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[romanoiva]

i’ve moved!

i’m now @roseathes   !

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they    tell    stories    about    both    .

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I’M  REBOOTING   !   in  the  next  few  days  i  will  have  a  new  blog  with  a  new  url,   following  significantly  less  people  and  focusing  only  on  plot  -  based  dynamics   !   if  you  would  like  me  to  follow  you  on  the  new  blog,   please  like  this  post  to  express  your  interest   !   i  can’t  promise  i  will  follow  everyone  who  interacts  with  this  post,   but  i’ll  follow  most  of  you  back   !

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😍💦

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adsjksd tfw u realize you’ve misspelled your central title for months

[romanoiva]

ok but what if i remade ?

[missmystic]

i give and i give and i give and this is what i get @romanoiva

[romanoiva]

OH ! so u leave me on read and then post screens of our conversations??? i see how it is !!! #blocked

[persephonememes]

𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒 /  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐥𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠.

❛ You will always fall in love, and it will always be like having your throat cut, just that fast. ❜

❛ You are going to break your promise. ❜

❛ I understand. ❜

❛ And I hold my hands over the ears of my heart, so that I will not hate you. ❜

❛ Oh, I will be cruel to you. ❜

❛ It will stop your breath, how cruel I can be. ❜

❛ But you understand, don’t you? ❜

❛ I am a demanding creature. ❜

❛ I am selfish and cruel and extremely unreasonable. ❜

❛ For you alone I will be weak. ❜

❛ I do not tolerate a world emptied of you. ❜

❛ In the dark, I have pored over the loss of you like pale gold. ❜

❛ I have looked for your face in the patterns of the ice. ❜

❛ I moved the earth and the water for you. ❜

❛ Because my magic is as strong as an arm. ❜

❛ Magic does that. It wastes you away. ❜

❛ Magic does that. It wastes you away. Once it grips you by the ear, the real world gets quieter and quieter, until you can hardly hear it at all. ❜

❛ You will always run away with her. ❜

❛ You will always lose her. ❜

❛ You will always be a fool. ❜

❛ War is not for winning. ❜

❛ But her heart was so cold that she could hold ice in her mouth and it would never melt. ❜

❛ You look like a winter night. ❜

❛ But if you must be clever, then be clever. ❜

❛ Be brave. ❜

❛ Sleep with fists closed and shoot straight. ❜

❛ She is so stubborn, her heart has an argument with her head every time it wants to beat. ❜

❛ How I adore you. ❜

❛ Tell me you want what you want and damn me forever. But don’t leave me. ❜

❛ Oh, quit that. ❜

❛ In his own country, death can be kind. ❜

❛ Bad luck relies on absolutely perfect timing. ❜

❛ Someone ought to write a novel about me. ❜

❛ I savor bitterness - it is born of experience. It is the privilege of one who has truly lived. ❜

❛ What is the world but a boxing ring where fools and devils put up their fists? ❜

❛ After love, no one is what they were before. ❜

❛ In the space of one heartbeat to another I loved you and I was lost to you. ❜

❛ No one is now what they were before the war. There’s just no getting any of it back. ❜

❛ How long your hair has grown. You could strangle a man in it. ❜

❛ I have survived, but I have not been spared. ❜

❛ After all, when all else is gone, you may still have bitterness in abundance. ❜

❛ I’ve a devil of a habit for being right. ❜

❛ Everyone is a criminal! ❜

❛ Naturally, then, humans fall into three categories: the criminal, the not-yet-criminal, and the not-yet-caught. ❜

❛ Forests have secrets. ❜

❛ We are better at this than you are. ❜

❛ We can hold two terrible ideas at once in our hearts. ❜

❛ It’s not so bad, my darling. ❜

❛ I look at you and it is like my throat being cut. ❜

❛ Do you think I am a fool? ❜

❛ Did you never think, even once, that I loved lipstick and rouge for more than their color alone? ❜

❛ I still want to kiss you. ❜

❛ I hate it here. ❜

❛ He’ll burn you down like wax if you let him. ❜

❛ Did I not come to you on my knees with a kingdom in my hand? ❜

❛ I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic, now, too. ❜

❛ My heart is being cut in two. I cannot bear it. ❜

❛ Nothing ever truly dies. ❜

[romanoiva]

MUTUALS    ONLY    !        this    is    a    plotting    call        .         i    rarely    post    starter    calls    on    here        ,        and    am     more    likely    to    reply    to    memes    if    we    have    a    dynamic    plotted    out        !

