The r4t palace

21 F Posting into the void while trying to thrive in said nonsense void.

[rodentemper0r]

And one more thing.

This is gonna sound real real stupid but, have not been a caffeine or energy drink type of person my ENTIRE life, was given a monster a year or so ago and I have been hooked. Of course not TOO hooked, don't worry I'm not an addict or anything. BUT MY GOD..? MY. GOD. That stuff runs through you like a demon and makes tummy rumblies so so bad. Needless to say keeps you regular. :') lol.

[rodentemper0r]

It has been a while! Hello world.

Hi everybody! Don't expect me back anytime soon, but I have wandered into the blogspace that is my dead tumblr blog once again to scream into the void! Where shall we begin?

Much has happened since my last posts, much indeed. Working and reflecting, seething and hating. All petty and I could be a bit more mature about it all! But I do believe I have improved! I sit in my bedroom still and work to achieve my dreams, I do my best and manage to apply for benefits! Very good things mostly! Some hiccups and stumbles but nevertheless I am thriving as much as one can when you barely go outside and don't get very much sleep. I am constantly changing, aesthetics, moods, lifepaths, but the one constant is my desire to achieve and promote myself into a better tomorrow. TLDR: I feel good. EDIT: It's probably not much to comment on but I still own rats, still caring for them despite losses since my last updates on them. They too are thriving and happy, healthier than the ones before them. I won't allow myself to make mistakes with the poor dears like the past. I assure you that.

[rodentemper0r]

Finding my aesthetic when it comes to clothing!!

Aside from needing to clean out and donate old clothes, I've been attempting to order ETHICALLY made clothes from smaller artists, and y'know! It's a tad difficult! Finding ones that match my personal clothing preferences while also being made to last! I am very tired of having to re-buy clothes because they end up getting holes in them due to shoddy production. Although I assume it would be the same for anyone trying to just wear shit..

I do wonder if anyone has any suggestions for comfy girly clothing stores? Not many people see my account if at all but anyone out there!!!

[rodentemper0r]

Wish I could go outside..

Hello! Aside from my whinging, I've been observing the beauty of fall to winter! The transition from green and yellow, to a colorful explosion of reds and golds!! And finally a quick fade into greys and browns that winter offers...

I wish I could experience it, my life is so chaotic and busy running this endless rat race (heh) simply trying to survive and be able to afford things.. it's a little exhausting. I had the assumption when I moved out of my parent's house that I could be able to go for walks and enjoy the freedoms of adulthood! But I was very naïve..despite everyone I knew telling me that it wouldn't be so. I was disregarding it for a dream of living in the mountains! I wish I had saved more money before moving. I wouldn't need to constantly take freelance, I wish we all made more money..

EDIT: this winging sort of makes me feel silly, the grind is actually pretty fun to do once you've gotten a good schedule, perhaps you should've been planning better and making a schedule ehh past me??? You make money now don't worry. Silly.

[rodentemper0r]

I HATE my ex boyfriend.

Arrogant little shit I'm still so salty at things that happened ages ago, paranoia and worries that I know I'm holding a grudge with and they never seem to go away.

[rodentemper0r]

Worries about my rats..

Hello all! I've come to post news about my pet rats!

Recently I've been having to visit the vet many times :( In order to switch out meds and checkups for my babies. Especially my year and a half old boy, his brother died of a horrible infection that progressed to pneumonia, it kills me to think about it. And he has been experiencing the same troubling symptoms of mouthbreathing + sneezing. I'm so worried about him its horrible. This morning I had to quickly put him into a nebulizer as he was physically having trouble breathing after some of his meds went into his poor little nose. :(((( Please think good thoughts about my poor baby whoever is reading this. I try so hard to keep him with me and I worry he may leave me too soon.

[rodentemper0r]

Improvement and reflection.

Hello again! Been a while! I have a few things to say but I have no one to tell them to! And looking on it, it may seem a bit selfish to say. But I'm very glad the people that treated me like shit aren't thriving. In this house we relish in improvement over abusive and shitty people. Looking back at their efforts past and present to improve but ultimately failing because they were horrible and may still be without any thoughts of an apology or regret for their past actions.

It's pretty fucking nice to see, even if I should be the better person and hope that they also do the same. Fuck it. I worked hard to get where I am and to be able to have the life I have. And the people that shit on me and discouraged my growth can frankly kick rocks and eat my shit. ;) Besides that I hope everyone else is thriving and working towards their dreams in these horribly troubling times. You deserve everything you've ever wanted!

[rodentemper0r]

Getting so much colder ;;

Lovely rainy weather today as I finish some of my last commissions for the week and finally get to spend some much needed time with my rats. Only took one hour for them to poop all over their playpen but it's not their fault for that I'm glad they had fun. Now just waiting for the ol s/o to arrive home so we can eat POTROOOOOAST. (I love potroast btw almost as good as pizza but we've been eating that so much I fear I've gotten sick of it for a while so POTROAOOOOOST)

[rodentemper0r]

So I'm playing cyberpunk..and..

[rodentemper0r]

Halloween Ramblings and nonsense!

Also I don't assume this will reach many (if any) people. But I want to know if anyone else loves Halloween? I mean of course it's a popular holiday but I feel like it's different for every person! Some many appreciate fall (and I DO) but I also think back to those silly flexiglass pumpkins and ghosts that had little LED lights in them that my teachers would put in their classrooms in elementary school. And cheap halloween stake lights my mom would buy from walmart and put in the yard. Less a desire for candy this season and more a yearning to capture the feelings I got from when I was a child. The neverending quest to connect with that inner child is always ongoing and it makes me happy!

[rodentemper0r]

Huzzah!

My tumblr was marked as non explicit! Hooray! You all can now see my silly tumblr layout in it's full glory! Much has happened since my last post. Been working my tush off on commissions and spending time with the s/o and my ratties! Life has been hard but it has been good. And I feel as if my luck will rise signifigantly sometime soon..ALSO I bought cyberpunk it has been very fun hehehehehhe

[rodentemper0r]

Morning Tumblr!

Had good sleep last night, wanted to share a little bit more about myself now that I'm home alone and looking to make an actual ACTUAL bio post. I used to use tumblr way back 2015-2016, I managed 500 followers at one point posting my art and ocs! But again I had to delete due to a HORRIBLE online relationship that left me traumatized and with horrible mental health for a hell of a long time. I've done so much growing since then I feel I'm EXTRA mentally prepared for another blog. Although I still have a ton of growing to still do. Still trying to reconnect with the child-self that I was forced to leave behind in order to cope with my trauma. I raise rats and spend most of my time at home because I've managed to get remote work, lots of time to think and order random bullshit online. stares at the shelf full of furbies hahaaa

[rodentemper0r]

It's been way too long. Again.

I remember last time I used this hunk o junk I was 18? And primarly more when I was 16? I'm using this again because

I saw some video on tumblr's ceo being a sexyman and realised "wow I have a tumblr let's go check that out."

I feel like I need a place to ramble out my nonsensical bullshit once in a while.

im lonely >w>

[rodentemper0r]

Hello?

Is anybody out there? It’s been way too long to count now, I used to use this thing so much when I was a kid. I had to ditch my old account due to an abusive online ex. Please interact with me!!