— PAINTING WHITE FLAGS BLUE

☆ KIM AHYOUNG ( n. ) synonyms : blue of eclipse, kt's rising phoenix twenty five, main vocal, and a red hot spitfire ready to dominate the entertainment scene with her skills.

[rkgray]

// pancake dieting

@rkxblue

even when it should be much easier to meet another trainee or an idol from the same company, the reality was different most of the time. since everyone had different schedules in regards of training and practice, it was pretty hard to catch his friends. and even if he finally caught one of them, it was never guaranteed that they would be able to stop and take a moment to talk to him. which again made kt feel a little lonely sometimes, but that didn’t stopped him from trying to interact with his dear friends and colleagues, whenever there was a chance to.

and one of these chances had appeared, when he luckily caught sight of blue, who he jokingly called the first member of kt’s colour unit, during lunch time. with a big smile on his lips, he approached her. it’s been a good while, since they got to speak, but she seemed to be doing well. “hello, blue sunbae! nice to see you here. are you having lunch at the cafeteria?” the older man asked, before lifting up his lunchbag. “my mother made too much jeon for chuseok, so i am on a pancake diet right now. want to join me?”

[rkxblue]

call it an odd form of nostalgia to be in the cafeteria whenever she didn’t need to be -- the freedom that came with the idol schedule meant that even when she did come to the building to train, she didn’t have to eat lunch in the cafeteria ( versus when it was a standard back as a trainee, when it was easier to eat on campus so one could get back to training quicker afterwards ). ahyoung remembers the days of cursing the food and all who enjoyed it, especially since the food was hardly delectable despite being at the “best” entertainment company within the nation. but she’s looking for something different this time around -- while the other members order delivery for the twenty-seventh time in row, her taste buds were craving something different. so here she stands during their lunch break, wondering if it was worth it to see if the food had gotten better while she was away.

ears pick up upon her name being called while she stands a distance away from the cafeteria line, the grin upon her face growing wide once she puts a face to the deep timbre; greeting him with an enthusiastic salute of two fingers, “yo, mister gray man! long time no see!” though she wants to say she’s surprised that he’s still here, that he’s still putting up with the mess as she thinks about the whispers she’s heard about the nsg project -- makes her happy that she debuted whenever she did. “i don’t know, maybe? it’s been a while, thought i’d see if this shit is still ... shit, for old times’ sake.” she laughs, nice and warm, though it dies out as soon as he mentions jeon, eyes lighting up as if the universe existed within, “shit, for real? i love jeon! i tried to make my ma make extra for me but she just called me a greedy ass. i’d be honored to help you, in your quest to not become a pancake yourself, since you are what you eat after all ~” ahyoung jokes, bending at the waist with a dramatic bow. “what kind is though?”

[rkxblue]

rkariel​:

❝ gallery — ♡

          laughing at ahyoung’s reaction, hand reaching to poke at her roommate’s side, she mimics one of her favorite emojis to use these days: the thinking emoji. finger cradling her chin as she sits up, she hums, “ a puppy? really? i thought people tend to be the opposite of what they prefer most. so since i’m a dog person, do i act like a cat? that never made sense to me, you know. ” the taps to her head only make her laugh harder, shaking her head before swatting at ahyoung’s hand. “ my hair! ” though, especially when in the dorm, she doesn’t mind it at all. 

          “ of course i’m serious!” ariel whines, lips pulled into a pout as she reaches for ahyoung’s arm, tugging at it with a louder whine. “ why wouldn’t i be? if i thought we were allowed to go before, i would’ve gone to more schedules with all of you. i’m the best cheerleader, okay! best hype man, woman, person. if you joke about me being a puppy again, i’m gonna demand to be carried. but anyway, i will make sure they don’t even acknowledge me as an option because i’ll talk you up so much. besides, what idiot would ignore the absolute goddess you are? sounds fake! try again later    —   that’s just my impression of, like, a magic 8 ball or something. don’t actually try again later because it’ll be the same answer! ” 

          with a crinkle of her nose, she pushes at ahyoung’s shoulder before taking hold of them and shaking the main vocalist and top model of choice a little. emphasis on little because can’t jolt the model too much, right? what kind of hype woman would she be if she did? “ i’m not creepy! it’s just the truth! ” squealing loudly when ahyoung swats her butt, she pinches ahyoung’s side, eyes narrowing as she huffs. “ well, duh, you’re not modeling til you get there. ” is that borderline a dad joke? might as well be for how lame it is. “ uh … if they give you a basketball, maybe? i don’t know. i figured it’s more of a show off your long legs and pretty lean muscles because it’s impossible to miss, ” she grins. okay, maybe it is getting a little creepy but disclosing the reasons ariel thinks ahyoung is a perfect choice for it isn’t anything to be ashamed of. never. 

