The Rivers Flow Through My Veins Tonight

|Drew T. Rivers| |21| Warlock |

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[shinebrightalice]

Well sorry for calling you that but— You talk too much.

[riversofdrew]

Or maybe you just can't comprehend what I'm saying.

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Fine. Whatever.

Get out.

[riversofdrew]

No problem at all, kiddo. Bye! [le walks out]

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

No. No, don’t give me that “Everyone is selfish” bullshit. That’s what brought this on, because all I’ve done is work my ass off trying to help the people around me. Selfishness might be human nature, but that doesn’t mean everyone has to succumb to it. That’s an excuse. And I’m done with excuses.

All I’m asking for is someone to give a shit about me the way I give a shit about everyone else. Because I can’t stop that. I don’t get to be the devil-may-care asshole you are. I don’t have that luxury. And don’t call me Soph. My friends call me that, and you’re not my friend. I’m sorry it took me so long to realize that.

[riversofdrew]

It's funny. you're telling me all of this, expecting me to care. You say it like you are anyway. You say it like I'm supposed to feel hurt by your words but the thing is, I don't feel a damn thing so I couldn't give a single crap right now if you're my friend or not. Think of me as a crappy friend if you like. It's not going to change that I am. Hate me all you like, Soph because I really really couldn't care less. In fact, I don't give a shit about you. I don't even give a shit about my own brother or wherever he's disappeared off to. 

But hey, lets make this easier on you. Now you don't have to feel bad about seeing everything in my life since you're no longer a part of it. Enjoy your angel life, princess, because you and me are done.

[riversofdrew]

I'm so lost right now. And sad. And terribly lonely. Even the birds have something to sing about, though they've not heard the thousands of songs that are playing on the radio. Even the stars have someone to shine down upon, kissing the faces of loved ones that have been left behind. The skies have more emotions than me, from the rage of thunder and lightning to the sadness of the gentle rain, crying over the loss of someone important. Everything has something to cry over or smile about and I'm just here, so damn numb that I can't even feel my own heart beating.

I dont remember where I first saw this but it sums up drew right now okay?

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Drew, please, i’m sorry, I…You know what? No. No, I’m not sorry. You’ve been in a shitty mood for weeks, and I’m done. Half the times we talk, you patronize me and make me feel shit about myself and I get enough of that from myself, I don’t need your help.

I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I’m fucking falling apart right now, and I have been for months, and you don’t even give a shit. I can’t stop feeling everything from everyone, do you know how exhausting that is? And no one cares! Everyone is wrapped up in their own problems, and I keep trying to help people, but they won’t let me, and they don’t even give a shit about my own baggage. I’m done with trying to save people who don’t wanna be saved. I’m done putting everyone else first when no one else will do the same. I’m done. Fuck you, Drew Rivers. Call me if you decide to…I don’t know. Whatever. I’m done.

[riversofdrew]

Shit. Happens.

Everyone one of us in society is a selfish creature. We believe our own problems are bigger than anyone elses. We dwell on our own issues instead of looking around and that is why I am not going to apologize for my recent behaviour. It is in my nature to be selfish. We're all falling apart, Soph. We're all fucking dead on the inside and if we're not? then those people are the lucky ones but there time will come. At some point, we all become ghosts of ourselves and you've finally found that day. Well-fucking-done. Have fun on the hollow side of the body. Now go drink away your troubles and try to find some sense of liveliness instead of bitching about how you have baggage because sweetheart, we all have baggage. Every single one of us. From the minute we're born and cause pain to our parents, to the minute we die. Baggage is nothing anymore so don't feed me shit about it. 

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

That was a joke. Just because I say I’m serious doesn’t mean I’m actually serious.

I’m sorry. Maybe my body language was wrong.

[riversofdrew]

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Drew, I am 100% serious when I say I’ll fight you on this. I will.

[riversofdrew]

Then fuck this and fuck you because I'm not arguing over something so stupid.

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Don’t thank me. You’re still wrong about the other two.

[riversofdrew]

I have my reasons; musically and fan based.

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Okay, you’re right about Bieber, I will admit to that.

[riversofdrew]

Thank you.

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[shinebrightalice]

You’re such an ass. Most people have just decided to dislike them, they don’t even give it a fair try.

[riversofdrew]

Excuse me but I have tried to listen to them multiple times. Justin Bieber is overplayed on the radio causing me to dislike his music and with the recent news about his drugs and the monkey thing, I don't find a reason to like him. The one direction songs are annoying and repetitive and the fans have completely ruined the personality of the boys for me. And the Jonas brothers disappeared and shouldn't have got back in to music again and should have stuck with whatever they were doing before. So do not give me crap saying that I didn't try to listen to them and like them because I did. So I would prefer it if you didn't call me an ass because you have no idea okay?

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[shinebrightalice]

Have you even listened to them?

[riversofdrew]

Yes and they're crap, in my opinion. Problem?

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[shinebrightalice]

[riversofdrew]

Yes?

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Oh yeah? And who would you recommend, then?

[riversofdrew]

Anyone but Jonas Brothers, Justin Bieber and One Direction.

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hush. I love the Jonas Brothers, I don’t care what anyone says.

[riversofdrew]

I'm not saying anything about them. I'm just saying you have bad taste in music.

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Yes, it’s be the Jonas Brothers, and shut up, I’m not that bad of a singer.

Good.

[riversofdrew]

Ew.

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

No, I just really like that song.

Are you drunk or high or something? Cause you seem kinda antsy.

[riversofdrew]

That was a song?

No. I'm fine. No alcohol or weed has passed my lips.

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hands clapping, hips shaking, heart breaking

[sofarsogoodsophiel]

Hi, Drew!

[riversofdrew]

Are you drunk? Or high? or something?