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Zoe Rivas, 20. Yeah, that Zoe Rivas. Acting is what makes life worth living for me. Currently employed at the Degrassi Theater.

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‘  audition season ,  finally .  ’     a grin ,  he’s been preparing for this for long enough .     ‘  i’m not even nervous .  i know i’m better than half the people around here .  ’     he’s been here long enough ,  everybody knows he’s good .     ‘  plus ,  rent will be totally fun .  ’

[rivxs]

“Ugh, are you going to get all of the good parts this season? I feel like half of the shows are sort of made for you,” Zoe said jokingly. “Is it always this good for you, or what?”

[rivxs]

itskatiematlin‌:

“Right! And really us girls should have the same opportunities as the guy. Maybe we should just say forget and do six to really piss off the boys.” Katie joked coming up with the most female dominated musical she could think of. “Hey if you really want to do your idea you should rally! Like why do you think we should do it?” Katie asked curious to hear her thoughts. “I try to think of the group most of the time and ease of props and casting. But sometimes I think putting on a show a lit of people havent heard of could be a good challenge too.”  

“Shoot, Six would be really great to do. Maybe we can round up the ladies and push for a run of women-centered shows next season. Get everyone on board, and it could get good press... I don’t know why that has to take effort, but it would be amazing. And it is still kinda cool having a woman as our stage manager, just so you know. All these guys in power.” Zoe smiled genuinely, which was somewhat rare. “I don’t want to push too hard for my choices. They’re all good shows, you know?”

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

It wasn’t often that Becky was at a loss for words - but for the first time in a long time, she genuinely did not know what to say right now. It had never occurred to her that there might be a difference between thinking her female friends were pretty and being attracted to them. Even though it definitely should have, since she thought guys were handsome all the time, but she didn’t – no, she wasn’t even going to finish that thought. She vaguely heard Zoe say something about organized religion and people getting that sexuality wasn’t a choice and opened her mouth to argue, but no sound came out. “That’s… nice. That you’ve met cool people,” she eventually said, too shell-shocked to care or even notice how stilted she probably sounded. “I, um. I just realized that I have some things I need to take care of at home, so. I need to go.” She made her way towards the exit,  mentally assuring herself that she wasn’t lying - she did have things to take care of. Lots of praying, for starters. “I’ll… see you tomorrow.”

Well now Zoe felt bad. It seemed to her that Becky was no longer able engage with the conversation, so she nodded uncomfortably. “Yeah, I promise I’ll check in with you tomorrow. Let me know if there’s anything that I can do to help.” She still thought Becky was one of the weirdest people that she had ever met, but this was not the sort of thing that she could laugh at. She wanted to press on and explain how she had been in Becky’s shoes before, kind of, but it wasn’t worth chasing after someone who seemed like a zombie. For now, Zoe needed to do some self-care for herself, like screaming into the first clean pillow she could find.

[rivxs]

☁️ 🐺

☁️- Describe a dream you’ve had that’s always stuck with you.

When I was 14, I dreamed that I was walking through my house, but it was empty. My mom wasn’t home. Nobody was home, and I knew that nobody wanted anything from me. And I was happy, but I felt guilty about it.

🐺- If a witch cursed you, what creature do you think they’d turn you into?

Something tells me it would be a skunk. I don’t have the answers.

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

Becky fidgeted, suddenly looking quite uncomfortable. “Um. Because it seems pretty common these days, even if you only include the people who are open about it? I’d imagine the numbers would be much higher if we were able to count everyone who’s had feelings like that but hasn’t acted on them,” she reasoned, more trying to convince herself than Zoe. “And besides. Everyone thinks girls are pretty, right?” This, she was a little more confident on - girls were always telling their female friends how pretty they looked, after all.

Oh fuck. This was not going anywhere close to where Zoe had expected. Why did she have to be the responsible one here? It would have been easier if they had just kept fighting. “There’s a difference between thinking that your friends look pretty, and being attracted to your friends.” Scrunching up her forehead, she considered what she could say that might not make everything worse. “Hey, like I said, there’s cool people who are into organized religion that get that it’s not a choice. I just... can’t.”