“wait, hold on, hold up. who told you that?” the woman questions, squinting her eyes and pursing her lips together in a rather perplexed expression -- because that was new. but at the same time, ahyoung does take a little bit of time to think about it, gaze raising to the ceiling in though, “but like ... you do look like a cat. you give me more regal cat vibes then dog. so you’d be a cat that’s been raised around dogs, so you have doggie behaviors! or maybe you’re a super outgoing cat.” and that’s probably fitting too -- a cat that the owners let them go in and out as she pleases because they know she will always come back home. the swat only causes her to pet at ariel’s head more, elongating the strokes to smooth out the soft tendrils, “your poodle hair is fine, girl -- oh my god, would you be a poodle? i don’t know what type of dog you’d be! or cat, but i don’t know cat breeds like that, so.”

she gives ariel a couple of blinks as she speaks, realizing the slight surprise that she’s feeling also gives her a sense of deja vu -- it reminds her back when eclipse was first formed and how she wasn’t used to the sudden attention she was getting from the leader. but instead of dwelling upon the memory ( which makes her laugh now, considering how close they are ) she instead joins in ariel’s behavior, harmonizing with her whine as she swings her arm between them. “because,” she starts with such conviction, as if that’s a reasonable answer to a question. and she leaves it at that, letting silence hang before she continues, “okay but for real though, why would i say no? you could just shove yourself in the van before we leave and i’d be cool, you know that. and you are a puppy! you gotta do a trick to get a treat like carrying!” she mentions with a nod, “sssh, you always say that! i could grow big ass hairy mole right on my lip and you’d say how i still look heavenly without it -- now that sounds fake, you try again!” and the end is punctuated with the way she sticks her tongue out like a child.

ahyoung’s eyes widen as she jolted within ariel’s grasp, letting her neck go limp and her head bobbles back and forth rather dramatically with every shake. “you are creepy! you’re a creepy crawler! a spooky scary skeleton!” though the last bit comes from part of a song that’s now stuck inside of her head, almost distracting her from the conversation at hand. jumping at the pinch with a like yelp, she uses her teeth to nip at the air between them, as if she’s going to bite the other before continuing, “hey! i thought i was the dad of the group. you’re the mom, so you gotta stick to like ... mom jokes. what kind of jokes do moms make? something about like ... bathtubs?” there’s no thought at all that comes with her answer, laughing at her own stupidity, “hey! there you go being creepy again ~ that doesn’t help, and it’s like ... an outdoorsy shit brand. that means i gotta do outdoorsy shit. and i don’t know how to pose for outdoorsy shit. maybe they’ll give me a spear and i gotta pose like i’m hunting,” and she goes to mimic what’s in her mind again, curling her hand as if she’s holding one before she chucks it out the door.

[rkxblue]

rkariel​:

❝ red flavor — ♡

          that ahyoung never seems to mind or particularly dislike ariel’s antics is one of countless reasons why they’re such compatible roommates. she’d said and thought it time and time again in the past, even now, but it truly is a shame they didn’t become closer til moving into the dorm. more than constant companionship and the need to be closer out of intimate proximity, ariel couldn’t possibly list all the ways she and ahyoung compliment each other so well. this just happens to be one of the best reasons that ariel is especially fond of   —   she could count on the other members for the same thing but something about being the same age, about being almost equal amounts of shameless ( because ahyoung has her beat in some areas ) makes it that much easier to be so carefree. “ of course they’re that good. i’d be offended and deeply, deeply hurt if that didn’t make you an even better roommate. i know you wouldn’t steal the last one away and not tell me. ” again, so many other reasons but could she include this in compatibility? hm, well besides the point though. 