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THERE    ARE    STORIES        ,        THEY    SAY        !

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THERE    ARE    STORIES        ,        THEY    SAY        !

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W  .  S  .

he’s well aware of her mindful gaze.  he knows she knows that something’s not right, but he can’t honestly admit to it without creating a rift between them —— that’s not something he ever wants to do. it’s better she doesn’t know, than know and have to second guess every moment between then and now. every conversation between them, every shared glance. it’s better that he lives with the pain of knowing. 

i always worry about you, he goes to say  ——  instead,  ❛  wouldn’t be a standard op without a head wound, huh?  ❜  bucky sighs,  ❛  it’s nothin’, just a headache.  ❜

HE  MUST  HAVE  NOTICED    ,    BY  NOW    ,    HOW  SHE  STARES    .        she    sees    him    looking    at    her    often    enough        ,        but    there’s    nothing   abnormal    about    men    glancing    at    her        .        it’s    the    way    he    shoots    his    eyes    away    when    she    catches    him        ,        or    how    his    gaze    seems    to    have    a     meaning    to    it         ,        other    than    acknowledging    her    body        .        his    way    of    starting    to    say    something        ,        then    pausing    before    he    gets    the    words    out       ––––        that    doesn’t    seem    to    fit    the    winter    soldier    she’s    heard    about        .

❛         a    shame        –––        ❜        lips    form    a    subtle    smile        ,        peeking    from    below    a    cold    exterior        .        ❛         my    face    is    excellent    to    wake    up    to    every    four    hours        ––––        though    you    surely    have    someone    better    at    home        .       ❜        if    he    won’t    tell    her    what    the    problem    is        ,        maybe    she    can    force    it    out    of    him        .

[romanoiva]

*  J  .

HARDENED   GAZE   /   MOUTH   PRESSED   TIGHT.     taped   hands   collide   against   the   bag   with   enough   force   to   send   it   swinging   back,   the   chain   on   which   it’s   tethered   rattling   with   the   strain.   above   it   though,   a   cough,   the   kind   meant   to   draw   attention   to   its   owner.   jess’   eyes   lift   just   enough   to  catch   natasha   standing   behind   her,   her   movements continuing   on.   ❛     not   now ,   nat.     ❜

THEY  ARE  TWO  WOMEN    /    AND  THEY  ARE  IN  LOVE    .        she’s    followed    people    into    worse        (        into    war        ,        once    or    twice        )        ❛        jess        .        ❜        something’s    going    on        ,        something   dark        &        twisted    inside    her    brain        ,        and    natasha    knows    those    feelings    better    than    most        ,        enough    time    spent    suppressing    her    emotions        ,        forgetting    to    feel        .        BUT    SHE    FEELS    SO    MUCH    NOW        ,        SHE    WILL    NEVER    GO    BACK        .        ❛        please        ,        just    talk    to    me        .        fight    me        ,        at    least        .        you    can’t    take    all    your    problems    out    on    a    punching    bag         .        ❜ 

[romanoiva]

*  C  .  F  .

❝     OH    MY    GOD,    your   hair   color is .  .  .      stunning.     ❞               magnetic,     a   field   so   alluring   it   is   like   it   had   sang   to   caroline   a   beautiful,    antique   poetry,     INVITING     HER         to   touch   it.            yet ,    she   refrains   politely,    whilist   a   second   remark   is   made   with   an   inquisitive   tone.          ❝     is   it   natural?     ❞

SHE  SMILES    ,        enjoying    the    praise        —         she    gets    far    too    little    from    those    who    matter        .        ❛         OH        !        yes        ,        it’s    all    natural        ––––        i    haven’t    dyed    it    in    years        .        ❜        (        decades        ,        in    truth         ––––        but    she    looks    far    too     young     to    announce    that    fact        .        )        ❛         thank    you        ,        my    dear        ––––        ought    we    go    to    coffee        ?        ❜ 

[romanoiva]

MUTUALS    ONLY    !        this    is    a    plotting    call        .         i    rarely    post    starter    calls    on    here        ,        and    am     more    likely    to    reply    to    memes    if    we    have    a    dynamic    plotted    out        !