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

“Oh, Zoe,” Becky sympathized, all frustration gone from her tone. Clearly Zoe didn’t want this lifestyle for herself. This, she knew how to handle. “It’s going to be okay. Struggling with same sex attraction is more common than you’d think - I wouldn’t be surprised if everyone deals with it on some level.”

Zoe enjoyed arguing for the sake of it, but she was not stupid, and she was not heartless. “Uhm, no. Pretty sure by now that most people don’t have, ugh, what you’re calling ‘same sex attraction.’” It sounded so clinical and strange when phrased like that. Something still felt off about what Becky said, and she wanted to nail down what it was. Forcing herself to calm down, she asked, “Could you explain to me why you specifically wouldn’t be surprised about everyone having to deal with that?”

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

“A threat?” Becky asked, stunned. It had never occurred to her that someone might see her Christianity as a threat, nor could she comprehend now how Zoe could possibly think so. “I would never threaten anyone. I’m sorry if I made you feel that way, but I’m not going to lie and pretend I don’t believe in God just so you can feel comfortable with your choices.”

“Yeah, Becky. A threat.” Zoe rolled her eyes, and tried to figure out if this was a genuine apology or not. It was difficult to tell if Becky wore her heart on her sleeve or was secretly out to get her. For now, she was going to have to assume the latter but tread lightly. “I’ve met Christians who are decent people, but I can’t feel comfortable around them anymore until I know that they’re not going to pull out that choice bullshit. Not that it’s any of your business, but I already tried to play straight. Didn’t work.” Zoe felt pathetic instead of right.

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

“They are… Americans?” It wasn’t a question, but Becky couldn’t help but feel uncertain about it - why was Zoe so upset? Was she one of the gay people she was talking about? “Sorry, must be the Florida in me. America is described as a melting pot because of all the different perspectives different kinds of people have, and it seemed like too good of a metaphor to pass up on! It wasn’t a religious thing, and I wouldn’t have mentioned church just now if you hadn’t asked me where I got my start in acting. I don’t mention Jesus that much,” she pointed out. “Well. Maybe I do bring up religion more than average, but if other people are bringing up being gay or otherwise LGBTQ, why can’t I bring up God? My religion is just as much a part of who I am.”

“United States of America. Canada is part of North America, you know,” Zoe said just to be nitpicky. She was already feeling insecure since being out was a matter of baby steps. Every single time it felt like an ordeal. Given, she thought talking with Becky was an ordeal in itself. But an entertaining one- like watching a television show not quite to your taste because of how bizarre it was. “It’s kind of like a threat when you throw it around like that all the time. Yeah, I asked, but maybe it’s not worth asking if it’s always the same answer with you. It’s not like, ‘Zoe, why can’t you come to this event?’ ‘Oh, it’s because I’m gay.’”

[rp-meme-glaceon]

The Return of Unusual Questions

🌡- What television programs do you watch when you’re home sick?

🎂- What’s your opinion on over-the-top competition shows like Chopped or The Amazing Race?

🍖- How much food does it take to make you feel completely stuffed?

💐- Do you like aesthetic posts/blogs? What would you say your ‘Aesthetic’ is?

💃- Can you swing dance?

💎- What would it a suitor have to do to win your hand in marriage?

👻- Do you enjoy Halloween? What do you usually do during the holiday?

📬- How excited do you get when you get a letter addressed to you (that isn’t a bill or junk mail)?

🎞- Do you or your parents have any baby pictures?

📲- How often do you get texts/calls from your mother?

🗜- What’s the worst injury you’ve ever gotten? How bad was it?

☁️- Describe a dream you’ve had that’s always stuck with you.

🌜- What’s your favorite bedtime story/lullaby?

🍏- Is there something you refuse to eat no matter what?

☃️- What’s your opinion on snow days? Do you bundle up and play or it an opportunity to sleep in?

🦀- When you travel, do you like to try local cuisine and flavors? Or will you stay within your comfort zone?

💮- Have you ever been a ‘Good Samaritan’ to a total stranger or acquaintance? What happened?

👗- What outfit will you wear out on a date?

🅱️- Favorite meme?

🐺- If a witch cursed you, what creature do you think they’d turn you into?

