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this is my unhinged woman space

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also if I was not sick I would be booking a weekend ticket to Wroclaw however unfortunately...

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although thinking abt it I kind of want to go to their Christmas market this yr....

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also if I was not sick I would be booking a weekend ticket to Wroclaw however unfortunately...

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I think one of my big issues here is that bc my housemates are so awful I cannot create and I cannot bake and so all the anxiety is just building up in my hands and arms

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went to gym today and lifted weights and then went on the bike and walked on the treadmill til I got bored and then snuck into the pool to swim 1000m sneakily. and like 90% of it gave me these horrible fatigue waves that just pulsed through until they went

tired to the bone now :(

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as an aside the beta blockers r hitting so diff I dgaf about anything or anything and I can't go outside if its over 23 degrees

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a lot of people on this website are actually really stupid

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can tell my brain is pruning memories lately bc I keep remembering routes I walked once and people I haven’t spoken to in over a decade

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diagnosis time :o)

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I need to quit my fucking job but I need the job for my health insurance and my visa

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going to have Deliveroo for probably the last time n then watch the Pitt while I put away laundry and have a big shower and then tomorrow is a new day

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as a chronic listener in many ways I think listening is a dying art

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something abt my housemate who thinks she is very smart and looks down on people she sees as lesser i have noticed lately is how much she loves the sound of her own voice but she is never rlly saying anything much. just talking so she’s heard and others aren’t

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so overstimulated by life rn im melting down lush massage bars in the bathroom

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nvm decided I’m dying again

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so overstimulated by life rn im melting down lush massage bars in the bathroom

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Also I went on my lunch break and I was pleasantly surprised I could take two tubes and go across half of London and back in under an hour

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tomorrows goal is to go to choosing keeping n to go to salad days and see Ellie and anything else is an extra

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