         “ oh   —   did you read my mind? did we finally do it? i swear, that little box in our room has psychic powers! ” course, she knows it’s more so that he happens to know when to message them and ariel loves seeing the way ahyoung’s face changes whenever a message comes through for her. their relationship is so cute ariel nearly forgets that it’s weird to imagine him as anything but a squishy teddy bear. but ahyoung is one too in her own way and thus begins an oddly managed circle of thought in ariel’s mind. “ but my sweet sugar honey lemon pie, ” she exclaims, no rhyme or reason to the sequence. “ that’s precisely what i was thinking. we deserve it. although, okay, if you go on about a decent drink, i’m gonna have to interfere there. as a prior bartender, you’re hurting my pride. still, street food and soju … what a classic. so what’ll it be? ” half of her is dying to invite naeun out with them to have a ‘ proper drink ‘ but this last minute is harder to manage for members in the same group, let alone different ones in dorms much further apart. 

ahyoung has always had a small, innate need to be rebellious. while it was more pronounced during her younger years, most of the rough edges smoothed out by training and the promise of debut, there’s a flame that still lies within her that could never really be smothered. and it shows itself within ways that are almost trivial; such as the words that leave her mouth after ariel talks about being a great roommate. “nuh uh, now just because you said that i’m gonna let you eat your whole stash up and wait until you have one left -- and then i’m gonna take a hefty bite out it. then put it back in the wrapper for you to find.” note that trivial was the key word, and she knows how childish she sounds with the way her grin grows so wide.

but as soon as ariel mentions psychic powers, ahyoung is the one pointing at her with an index finger with an smug, knowing nod and grin. as expected, from someone she calls her girlfriend -- but what she wasn’t expecting what the vague hint of her boyfriend as well, and it’s enough for her to straighten up with a “yah,” though it’s more in surprise than anything else, a hand moving backwards to swat the smaller girl at her side, “what does the box have to do with anything! unless it told you something i didn’t know. or did but didn’t know it was telling you ... whatever!” she’s sure ariel would have got the point by now -- she should, considering how she’s fluent in not making sense and the other just rolls with it a lot of the time. it seems that they’ve traded places with that in this current situation though, the sweet talk coming out of nowhere -- ahyoung wants to comment on it but she’s too distracted at the revelation of the leader’s previous occupation, eyes practically popping out of their sockets as she fully turns her body towards the other, “what the fuck! how come you’ve never told me that before, huh? a whole ass bartender, and you’ve never made me a drink!” cue a dramatic gasp that has her cocking her head back, and she continues, “i am -- shocked, hurt and betrayed right now! look at this! my heart, it hurts!” she whines, pointing to her heart with a pout, but a switch is flipped and she’s back to normal in a couple of seconds, “anyways, yeah! please, lets go out to eat and get fresh air and shit! and then we can go to the store and get some shit so you can make some drinks to make up for your sinful deception.”

[rkxblue]

sacreblue  i’ve gone too long with out drawing or painting and didn’t feel like myself ㅋㅋㅋ our azaelia ( it feels so good to say that 🥰 ), what do you think?? i did it all myself, no photoshop!!! all hands!!!! does it look good???? is it the worst thing you’ve ever seen???????? if you answer is the latter you will receive punishment by feather 😠😂🤪 i hope you’re finding some hobbies for yourself too!! if you have fun or if it’s relaxing, that’s all that matters !!!! yeah !!

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[rkariel]

❝ red flavor — ♡

          ariel barely waits for ahyoung to answer her before she’s dashing towards her roommate’s back, latching on from behind, arms encircling the other’s neck as she leans in til her chin’s on their shoulder. “ pssst, ” she whispers, knowing damn well no one is around and yet she demands the secrecy if only for the dramatics of it all. “ wanna sneak out to the convenience store with me? i’m running out of chocopies. i thought i had more! ” 

          then again, she does say all of the girls are welcome to her snacks and it just so happens that ariel loses track of her own chocopie indulgences. what’s numbers when it comes to happiness in a well-balanced bite of chocolate, marshmallow, and … does it could as a cookie? graham cracker? hm … anyway   —   “ my treat. i insist. besides, i— ” 

          saying it aloud is weird. she has an audition again and as excited as she is, does it mean she’s not spending enough time with the girls? how many nights does she get like this? how many more do they have in a lifetime? no, not the time to spiral down, ariel. what are you doing? with a subtle shake of her head, she bounces her chin lightly against ahyoung’s shoulder. “ actually … i’m kinda craving something else. should we go on an adventure? ” ( @rkxblue ) 