[tmcries]

“so, like, i’m so excited to start making cute costumes for the plays! i hope we pick one soon” 

[rivxs]

"I hope so, as well. I’m very interested in seeing what you can do. Are you going to make the costumes for all of the shows at once or...?”

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

“Well, you know what they say! Different perspectives make for a great melting pot, don’t you think?” Becky asked, not waiting for an answer before continuing on. “I didn’t know, but that’s great to hear - I think it’s so important to show support for social welfare, government-run and otherwise.” She wasn’t really certain if that was the particular aspect of liberalism that Zoe was referring to, but chose to believe it must be.

“Who are ‘they’? That’s not rhetorical.” Zoe wondered if her communication skills were really that lacking. Rubbing her temples in frustration, she gave up on affability and said, “No, I don’t mean, like, government liberal or whatever you’re on about. I’m trying to explain that a lot of us are gay or otherwise LGBTQ. You bring up Jesus in literally every conversation. It’s weird and off-putting.”

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

“Oh, I’ve always loved it! Ever since I was Mary in my first Christmas pageant,” Becky enthused. “Why do you ask?”

Seeing as church had never done much to make her feel anything good, Zoe wanted to say, ‘What the actual fuck?’ However, she did not always listen to her first impulse. “Curiosity. We wound up with such different perspectives. You... know this is a pretty liberal theater, right?”

[rivxs]

degrassicam‌:

Cam blinked, a little surprised that Zoe genuinely wanted to take any time to teach him this stuff outside of work, much less several hours. “Okay, yeah, I’ll… get snacks on my break, I guess. I can… pick some up for you too, if you want?”

“No, no. You get or yourself what you need,” Zoe said. She would have liked having snacks brought, but there was power in being able to show restraint. Also she was pretty sure that stagehands did not make good money. “See you tonight.”

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

“No, I guess we can’t,” Becky agreed, noticing that Zoe hadn’t exactly answered her question. “That’s what I’m hoping we’ll have A Midsummer Night’s Dream and The Wizard of Oz for! Or maybe Brigadoon?”

Zoe was not motivated to push forward these choices (and puzzled about Brigadoon being proposed in particular), but that was mostly because she found Becky incredibly strange. “Where did you... get your interest in theater from again?”

[rivxs]

degrassicam‌:

“Hours?” Cam asked blanky. “Uh… not right now. I’m at work?” He pointed out, hoping Zoe wouldn’t be mad at him. “I wouldn’t mind if you wanted to tell me about it later, though…?” He added, scratching the back of his neck. 

“That’s fair, I guess,” Zoe said, kind of judging the guy for not wanting to actually know his shit as soon as possible. “Sure. After work, I’ll make sure that you get a crash course. Make sure you have enough snacks and stuff, though. It’s not going to be a brief experience.” 

[rivxs]

degrassicam‌:

Cam nodded at her suggestion - he had no idea what She Loves Me was beyond what the name suggested, but Zoe said it with such confidence that he was sure it had to be good, even if she likely wasn’t going to be voting for it. “What do you think I should vote for?” He asked, a little more interested now - it was true that he would need to vote for something, and at this point he didn’t have the slightest idea what. “Are there any shows people are talking about that you think would be good for the theater?” 

Well this was useful already. She had to consider what she wanted Cam to vote for. “I’d love to advise you on what to vote for, but it would make me feel better if you knew what you were getting into first,” Zoe said, concerned that i she did not nip this problem in the bud first, she might come back to a shitstorm. “I’m pretty sure Rent’s a sure thing by now, but we need to start your education. Come on, man. Do you have a few hours to spare?”

[rivxs]

curtaincallbb‌:

“I definitely do not think that,” Becky assured her, a relieved smile crossing her features as she realized she hadn’t upset Zoe after all. It didn’t appear that she’d fully gotten her point across either, but maybe that was just as well. “But anyway, enough about me. What show do you want us to put on this season?”

Zoe found Becky strange, and not in a good way. She decided it was probably best not to press on what exactly was worth judging about. “Oh, there’s a lot of good shows out there. Musicals and plays. I have strong opinions about so many, but there’s not just one or two shows that I would throw myself behind without question. So that’s why I’m asking around; trying to figure out what’s best to vote for. We can’t just have Grease all season long.”