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[rlysean]

Sleep with me tonight? I had trouble last night and yeah.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

Of course I will, I meant my promise. I’m not going anywhere until you tell me.

[rlysean]

Thanks. [smiles slightly]

[rlysean]

You’re not. I do need one favor, though.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

Well then we’re going to pretend I am. What’s the favor?

[rlysean]

Sleep with me tonight? I had trouble last night and yeah.

[rlysean]

I’m sorry.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

It’s whatever. Don’t apologize, I’m fine.

[rlysean]

You're not. I do need one favor, though.

[rlysean]

Do you know what I mean? Like, I’m sorry I don’t mean to hurt you but I really need to think things through. Abby’s mom has me in charge of a bunch of things, I can’t let her down.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

I just don’t want you to push me away and something bad happen to you. I get it, you have things to do. I’m not hurt, I don’t get hurt. You won’t let anyone down, if you need help you know where to find me.

[rlysean]

I'm sorry.

[rlysean]

Ariel, I need time, alone.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

[nods her head still not looking at him] Right. 

[rlysean]

Do you know what I mean? Like, I'm sorry I don't mean to hurt you but I really need to think things through. Abby's mom has me in charge of a bunch of things, I can't let her down.

[rlysean]

I want her back. That’s it.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

[Looks away from him, staying quiet]

[rlysean]

Ariel, I need time, alone.

[rlysean]

I don’t either.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

I’m trying… Do you want to do something to attempt to get your mind off of it?

[rlysean]

I want her back. That's it.

[rlysean]

And how do you expect me to think? Did you just lose someone you love?

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

I don’t know. No, I didn’t loose someone I loved. I just - I don’t know what you want me to say.

[rlysean]

I don't either.

[maggiesbae-deactivated20150326]

Sean w-what’s wrong?

[rlysean]

Abby died.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

You’re not thinking straight.

[rlysean]

And how do you expect me to think? Did you just lose someone you love?

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

Don’t say that.. You don’t mean it, you’re just.. You’re just upset

[rlysean]

I've never been more serious.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

I’m -uh sorry, won’t do that again. It shouldn’t of been either of you. You can’t blame yourself for something like this.

[rlysean]

I wish it was me.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

Relax, we are only talking. You shouldn’t blame yourself, things happen and it isn’t your fault. It isn’t like she or you knew it would of happened. Just because she went to pick you up as a surprise doesn’t mean it’s your fault.

[rlysean]

Don't tell me to fucking relax, Ariel. It should have been me.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

Come here.

You didn’t do anything, it isn’t your fault. Things happen to good people and we can’t change that. You shouldn’t blame yourself.

[rlysean]

I did! It's my fucking fault. She went to pick me up at the airport the day I came back from Ireland, as a surprise. She never made it. 

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

She… Sean, I’m sorry…

[rlysean]

Don't, you didn't do anything. It's my fault.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

I - I don’t know. I don’t know what happened. Talk to me, what happened?

[rlysean]

Abby died, Ariel! She's gone.

[ariel-roth-deactivated20140720]

Don’t cry or be sad. I don’t know what you’re tlking about but don’t do that.

[rlysean]

How do you expect me not to cry or be sad after what happened!?