[rkxblue]

she should of prepared herself the moment she heard the thumps of footsteps rapidly heading her way, should have known something was going to go down, but she was too focused on the text conversation with a certain someone about why horses were probably manmade creatures of chaos ( listen. she has been working on this for a while and has connected all the dots, okay ) to realize before it was too late. ariel truly isn’t that much smaller than her but ahyoung likes to pretend anyways, letting out a “hak!” once lithe arms around trapped around her neck, slightly bending her knees so that ariel has a better time upon her chin. “chocopies?” she questions, leaning her head back until it hits the other girl’s shoulder -- not exactly comfortable, but at the time it seemed like a decent idea. “you’re like, mega obsessed with those things. you gotta always keep a stack around? are they even that good?”

because she’s just as much as a snack fiend as the rest of the girls in the group, but choco pies have never really stuck out to her all that much -- ahyoung is sure she’s tried it a handful of times, but the taste never commits to memory for her to want more, weirdly enough. opening her mouth to say more, lips only remain parted because it’s ariel that starts speaking first, and she notices the interruption and the way silence hangs in the air. “besides what?” she questions, lifting her head back up to blink at the leader with curious eyes, especially whenever she decides to change course rather suddenly. but then again, she’s not the type to pry all that much when it doesn’t seem like a big deal. “what, what, like what? what kind of adventure? can we get street food instead? or fuck it, anything that requires soju? do you know how long it’s been since i’ve had a decent drink? jesus christ ...” and a free hand lightly slaps at her cheek, rubbing it downwards at the lack of alcohol in her life.

[rkariel]

❝ gallery — ♡

          it’s just the day before ahyoung is meant to take photos for lafuma and ariel goes into their shared room to plop herself right across ahyoung’s stomach as she’s laying on her own bed. “ hi, ” she grins, propping herself up on her elbows to look up at her roommate. “ take me with you tomorrow, ” she whines. more than not having a schedule of her own, she wants to see the others along on theirs. as back-up, as support, as a cheerleader even. besides, seeing model ahyoung sounds like a good story for jinki and so she wants to take all the pictures behind the scenes possible. 

          “ come on! don’t you want to take me along? i’ll even ask for you ~ ” not that their manager is scary. ariel adores her, but her word can be pretty final in a way that even ariel doesn’t like to question if she doesn’t have to. after all, she just wants the best for eclipse, which is something they all undoubtedly want too. “ i heard you’re modeling sports wear. i really want to see that, ” she snickers, getting up from laying on ahyoung and sitting on the edge of the bed. “ are you excited for it? ” ( @rkxblue ) 

[rkxblue]

in all honesty, it’s a little embarrassing that the other walked in upon ahyoung doing basically nothing -- staring into the ceiling rather blankly, nothing going on within in her mind even though it looks like she’s concentrating, zoned out to the world and her surroundings. it’s also embarassing that she doesn’t know how long she’s been this way, but luckily ariel’s presence is heard thanks to the sound of light footsteps entering the room, so she isn’t too surprised when their leader ends up landing upon her -- literally. and naturally the dramatics kick in, arms and legs flying upwards after ariel’s “impact”, the girl letting out an ‘oof’ even though the other was hardly heavy. “you wanna go with me? you kind of sound and act like a puppy put into a human’s body. is that your true identity, ariel? are you a puppy?” and ahyoung makes sure to give her a couple of “pets” -- taps on the head -- for good measure before she’s laughing.

