He continued to dart at her with those small eyes of his as hers dialated, becoming more furious, wanting to stab the knife into the table. He felt infuriated not just at her but himself also, what she said was almost oneĀ hundredĀ percent true, but she didn't know the full story. He promised himself that he would open up to them, try to become their friends more and make sure there was nothing in between them. Rival told Blue it first, because he knew she wouldn't react to harshness, she already knew everything about him through his brother.
"No, you shut it and listen to me you Twat, your acting irrationally you hear-- Shut up and listen good. I promised myself that I was not going to end up like this with you--" His face grew red as he shook himself, biting his cheek as he went on, "Lyra listen, Your my Rival but you have made me want to be your friend, I know you want to be my friend. But you have to understand, I have never been touched like that, I have always been pushed away, by my father and everybody else... Up until I met you I never felt what a hug was, I react because well-- I didn't like how it felt, because it wasĀ foreignĀ to me. And I amĀ trying to warm up to you, I let you hold my arm on the way here didn't I? I want to get used to it," his face back to the blistering red color as the words poured out of his mouth.
"Like you said, you love us both, he loves you too so that's why he hasn't snapped. I snap because I don't know what to do--Ā I get it, I am a distraught kid who doesn't know what he wants, I was spoiled and then abandoned by him-- I never told you guys of my ties to team rocket because I was scared you two would reject me, I kept a wall to protect you both. Do you understand? I wanted to keep you both out of my fathers clutches when he did return, so that maybe if I died trying you would forget about me easily and you two would be safe. When you came to rescue me-- I figured I was wrong," he bit his lip and ruffled his already messy hair, people were staring at him but he didn't care, frustrated and hot he tried to cool down.
"I am just fully willing to talk this all out, because I care about our ties that much Lyra, shut your mouth alright?" he hissed, "Nobody thinks that, sure when we met I didn't like you, surely I about hated you and wanted to beat you every time I saw you. Because I wanted to be better than you, but you kept beating me over and over and over again, I made a Rivalry wall because I envied you and wanted to be as good as you. That is another reason why I kept rejecting you-- And about Ethan--"
He but his lip harder and harder as he turned into a blushing mess, "Y-Yes I did like Ethan, I came to really like him, he was somebody that I had come to trust but Lyra-- I gave up on that. I did I really did, because I liked you as well," He didn't even know what he was saying anymore, it was just streaming out of his mouth, "I threw it away because I cherished your friendships, I didn't want every time I was with you three to become awkward. I just wanted you guys to be my friends so we didn't have to have such awkward conversations each time we were together, I wanted to make it so we could be together-- Just the three of us and smile or some shit like that."
He was just blubbering now, going on about things, "But listen Lyra, I am trying my hardest to be your friend, I need to get used to this shit so I can be a friend you can curl up to and cry to-- But you know what hurt to me the most Lyra, was that you and Ethan would go off and Date and forget me, I nailed that into my brain," He could taste the blood that was coming from his cheek, God he hated emotional attachments, "I nailed it in there so hard so I wouldn't be feeling like I was going to puke every where and just-- Cry." he paused after that word and rubbed his face, breathing to keep him from crying.Ā
He looked back up to her and looked into her eyes that she looked at him with, "S-So I don't want to hurt you anymore, I'm going to remove every barrier I have. That phase is over and done with, Lets just have a shake and be friends and shit. Stop putting yourself down, your reminding me to much of myself, I have rubbed off on Blue enough. Your a strong girl Lyra, trust me you are so stop it, I've battled against her for how many years now?"
He smirked finally, pausing before looking at the menu, "Do you want to share thisĀ appetizerĀ with me?" He showed her a picture of cheese sticks.
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