NEL

Nelly Collins, 17. ''There are no unwanted children. Just unfound families.''

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‘’So, what did I miss?’’

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kyliiebrown:

“Honestly Nel, what is going on? I can hear you from across the street.”

‘’U-um, it’s nothing. It’s just that one person needs to give me something I paid for.’’ 

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“I swear to fucking god if you don’t give me–…” She saw the person coming into the room and let out a big sigh. “I’ll call you later.” She whispered, hanging the phone.

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kyliiebrown:

“Good job”

‘’Seriously?’’

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ftwarya:

“What the—- I swear to god, Collins, you’re clumsy as fuck!”

‘’I didn’t see you, okay Scaletta?’’

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mimosano:

‘’Oh my god, are you okay?’’ Nel amazed, put her hands on her mouth.

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danejfc:

‘’I am sorry, I just didn’t see you.’’

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‘’     Oh, shit.’’ 

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prestonrd:

“Drugs should be the furthest thing to help you, Nelly. I know you’re going through a lot, alright? But, seriously, behaving like this and resulting to drugs isn’t something you should be doing. And —what, now you’re trying to drop me and everyone else that cares about you by telling us you “don’t know if we could be friends”? That’s ridiculous.”

‘’And what is going to help me? What? I have no one, Pres. Nobody loves me, what’s the point of living my life? It’s all my fault that my father killed my mother and.. and..’’ She bit her lip, trying to stop the tears. ‘’I hate to be like this. Weak as hell, but that’s how I feel most of the time.’’ Nel sat on the floor and put her hands on her head. ‘’If you still love me even a little, stay away from me.’’ 

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ftwarya:

“— First of all..” she started by flicking her forehead as to make her realize who she was talking to. “..don’t talk so close to my face.” she hissed and pushed the other’s shoulder. “And second– I don’t need to save your fucking ass. Go ahead and rot— let the guilt kill you but at least have some dignity to admit that there are people who want to help you.”

Nel pushed her shoulder too. ‘’Don’t fuckin’ touch me, Arya. Be careful what you are talking about my psycho father, okay and I won’t talk so close to your face again. Wait, I can’t remember asking you for a help? It’s my deal what I am going to do and I don’t care if there are some losers wanting to help me. Yes, they are losers, because nothing or nobody is going to stop me.’’

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kyliiebrown:

Shit are you okay Nel?

‘’Yes, I’ll be okay.’’ She said and cleaned the blood.

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josie-here:

“- yeah your nose is bleeding. As if that wasn’t obvious.”

Nel cleaned the blood that was coming out from her nose and looked at the girl. ‘’I am not blind.’’

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ftwarya:

“Believe me I know more than you expect, Nel. It’s because of— …It’s not because of you are you fucking stupid? It’s because your dad is a fucking psycho.. I’m sorry if you ,by any chance, still love and care about this man but he obviously has problems. Your mom is dead because your dad is a sick bastard of a man, Nel– it’s not because of you. Your life’s over? Excuse my french but your head is fucking empty— you’re breathing and you have so much people behind your back ready to help you. But you’re too damn deep in your hole to actually see and I want you out before you fucking ruin yourself!”

‘’Then prove it, please. If you know that much why don’t you just tell me what the fuck do you know?’’ Listening to Arya was making the pain even harder for Nelly. ‘’Could you please stop talking like that about my fuckin’ father? I know that he is a psycho and loving him is the last thing I am thinking of right now. It’s my fault.. Because.. It doesn’t matter why. I don’t think I want to get out of my hole and it’s my choice how to live my life, okay? If I want to die, then nothing could stop me to kill myself, right? So now do yourself a favor and take care of yourself not of me.’’

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nicholaswtfx:

“I really don’t know what you’re talking about.”

‘’J-Just forget about it, okay? It’s n-nothing.’’

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prestonrd:

“See, this is what I was talking about. All you do is yell at me, so I was trying to avoid you doing so —but that obviously didn’t work out.” Seeing her hit the table made Preston roll his eyes. “For goodness’ sake, do you not hear yourself right now? Can’t you see what the drugs are doing to you? This should be all the more reason to stop taking them.”

‘’What else should I do? Don’t fuckin’ roll your eyes, okay?’’ Hearing what were his next words, pissed her off. ‘’It’s not because of the drugs, Preston. I am dying inside, okay? The guilty is following me everywhere and the only thing that helps me - it’s drugs. I think you’re too late...’’ She looked down and took a deep breath. ‘’I don’t know if we could be friends anymore.’’ 

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sophiaxwright:

“Um don’t you think you should be going to a bathroom or something to stop that?”

She took a tissue and cleaned the blood coming from her nose. ‘’I am fine.’’ 

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ftwarya:

“No, I won’t listen before you start listening to yourself— I know it hurts and I know you want desperately to make the pain go away. I know, okay? But drugs won’t make it fade away– it’s only making it worse, Nel! Can you even hear yourself? They will help you for fuck’s sake! They won’t let you snort your life away! What are you aiming for, really? You want to get it back to your father by.. what– killing yourself?— Because that’s exactly what you’re doing right now. ”

‘’You, you know nothing, Arya. What you’ve been through, tell me!? My fuckin’ dad killed my mother, Arya. He killed her and it’s because of me and now everyone knows, okay?! With my life - it’s over. I have no one, don’t you understand that? The jail will get it back to my father - not me. And what do you care if I am killing myself?!’’