“wait, you’re serious?” propping herself upon her elbows, she’s gazing at her roommate with raised eyebrows. not that she would have anything against ariel going with her -- hell, that actually might make her more comfortable than she realizes -- it’s just something that she hasn’t really thought about before. “no ~ what if i walk in there with you and i’m doing bad and they look at you and are like ‘hey you get in there instead’ and i have to walk home because i have brought shame to the eclipse name! huh! all because you decided to do your little eye smile thingie at the camera man when you gave him some water!” so far off the realm of possibility, put ahyoung is pointing a finger at her with her head tilted back, but it’s not too long before the grin finds her way upon her face once more. “hey hey! stop sounding creepy! that’s also why you can’t come, you like my body too much,” she jokes, moving to swat ariel’s butt with a loud pop that rings within the air, “i don’t know ... it just kinda doesn’t feel real? like they told me but i don’t really like, model and stuff, so it feels fake, i gotta wake up tomorrow and then i think i’ll feel nervous and shit. like how do even pose for sports shit? do i gotta look like a basketball player?” the woman questions, suddenly sitting up to move her arms rather awkwardly, as if she’s cradling a baskeball and shooting it.

[dailygsdgifs]

bang bang 🔫

[rkxblue]

@rkyeri replied to your photoset “sacreblue  behind the scenes look on my concept photo photoshoot!...”

yericlipse: the flowers are pretty but what's the name of the flower in the center 😍

sacreblue: @yericlipse LISTEN when did u get so smooth!!!!! where di that come from!!!!!!!! i’m hardly a flower the make up unnie just did a fantastic job!!!!!

[rkxblue]

rkyeri​:

— sunrise

the other girls love her and adore her, and she already knows that they’ll always praise her and tell her she’s pretty and talented no matter what. and she would do the same for any of the other eclipse members. and yes she may be a little biased but she doesn’t feel like it’s unwarranted. she sees it, and the fans see it, and now with their rising popularity she’s sure that the general public sees it as well, and if the public sees it then doesn’t that mean even katie lee would put more faith into them as well? but sometimes she still feels like maybe they say that because they’re biased and because they like her, but she supposes she’ll take it anyways. “that’s a big lie! you know i wouldn’t look good with mud on my face! although…do you think they’ll make us do that one day? like an army concept with mud on our faces?” as much as she thinks that might be kind of gross, she also feels like it would be fun and different, and that the makeup artists will make them look cool and pretty. “i bet you would look great in that concept! i heard that you have a lot of male fans! last time we performed i heard so many of them cheering for you. they would probably love that!”

she waves off the other girl’s concerns with a gentle flick of the hand and a wide smile. “and you’ve heard all my cracks too! and my face without makeup in the morning! and that time i fell on my butt trying to do the choreography with the mic stands, remember? but you’re going to be great! i hear you hit the notes more often than not.” yeri laughs as she watches ahyoung through the mirror, clapping her hands lightheartedly. “you’re perfect for the part! the ‘welcome to my dream world’ part should be your’s. maybe we can switch? i’ll do the high note.” she attempts it, but it comes out more like a hushed scream than anything, careful not to disturb the other members or the staff this early in the morning. “or on second thought…maybe it would be best for me not to do that.”

“an army concept?” she questions the other before trying to visualize the entire group in combat uniforms, attempting to look tough with soot smeared on their faces and stomping around in heavy boots -- the thought of it causes her to chuckle, “nah. i get that we’re like, an out there girl group and all but i doubt that kt would like that fly, y’know? the only kind of army concept i see us doing is us wearing the pretty formal uniforms though, kind of like chi chi?” and she taps her chin in thought -- now that would be a concept she wouldn’t mind doing, “and i could see you going on real men. though like, on some real shit? that’s one of the shows i’d be scared as hell to go on -- it looks super intense.” and she stops talking because ahyoung remembers they’re not at their dorm, and she doesn’t want to seem like she’s talking down on the show when she wants to say that it doesn’t look fun either, doesn’t see the appeal in it. “male fans? wouldn’t they want to see us looking pretty instead of grungy and dirty? i’m sure they’re waiting for us to do like ... a sexy concept or something. not gonna lie, i’m waiting for that too.” 

and as yeri speaks, it really causes the girl to wonder if this feeling of overwhelming support was normal for groups in general. with the way training went, with that underlying feel of constant competition between the trainees, she felt like being in a group was something of the same thing. it’s so comforting that eclipse is completely different than that, and the way her grin softens reflects that as well. “thanks. i’ve come a long way with working on high notes so while i was stoked they picked me to do it, it’s still ... a lot pressure. gotta make sure i don’t embarrass everyone and become viral for the wrong reasons,” ahyoung laughs it off but even the thought of it made her want to practice again -- just in case. it’s yeri’s broken note that causes her to laugh out loud, completely distracted by her charm to even focus upon the thought further. “you could just lip sync and do it all exxagerated and people would just go with it! like it’s part of the performance and stuff,” she says, hand rasing to cover an ear while she closes her eyes and thrashes her head around wildly, lips parted as if she was singing -- though it quickly comes to a halt as she attempts to fix her hair, not wanting to stylist to yell at her for messing it up so quickly. “and i’ll take that and being in the front for the dances. don’t know about you, but that sounds like a good trade to me! come on!” she says, extending her pinky finger in the air as if it were a real deal. 

