even fully surprised when the package arrives. It's not the first time and it certainly won't be the last either, no matter how many times they have the I'm trying to teach my son that he can't just have anything he wants without effort, Lia! conversation.

Wilhelm takes a closer look, recognizing the logo. A Nintendo Switch. He vaguely remembers Jonas had mentioned saving up for one of those when Ilya had last come over. And here it is, just turning up at his doorstep like so many other presents have over the years. Not that Wilhelm can actually be mad, for the most part he thinks it's sweet and understands that Ilya's expressing their love for his son this way.

Just when he's about to send his friend a text, he hears steps behind him and Jonas is peeking over his shoulder. "Oh my god, did they actually?" He can't help but smile at the awe in Jonas' voice and hands the package over. "Greetings from Ilya." "Papa, I swear I didn't talk about the Switch on purpose!" "Sure you didn't."

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Wil before a hockey game: ok no fighting tonight, I'm cool :)))

also Wil, punching the first opponent who says anything nasty about Scott: whooopss 😅😅

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Wilhelm + his relationship with violence

The main thing you need to keep in mind is: To Wilhelm violence feels natural, it feels familiar & even safe in a way. That's deeply rooted in his upbringing, in the violence his father did to him, as well as the violence he was deliberately exposed to. Wilhelm knows how unhealthy this is & he actively works against this, but still he has a tendency to revert to violence as a first reaction, especially in extreme situations or when pushed. Does he hate himself for it afterwards? Yes. There might be a very short moment of satisfaction, but that's quickly replaced by disappointment and self loathing. Because every time he acts on this instinct it feels like his father's still winning, proof that Wilhelm might end up like him no matter how hard he fights against it.

What doesn't help is his tendency to bottle up any pain & anger until it all explodes. Though in pretty much every verse he finds some more controlled way to physically let out those pent up emotions he carries (like in historical/fantasy settings that's sword training & in modern settings hockey & the gym). In the hockey verse serving as an occasional enforcer is also a part of that. In some ways Wilhelm really enjoys the fights, although the same feeling of self loathing hits him afterwards. As the years pass & especially with the growing responsiblities to other people (his younger siblings & his son) Wilhelm steps back from that & will only very rarely get into fights on the ice. He realizes that he can't keep being careless with his own wellbeing & health & fully concentrates on is skills as a defenseman.

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are we shifting back into k.cd mode??? *picks up klara, wil & pippa & runs*

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WILHELM + MODERN WARDROBE EDIT

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I can't stress enough how Wilhelm does have the skills of a great diplomat (something something being forced to read the room & act as a mediator since your childhood 🙃), but at the same time he's pretty much incapable of keeping his facial expressions in check fjdhsfjdhfkdf

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The Tudors (2007-2010)

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guys do I make a whole pride graphic set for wil or nah? 👀👀👀

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btw happy pride month from your local bi, demi enby & their bi, demi muse 😘😘

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@eiqhtyone said : ❛  i  think  you  had  a  nightmare …   you  seemed  upset .  ❜ | DAWN-FLAVORED.

He takes a laboured breath, staring up at the ceiling. The dream still sits in Wilhelm's bones and his mind's still reeling from the images. It's not often that nightmares like this one haunt him, but they keep returning: the hospital corridor, seeing his mother's lifeless body lying in the bed and him banging against the door, unable to reach her or it's the house he grew up in, he's bloodied and bruised, trying to leave, but the walls are closing in.

"I'm fine", Wilhelm assures, old instincts kicking in automatically. "Just give me a minute." But then he catches himself. There's no reason to hide, not here, not from Ilya. If anyone can understand what's going on inside of him it's them after all. "I did have a nightmare actually. One that keeps coming back. I'm at the hospital, watching my mother die over and over again." He closes his eyes, though that only seems to make the memories stronger and he can feel the tears burning.

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𝑫𝑨𝑾𝑵 - 𝑭𝑳𝑨𝑽𝑶𝑹𝑬𝑫 .    ( words  for  those  whose  affections  belong  to  the  early  mornings.   some  nsfw implications  are  present .   )

❛  name  one  reason  we  should  get  out  of  this  bed .  ❜ ❛  i’m  gonna  go  shower …   you  wanna  join ?  ❜ ❛  please …   you  don’t  have  to  go .   i  don’t  want  you  to  go .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  never  felt  like  this  before .   is  that  crazy ?  ❜ ❛  what  are  your  plans  for  the  day ,   &   how  cancel-able  are  they ?  ❜ ❛  grab  me  something  to  drink  while  you’re  up ?  ❜ ❛  how  did  you  sleep ?  ❜ ❛  no ,   nooo  -  come  back  to  bed .  ❜ ❛  wanna  help  me  choose  something  to  wear ?  ❜ ❛  i  wish  the  sun  would  just  go  back  down .  ❜ ❛  don’t  pretend  like  you’re  asleep .  ❜ ❛  i  think  i  can  convince  you  to  stay …  ❜ ❛  i  can  feel  your  heart  beating .  ❜ ❛  shit ,   did  someone  just  knock  on  the  door ?  ❜ ❛  would  it  be  alright  if  i  borrowed  this ?   i  can’t  find  my  shirt .  ❜ ❛  it’s  not  morning  yet .  ❜ ❛  stop  hogging  all  the  blankets !  ❜ ❛  all  these  marks  -  i  look  like  a  crime  scene .  ❜ ❛  well ,   hello  there .   good  morning .  ❜ ❛  how  about  i  heat  up  the  leftovers  in  the  fridge ?  ❜ ❛  can  you  check  what  the  weather’s  like  today ?  ❜ ❛  just  one  more  kiss -  ❜ ❛  i  think  you  had  a  nightmare …   you  seemed  upset .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  find  my  [ clothing item ]  -  have  you  seen  [ it / them ] ?  ❜ ❛  i  think  i’ve  fallen  a  little  bit  more  in  love  with  you .  ❜ ❛  someone  needs  to  get  up   &   close  the  curtains .  ❜ ❛  hold  me  &  never  let  me  go .  ❜ ❛  is …  that  my  shirt  that  you’re  wearing ?  ❜ ❛  it’s  nice  that  your  voice  was  the  first  thing  i  heard  today .  ❜

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brb just crying about how Wil’s love language is protecting those he cares about, building a safe space for them in every sense bc he never had that growing up (especially not since his mother’s death) :)))

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“I couldn’t protect her. My mum …. I tried but … I couldn’t fight back”

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once again need you all to know that in the hockey verse Wil is literally always here to adopt any rookie who needs a better father/brother figure xjxnxnxmxmkx