[rkxblue]

sacreblue  behind the scenes look on my concept photo photoshoot! ooooh ~ very simple, yet effective -- kind of ... like me, right? no??? yes???? maybe??????? but there was more to it than just this, don’t worry everyone ㅋㅋㅋ  i felt like a spring goddess surrounded by those flowers, which was weird for me so i was a little awkward but the photo turned out nice ㅋ lets give it another go!! maybe!! one day!! i’ll be better, i think!! 😅😅😅 45 MINUTES AGO

[rkariel]

❝ rhythm — ♡

          “ have you tried playing our songs on hard? ” it’s a random question, she knows, but no matter where they are, if there’s spare time to fill and her hands are particularly restless, she can’t help but open the superstar app. proud that her highest records are for chichi, unit black, and themselves, she only wants to aim higher and higher. “ do you think i could try for the world record if i master the songs on hard? they make it so easy to get points on easy and regular though … ” that, and her precision, especially when she’s too excited or her hand slips, suffers from time to time. 

          “ good night is fun to play, do you want to try? ” holding her phone up and shaking it gently, she grins as she looks over to ahyoung, resting her head on her roommate’s shoulder. the waiting room doesn’t feel too stuffy today but that only makes it easier for her eyelids to droop, especially as she nestles against ahyoung, nudging her leg against theirs. “ i’ll forgive you if you mess with my record, ” she teases, though she’s not pressed about it, tapping freshly manicured nails against the back of her phone. luckily, she has more than enough earphones to keep playing. actually, she might have too many. ( @rkxblue ) 

[rkxblue]

“you know damn well i play all games on easy only,” the girl says with a grin, dipping her voice at the curse word so that it was easy enough for them to hear only -- it’s something that’s becoming more effortless and honed as time goes on, the code switching and knowing how to be “off” and “on” at this point. ahyoung wasn’t much of a rhythm games kind of person to begin with, too easily distracted to focus upon tapping at the right time, “i feel like you’d need 15 fingers to master the hard stuff. but wait ... there’s a world record? hasn’t the game only been out for like, a couple of months?” it was around the beginning of the year that they recorded the commercial for it, right? these days every waking day blends into another, the only record of time would be the changing of leaves and varying temperature. “how does that even happen? where do they live? how many more hours in the day do they have and why don’t we? i wanna speak to the manager of earth!” she raises her voice slightly, pounding a thigh with her fist.

ahyoung ends up shaking her head at the other’s request, adjusting her body slightly so that the other was more comfortable upon her shoulder. “it’s scary. you watching would be too much pressure -- gonna get performance anxiety and shit,” and she lets the words tumble out of her mouth without much of a thought, and it take a couple of seconds before she’s turning to ariel and giving her eyebrows a wiggle or two at the slight innuendo with a grin. “ooh! let me live through you though! i used to do that with my baby brother -- he was the one that was like, naturally gifted at video games so we’d both sit in front of the tv and he would play and i’d be moral support,” and it’s something in her grin that grows soft at the thought, tilting her head downward to look at the phone and give it a couple of taps within the other’s hands, gazing at the menu, “you can do it on hard! i bet you love doing it hard, huh?” and the stupidity doesn’t last even a second before she’s bursting out into laughter, a hand covering glossed lips to stifle the noise.

[rkyeri-deactivated20210516]

— sunrise

@rkxblue

she barely gets any sleep the day before a comeback, staying up all night in the dance studio to perfect the choreography, taking video after video of herself and checking it carefully, cleaning the tiny little parts that needed fixing, making sure that she only shows the best sides of herself for the stage the next day. not that she would admit it ( even to herself ), but she feely wholly inadequate in her role as a main dancer sometimes, and even though it’s been a while now, there are moments where she still can’t shake the feeling that she became main dancer only because she was the best option left, like a consolation prize that said “congrats you were the second best.”

and she’s sure some people think that way too, and instead of feeling bad for herself ( which she did do for the first few weeks or so ) she makes sure everything is perfect, so no one can say anything about her dancing abilities.

which unfortunately means that she’s practically falling asleep at the make up chair, sitting up straight as one person curls her hair and one person puts a burnt wooden stick dangerously close to her eyelashes. finally she gets some breathing room as they all step away to get other tools, and yeri catches ahyoung’s eyes in the mirror, eyes blinking sleepily as she tries to stay awake. “ahyoung!” she tries to sound like her usual excited and bubbly self, but a yawn slips out anyways. “am i pretty?” she smiles, reaching up to rub her eyes but stopping herself last minute when she remembers how much makeup she has on. “you look pretty as always! i’m excited for your high note! i looked at some of the comments online and people said that you sounded so good, as expected from our main vocal.”

[rkxblue]

you would expect the nerves would get better with time, with every comeback that they go through at this point -- because it’s already been a full year since eclipse’s debut, and it’s something ahyoung can’t believe. still classified as rookies, but no longer blushing babes with rosy cheeks hiding behind katie lee. it’s something crazy to think about, in her opinion, because she still feels like a lost kid within a big world, still wide eyed at the behind the scene things that happen amongst music shows, variety shows, the technicalities and work that truly goes into making entertainment happen that isn’t really shown behind a large screen. 

a light tone ends up distracting her from her thoughts as her eyes absentmindedly meet yeri’s own, and ahyoung already knows well enough that once you’re in the other’s line of sight, it’s hard to get away from it ( as if ahyoung would even want that in the first place, honestly ). laughter bubbles from the girls throat and becomes audible past glossy lips, feeling like she’s finally able to breath as the make up artist steps away for a brief moment, most likely looking for a different palette to use upon her face. “yeri, even if you had mud splotches all over your face you couldn't look ugly. you were born pretty,” she says with a nod, softer than usual due to how early the time was, but she pulls her grin into something energetic that matches the other’s mood. leave it their baby to lift spirits up, whether she means to or not. “you’ve heard all my high notes and cracks and fails fifty times though!” naturally, though this is the first time it would probably be heard live -- although it’s something ahyoung isn’t trying to think about right now. y’know, nerves and stuff. “hey, stop buttering me up and lying! i don’t think people will be paying too much attention to men anyway when you’ll be right in the front stealing the show. that piecing gaze though,” she says, tilting her head down in attempt to mimick one of yeri’s expressions that she’s constantly seen reflecting through large mirrors before her amused smile pierces through the facade, “how would anyone be able to look away?”

[rkxblue]

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sacreblue  my brother found these photos on an old hard drive at home and ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ i really want to know why my mom allowed me to go outside looking like this ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ i really thought i was doing something with that blazer and tie look ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ ah, send help 30 MINUTES AGO

[rkxblue]

rkyeri​:

— midnight snack

“a potato sack!” she appreciates the sentiment, but she disagrees. maybe if she was taller she would be able to pull off anything, but she was cursed with an unfortunate height of ( barely ) 160 centimeters, and sometimes people will try and tell her it’s cute but she knows that if any girl has the choice they would want to be at least 165 centimeters. when things are too bit they look like they absolutely swallow her. “i don’t think so! it must be nice to be tall…what is it like?” yeri looks up at ahyoung expectantly, half waiting for an answer because she knows it’s a ridiculous questions but she still wants to know. not that ahyoung is so tall but she’s always thought that the other girl was perfect height — tall enough to be pretty but short enough to still be considered cute, and with a pretty face too. “i think people would love to see you in bear pajamas though. they would probably make posters of it and put them in the subway on your birthday, and we could go visit them and take pictures.” they could do any number of things, provided that their manager actually lets them, but maybe if they beg her enough she’ll give in. “let’s get everything! we can get the stuff that doesn’t go bad and hide it for when we get hungry next time!” she thinks it’s a brilliant plan. yeunhye on the other hand probably wouldn’t go for it, but what she doesn’t know won’t kill her.

she walks out casually, hands in her pockets, nothing but her phone and her credit card with her, walking the familiar way out of their dorm and into the night air. “me too! i guess this is our lives now though — twenty something years old and still looking for permission to go places.” yeri knew it would be like this, but she can’t help sighing anyways.

there’s something about the way yeri sounds so taken aback by her words that causes her to laugh, light and airy and not too loud considering the quiet nature of the dorm at the moment. “hell yeah a potato sack! you gotta believe in the power of kim yerim -- you could pull off anything, and i’m being like so super serious right now,” she says, punctuating her sentence with a couple of nods. but then again, ahyoung was a known member of the ‘yeri can do no wrong’ group, if not already the president of the group ( most likely a title she would have to fight for between ariel and other people, she’s sure. ) “yah, i’m hardly that tall!” and there’s laughter strewn within her words again, hand reaching out to lightly pat the girl on the top of her head, “the only difference in us is that i can see the top shelf in the fridge and you can’t. not that much of an upside in all that, y’know. besides long legs.” and she does stick out her leg and gives it a little shake, as if she couldn’t see it before. “that’d be awful! i woudln’t want the image of me looking haggard as fuck posted everywhere for me to see! at least not without a sponsorship or two so i’m at least getting some stacks for my pain.” now that she wouldn’t mind looking ugly for. but fans taking the picture and spreading it around seemed only natural, so she at least looks decent if someone decides to snap them in their natural habitat. “hey, i’m down for a secret snack ... hole? snack pack? snack spot -- yeah, that’s it! i’m down for a snack spot. i’m sure there’s already 50 of them in the dorm anyway between all of us. yeunhye-unnie probably has one too, she just doesn’t say anything about it.” she’s so sure of that, somehow.

“god,” ahyoung mentions at the younger’s words, running her hands through her hair at the idea of it, “you put it that way and it’s sad as fuck. i didn’t think that i’d still be treated like a 16 year old when i’m near my damn thirties,” she smiles because it’s amusing, laughable when you think about it, “and i get it, maintaining images and safety and all but i feel like a caged bird! ya girl is suffocating in there sometimes!” the older mentions, stretching her arms as she pulls at the strands of her hair, making them stand before she’s laughing again.

[rkseunghun-deactivated20210425]

       ・・ •  •  TRC FLYER THREE.  for @rkxblue .

taking a sip of the cold mango juice he bought a few minutes ago, seunghun keeps reminding himself that soon enough this will be over and he will be able to return to the company and lock himself inside one of the studios and work quietly, but to achieve this small goal he can take breaks every fifteen minutes because of the hot weather, so he closes the bottle, throws it inside his backpack and turns his attention back to the people walking on the street. 

that’s when he spots this beautiful girl whose face looks familiar but he wouldn’t know to tell where he saw her before. maybe he doesn’t know much about the idol world, but she looked like a celebrity – well, maybe she was one. the certainty doesn’t stop him from approaching her with a polite smile, because in case he was wrong, he was confident trc would be interested in her. “hey, excuse me!” he bows with a grin. “i don’t think you need this, but would you take one of these? it’s from trc entertainment,” he hands out the flyer. 

[rkxblue]

she probably shouldn’t be out and about roaming about like this, especially when eclipse have locked down for comeback mode. she shouldn’t, yet every time the walls started to feel more like a cell caging her in, she needs to get out. she isn’t sure who she tells that she’s going for a restroom break -- or maybe just a regular break, whatever -- but it should of been clear where she wasn’t headed as she slips on an oversized slouching beanie and tucks her dark locks within, shielded from the outside world and unable to revel in the sun’s rays once she’s outside of the building, soaking it in ask she walks to a convenience store.

so color her surprised when someone actually walks up to her, the shock evident in the way it colors her face, raising her eyebrows and how her attention snaps over to the man in question. though when he speaks the confusion slowly melts away into a fond smile that plays upon her lips -- because damn, how long has it been since she’s even heard about company flyers, let alone even given one. “oh, you’re sh--” sharp as hell, ahyoung is about to say, but forgets she can’t talk that way in front of randos like that anymore, “--very sharp, i’ll give you that. new trainee?” she questions while grasping the piece of paper, not bothering to look at it, “thanks for the flyer, and congrats! or good luck! whichever fits best, you know!”